Here Be Dragons - 1

by Sharon Kay Penman

  to save Gwynedd." "No," Llewelyn said violently, "no!" He stared down at the map, and then, with a sudden, swift thrust, he plunged the dagger downward, impaling the map and burying the blade deep in the soft pine tableboard. It was so quiet that Joanna could hear the slight scraping of Adda's crutch as he dragged it through the floor rushes, limped to Llewelyn's side. "Llewelyn, I understand how you feel; how could I not? If I thought you had any chance at all, I'd say yes, go to the English King, s«ek to save what you can. But we're talking of John, Llewelyn, John who nurses a grievance till it festers. Not two months ago you made him took a right proper fool, cost him money, men, and no small loss of face. s gone to a great deal of trouble to get you just where you are this m§ht, and the only terms he's likely to offer will be a generous bounty to he man who can bring him your head." He'd listen to me." Joanna stood up, found her knees suddenly ea*; her heart was beating so rapidly that she felt slightly queasy. She a blurred glimpse of faces, most expressing shock at the very i U8nt °f entrusting all to a woman, and then she'd crossed the cham- r' ^ad laid her hand on Llewelyn's arm. ca me 8°to mm' Llewelyn," she pleaded. "He cares for me, and I ^ake him listen. I know I can." s face was hard to read; she could not immediately tell what his

  332 reaction was. Nor was she given a chance to find out, for Gruffy^j could keep silent no longer. "Papa, do not listen to her! You cannot trust her to speak for y0ll. she's his daughter, of his befouled blood. She'd betray you, I know it!'' The boy was too agitated to guard his tongue, pleaded with no W passion than Joanna, "You cannot do this, cannot yield to him. Think how he'd humiliate you, make you grovel" "That will be enough, Gruffydd!" "I'd die ere I'd do that, Papa! And if you go to him, shame yourself like that, you shame us all!" Llewelyn took a swift step toward Gruffydd. Although he'd clenched his fist, he did not hit the boy. But Joanna saw him draw a deep, unsteady breath, saw how close he'd come to it. "Be thankful, Gruffydd," he said scathingly, "that I remember I, too, was a fool at fifteen." Gruffydd flushed to the roots of his hair, and Joanna suspected he'd rather have been struck. "Papa . . ." he whispered, but only Joanna was close enough to hear him. Llewelyn had turned away, was already moving toward the door. When Rhys would have followed after him, Morgan stepped from the shadows, said, "No, let him be. He needs time to be alone, to think. Whatever price is to be paid, he must be the one to pay it. So the decision, too, must be his, his and his alone." EVEN dulled by moonlight, the stallion's coat shone like bronze; although white was the preferred color for horses, Llewelyn's memories of Sul had given him an unfashionable fancy for red-gold chestnuts. No longer grazing, the stallion had begun to nuzzle his tunic, but now it jerked its head up, nickered softly. Llewelyn reached for his sword, faded back into the shadows. A black-clad figure emerged through the trees, and he lowered the sword, watched as Morgan swung from the saddle. Morgan was unsure of his welcome, said somewhat awkwardly, "Joanna guessed you might be here. You've been gone so long we grew worried. But I'll go if you <* rather be alone." "I've not been alone. I've been keeping company with Arthur oj Brittany, Hugh de Lusignan, Walter de Lacy, William de Braose, all of the men in the last twenty years who made the fatal mistake of under estimating John Plantagenet." Walking to the edge of the cliff, Llewelyn gazed down at the cata ract. Although rain had been scarce that summer, as if even nature w favoring John's campaign, the river still surged against its banks, p'u

