All I Want Is You

by Ms. Neicy

  “Yo, who’s she. She’s sexy as hell.” Carlos said. I laughed because that lil’ nigga was nosey.

  “She’s the chick that ran into my car, but for some reason, I want to know more. Man, me and Jess, we a wrap.”

  “Well, it’s about damn time. That bitch wasn’t no good for you.” He said, as soon as Renee pulled up in the garage. I stood there in silence wondering what he meant by that shit. It’s like everyone around me knew some shit that I didn’t. Was I really that blind when it came to my wife? What the hell did everyone else see that I kept missing?

  “You heard me man.” Carlos said, pulling me from my thoughts. Renee just stood there looking with her sparkling brown eyes. Every time I looked at her, something else captured my damn attention; that was crazy as hell.

  “Nah, I’m sorry peoples, what you say?”

  “I should be finished with her car within the next two or three hours. I already have the parts in the back so it won’t take no time. You want me to take a look at yours before I get started.” He asked.

  “Nah, you good; go ahead and work on hers.”

  “Wait, how much is it going to be.” Renee said speaking up. Once again, I gave Carlos a look, and he already knew what that meant.

  “Well, Carlos, how much?” she asked, looking from me to my boy.

  “I got you, Ma; don’t worry about it.” I said.

  “What, wait. No, I can’t let you do that Renzo. I hit your car. You were nice enough to refer me to your mechanic, and I really appreciate that, but I can’t let you pay for my car when I’m the reason all this shit happened.” She said.

  “It’s cool; I got it.” I said, shrugging it off as if it was nothing. She sighed before digging in her purse to grab some money. She pulled out two crisp hundred dollar bills and handed them to me.

  “Please just take it. It’s the least I can do.”

  “Keep your money baby girl. Take yourself shopping or something.” I said, turning around and walking to my car. She followed me; she was very persistent, and I couldn’t lie, that shit was turning me on; that’s the reason I had to walk away.

  “Well, I have to wait for two or three hours. Maybe we can grab a bite to eat or something. My treat.” She said.

  “Cool, we can do that. I’m a little hungry anyway, so you have anything in mind?” I asked, as we both got into my car. I sent Carlos a text letting him know that we were going to grab a bite to eat, and we would be back. I didn’t expect him to text back; I just did it for common courtesy.

  “Do you like City Centre or is that too far?” she asked. At least, she is considerate, I thought to myself.

  “City Centre is cool. What did you have in mind?” I asked, as I started driving to City Centre.

  “There’s this restaurant over there called Cyclone Anaya. You ever been?” she asked. I thought about it for a moment, and then I remembered. I had been there a time or two. It wasn’t really nothing to write home about, but if that’s where she wanted to go, we could do that.

  “They have good drinks.” We both said at the same time. That shit was funny as hell; I couldn’t lie. We rode the rest of the time just making small talk. Even though we hadn’t talked about nothing serious, I was feeling her conversation. The shit just flowed naturally.

  Finally arriving to the restaurant, we asked for a table outside since it was a nice day. We would be able to enjoy the scenery. Once we were seated, we took a look at the menu and placed our orders. Once the order was placed, and they took the menus, there was this awkward silence. She looked at me with those big light brown eyes, but this time, it was a very intense stare. She finally spoke up after a few seconds.

  “Thank you for everything. I’m serious; I really appreciate you for not being an asshole yesterday. I was really freaking out when I hit you, but you were calmer than I was.” She said with a light chuckle. I just sat there taking it all in before responding.

  “It’s cool; I told you that’s just material shit. As long as no one was harmed, that’s all that matters.” I said. She took a sip from her frozen margarita, while I sipped on my Corona. Those margaritas were a little too strong, and I still needed to drive back to her car; not to mention, I was still feeling the effects of last night. Hell, I shouldn’t have been drinking period. The only thing I should’ve been having was water, but the damage was already done now.

  “I really needed this. Thank you, Renzo.”

