I don’t remember when I’d ever felt this rush of excitement that was almost like a high. Not even our one night together which had been unplanned had made me feel this breathless anxiety. Every nerve ending in my body hummed. Every other thought was of him.
Just as my last training shift came to an end I felt the hairs on my neck and arms stand on end and my body became heatedly flushed. I didn’t have to look to know that he was finally here. My knees went weak and my hands shook. I had to put down the tray of empties before they all went crashing to the floor.
I watched from beneath lowered lids as he made the rounds. Talking to his security team, saying hello to some of the regulars. He looked in my direction until I lifted my head, but then he just disappeared down the hallway to the back where the offices are.
I felt deflated and embarrassed. Here I was pining for the sight of him and he could care less. I was so confused by then I didn’t know which way was up. Why had he taken me and my kids to what I now knew was one of his rental homes? Why was he sleeping in my bed if he didn’t want me?
I’d had a hard time convincing Sandy that nothing was going on, that he was only being kind for old time’s sake but I don’t think she believed me. It’s weird, I could share the worse of my marriage with her, but somehow I couldn’t bring myself to tell her that I’d slept with her brother years ago. The night before my wedding to be exact.
10
Kevin
What the fuck’m I doing? The plan was to fuck her, get her out of my system and move the fuck on as easily as she had. Instead I’m playing dad to her kids and watching her whenever she was anywhere near. Shit was involuntary. I couldn’t help it. And her fucking scent!
I’d stayed away after lunch and into the evening because I’d damn near mounted her in the restaurant when I smelt her heat. I sat there eating a bullshit sandwich, when what I really wanted to eat, was her. I wanted to bury my head between her wide spread thighs and sink my tongue into her hot cunt until I got all her cream.
That shit pissed me the fuck off. I didn’t want to want her ass. I didn’t need to want her to fuck her and throw her aside. But by the end of the night I missed her so much I’d given in and came here. I could feel her eyes on me and it took everything in me not to go to her and claim her for all the world to see. Before I made a complete fool of myself I headed for my office in back to calm the fuck down.
“Hello big brother, what brings you here?” Pain in the ass sauntered into my office as soon as I sat behind the desk. “I own the place.” She just grinned at my surly attitude and came deeper into the room like I’d invited her.
“Is there something going on with you and Julie that I don’t know about?”
“Like what? She’s your friend why don’t you ask her?” If she hadn’t told her about us she must have her reasons. Shame most likely. For using me to get off the night before her marriage to her pansy ass fuck of a husband. Who the fuck deserts their wife and kids?
I sometimes wondered if she’d fucked me as a one off. You know, good girl taking a walk on the wild side with someone from the wrong side of the tracks. That shit fucked with my head the most. There was no other explanation for what she had done.
That whole night she’d never mentioned the fact that she was engaged and not for the first time I wondered why no one had mentioned it. I was sure they hadn’t because I never would’ve gone there if they had. But she knew.
She’d slipped off her engagement ring and onto my cock with ease. Something I would never have believed the innocent girl I’d come to know over the years capable of. Just goes to show. At least she’d taught me a valuable lesson. After her I never gave any part of myself to another woman. I fucked when I needed to, no strings attached. When I climbed out of a woman’s bed that was it. I didn’t give a fuck what she had going on the next day.
Sandy puttered around my office for the next little while trying to wheedle information out of me. I knew once I moved my woman… the fuck? I knew once I moved Julia into one of my places she’d start asking questions. But this was between me, and the traitor. I didn’t want any other casualties, no innocent bystanders getting caught in whatever net I choose to entrap her in.
When she’d asked me about letting her friend have one of the rentals I’d said there was nothing available. That’s when I was still pissed at her, plus I thought her parents would let her stay with them. Finding out that she was staying in that rat hole had pissed me the fuck off and then I was pissed at myself for even caring.
Once Sandy left I turned to the floor monitors and looked for her. She was a fast learner I’d give her that. More than one patron had sung her praises tonight, especially the men. They were more than happy to tell me how good of a job she was doing and what an asset she was going to be to the place, what with her uptown girl classiness.
The fuck does a biker bar need with that snooty shit? The only reason I agreed to give her the job was to keep her close until I was done with her. That had been the plan, so what the fuck was I doing here at the end of her shift sniffing around her? You know why you’re here you dumb fuck. Because you can’t stay away, because try as you might you will never convince yourself that that night meant nothing, that she means nothing. Fuck!
I threw a stapler or some shit across the room and felt better for all of two seconds. This was not the way this shit was supposed to go, but I’m nothing if not resilient. I’ll go wherever this shit leads me as long as at the end of the day I get my pound of flesh.
With that thought in my head I felt more settled. There was no reason I couldn’t change up the rules a bit. I was still in control. She won’t get the jump on me this time around because I was ready. I’m going into this shit with my eyes wide open. Now that that’s settled I turned back to the screen.
My eyes searched her out immediately and I found her easily enough. Even through machinery I had a built in homing device where she was concerned. She was standing at a table full of good ole boys that were laughing and eating her up, and my gut burned.
