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Summer Island

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by Kristin Hannah

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  She hated the weakness that made her answer.

  “Yes. ”

  “And the problem is . . . ”

  Ruby felt like crying. “I like her. ” She swallowed thickly. “No. I love her. ”

  Val was quiet for a moment, then he said, “Im sorry, Ruby. ”

  His concern was harder to take than the yelling. “I am, too,” she answered dully.

  “Youll be on the plane then, right? Ill have Bertram pick you up. ”

  Ruby hung up the phone in a daze. She wandered out onto the porch, found the FedEx envelope. Inside, there was a first-class ticket and a short itinerary. They were taking her to Spago to celebrate after the taping of Sarah Purcell . . .

  A week ago that would have thrilled her.

  She walked dully past her mothers door. At the last minute, she stopped, pressed her fingertips to the wood.

  “Im sorry,” Ruby breathed. But she knew those two little words wouldnt be enough. Not nearly enough.

  With a sigh, she turned and went upstairs. She flopped onto the bed and tried to sleep, but she couldnt keep her eyes closed. At last, she flicked on the light and reached for her pad of paper.

  I just got off the phone with my agent.

  The joke is on me, it seems. I cant get out of this deal. I have to deliver the article as promised or some corporate Mr. Big will sue me until I bleed.

  And I will lose my mother this woman whom Ive waited and longed for all of my life, whom Ive alternately fled and vilified. Whatever we couldve have become will be gone. And this time it will be all my fault. The whole world will see the bankruptcy of my soul.

  I finally learned that life is not made up of big moments and sudden epiphanies, but rather of tiny bits of time, some so small they pass by unnoticed.

  All this I can see now . . . and it is too late.

  Monday, I will appear on The Sarah Purcell Show, and after that, what I see will matter only to me. My mother wont care.

  But I want to say this-for the record, although Im aware it comes too late and at too great a price-I love my mother.

  I love my mother.

  Ruby released her hold on the pen. It rolled away from her, plopped over the edge of the bed and onto the floor, where it landed with a little click.

  It was too much, all of this, and on the day shed finally believed in a happy-ever-after future for herself. She couldnt write anymore, couldnt think.

  “I love you, Mom,” she whispered, staring up at the spidery crack in the ceiling.

  Chapter Twenty-four

  Nora sat at the kitchen table, reading a fifteen-year-old newspaper that shed found in the broom closet and sipping a cup of lukewarm coffee. The front-page story was an outraged report that Washington State officials had set off underwater firecrackers to scare away sea lions at the Ballard Locks. The sea lions were eating the salmon and the steelhead. Beside that story was a smaller column-complete with photograph. President Reagans dog had received a tonsillectomy.

  Mostly, she was waiting for Ruby to come downstairs. Nora had tried to wait up for her daughter the previous night, but at about twelve-thirty, shed given up. It had to be a good sign that Ruby hadnt come home early.

  At least, thats what Nora told herself.

  She was about to turn the page when the phone rang. Ignoring the crutches leaning against the wall, she hobbled to the counter and answered. “Hello?”

  “Its me. Dec. ”

  Nora sagged against the cold, pebbled surface of the refrigerator. “Hi, Dee. What excellent news do you have for me today?”

  “Youre not going to like it. ”

  “Thats hardly surprising. ”

  “I just got off the phone with Tom Adams. He called me at home. On Sunday, to tell me to tell you that if you didnt get those blankety blank columns on his blankety-blank desk by Wednesday morning, he was going to slap a ten million-dollar lawsuit on you. He said the paperwork was already done on it, he was just giving you a last chance. ” She made a little coughing sound. “He said he was going to sue everybody youd ever worked with including me. ”

  “He cant do that,” Nora said, though, of course, she had no idea whether or not he could.

  “Are you sure?” Dee sounded scared.

  “Ill talk to Tom myself,” Nora answered, before Dee could really get going.

  “Oh, thank God. ”

  “What else is going on there? Is the brouhaha dying down?”

  “No,” and to her credit, Dee sounded miserable about it. "Your housekeeper went on Larry King Live last night and said . . . terrible things about you.

  “Adele said bad things about me?”

  “A woman named Barb Heinneman said youd commissioned an expensive stained-glass window from her and never paid for it. And your hair lady-Carla-she said you were a lousy tipper. ”

  “Oh, for Gods sake, what does that have-”

  “The Tattler reported that guy in the pictures wasnt your first . . . affair. Theyre saying that you and your husband had an ”open“ marriage and you both slept with tons of other people. And sometimes . . . ” Dees voice dropped to a conspiratorial whisper. “You did it in groups. Like in that movie, Eyes Wide Shut. Thats what they wrote, anyway. ”

  Noras head was spinning. Honest to God, a part of her felt like laughing, it was that ridiculous. Eyes Wide Shut? Group sex? For the first time since this whole mess began, she started to get mad. Shed made mistakes-big ones, bad ones-but this . . .

  This, she didnt deserve. As shed heard in a movie once-this shit she wouldnt eat. They were trying to make her out to be some kind of whore. “Is that it? Or am I carrying some space aliens mutant child, too?”

