Love in a Small Town Box Set 1

by Tawdra Kandle

  Without thinking about it, I knelt down next to her. “Hi, Bridget. I’m . . . Flynn.” I’d planned to say Dad, but at the last minute, I chickened out. I didn’t want to force anything before she was ready. “You’re incredibly beautiful, you know that?”

  She cocked her head at me, so reminiscent of her mother. “Yeah, I know.” Oh my God, this kid had attitude and confidence. I loved it.

  “Do you want to come sit down and talk a little?” I motioned toward the sofa, unsure of what else to say.

  “Why don’t you go out onto the porch?” Ali spoke, and I looked up at her. I’d nearly forgotten she was standing there. “It’s a beautiful afternoon.”

  “Okay.” Bridget started toward the door, and then she stopped and stretched out her hand to me. “Come on.”

  I let her lead me out the door and to the swing. Ali leaned out, holding onto the screen.

  “Flynn, do you want anything to eat or drink? Bridge already had her afternoon snack, but there’re are few peanut butter cookies left.”

  “I’m okay, thanks.” I couldn’t think about eating right now. Not with my stomach up around my throat.

  Ali nodded and began to close the door. Panic gripped me.

  “Hey, aren’t you . . . coming out with us?”

  She stood there for a minute, her eyes steady on mine. “No. I think you’ve got this.” Her gaze flickered to our daughter. Our daughter. “Besides, I think you two have a lot of catching up to do.” She ducked back inside, shutting the door quietly.

  Bridget climbed up onto the swing, and I sat down in the wicker chair with chipping paint, the same place Ali’d been sitting when I pulled up. It was still warm from her body. I ignored the feeling it gave me and attempted to strike up a conversation with my daughter.

  “So.” Yeah, that was an auspicious start. “Bridget, your mom said she. . told you about me.”

  She nodded. “Mommy said you were in town. Where’ve you been? Why weren’t you in town until now?”

  Okay, so we’re going straight for the essay questions. “Well, uh, I travel all over the world. I take pictures for magazines, and I have to go to where the news is.”

  Bridget blinked. “Most of my friends at school have dads who live in their house. Or somewhere around here. Except Bella, and her dad left last year.” She raised her foot up to the swing, bending her knee and wrapped her arms around it. “Were you here when I was a baby?”

  I shook my head. “No, I wasn’t. Believe me, if I’d been here then, I never would’ve left.”

  “Why weren’t you here? Why don’t you live with Mommy and me?” She scratched at the side of her leg.

  “Um. I didn’t know you were my little girl, Bridget. I . . .” This was a pivotal moment. I wasn’t sure how to answer her, but I knew I had to tread carefully. “When your mom found out you were on the way, I’d already left Burton. And . . .” The image of Ali’s face as she’d described our last fight flashed across my memory with a stab of regret. “Your mom couldn’t get in touch with me, to tell me that you were coming. That was my fault. Because I’m the one who left her. But you have to know, Bridget, that if I’d known about you, I would’ve been back here. Nothing could’ve kept me from you.”

  She bit her lip, a small frown between those deep eyes. “Are you going to live with Mommy and me now? And Uncle Sam and Aunt Meghan?”

  I blew out a breath, rubbing my knee. “No, I’m not. I’m not married to your mom, and . . . yeah. Listen, Bridget, your mom and I’ve got a lot to talk about and figure out. For me, the most important thing was to meet you and let you meet me. Now that we’ve done that, we can see what happens next.”

  “Are you going away again?” There was just a little tremor in that voice, and again, I was back with Ali, seeing her eyes filled with tears and her voice heavy with pain as she asked me a similar question. Are you going to leave me?

  I’d been wrestling with this since Ali had left my mom’s house this morning. A big part of me wanted to jump that plane in Savannah and head for Los Angeles. I could go back to being the Flynn Evans who didn’t have a kid: I could forget all about Burton, Georgia and brown-eyed women who could still make me a little crazy. But on the other hand, I knew leaving wasn’t going to fix this problem. I had to figure out what my life was going to look like, now that I was a father.

  And having seen her, I was sure leaving was out of the question. At least leaving tomorrow was.

