Paige: Woman Empowered (Tied In Steel Book 2)

by Mj Fields

  I’m sure today will be a game changer. I’m sure I will finally be paid back for my loyalty, dedication, and the insane number of hours I put in, proving I will always work hard … unlike all the others who have made executive and have proven far less.

  I take a deep breath as I once again smooth out my black Vera blazer and force myself to smile at myself as I look down at my red Anouk pointy-toed Choos. I click my heels together for good luck then decide luck isn’t necessary when you have the power of Wang and Choo, partnered with my proven past record.

  Walking down the marbled hall, my heels click against it. A cadence to a march I am sure will lead to a meeting where a file will be pushed across the enormous cherry wood conference table in front of me, with my very own campaign to head. The first step to Paige Arnesen: executive.

  Sitting in the black leather chair, I look around, waiting for my co-workers and Cheryl Firsts, President and CEO, to start trickling in. Then I look down at my phone and see I am ten minutes early, per my norm. It’s yet another way to ensure I impress upon everyone that I am highly dedicated to my job.

  They all begin to trickle in. Johnson, Richards, Peters, Dickson, all appropriately named and all started after me. Dickson and Peters are easy to work with. They give appropriate acknowledgment to the members of their teams. Richards and Johnson are world class assholes. Both took full credit for a highly successful scotch campaign I worked extremely hard on.

  When Cheryl walks in, I eye her arms to see how many files she has. Three, she has three. My odds are good, very good.

  She sets them down on the table before sitting down herself.

  “We’ve received four RFPs this week alone. Three weeks to proposal, and I want them all.” She pushes a file toward Richards and Johnson. “The two of you killed the Willow’s campaign. This account, Tarson vodka, is for the two of you. I expect you to nail it.”

  They nod and open the file. I expect them to look at me since I’m the one who did all the damn work on Willow, but they don’t.

  “Next is a fashion subscription box, Vavoom,” she says, looking at us.

  I hold my breath, knowing there is no doubt I’ll get it. It seems I am the only other woman here, besides Sandy, who has absolutely no fashion sense. None.

  When she passes the file to Sandy, I feel the all-knowing burn in the throat. Instead of allowing it to creep up in the form of tears, though, I push it down. With it, hope descends like the fucking elevator I leave the twentieth floor in five, sometimes six days a week.

  There has been no other campaign in the past nine years that I was better suited to run. I’m a subscription box junky and a fashion-forward girl.

  I keep my eyes trained on the table before me as I try to calm the humming in my ears that is no doubt my blood boiling.

  “Paige?”

  I look up at the sound of my name to Sandy. “I’m sorry. Can you repeat that?”

  When Cheryl speaks I realize it was her and not Sandy.

  “This one is yours.” She slides the file in front of me as they all get up and quickly exit the room.

  “Thank you so much for the opportunity,” I call after her, jumping to my feet. “I promise you won’t regret it.”

  A quick nod of her head and she is out the door.

  Richards snickers. “No better man for the job.”

  I refuse to let him ruin this moment for me.

  In all my newfound confidence, I finally smart back at his latest sexist remark. “Sometimes the better man is a woman.”

  “In this case, you’re one hundred percent correct.” Johnson chuckles as they walk out of the conference room.

  Fuck them, I think as I grab my file and hold it against my chest, enjoying the very moment that my life has changed. All the long hours, hard work, going the extra mile every time has finally paid off. The funny thing is, I don’t care if it has paid off. I don’t even care if all those men are making more than I am because of work I did for them with sometimes not even a thank you. The days they left early to pick up their kids, to meet divorce lawyers, to meet mistresses, or take long vacations. The hours I stayed behind when they left as soon as they knew Cheryl’s car had picked her up and she wouldn’t see them skate out instead of staying late to finish their work. I don’t care one bit.

  I walk across the floor and stand in front of the window, looking down at the beautiful pandemonium that makes New York City, New York City. I dream about my next step-up in the climb up the corporate ladder, getting closer to my ultimate goal—to someday own my own marketing firm.