  333 eting over the jutting rocks and turning the pool below into a seething uldron of froth and spume, an impersonal and awesome affirmation of infinity "We're our own worst enemies, Morgan, God's cursed truth we re The Gospels say every kingdom divided against itself shall be made Hesolate, that could well serve as the epitaph for Wales Since the time of VVilliarn the Conqueror, we've allowed the English kings to play the same damnable, deadly game with us, to set our princes one against the other And we never learn Chnst knows I did not, I fell into the same tjme-worn trap If I'd found a way to come to terms with Maelgwn and Rhys Gryg, they'd be fighting the English now instead of collaborating with them If we'd banded together at the outset, all offered resistance, we could have stopped John dead at the Conwy " "That is the great weakness of the Welsh, Llewelyn We've never learned to act for the common good I sometimes suspect that unity is not a word native to the Welsh tongue It has ever been that way, ever will be " "No, Morgan, you're wrong The day must come when our people will unite around one man, around one prince " Llewelyn paused, then gave Morgan a twisted smile "But I always thought it would be me " Morgan made no facile disclaimers, offered no polite, empty assurances But Llewelyn knew him far too well to expect any Moving away from the cliff, he said, "You did not ride all this way without fetching me something to dnnk, I hope7" Morgan managed a smile of his own "Indeed not," he said, handed Llewelyn a flask "I was watching you when Joanna offered to go to her father You were the only man in the room who did not look surprised Had it already occurred to you to have her intercede with John'" "Of course What could be more obvious7" But Llewelyn then lowered the flask, revealed his own ambivalence "Why7" he challenged "You see it as sheltering behind a woman's skirts7" "I see it as the only action open to you What matters it if she's a wornan when she is also the only one in Christendom with any chance °f swaying John7 But can you trust John, Llewelyn7 Even if Joanna can s°itiehow persuade him to offer terms, can you be sure he'd honor em? That he'd not agree to a safe-conduct merely to get you into his hands7" 'He might well refuse Joanna's pleas, but I do not think he'd use er as a lure, as bait Not even John would do that, not to his own aughter " He added dryly, "But then, I'd have to believe that, would I not?" Llewelyn drank again, passed the flask back to Morgan "I was at

  334 Norham Castle with John when the Scots King came to surrender, t0 buy peace on John's terms. John demanded far more than money, w him nothing, neither pride nor manhood." He looked at the priest, suddenly dropped all defenses and said with anguished, unsparing honesty, "I do not know if I can face that Morgan. There is a part of me that feels as Gruffydd does, that I'd rather die ere I let him do to me what I saw him do to the Scots King." Morgan found himself blinking back tears. "I do not know what to say to you, lad, would to God I did." "Do you remember what you once told me? You assured me that accommodation to superior strength is no shame. That helped ease a boy's hurt, taught me a truth I thought I'd taken to heart. But. . . but it avails me little now, Morgan. Not when I think of John, and what he will demand of me." JOANNA had finally fallen into a fitful doze. She awoke at once, though, when Llewelyn closed the door, sat up as he approached the bed. "Did Morgan find you?" "Yes. How did you know I'd go to Rhaeadr Eywnnol ?" "I remembered you told me you'd gone there when Tangwystl died." He made no comment. She felt the bed shift as he lay down. He was still fully clothed, had not even taken his boots off. As she'd lain awake waiting for him, Joanna had decided to take her cues from him. If he wanted her to comfort him with her body, she would. If he wanted silence, she'd keep still. If he wanted to talk, she'd listen. But now that he was here beside her, she found herself so afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing that she could do nothing at all. His rage seemed to have burned itself out; she could see only exhaustion in his face. Leaning over, she touched her lips to his forehead He opened his eyes, looked at her, and then reached out, grasped a handful of her straight black hair. "You do, in truth, look Welsh," he said, let her hair slip through his fingers. "Llewelyn, please. Let me go to my father." He raised himself up on his elbow, and then he nodded. "Tomorrow," he said. "Tell him that he's won, that. . . You know what to tell him." She was no longer so sure of that. She'd prayed that he would agree, but now that he had, she was suddenly terrified. He was putting his life in her hands. What if she failed him, if Adda was right, if hef father would not listen to her?

  335 "I'm frightened, Llewelyn," she_said, and he put his arm around her, held her close. "I know, Joanna." After a long time, he said, very softly, "So am I." 28 ABERCONWY, NORTH WALES August 1211 O> V-/NCE she had ridden into the English camp, Joanna wa
s separated from her small Welsh escort, taken into the outer parlour of the abbey. Too tense to sit for long, she paced the confines of the small chamber as if it were a cage, until she could endure the waiting no longer, escaped out into the west walkway of the cloisters. The Cistercian monks had fled before John's army; more than a dozen soldiers now lounged on the grassy inner garth. Joanna's unexpected appearance momentarily stopped all conversation; heads jerked around. Of all the privations peculiar to campaigning in Wales, the one the soldiers found most difficult to accept was the utter lack of women. Theirs was the most uncommon of army encampments, one in which there were neither willing harlots nor unwilling captives. They were watching Joanna with avid interest, but warily, too, for her gown was a finely woven wool, her veil a gossamer silk. She could hear them murmuring among themselves, speculating whether she was a "Crogin," a contemptuous slang term for the Welsh; that would, she realized, have made her fair game. At last one of the men rose, sauntered toward her. "What can I do for you?" he asked, and while the words themselves were innocent enough, both his smile and his tone Were slyly suggestive. 'TMothing whatsoever," Joanna snapped. Although he was already acking away, warned off by the jeweled rings adorning her fingers, she cled maliciously, "But I shall tell my father the King of your concern," " had the dubious satisfaction of seeing him blanch. The men could have retreated any faster had she revealed herself to be a witch;

