Sasha's Dilemma (The Dilemma Series)

by Smith, T. L

  I laugh. I try to get back on the ground, but he grabs me tighter and won’t let me budge.

  “Josh, you can’t carry me. Put me down.”

  “Like hell I can’t. And just so you know, I don’t think we’re gonna make it home before I devour you.”

  He starts walking while still carrying me. I’m protesting, but he just smirks and keeps on walking. I can see the looks we’re getting from all the people around us. They must think we’re crazed lunatics.

  “Please, put me down,” I beg.

  “Fine, but you’re going to have to make it up to me,” he says with a wicked gleam in his eyes.

  “Okay, just put me down, please. People are staring,” I tell him self-consciously.

  “They can look all they want. They’re just jealous.”

  With that, he finally releases me, and takes hold of my hand. We collect his bag and get in the car to drive home. We’re halfway home when he tells me to pull over.

  “Why? What’s wrong?” I ask him, worried.

  “Well, I don’t want an accident, so you might want to pull over.”

  I listen to him and pull up off the highway and into a park area. It’s dark so I can’t make out his facial expressions, but feel him unbuckle my seatbelt and then he pulls me over to him.

  “I’m really glad you’re wearing a mini skirt,” he says in a low sexy voice.

  “Oh yeah, why’s that?”

  “So I can do this.”

  He inserts a finger and I squeal in surprise. He begins rubbing my clit while kissing me. I’m breathing heavily, and before I know it, I orgasm around his finger. He lifts me up, undoes his pants, and then slowly slides me on top of him. I can’t help but scream out his name while I’m riding him. I feel like I have all the power over this man, and I love it.

  We finally make it back in one piece, but Josh had to drive the rest of the way because my legs were too weak.

  Josh has been here for a week now and we have had a great time enjoying each other’s company. The boys have only barged in on us once. When they found out Josh was staying here for a while, they haven’t been back. But they’re always calling and texting to check up on me. After every shift at the hospital, Josh has brought me a rose. It’s so sweet. He really is trying, and it’s making me fall in love even more.

  We haven’t said those words to each other yet, but there have been a few heated moments when I have nearly let them slip. Same with Josh, but I think he is afraid I’m going to do a runner if he says them too soon. He is due to leave again tomorrow. I’m not sure when he will be back, but I know it’s going to be worse than last time. So I have made a decision, and have decided to tell him tonight. When I get home, Josh is cooking dinner. I wrap my arms around him and breathe him in.

  “I missed you today,” I whisper to him.

  “Probably not as much as I missed you.”

  “Hey, so I’ve decided to give the hospital notice and apply for a transfer to move back home,” I just blurt out.

  “What? Really?”

  “Yes, really.”

  “Would you consider moving in with me?”

  “I’m not sure. Is that something you want?” I’m not sure if that’s moving too fast so I’m a bit surprised he even asked the question.

  “Hell yeah, if you’re going to be that close to me, I want you in my bed every night.”

  “That’s a big step, Josh. Are you sure we’re ready for that?”

  “Yes, of course I am. If I thought you would agree to marry me today, I would ask you. But I know you’re not, so I’ll take what I can get.”

  Wow, marriage. I didn’t know he was thinking that far ahead. I haven’t even considered marriage.

  “Okay, I’ll move in with you.” I practically lived with him before, so instead of going backwards I decide to move forward. I hope that I won’t regret my decision.

  “God, you make me happy,” he tells me with a huge smile.

  I’ve sorted everything out at work and gave my notice. Josh has been gone for three weeks now. He asks me every day when I am coming. I’ve told him not to tell anyone yet, as I want to surprise them. He agreed, but said that he has told them all that we’re in a serious relationship again, and their usual response was “about time.” That made me laugh.

  I’ve told my cousins I’m moving and they tried to convince me to stay, but they understand I want to be where Josh is. They agreed to come visit, but I have to “hook them up with some fine babes.”