  Today is the greatest day of my life. I want to send out invitations announcing my success like my friends do wedding and baby shower announcements. I want to throw a party like they did for their engagements. I want to buy a brand-new dress and brand-new Choos and go out wearing a sash that a bachelorette would wear at her party. But instead of it reading “Bachelorette” in pink, I want it to say “Women Executive/Warrior Princess”, in lavender.

  I’m again flooded with emotions, yet I don’t push them down. I want to let them erupt with the full force of what I feel right this very moment.

  Erupt …

  I look at my phone and decide that, although none of those things can actually happen without looking like a crazy woman and not the next woman of power, one thing can.

  I hurry out of the conference room, smiling—no, beaming—as I hurry to my desk where I set my file on it then quickly walk around to Rachel, one of my cubicle neighbors.

  She smiles wearily at me. I’m not sure if it’s because she thinks I will change with this new responsibility, or better yet, new possibility.

  I try to hide my excitement, but I feel the eruption boiling, so I hurriedly tell her, “I need to run home for half an hour. I have plenty of time on the books; it shouldn’t be a problem,” I kick off my Choos then bend to pick them up. “If anyone asks—”

  “No need to explain.” She looks past me and whispers, “Take all the time you need.”

  “You’re a doll.” I wink as I turn to rush back and grab my walking shoes. I may just run home to burn off some of this energy, or I may just kill my poor Ralph.

  Stepping outside of my office building, I listen to the horns blow and the city streets bustling with movement and noise. Such a contrast to my southern hometown where everything moved slower. Even the breeze seemed to take its time there.

  Having moved in with Ralph a month ago, I realize that the weariness of using the subway may never be something I have to overcome. Being so much closer to the office has its perks.

  Celebratory morning orgasms will soon be added to the list of positives of dating a man ten years older, one who is definitely more mature than the fools I dated before. I admit I was apprehensive about walking away from my place, but his … his is so much nicer. Still, it made me feel less independent at first, so Ralph suggested that, if I felt that way, I should purchase some new furniture pieces, drapes, art work, and make it mine. So, I did. I even surprised him with a new four poster bed, hoping that maybe he would venture outside the proverbial box and get a little kinky.

  As I walk into the lobby of our building, the doorman nods but doesn’t get up. Someday soon, I hope to afford a place where the doorman wears a uniform, smiles, and doesn’t just nod but greets you like in the movies.

  I ride the elevator to the thirteenth floor and step out, fishing for my keys as I hurry to the apartment. When I get to it, I check my phone, hoping Ralph hasn’t left for work yet. He normally doesn’t head to the firm until ten in the morning—perks of having your family name on the building, I suppose.

  When I open the door to walk in and reach down to pull off my tennis shoes, I startle when I hear a woman gasp.

  I look up into the eyes of a half-naked stranger, and then I see Ralph, who is just as bare, except …

  “Oh, hell no, not my Choos!” I yell at him, yes him—Ralph.

  Ralph is wearing my Jimmy Choos! The ones with the sparkles. The ones I hav
en’t yet had an occasion to wear myself.

  As I lunge toward him, he jumps backward … in six-inch stilettos and doesn’t even lose his balance, which renders me speechless and, honestly, a little impressed. I would’ve been on my ass.

  Holding out his hand to stop my advance, he uses the other to pull off his—my …

  “My fucking shoes!”

  Still unwavering while balancing on one foot, he quickly removes the first then the second.

  “Paige, I can explain,” he says as the woman who is still half dressed, the one I would have torn after had it not been for my fucking shoes, with arms full of clothing, runs out the door.

  “Call me,” she says right before the door slams shut.

  It is only when my Choos are in my hand that I notice he is also wearing my lacey black panties.

  I glare at him, and he takes another step back.

  “Let me explain,” he starts.

  The look on his face is pitiful. That, along with the fact that he is wearing my underwear, somehow makes me laugh. I throw my head back and laugh even harder. I laugh like my dad.

  God, I miss my dad.