  336 r 337 within moments she was all alone on the walkway, filled with a rage as unfocused as it was impotent, that what should now matter most m Llewelyn's own realm was not that she was his wife, but that she was John's daughter. A man was emerging from the monks' frater. He came to an abrupt halt at sight of Joanna, then limped toward her. She was no less surprised to see him. For several years, Hugh Corbet had been suffering from the disease known as the "joint evil," and his health was no longer up to the rigors of a military campaign. "You've come on Llewelyn's behalf?" he asked, and she nodded. "Yes. And you?" "At the King's command." Joanna felt a chill. How would she ever get her father to listen if he was as vengeful as that, enough to make Llewelyn's ailing stepfather an unwilling witness to his downfall? "Joanna . . . when you see the King, weigh your words with care He is in a foul temper this morn. He got word, you see, that William de Braose has been stricken with a mortal sickness. It's said he's sure to die." Joanna's eyebrows rose. "I'd have thought my father would be gladdened by news like that!" "I expect he was. But he was not so glad to hear that Stephen Langton was at de Braose's deathbed, that he means to officiate at de Braose's funeral." "Good God, no wonder Papa was wroth!" "With cause," Hugh conceded. "It is Langton's way of spiting the King, of course. For all that the Pope has anointed him as Archbishop of Canterbury, he dares not set foot on English soil. But de Braose was formally outlawed, declared a traitor to the crown. It's not fitting for Langton to pay such honor to a rebel." "It may not be proper, but it certainly is political!" Joanna shook her head, bemused. "I wonder if my father will release Maude de Braose once her husband is dead. I'd think he Hugh? Whatever ails you?" "I thought you knew. Maude de Braose is dead." Hugh hesitated, no longer met Joanna's eyes. "She . . . died in prison." "No, I did not know." Joanna frowned. "Strange that Llewelyn never mentioned it. Surely he must have heard." But then she forgot all about Maude de Braose and her dying husband, even forgot abou Hugh, for a familiar figure was coming down the north walkway. Gatn~ ering up her skirts, she ran to meet her brother. "Thank God, Richard! I prayed you'd be here. Papa . . . he wl see me?" "Did you ever doubt it?" Richard had his mother's pale blue ey see mer ften remote, not easily read; she saw in them now only pity. "He sent e to fetch you, awaits you in the small parlour next to the Chapter House." "Richard . . . tell me the truth. Do you think he'll heed me?" "Ah, Joanna ..." But as reluctant as he was to answer, when he did, it was with uncompromising honesty. "No, I do not." ,0nN did not say anything, merely held out his arms, and for a few brief nioments Joanna tried to take refuge in memories, sought to find again m her father's embrace the protected peace of childhood. "I've been so frightened, Papa," she confessed, finding it as easy as that to revert back to the role decreed for her so long ago at Rouen. John, too, seemed reluctant to let go of the past, speaking softly and soothingly as if hers were still childhood hurts, of no greater moment than scraped knees or a lost doll, hurts to be healed with smiles and the promises of sweets. "I know, lass. But all will yet be well for you. I'll make it so, I swear. Come now, seat yourself at the table. I've food set out for you; you can eat as we talk." Joanna did as he bade, watched as he acted as cupbearer for them both, but not

  for Richard or Will. She had no appetite, though, merely toyed with the bread and cheese put before her. John took a seat facing her, said, "You've been much on my mind, Joanna. I'd not have you suffer for sins not yours, think I have found a way to make certain you do not. Tell me of your son, of David. It's lucky, in truth, that he's too voung to understand what's been happening." "I would that were so, Papa. But Davydd now wakes in the night whimpering, has begun to talk about creatures lurking out in the dark, hiding under the bed. And Elen, too, senses something is amiss. She has" "When will he be three . . . November? And the age of majority am°ngst the Welsh is fourteen, no? Of course, he'd need guidance and c°unsel long after that, would need" 'Papa, what are you saying?" 'I am saying, sweetheart, that you need not worry, that I mean to fotect your son's inheritance. I shall have to take much of Gwynedd n«er the control of the crown, but I'll leave David a fair share, that I °mise." He leaned across the table, with a smile of familiar, fond nri, the smile that invariably heralded the giving of a memorable gift. see no reason' Joanna, why you yourself should not act as regent David comes of age." '°anna sat very still. She was aware of perspiration trickling clam-