  I finally arrive in Brisbane and am anxious to see Josh and everyone else. I’ve missed them all terribly. I spot Josh straight away, and as soon as he gets in hearing distance, I warn him, “Don’t you dare carry me, Josh Richards.”

  “But, Sash, you know I got to. I need to feel that ass,” is his sexy reply.

  “Later, when we’re in private, please.”

  Chapter 26

  Josh’s house is still as beautiful as I remember. All my stuff from my apartment that I wanted to bring with me has arrived. Josh has giving me free reign to do what I please. He says I need to make it feel as if it’s my home as much as it is his.

  He has kept me huddled up at home and not allowed me to leave for three days now, but I think it’s time I go and face the real world. I need to go see my sister and friends. As I’m getting ready, he comes into the bedroom with a piece of paper and sits down on the bed.

  “I want you to sign these so this house is as much yours as it is mine,” he says from out of nowhere.

  He slides the papers over to me and I realise it’s the deed to the house. I look up at him and see he is watching me carefully, waiting for a reaction.

  “How much money do I need to pay for half of this?”

  “Nothing, Sasha, I own the house outright; and whatever is mine is yours. I just thought you would feel more secure in knowing if we had a fight, neither of us could kick the other out.”

  “I’m not signing that without giving you some kind of payment, Josh. I didn’t pay my way to have this house, and I don’t accept charity.”

  “It’s not charity, Sasha. Whatever is mine is yours. It’s as simple as that. As for payment, you give that every day by being with me.”

  “I don’t know. I’m going to have to think about this.”

  We head out that afternoon to go to Adam’s. Everyone is there to celebrate Kasey turning two. We pull up and I’m a bit nervous to see everyone. The last time I saw them was under bad circumstances. I hope today won’t bring those bad memories back, and we can start making good ones.

  “Oh, my God! What are you doing here?” Lola comes running when she sees me.

  “Surprise!” I say to her and everyone else.

  “Are you back for good or visiting?”

  “I’m back for good.”

  She smiles up at me and then puts her hand on her hip. “And why am I finding out about this now? Where are you living?”

  “I wanted to surprise you, and I moved in with Josh.”

  Josh chooses that moment to walk up to me, take my hand in his, and kiss me on the cheek.

  I lose track of time while walking around saying hello to everyone. I’ve also lost Josh. I go looking for him and stop when I find him with Kasey in his arms. He is telling her how beautiful she is and that she is his princess. I think Josh would like kids. Obviously, he is great with them. But I don’t want children and I wonder if that would affect us in the long term.

  “Kasey really loves him, and he’s great with her,” a voice quietly says from behind me.

  I turn to face Adam, and the sight of him breaks my heart. He looks like he needs a haircut and hasn’t shaven for days. He’s also lost a fair bit of weight. I instantly grab him and pull him into a hug. I can feel the tears in the back of my eyes coming and I try to fight them as this is a special day for Kasey.

  “I’m really glad to see you and Josh happy. We always knew you two would find a way to one another,” Adam says to me. I see him hesitate before he asks, “Has
he spoken about anything else with you?”

  “Thank you, Adam, that means a lot coming from you. No, he hasn’t mentioned anything, is there something I should know?”

  “Aunty Sasha, look who I found!” Josh comes up with Kasey in her arms.

  “Well, hello there, darling! I heard a special little girl just turned two and this is her birthday party. Do you know who that might be so I can give her this present I got her?”

  She reaches out for me and I take her in my arms.

  “Me! Me, Aunty!”

  “Okay, let’s go and see if it’s present time yet, want to?”

  I’ve had a fabulous day today. I truly am lucky to have a great set of friends in my life. Josh walks up to me after putting Kasey down for a nap. He picks me up, steals my seat, and deposits me onto his lap while he wraps his arms around my midsection. I feel him breathe me in before he says, “Hope you’re not worn out. I have somewhere I want to take you.”

  “And where would that be?” I raise an eyebrow at him.