  “Not right away.” I finally answered her. “And if I do have to go someplace else, I’ll be back. I promise. I know you just met me, but I really want to be your dad.”

  The wrinkles between her eyes smoothed out. “Can I call you Daddy?”

  Another piece of my heart broke off and flew into this kid’s hands. “Nothing would make me happier.” I ventured out a hand to touch her curls. “I don’t have any practice in being a daddy, but if you have a little patience with me, I think we can make it work.”

  There was that grin again. I couldn’t help smiling back when I saw it. “I’ve never had a daddy, but I always wanted one.” She fiddled with the lace of her sneaker. “Mom said I have a grandma now, too. And Graham is my cousin.” She twisted her face. “He’s a crazy boy. My teacher says he’s wild.”

  I laughed. “Yeah, he is. I think it’s possible that kid’s a little spoiled. Maybe you can help straighten him out.”

  She brightened. “Can I beat him up? Mom never lets me hit anyone.”

  “Ahhh . . .” Okay, I see how this game is going to play. “Remember how I said I didn’t know much about being a dad? Well, I’m pretty sure your mom knows best about this kind of stuff, so let’s just say for the time being, if she gives you a rule, same goes for me. Got it?”

  She sighed and nodded. “I was afraid of that. But it’s okay.” She pursed her lips, like she was thinking hard, and then glanced up at me. “Do I get to see my grandma?”

  “Oh, yeah, that’s a given.” I tapped her nose. “Your grandma is just itching to see you. If it’s okay with your mom, maybe you can come visit sometime this weekend.”

  “Really?” Her small face shone, and I thought I’d do just about anything to keep that joy alive in this kid. Forever. “What about a grandpa? Do I have one of those, too?”

  I closed my eyes. Here was the bitter that came along with the sweet. “You do, honey, but . . .” Shit, what did she know about death? How was I supposed to explain it to her? The last thing I wanted to do was to screw up her little psyche. I decided honesty was best. “Your grandpa went to heaven. Just last week. And I got to tell you, it makes me really sad, because he would’ve loved you to pieces. He was the coolest grandpa ever.” I swallowed over the lump in my throat. “You would’ve loved him, too. You have his smile.”

  “I do?” Her mouth curved, proving again what I’d just told her.

  “Yeah, you do. It makes me really happy, because I thought I’d lost that smile forever. And now, I get to see it on you.” I remembered something Meghan had said earlier, at my mom’s house. “I hear you’re quite the artist. So was your grandpa.”

  Bridget jumped up from the swing. “He was? Did he draw? I can draw and paint. Aunt Meghan is my art teacher, and sometimes we go out in the woods or over to Farmer Fred’s and I draw his horses.”

  I couldn’t resist anymore. I reached across and drew her closer to me, boosting her onto my lap, sensitive to the slightest resistance so that I could let her go if I were jumping the fence. But she snuggled right onto me, taking one of my hands in both of hers. Oh, I was so wrapped around this kid already. Gone. Sunk.

  “Grandpa Brice used to draw funny pictures for me when I was a little boy.” I hadn’t thought about that for years. “But most of his art was in bricks and stone. See, he was born in a country called Ireland—”

  “I know where that is. It’s part of the British Isles, across the Atlantic. It’s very green, and leprechauns comes from there.”

  Yeah, my kid was a total genius. “Wow, you’re smart. I�
��m not sure I knew where Ireland was when I was eight, and my family came from there. Anyway, when he lived in Ireland, Grandpa trained to be a mason. He built beautiful walls for people, or paths for their gardens, or he made them fireplaces. When he came to America, he kept doing that, but he also went to college. He learned how to be a teacher, and he taught history at the high school, right here in Burton.”

  “Aunt Meghan’s a teacher. Or she’s gonna be one, after she graduates.” Bridget nodded. “But she’s teaches art.” She twisted to look up into my face. “Do you want to see my drawings? Uncle Sam got me a portfolio for Christmas, and all of them are in there. It’s up in my room.”

  “Of course I do.” I let her pull me to my feet and back into the house. Ali was sitting on the sofa, on the other side of the window, her face wet with tears that she was trying to wipe away.