  338 mily down her throat, between her breasts, along her ribs, rivulets cold sweat that seared her skin like ice, set her to trembling. Richard had moved behind John's chair, and when she opened her mouth, he gave swift, warning shake of his head. She let her protest ebb away on a uneven, labored breath, grabbed for a wine cup, and drank witnout tasting. John had been watching her intently. "I see," he said at last, qu^, coolly. "No, Papa, I do not think you do." Joanna set the wine cup down reached at random for something she could not spill, clutched at a thick slice of bread. "It would not work, you see. The Welsh would never accept a woman as regent. It is true that in most ways their women enjoy greater freedom than ours, but those freedoms are personal, not political." "Then we need only select a regent amenable to our wishes, eager to cooperate with the crown. You'd still act as regent, in all but name Does that frighten you? It need not, for you'd not be alone, lass. I'd see that you had advisers you could trust, men who" "Your advisers, Papa? Men of Norman blood? How do you think the Welsh would react to that? No, you still do not understand. It's not just that the Welsh would never accept me. They'd not accept Davydd, either. He is a babe, half Normanand your grandson. Those would be liabilities to cost him the crown. Should aught befall Llewelyn, his people would not look to Davydd, they'd look to Llewelyn's other son, his Welsh son." "Gruffydd?" he said, showing her he was all too familiar with Lie welyn's court. "And if he were not available?" "It ... it would not matter. Llewelyn has another son, Tegwared. He's still a child, but the Welsh would prefer him to Davydd. They'd even prefer Llewelyn's cousin Hywel. Davydd must earn the acceptance of his father's people, must prove to them that his heart and soul are no less Welsh than Gruffydd's. I've given this much thought, Papa, from the very day of his birth. I do think he can eventually win their allegiance. But he'll need time, time to grow to manhood. Until then, only his father can safeguard his inheritance, only Llewelyn." Joanna ha unwittingly been tearing at the bread as she spoke; the tablecloth va littered with crumbs. She put the crust aside, said, "That is why I hav come, Papa. To beg you to spare Llewelyn ... for the sake of my s°n "You are saying, then, that all your concern is for David, none o for Llewelyn?" , { John sounded so skeptical that Joanna blushed, remembering bedch
amber scene he'd witnessed at Woodstock. "No, Papa," s"e as steadily as she could, "I am not saying that. I do care for L

  339 j-jow could I not? He treats me quite well. I've been his wife for I e years, have borne him two children, would not want to see him harmed." She reached across the table, caught at John's sleeve. "If I owe Lle- elvn a wife's loyalty and Davydd a mother's love, I owe you much, o I to^ you at tne **me * agreed to wecl Llewelyn that there was othing I would not do for you. I meant it, Papa, proved it by making a marriage I dreaded. Did you know that, know how much I feared it? But I did it for you . . . and then found in that marriage an unexpected and abiding contentment." John shifted in his seat, drew back out of reach. "Does it matter so much to you, Joanna, being Llewelyn's wife?" "Not his wife, Papa . . . his consort." That was an answer he was not expecting. He leaned back in his chair, subjected her to a troubled appraisal. "In truth, Joanna? At the time of your marriage, I seem to remember you counting a crown of little worth." "At the time of my marriage, I was only fourteen. The truth is, Papa, that I'm pleading not just for Davydd, but for myself, too. Even now it often seems no less than a miracle to me, that I could be bastardborn and yet wear a crown. I do not think I could bear to give it up. You, of all men, should be able to understand that." "Yes," he admitted, "I can. I only wish I'd known . . ." He rose abruptly, moved to the window. "I am sorry, lass, I swear I am. But you ask too much of me." "Not if you love me." Joanna had risen, too, stumbled over her skirts in her haste to follow John to the window. "Papa . . . you do still love me?" He swung around, stared at her."Jesu, do you doubt it?" "I . I do not know. God knows I do not want to! But you led an army into my husband's lands, my lands, too. Your men even burned Aber, and that was my home, Papa, mine no less than Llewelyn's. What lf my children or I had still been there, if we'd not" Ah, Joanna, do not! This is between Llewelyn and me, has nothing 0 ° with you. I'd not hurt you for the world. You have ever been my dearest child, do you not know that?" Help me, then, Papa. You're the only one who can. For Davydd °r me, I beg you . . . please!" Joanna's voice broke; she started to e - and John stopped her, pulled her almost roughly to her feet. °o not, lass. There's no need." oardi na Cau8ht her breath. "Does that mean you'll do it, Papa? You'll Q°n Llewelyn?"