  When I’m laughing so hard that I’m in tears, my belly aching, he looks like he may cry … still in my underwear.

  I wipe my eyes, telling him, “You’re not the right man for me.” I’m so tempted to use words to reduce him into a blithering pile of nothing, or nail him in his forehead with a heel, or two, but I don’t.

  “You know I love you, Paige,” he begins. “I support you in your dreams and ambitions, as farfetched as they are, so I would expect you to give me a few moments to explain and see that—”

  “Farfetched dreams?” My voice squeaks.

  “Yes, the dream of becoming more than you are capable—”

  “Says the man with his dick tucked God only knows where, wearing women’s underwear and my shoes!” I snap.

  He sighs and shakes his head. “I knew you weren’t as progressive as—”

  “You listen here, Ralph,” I say his name, allowing all the bitterness inside me to surround it as I walk around him toward the bedroom. “My dreams have come true. I was given my own campaign today.”

  I stop when I see our bed—my fucking bed—and all kinds of things on it that shock me. Dildos, handcuffs, clamps, rope …

  “Restraints on my fucking bed?” I yell as I turn toward him.

  “Darling, I know what you’re thinking. I want you to calm down and—”

  “Shut up, Ralph!”

  He gasps at the harsh words.

  I walk into the closet and pull out two large suitcases, both I bought last year when I was supposed to go to Italy to visit Laney with Valentina but was asked to stay in New York to help with a campaign. I toss it on the floor and open it, throwing all my shoes inside. I don’t want that bastard to put his feet in them. Hell, I should leave them here, because he probably already has, and I would if they weren’t Jimmy Choos and Christian Louboutins, all eight pairs, one for each year I have been employed at FF.

  Next, I toss in my hand bags—eight as well—and then I grab as many clothes off the closet rack as I possibly can and shove them inside one of the suitcases.

  “Paige,” Ralph says quietly. “Where are you going to take all that?”

  “My shoes? My bags?” I snap. “Anywhere you can’t play dress up with them.”

  “I would’ve never cheated on you if I thought you could handle this side of me.”

  “I would never had moved in with you had I known this side of you,” I tell him.

  “Well then, you, too, have deceived me.”

  Oh, my God, this man is insane. At least the other three—yes, three—this year didn’t try to fuck with my head. They just crushed my heart and self-esteem.

  “Says the man—and I use that term very loosely—who thinks he’s a lesbian.”

  “This coming from a woman who wants power so much, yet she lets others walk all over her.”

  “Save it, Ralph,” I snarl as I pull up the handle and stand the first bag up.

  “Where are you going?”

  “Work, Ralph.” I turn and finally face him. Now he has on a pair of pajama pants, though I’m sure my lacy panties are under them. I look up at him and puff out my chest. “Even you can’t ruin today for me.”

  “We’ll talk when you get home, darling.” Ralph sighs. “We can work this out.”

  “You can fuck right off,” I snap.

  One minute, I’m laughing; the next, angry; the next, disgusted; and now, right this very moment, I’m starting to feel numb. I suppose that’s what happens when you are on the highest of highs then the lowest of lows—you become numb.

  No, no, no, no. I am happy! Today is a good day, dammit. Even Ralph and his affair can’t ruin it for me.

  I need to get back to work, dive into my campaign.

  “I am a strong woman. And you, you’re a manipulative, slimy … pig.”

  I look at him, feeling like I may throw up. Again, I refuse to allow it. I need to get the hell out of here.

  “I’ll get the rest later,” I say as I wheel one of my cases past him.

  “We can work this out,” he calls after me.

  “The hell we can,” I hiss as I walk out the door.

  Wheeling the damn bag down Seventh Avenue toward 53rd street, my cream Goyard spinning suitcase becomes more difficult to navigate. Several times, it gets stuck going over the sewer grates and nearly pulls my arm out of its socket. I sputter obscenities at it while people seem to be staring. And you know what? I don’t give a damn.

  I pass the HOPE sign, one which I look at as some look toward the cross, as a symbol of hope, and I force myself to smile.