  “It’s a surprise.”

  Half an hour later, we have left the party and he is driving me to a very posh part of town. We enter an estate and I notice the houses are absolutely gorgeous. I’m too busy looking at them to pay much attention until we pull up to a driveway. Josh buzzes us in, and the yard alone takes my breath away. It’s so immaculate with beautiful hedges and flower gardens everywhere. The house looks like it’s a three-storey home.

  “Whose house is this?”

  “My parents,” he tells me calmly.

  I whip my head around to him so fast I think I may have gotten whiplash.

  “Tell me you’re joking! Look how I’m dressed. I can’t go in and meet your parents!”

  I only have on a sundress. It’s yellow and some of my cleavage is out. Definitely not a dress I want to meet his parents in.

  “Sasha, you look gorgeous, and they’re going to love you. They have been very eager to meet you.”

  “Oh no, they’re gonna think I’m the trollop who broke your heart, aren’t they?”

  “No, actually, they think very highly of you. I was the stupid one; well, that’s what they tell me anyway,” he says with a grin.

  I look back up to the house and see a very slim figure in the doorway. I can’t tell from in the car, but I’m guessing that is his mum. We get out of the car and walk toward the entrance. Now that I can see her more clearly, I notice she is rather beautiful for her age. She has hardly any wrinkles, and is smiling brightly at us. She is very petite.

  When we reach the top of the stairs, she instantly pulls me into a hug. Then she let’s go, looks at me, and says, “Well, let me get a good look at you. Aren’t you absolutely gorgeous! I can understand now why my Joshy boy is so crazy for you.”

  She leans over and gives Josh a hug and kiss before grabbing my hand and pulling me inside with her. The inside of the house is as stunning as the outside. In the middle of the entrance, there is a table with a large vase centred in the middle full of flowers. I look around and notice the entrance is as big as my apartment back in Sydney.

  “Josh, your dad is in the study. Why don’t you grab him while we go and prepare some refreshments?”

  Josh walks up and kisses me on the cheek before going towards what I presume is his dad’s study. I follow Josh’s mum into the kitchen.

  “It’s so good to see him smile like that again. Oh, where are my manners? My name is Sandy.”

  We head to the bar area and she starts preparing drinks. Thankfully, not long after, Josh walks in with a very large man following behind him. He too is very good looking. I can see where Josh gets his looks from. He smiles when he see me and I instantly relax.

  “Well, my son sure knows how to pick them. You are quite a beauty, Sasha.”

  “Thank you, sir,” I answer shyly.

  “Oh, please, call me John.”

  We have such a lovely afternoon. I can now understand where Josh gets his affectionate nature from. His parents still look madly in love, even after being together for thirty years. I wonder if Josh and I will be like that. My thoughts get interrupted when Sandy tells the boys to go and get us something to eat.

  “They’re both great cooks, and I’m hopeless at it. John always does the cooking. He even pushes me out of the kitchen,” she laughs at herself.

  “Yes, Josh is a very good cook, and usually does all the cooking, too.”

  “I must say, I’ve never seen Josh this way before, but then again, I’ve never met anyone he has dated before. I believe he is quite taken with you.”

  “He’s never brought a girl home before?”

  “No, never. Don’t get me wrong, I know he isn’t a saint or anything. But he has always said when he finds the one, that’s when we will meet her. Other than that, it’s a waste of everybody’s time. I can see that he was right. He looks at you just the way his father looks at me,” she says with a smile.

  I knew Josh never dated seriously, but I never expected this.

  I turn to see Josh and his dad in what looks like a serious argument and wonder what would have them both so angry. I decide to ignore it and turn my attention back to Josh’s mum.

  Chapter 27

  Josh’s parents are so welcoming and friendly. They explained to me how they wanted more children, but could never have more. Before they had Josh, they had three miscarriages. When they fell pregnant with Josh, they were so relieved he was healthy that they tried again to give him siblings, but after not succeeding, they eventually gave up. Josh’s dad owns an oilrig company and always wanted him to follow in his footsteps, but Josh’s love for drawing took over and that’s how he ended up being a tattooist.