  “You sound like you’re stressing about something.” I said. She sighed before responding.

  “It’s not that I’m stressing. I’m just starting to feel like life hasn’t been too nice to me lately. I’m just feeling stuck in situations that I don’t really want to be in if that makes any sense.” she said. I could definitely relate to that more than she would even know. That probably would’ve been the perfect time to tell her about Jessa but I honestly didn’t feel that was important.

  “It makes a lot of sense. Maybe your break is coming soon.” I said.

  “I hope so, because I don’t know how much more I’m going to be able to take before I explode.” She said with the somber look. I felt the exact same way, but I decided not to speak on my situation. It was no point, because I was getting ready to move in a completely different direction. I changed the subject, and the rest of lunch was cool. I definitely wanted to hear from her more. I loved the vibe I got from her. She was about to become my new little friend, and she didn’t even know it.

  Chapter 13

  Renee

  Another Monday morning and I tell you Monday was seriously my worst days of the week. I really hated Monday’s and that was such a harsh word but I did. They always seemed to drag for absolutely no reason at all. I sat at work browsing the web when Mr. Bill came in there fucking with me.

  “Renee I need you to run to the store and get some envelopes.” He said pulling a hundred dollar bill from his pocket. I minimized my internet activity as I got up and grabbed my purse. I took the money and went on my way. In the car I made a phone.

  “Hey love how is work going?”

  “Fine, I was calling you to ask the same thing.” I said laughing. He was always stealing my thoughts.

  “Paperwork and more paperwork. One of the drivers got pulled over today so I’m trying to figure out what the hell is going on with that shit.”

  “Aww I hope everything is okay.” I said.

  “Me too but if not I’ll just have to take his load. The only thing is it was an out of town stop. I really don’t feel like driving out of town so if I do have to take it I’ll wait until the weekend so that you could ride with me.” Renzo said. It had been a few weeks since we met but not a day went by that I didn’t hear from him. We were taking things one day at a time we wasn’t rushing anything but I would be lying if I said I didn’t think about the possibilities. He seemed like he was damn near perfect so I was just waiting on the fuck up. We kept everything on the friendship level but I think I was starting to have a little more than friend feelings but right now I would just keep it to myself.

  “How you just going to volunteer my services like that man. Who said I wanted to be around your annoying ass for an entire weekend?” I asked.

  “Damn that hurt.” He said laughing. He knew I was only playing with him. I didn’t mind taking a road trip with him even if it was for business, I was game. Any little time that I got to spend with him I cherished.

  “Just kidding hunny of course I’ll accompany you.”

  “Well what are you doing right now? It doesn’t sound like you’re at work.” He said changing the subject.

  “I’m not, Mr. Bill sent me to come get some damn envelopes like he couldn’t come out and do the shit his self. I’m just trying to put myself in a better mood because right now I’m not feeling today.” I complained. I just needed to vent and Renzo was such a great listener.

  “So I’ve starting getting those blocked calls again.” I said. This time it was me changing the subject.

  “You think it’s th
at nigga?” he asked. I told him about Jacob because one night we had went to the movies and the nigga wouldn’t stop calling my phone. Renzo didn’t ask but I felt it would be rude to have my phone ringing all damn night and not giving him a heads up on why.

  “I don’t know who it is because every time I answer they don’t say anything but I’m getting sick of that shit.”

  “I told your hardheaded ass you need to just go ahead and change your number but nooo you want to keep that old funky ass number. You don’t even have a valid reason why you need that number.”

  “Lies you know I gotta do shipments.” I said. I was trying to think of every reason to keep this number but he was right I didn’t know why I needed it. I had just had the number for a few years and that should’ve been reason enough for me to want to keep the number.

  “Who the hell you think you talking to Renee. Now you know that shit is a lie.”

  “Damn okay whatever. Anyway I want to watch Netflix and chill.” I said changing the subject yet again.