  I came to a halt, staring at her. Emotion swirled inside of me, and for the first time today, I looked at this woman not as my old girlfriend, not as the person who’d betrayed me on some level, but as the mother of my child. The woman who’d raised this magical little girl who was already deep into my heart and soul.

  I stopped Bridget and stooped down again. “Honey, why don’t you run up to your room and get your drawings? I’ll wait right here. I just want to talk to your mom for a minute.”

  She nodded and was gone in a flash, tearing up the steps like a bright little comet. I turned to go into the living room, sitting down next to Ali, just close enough that I could smell her hair. God, it smelled the same as it did when we were in high school. Lilacs and jasmine. I had to steel myself not to reach out and wrap one silky strand around my finger.

  “Hey.” As opening lines went, it wasn’t inspired. “So . . . I just wanted to say . . . she’s a great kid. I mean, I know I just met her, but she was easy to talk to, and she’s smart and funny.”

  Ali lifted her eyes to mine. “She’s amazing. Every day, she does something or says something that makes me think . . . wow, how did someone like her come from me?” She smiled a little. “I mean, from us.”

  I nodded. “Yeah. But I get that it’s you. You’re the one who’s been putting in the time with her. You made her who she is. So, thanks.”

  She shrugged, but I saw her face pink a little. “I heard what you said to her. Sorry, I was totally eavesdropping. I’d apologize for that, but Bridget’s my daughter, and I needed to make sure she was okay. Getting a father all of a sudden—I wanted to know she was handling it.”

  An hour ago, I might’ve been offended and pissed. But now that I knew my daughter, I completely understood. I would’ve done the same thing in her position. Protecting her was our number one priority. Ours.

  “So I wanted to say . . . thank you. For what you said to her, when she asked you why you didn’t live with us, why she’d never met you until now. You could’ve told her the truth, and I wouldn’t blame you. But you didn’t. You let her believe it was all on your shoulders. I can’t tell you how much that means to me. I was so afraid.” She took a deep breath. “I didn’t realize how scared I was. I was terrified to tell you, but losing Bridget’s love and respect would’ve killed me.”

  “I don’t want to take her away from you, Ali. I’m still not sure how I feel about what happened back then, about how you handled it, but I know we need to move forward. My mom said something to me this afternoon. She said if I get stuck resenting the past, I’ll risk ruining the present and losing the future. I don’t want to do that.”

  Ali cast her eyes down, staring at her hands as they lay in her lap. “Your mother was always one of the best people I ever knew. I’ve missed her all these years.” She sniffled long, dabbing at her nose with a disintegrating tissue. “I missed them all. You know, after you left, Maureen was still okay with me. She was still my friend, at least until Craig started hanging around.”

  That name brought back the resentment. I understood, to a certain extent, why Ali hadn’t told me she was pregnant. I still didn’t get why she’d turned to a guy who was supposed to have been my friend. That was going to take some time.

  Before I could ask her about him, Bridget ran back down the steps and leaped onto the sofa between us. “I couldn’t decide which ones to bring down, and I only wanted to show you my best.”

  “Hey, no fair.” I brushed the back of my fingers over her cheek. “I want to see them all.”

  “I will, but I wanted you to see my best first.” She grinned, and then her smile faded as she saw her mother’s face. “Mommy, what’s wrong? Why’re you crying?”

  “Oh, I’m fine, baby. These are happy tears. I’m so glad your daddy is here with us.”

  “Me, too.” She reached out her small hand to touch my knee and the other to take her mother’s hand. “Even if my daddy can’t live here, I’m glad we’re a family.”

  A family. I met Ali’s eyes, and I saw thinly-veiled panic there before it melted into something that might have been close to hope.

  CHANGE HAD NEVER BEEN my friend. When I was little, it took me weeks to adjust to the twice-a-year daylight savings time shift. And when I left home to live with Craig after we got married, I almost lost my mind. I hated being out of my routine and having to establish a new one.

  Once Bridget and I had moved home, I’d quickly established a schedule and my own way of doing things. I’d reorganized the kitchen in my new role as woman of the house, and I’d laid down ground rules for Sam about helping me keep things clean and running smoothly. For the last seven years, our lives had remained essentially the same, with just a few tweaks in the schedule when Bridge started school.