  Take the good with the bad, Babička would say. Because the good is my job, which I have technically been in a nine-year relationship with. My cross-dressing, kink-freak boyfriend of four months, he’s the bad. I will no longer be taking him.

  God, I miss them.

  Trpělivost růže přináší … Patience does in fact bring roses.

  All those times I begged to pick the roses and got annoyed when he told me to be patient, I never understood. Now I long to tell Dědeček he was right. That sticking it out with FF has paid off. The flower has bloomed. I try to imagine what he would say about Ralph when it hits me …

  I rushed into yet another relationship. I didn’t give it time to bloom. Hell, I didn’t even know what kind of flower he was … clearly.

  Trpělivost růže přináší, I think as I look to the sliver of sky visible through the skyscrapers and whisper a thank you to Dědeček in heaven.

  Getting off the elevator minutes later, I look around and smile at my co-workers as I drag my suitcase behind me. I get plenty of peculiar looks—deserving, I suppose—but I decide to ignore them. What else can you do?

  I spot the file on my desk as I try to push the suitcase under it, which doesn’t fit so I have to shove it into the corner, and realize I never even looked inside the file to see exactly what it is I’m supposed to be marketing.

  I stare at it like I used to look at gifts under the Christmas tree, wanting so badly to tear it open and see what await me, yet I also want to savor this time, this memory. Plus, the more I focus on it, the less I focus on the picture of Ralph that is so clear in my mind of him sporting my undies and Choos.

  I also note that I am uncharacteristically calm after just finding out I was cheated on … in the weirdest way possible. Knowing it’s because of the file, I allow myself to savor it.

  I hear the whispers and chuckles of those around me, but I ignore them. Then, when I feel that enough time has passed, I open the file and see the logo for my project. It’s a very pale pink, not all too catchy, and then I read beneath it: Spring Fresh … douche.

  I look out of the corner of my eye when I see someone looming over the cubicle wall. They all look the same—the men here at FF … like Ralph, nix the Choos. They are all under six-foot-tall, heads topped with salt and pepper
hair with a receding hairline. Their insignificant features make them all blend together, unlike my friend’s husbands, and all the men surrounding them.

  I look up and see Johnson. His beady brown eyes mock me as he says, “Best man for the job.”

  “What exactly is that supposed to mean?” I ask calmly.

  He leans in farther and whispers, “It was a gift.”

  “Excuse me?”

  “This account was a gift,” he repeats.

  “I’ve earned it,” I tell him.

  “You may be smart, you may know what you’re doing, but you lack the confidence to be in charge of anything more than douche.”

  I abruptly stand. “I don’t know who you think you are, but just like the Willow campaign, I’ll help you out.”

  “Paige,” Rachel whispers, clearly trying to stop me from continuing, but I have had enough.

  “Look around, Johnson. Look at all the people who helped you become a senior marketing executive. Now close your tiny, little rat-like brown eyes and envision where you’d be if you didn’t have them all to make yourself look good.”

  “Paige.” Rachel doesn’t whisper this time. She’s clearly attempting to shut me up, but I won’t. I deserve to tell him about himself, and not just for me, for all of us.

  “The truth is, you’d be sorting mail on the fourth floor because you lack any insight as to what any person in the world is looking for because you can’t see beyond your ginormous fucking ego.”

  His jaw drops.

  My spirits rise, and then …

  “Paige, I’d like to see you in my office. The rest of you, get to work.”

  I don’t even have to look back to see who it is. I know it’s Cheryl.

  I glance at Rachel, who gives me a look of concern, and force a small smile, letting her know I appreciate her trying to get me to shut my mouth. Then I take a deep breath and turn to walk toward Cheryl’s office at the end of the hall, making sure to keep my head held high, exuding the confidence that Ralph—I mean Johnson—thinks I lack.

  As I slow at her receptionist’s desk, the woman shakes her head as a few strands of hair pulled into a bun sways, giving me a silent tsk-tsk before nodding toward the open door. “She’s expecting you.”