I was almost out of my seat by the time she walked away. I saw the way they looked at her ass in that short skirt and wanted to take her over my knee. What the fuck was she doing wearing that shit? It’s the uniform you asshole. Shit!
The more I sat there the angrier I got, but now I couldn’t figure who I was more pissed at, her or myself. I saw Tyson that fuck touch her shoulder and looked right up at the security camera with a grin like he knew I was watching. Asshole, I should break his fucking arm. When she threw her head back and laughed at whatever he said that was it for me.
I passed Sandy in the hallway on my way back to the floor and almost ran her over. “Hey what’s your hurry?” I almost mowed her down, not even stopping to answer her. Little Miss. Social butterfly was at the bar taking back empties when I caught up with her.
“You’re done for the night.” She almost jumped out of her skin when I came up behind her and talked into her ear. “Oh, um, I still have one more table to…”
“Lucy can handle it.” I waved Lucy over from where she was talking to some regulars. “She’s done for the night.”
“Okay boss.” The poor girl looked confused but if she was looking to me for answers she was shit outta luck; I had none.
I frog marched her away from the bar and to the back where I knew the women kept their purses and jackets during shift. “What’s the matter? Did I do something wrong?”
“Yeah, you did.” Ten years ago. Of course I didn’t say that. I pushed her back against the locker and wrapped my hand around her neck. “What were you laughing at with Ty?” Her eyes flew open and she tried pushing my hand away.
“What?” Like she didn’t fucking know. “I saw you through the monitor.” She swallowed hard and her eyes narrowed on mine. “Listen I don’t know what you’re talking about. I’ve already dealt with one controlling asshole, I’m not about to…”
Before she could finish that statement I had her body pressed against
the metal with mine. “You about to compare me to the asshole who fucked you over, think again. Remember in this equation.” I pointed between the two of us. “You’re the one who fucked up. Now tell me what the fuck you were laughing about.” That hand got tighter around her neck and I noticed the fire died in her eyes at the reminder of what she’d done.
“He was just saying something about one of the tables that’s all.” I was more than a little surprised when the knots in my gut unraveled themselves and that tightness in my chest eased. I held her eyes with mine wanting to kiss her so bad I could taste it, but not tonight. Not while she was still another man’s wife.
“Get your shit, I’m following you home.” I let her go and stepped back still in her space. My dick was hard enough to break brick and I’m fucked if I didn’t smell her pussy heating up for me. She didn’t move fast enough so I rubbed my cock into her middle and heard her harsh intake of breath.
“Move, unless you want me to fuck you right here.” She jumped into action with a squeak and I walked outside to get some air. I passed Tyson on the way out the door and that jackass grinned at me.
“Evening Cap. Nice night out isn’t it?” I growled at him and his grin just got wider. I was sure by now he’d pieced shit together and figured out that she was the girl I’d told him about that long ago night when I was drunk and she was heavy on my mind. It wasn’t much of a stretch to figure out that Julie was Julia.
I refuse to call her by her nickname the way everyone else still does. She was no longer a Julie to me. Julie was a sweet innocent who’d looked at me with adoration and want. She thinks I’d missed all those mooning looks when she was younger. I hadn’t, she was just too young back then.
Maybe if I’d told her to wait for me…No I won’t do this shit to myself. She knew just what the fuck she was doing when she crawled into my bed and let me take her cherry. I slammed into my truck after giving Ty the finger. There was no sense giving him another warning because I know him. He won’t quit until he had me making an ass of myself.
He was the one who told me that maybe she had a reason for doing what she did. That maybe she hadn’t meant to deceive me. I knew why he thought that way. He was comparing her to the woman he’d lost years ago. The difference is his woman, was taken away by her mom when she was still too young to be his. She hadn’t fucked him and disappeared the next morning with his seed still in her to go off and marry someone else.
She came out the door and saw me idling behind her car. My eyes followed her until she got in her car and started up and I pulled back to let her out. I followed her to the little rental wondering why the fuck I cared if she got home safe or not. I paid my niece and kissed her cheek goodbye while Julia thanked her and went to check on the kids.
Now I’m in the shower trying hard as fuck not to beat my meat. After being close to her at the bar my dick had stayed hard. All the way home behind her all I saw in my mind’s eye was me spreading her open to take my cock.
I flicked off the water and wrapped a towel around my waist before heading into the bedroom. She was sitting up in bed with a look on her face. What the fuck was she expecting me to do to her?
I dropped the towel and pulled the covers back on my side and she jumped off the bed. “Get back in here it’s time for bed.”
“I’m not sleepy.” She started edging away from the bed and towards the door. I knee walked to the middle of the bed and reached out and grabbed her arm pulling her down hard on the mattress.
“I said it was time to go to bed.” Her eyes kept going to my dick that was bobbing just inches from my face. I gritted my teeth and watched her as she took in the size of my cock. She’d seen it that night of course. Seen it, felt it, touched it. She hadn’t been able to take all of me. Her tight little virgin pussy had cut me off at about seven and a half inches. I still had another five to feed her and I planned on doing that shit as soon as fucking possible.