  Of course, a couple of things had changed when Meghan became a permanent part of our world, but even so, she’d been careful to adapt to our home and rules. I liked the fact that she cooked for us occasionally, that she took her turn at the dishes and helped with Bridget. As long as she didn’t rock my boat, I wasn’t going to complain. Sure, as I’d told Alex, sometimes I worried about what would happen when she and Sam made it all official, but I’d figure that out when it happened.

  At the moment, I had a more pressing concern. When he’d left the farm on Friday afternoon, just before dinner, Flynn had suggested that we work out a schedule for him to see Bridget. He’d also asked if he could take her to meet his mother over the weekend. I couldn’t say no, of course, and I didn’t want to; Bridget was ecstatic about the plan, and I loved Cory Evans. She’d been good to me when I was dating Flynn, even stepping in to mother me once in a while. I remembered when it came time for our junior prom. There was no question that Flynn and I would go, but I was secretly dreading it. All my friends were talking about picking out gowns with their mothers, pretending to complain all the while I could tell they loved it. I knew Sam and I didn’t have the money for a fancy new dress. We were doing okay, thanks to help and guidance from the Guild, a group of local businessmen who’d taken Sam under their collective wing. But doing okay didn’t extend to trips to Savannah for gown shopping, even if I’d wanted to go by myself.

  About a month before the dance, Cory had stopped me as I was leaving her house after a study date with Flynn.

  “Ali, honey, could I have a quick word with you?” She flicked a glance to her son. “Flynn, run out and warm up the car.”

  He wrinkled up his brow. “It’s not that cold, Mom.”

  “Do it anyway, and don’t argue with your mother.”

  Flynn was smart enough to obey, and with a shrug, he headed through the front door. My heart was pounding: I couldn’t imagine why his mother wanted to talk to me alone. Remembering what had happened down at the river two weeks before—Flynn and I had finally gone all the way—made me feel guilty as hell. Did she know? How could she?

  Cory pointed to a stool at her kitchen breakfast bar. “Sit down, sweetie.” Once I’d boosted myself onto the chair, she leaned her elbows on the granite countertop. “Listen, Ali, I don’t want to overstep my bounds here. I know I’m not your mom, but I can imagine how much you miss her.
And I was just thinking today that maybe you might want to go shopping with me for your prom gown. We could drive into Savannah if you like.”

  My breath caught. “Really? Oh, wow, that would be . . .” Suddenly I remembered that the money for my dress was tied up on our fields, in the onions and peaches and what-all Sam had growing. My smile faded. “That would be great, but I’m not sure I can. I was just going to check out the thrift store in Farleyville.”

  She nodded. “That’s perfectly okay, if that’s what you want. I’d still like to go with you.”

  So that Saturday, Cory picked me up out at the farm, and we drove to the thrift store. I’d heard stories of almost-new gowns, beautiful dresses for just a few dollars. But apparently we were too late for those, since the only possibilities on the racks were tired old bridesmaids’ gowns or worn dresses that were several sizes too big for me. I flipped through the hangers one more time as desperation stiffened my shoulders.

  “Ali, there’s nothing.” Cory put one soft hand on my back. “Honey, hear me out. Let’s just go into the city for kicks and see what we see. Sometimes they have amazing sales, and who knows . . . you might find something.”

  Since she was driving—and since I recognized the determined gleam in her eyes, as I’d seen it often enough in her son’s—I really didn’t have a choice. And once I’d spotted the silvery-blue strapless gown with the soft lace overlay, I was a goner. When I checked the price tag, I nearly died. But Cory only covered my hand with hers.

  “Ali, please. Let me do this for you.” She drew in a shaky breath. “When your mama died, I just felt so . . . helpless. There was nothing I could do for you and Sam, other than cook you some meals and try to be there for you if you needed me. But this is something I could do, on behalf of your mother. I want to think that if it’d been Brice and me who weren’t here anymore, your parents would be good to him. I can’t take her place, but I can make sure you have the perfect dress to wear to your prom. Please?”