  “They loved you, Sash.”

  “I loved them, too. You are very lucky to have such great parents, Josh.”

  “What about yours? Will I get to meet them?”

  “Maybe someday, but I hardly talk to them as it is. It’s always been me and Lola. As soon as we were old enough to leave, we did.”

  “Well, I guess it was their loss and my gain.” He reaches over and grabs my hand, giving it a squeeze before we hop out and go into his house.

  “Have you thought anymore about signing the house forms yet?”

  “It’s not really my house, Josh. I haven’t put anything into it. I can’t just take half of what you worked hard to get.”

  “I built this for one reason, Sasha. That reason is standing in front of me. I want this to be ours, and then in the future, possibly, our children’s as well.”

  “What if I don’t want children, Josh?” I say in a small voice.

  “I’ll have you anyway I can get you, Sasha. If you don’t want children, that’s fine. But I would love to see you carrying around in that belly of yours something we made together out of our love.”

  Josh picks me up, carries me to the room, and gently places me on the bed. He slowly undresses me, but then leaves and comes back moments later with something in his hands. I can’t quite make out what he’s holding.

  “Do you trust me, Sash?”

  “Yes.”

  “Okay, I’m going to blindfold you and tie your hands up.”

  “Okay,” I barely whisper.

  “Don’t be nervous. I would never do anything to hurt you.”

  He comes up to me, ties a tie around my eyes, and then does the same with my hands. He gently starts kissing his way down my body. Once he reaches my breasts, I’m very eager and lifting my body up to give him better access. He plays with both my nipples, before making his way down to where I need him.

  He places his mouth over my clitoris. I moan, excited by the way his mouth can make me come. But he does something I’m not expecting. Just as I’m about to come, he leaves the bed. I’m instantly wondering why he would do that to me. Then I feel the bed dip again and he starts kissing me down there again. All of a sudden, I feel something very cold. I try to pull away, but he takes holds of my legs.

  “Relax, Sasha,” he says in a low
sexy voice.

  My body instantly relaxes. He goes back to torturing me; from cold to warm, back and forth. I feel like I might explode soon from anticipation of what’s to come. Suddenly, I have both sensations at once, the cold as well as the warm, and I’m exploding and screaming. I feel like jelly when he releases my hands and takes off the blindfold. I still can’t seem to open my eyes. When he places kisses on my mouth, I’m already getting wet again. I feel his naked body climb on top of me, and I know he’s waiting for me to open my eyes.

  “God, I could watch you all night long. You are so beautiful.”

  “Hmm,” is all I can manage to get out in response. He lifts my legs over his shoulders and starts to position himself in me and I’m quivering with excitement again.

  I’m completely exhausted by the time Josh is through with me. We get ready for bed once we have showered and had dinner. Well, Josh had me for dinner again, but I ain’t complaining. He comes into the bedroom where I’m nearly already passed out.

  “Lola called and wants you to go to a concert with her tomorrow,” he informs me.

  “Okay.”

  The next afternoon, Lola comes over to steal me away to go to this concert.

  “What a house, Sash! It’s beautiful,” she says when she arrives.

  “I know. I love it,” I say proudly.

  “Maybe you can convince her to sign the papers then,” Josh says as he enters the room.

  “What papers?” Lola asks with a bit of curiosity.

  “I want Sasha to own half of the house, but she hasn’t said yes yet.”

  “Wow, that’s a lot. How much you charging her?”

  “What is with you girls? Nothing, it’s ours. The house is already paid for. I just want her to feel like it’s hers as much as it is mine.”

  “Okay, well, Moneybags, we don’t accept charity. That’s probably why she won’t agree. Anything we’ve wanted, we had to work for, so good luck with that situation. Sash, you ready?”

  “Yep, I’m ready. Bye, Josh.”