  “Netflix and chill. Yea right you remember what happened last time we tried that.” He said. I remembered exactly what happened but that was his damn fault. He started feeling all on me, rubbing on my legs and shit and we ended up making out. He pushed my panties to the side and stuck two juicy fingers in and instantly I exploded. I was so embarrassed I had to go take a warm shower after that. I came back to the bed and we acted as if nothing had ever happened. Don’t get me wrong I had definitely envisioned his sexy ass on top of me a time or two or maybe more but like I said we was taking this thing one day at a time. Whatever it was we were doing I was really enjoying. We were actually getting to know one another and I think that’s where people went wrong in relationships these days. People didn’t actually date anymore they just hopped into a relationship just to say they was in a relationship I guess.

  “So are you coming over or not silly guy?”

  “As long as you’ll have me I’ll be there.” he said. We talked a few more minutes before wrapping up the phone call. I would see him later it was no need for us to be cup caking on the phone all day plus I had to get back to work. I only had a few more hours to go before my day would be officially over.

  It was six o clock and I was so happy to be free. With traffic I knew it would take me at least forty-five minutes to get home so I decided to play my music. My music definitely put me at ease. It really helped me cope with everyday life. I was finding my happy place again and I had to thank Renzo for that but I was starting to feel like I needed a little more. I wanted a man one that I was able to go to bed with every night, and one that was able to kiss me and wake me up every morning. I wanted to have the talk with Renzo but I didn’t want him to feel like I was putting any pressure on him so I decided to push my feelings to the side and just go with the flow. If it was supposed to happen I truly believed it would. My music stopped because the phone begin to ring. At least this time I didn’t have to screen the damn call.

  “What’s up ma?” I said as soon as I picked up the phone. There was so much noise in the background I couldn’t make out what she was saying.

  “Wyatt and Jacob are going at it Renee. I’ve already called the cops but I just wanted to let you know. They're gonna kill each other. Can you get here quick.” My mother said and then the call was dropped. I tried to call back but each time I got the voicemail. The traffic was thick as hell but I really needed to get to my mother’s place to see what the hell was going on. I didn’t understand why Jacob couldn’t take a damn hint. If I wasn’t done with him before I was sure enough done with his retarded ass now. The entire way there I was freaking out. I called Daria but I don’t know why I did that because she didn’t make the shit no better.

  “He’s what! Oh hell no I’m on my way over there now.” She fussed.

  “No Daria, don’t take Drake over there that’ll only make things worse.” I said.

  “Bitch who said anything about Drake. Drake ain’t even finna know about this here run plus I don’t need him I got Ms. Princess in tow.” She said. Ms. Princess was Daria’s purple pistol. That bitch never let the house without that got damn gun. She would always say its better to be safe than sorry.

  “Just don’t do anything until I get there please. This nigga is really losing it.” I said. I was speaking more to myself than I was speaking to her.

  “I told you not to give that old peon ass nigga no play. He’s not even a nigga in your league so I don’t even know how that shit happened. He’s a downgrade from--”

  “I don’t want to talk about that Daria damn. You know I’m trying to forget about that shit and you want to sit up here and bring that up. Damn man, you know I hate being in my feelings behind that bullshit I have enough going on over here.” I said. The tears slowly slid down my face. I don’t think I ever received the proper closure from that relationship. He was really a good dude but I wanted a bad boy. That’s what the fuck my stupid ass got for going after something I knew good and got damn well I didn’t need. I had everything I needed with him but I wanted to have my cake and eat it too and now he was gone forever. I saw on Facebook that he was getting married in St. Thomas next year. I couldn’t say I was happy for them but I couldn’t say I was sad either. I wanted nothing more than for him to be happy but damn I wanted to catch a break too. They said Karma was a bad bitch and well I guess I was finding that shit out first hand.

  “Renee, they got the fool in handcuffs.”