Now she was looking at my boy like she was trying to figure out how she’d ever taken all that thickness inside her. “Stop staring at my cock and listen this is very important.” I waited for her eyes to reach mine. “When I tell you to do something, you do it, you don’t question, ever.” She opened her mouth to argue but I tugged her under the covers and hauled her into my arms spoon fashion.
“It’s not a debate. Shut it down and go to sleep. One more thing!” I grabbed her chin and turned her face to me. “If I see you flirting with Ty again or anyone else for that matter; I’ma beat your ass red.” I dropped her chin none too gently and closed my eyes to get some sleep.
11
Julie
The man is a complete chameleon. I’d stayed awake most of the night listening to his soft breathing, my body tense, until I began to hurt. His hand was heavy around my waist as he held me like he was afraid I’d disappear in the night.
As I laid there I tried to make sense of the signals he was sending out. One minute he seemed angry and aloof and the next he was holding me as he slept. He’d hardly said ten words to me, and all of them seemed to be tinged with anger. He hadn’t brought up that night and I wasn’t fool enough to broach the subject. I was pretty sure though that his new treatment of me was all about that. My biggest worry was what form his retribution would take.
I woke up this morning with the sun on my face and the feel of something warm against my chest. It felt so safe and inviting that while between sleep and wake I’d cuddled into that warmth and smiled. Then reality came crashing down and my eyes flew open only to find him staring down at me.
I must’ve turned in the night and now instead of having my back to him I was plastered against his chest with my leg thrown over his thigh. I tried to jump back out of his arms but he held me close, his eyes still staring into mine.
His eyes dropped to my lips and I felt my nipples harden against his chest. His nose flared just before he pushed me away with a loud ‘fuck’ before getting off the bed. I pulled the sheet high under my chin and watched as he walked towards the bathroom naked and that thing between his thighs hard and angry looking. It had felt so warm and soft beneath my knee.
My heart beat wildly in my chest and my panties were once again soaked. Just how long had I been pressed up against him before coming awake? I can’t do this much longer; something’s got to give. One more night of this and I’m afraid I might climb him. That ache between my thighs was now an itch and I knew only too well who I wanted to scratch it. Oh hell!
I jumped out of bed and headed down the hallway to check on the kids not wanting to be there when he came out the shower. Finding them both still asleep I went into the kitchen to get the coffee started. I needed a little pick me up to clear the cobwebs from my brain.
I felt like everything was spinning out of control. I’d let him bring us here, take me into his bed and basically take over my life without a word of objection. Part of me wanted to fight him. I wanted to defy him the way I never did with my ex. I refuse to become the docile little woman again. But another part of me knew that I owed him. Plus I got the sense that if I ran now he’d only come after me this time. Might as well get it over with. As long as I didn’t do anything as stupid as fall in love with him.
My heart pinched at the thought. Had I ever stopped loving him? I’d buried those feelings a long time ago when I had to accept that my life was with Robert. But now that that part of my life was over it seems the floodgates had opened up and all those old memories had come rushing through, taking me back in time. To a love that never stood a chance!
12
Kevin
I ran the water as cold as I could stand it before switching to hot. I did that a couple times until I got my body back under control. I refused to rub one out with thoughts of her in my head. That shit was for fantasies. She doesn’t play any part in my fantasies, not since that night anyway.
I’d awakened a good few minutes before she did to find her pressed up against me. I’d been dreaming about her, again. Of course I was fucking her in the d
ream and it was the sweetest thing. I came to feeling happy with that dream warmth still wrapped around me only to find her in my arms with her leg thrown over mine.
My cock jumped and her scent teased my nose. It was all I could do not to turn her to her back and sink into her right then and there. She was making sexy noises in her sleep as she rubbed herself against me, and that smile…
I’d watched her face the whole time imagining that she was dreaming of me, and then her eyes flew open on mine. She tried pulling away and I drew her back in. And then I remembered that another man had had her. That someone else had woken up to her like that for the last ten years.
My dick didn’t give a fuck. I could smell her pussy and he was trying to get to her. I saw the need in her and was so tempted to take her lips. Not like this. I pushed her away from me and jumped out of bed with my dick leading the way, pre-cum already leaking from my tip. I had to get away.
The kids were still asleep when I left the bedroom and found her in the kitchen getting ready to make breakfast. I had the strong urge to walk up behind her and wrap my arms around her waist, nibble on her neck. What the fuck is that domesticated shit about?
She still wore the shirt she’d slept in and her ass looked fine beneath the soft cotton as her hips swayed while she stirred the batter for whatever it is she was making. I poured myself a cup of coffee and sat at the table watching her.
I could see her body tense, hear her breathing change; still I didn’t say anything to her. I pretty much wasn’t planning to until after her divorce was final. I had it all planned out in my head. As soon as she was free I was going to make my move. But now instead of the one or two nights of hard fucking I’d had planned, I was upping the game.
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