  Dee laughed nervously. “Thats mostly it. Except . . . ”

  “Yes?” Nora drew the word out, gave it at least three syllables.

  “There was a thing in Liz Smiths column this week, one of those gossipy hints she loves to make-you know the ones. It sorta made it sound as if someone was writing a tell-all story about you. An ugly one. ”

  “Thats hardly-”

  “Its supposed to be by someone close to you. ” Nora released her breath in a sigh. She wasnt surprised; shed expected this, and yet still it hurt. “I see. ”

  “And your housekeeper said you ripped up parking tickets and threw away jury summonses. Some guy on the city council said they were going to launch an investigation. ”

  That was it. “Good-bye, Dee,” Nora said, uncertain as to whether her assistant was still talking or not.

  She hung up the phone and wrenched the cupboard doors open.

  There they were: the cheap, yellow crockery plates shed bought at a garage sale a lifetime ago. She picked one up, felt the heft of it in her hand. And hesitated.

  There was no point in making a mess.

  Launch an investigation.

  She wound her arm back and threw the plate. it went flying through the air and smacked the wall by the arch, shattering.

  Like Eyes Wide Shut . . . group sex.

  She threw another one. It hit with a satisfying smack.

  Open marriage . . . lousy tipper.

  Another plate flew.

  There were bits and pieces of china everywhere now; dents in the walls, scratches in the paint. Nora was breathing heavily. And smiling.

  She should have tried this years ago. It actually helped. She reached for another plate.

  Ten-million-dollar lawsuit

  And sent it sailing across the room.

  Just then, Ruby came running downstairs.

  “What in the he-” She ducked, flung a protective hand across her face. The plate brushed past her head and hit the wall. When the pieces clattered to the floor; she hesitantly looked up. “Jesus, Mom . . . if you dont like the plates, buy a new set. ”

  Nora sank to her knees on the hard, cold floor. She laughed until tears leaked out of her eyes . . . and then she was crying.

  She buried her face in her han
ds, ashamed to let her daughter see her like this, but she couldnt seem to stop . . .

  It was too much for her suddenly, all of it-Erics illness, her career; her ruined reputation.

  She felt lonely, and old. A woman whod traded everything in her life for a treasured gold coin, and found that in a heavy rain, the gold had washed off, leaving an ordinary bit of copper in her hand.

  She looked up at Ruby, saw her daughter through a blurry curtain of tears.

  “Mom?” Ruby knelt in front of her. “Are you okay?”

  “Do I look okay?”

  “In that Courtney Love, presurgery, after-concert sort of way. ” She reached out, pushed a damp strand of hair out of Noras eyes. “What happened?”

  "A lady is suing me for fraudulent advice. And someone close to me-apparently a friend-is writing an ugly tell-all about my life.

  Oh, and dont be surprised when you hear that your dad and I engaged in group sex. “ She tried to smile; it was a dismal failure. ”But dont you worry, I can get through this. Ive been through worse. Its just a mid life tantrum. The only thing that matters is how much I love you. "

  Ruby jerked back, let her hand drop into her lap. “Oh, man . . . ” she whispered.

  Nora climbed awkwardly to her feet and hobbled to the kitchen table. She slumped onto a chair; plopped her casted foot on another one.

  It occurred to her then, as she watched her daughter; who still knelt on the floor with her head bowed, that there was no silence more cruel and empty than the one that followed that simple declaration: "I love you.

  Shed spent a childhood waiting to hear those words, from her father; then an eternity waiting to hear them from her husband.

  Now, it seemed, she was destined to wait again. And shed thought things were going so well with Ruby . . .

  “Would you like some coffee?” she said pushing the newspaper aside. Her voice was calm and even, as if it were completely ordinary for them to be here together; amid a smattering of broken yellow china.

  Ruby looked up at her. “Dont. ”

  Nora saw that her daughter was crying; it confused her. “What is it, Rube?”

  “Dont pretend you didnt say it. Please. ”

  Nora had no idea how to respond. Ruby got up, turned, and went upstairs.

  Nora heard each footfall on the steps. She couldnt seem to draw a steady breath. What in the world just happened?

  Then she heard the steps again; Ruby was coming back downstairs. She walked into the kitchen, carrying a suitcase in one hand and a tablet of paper in the other.

  Noras hand flew to her mouth. "Im sorry. I thought wed gotten to the point where I could say that to you. Ruby dropped the suitcase. It landed with a thunk that shook the thin windowpanes.

  “Ruby, honey . . . ” The endearment slipped out on a current of longing and regret.

  “It was never about forgetting or forgiving,” Ruby said slowly. Tears welled in her dark eyes, bled down her cheeks. “It took me so long to figure that out. And now its too late. ”

  Nora frowned. “I dont understand-”

  “I love you. ”

  Rubys voice was so soft Nora thought at first shed imagined the words, drawn them up from her own subconscious and given them the substance of sound.

  “You love me?” Nora dared to whisper. Ruby stood there, a little unsteady. “Just try. . . to ”remember that, okay?"

  “How could I possibly-”

  Ruby slapped a yellow pad of paper on the kitchen table. “I spent all of last night making you a copy of this. ”

 

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