  “Damn you there already, I’m getting ready to pull up now.” I said as I released the call. When I arrived they had both Wyatt and Jacob sitting on separate curbs in handcuffs. My mom and Daria was standing in the driveway talking to one of the officers. I walked over to Wyatt to try to understand what all took place.

  “Hey sis.”

  “What’s up Wyatt, what the fuck happened here?” I asked. I was kinda scared to find out the answer because I knew that Jacob was the cause of this shit. He was the cause of a lot of heartache and pain within these past two years. I had never dealt with anything this toxic in my damn life.

  “You know what happened. Your little fuck boy nigga came over here on that dumb shit. He came banging on momma’s door scaring her and shit. I was around the corner when she called and I rushed over here and I mean the second I stopped the car the nigga was banging on my window asking where you were. Even if I knew I wasn’t gonna tell his retarded ass so he got mad and tried to bust my fucking window. I got out the car and that nigga swung on me. I blacked out after that.” He said. He took a deep breath probably trying to calm his nerves. I understood fully that nigga made everybody nerves bad.

  “Damn, I’m sorry Wyatt. I don’t mean to drag you into my shit. You got kids and Lisa and well I just feel bad.” I said.

  “Lisa left me a few weeks ago. I’ve been staying with momma I told her not to tell you. I fucked up for real sis. This chick is claiming she’s pregnant.” He said. My brother really did look stressed the hell out. I was usually always against him because he was always doing wrong but he had just come to my defense and on top of that he may have been getting hauled off to jail so I couldn’t kick him while he was down. I really felt sorry for my brother. It seemed like every since our father died he lost track of what was important. I knew his death affected him more than it affected me for the simple fact they were so close but he needed to grieve properly and move along. Carrying all that burden around with him wasn’t good and it would only continue to hurt him in the long run.

  “Damn I’m sorry I’ll talk to her. Let me see what’s going and who’s being charged with what.” I said before getting up and going to my mother. Of course if Jacob had anything to do with it that wouldn’t be happening.

  “So this is what I have to do to see your fucking face. You haven’t taken my call in weeks. What’s-”

  “Sir we have told you already to be quiet. We won’t tell you again.” The officer said. He seemed like he was very annoyed with Jacob and I didn’t blame him hell I was ann
oyed too.

  “Can I have a word with him?” I asked the officer. He looked at me to see if I was sure that was something I wanted to do and I nodded so he moved over a few steps enough to give us a little privacy but close enough to where he could get to me if he needed to.

  “Jacob what’s up? What the hell is wrong with you?” I asked.

  “Renee I’m just trying to talk to you and you are completely shutting me out.”

  “Can you see why Jacob. Look at this shit. You coming over to my moms causing all type of commotion and shit. We can’t do this Jacob. I know I’ve said I was done before and we had our slip-ups but I was dead ass serious when I told you a few weeks ago I was through with you. I can’t do this anymore. I want better and I deserve better. I’ve been sitting around in my feelings for far too long but it’s time for me to do me and the things that make me happy.”

  “Bitch so you think fucking other niggas is the way to go. If I wasn’t in these got damn cuffs I would--”

  “That’s enough. Ma’am are you okay?” The officer asked. I nodded but I wasn’t. Jacob was so cruel to me and I had been nothing more than be good to him. It was niggas like him who made it hard for the next nigga that came along. I used to think Jacob and I could really have something but the past year had been nothing but an up and down roller coaster. I wanted to press charges on his evil ass but I decided to let life deal with him but I was definitely done. I was washing my hands with that fool.

  I walked over to my mother who grabbed me in for a hug. After the police got their statement they let my brother go and the hauled Jacob’s ass to jail. They also towed his car since it was parked in my mother’s driveway and she didn’t want it there. We sat around talking for about an hour before Renzo called and said he was on his way. Today had been very eventful but I knew that laying under Renzo would make me feel better. It always did. His presence put me at ease as much as I didn’t want to admit it Renzo was all that I needed.