Hallowed Ground

by David Niall Wilson

  "Well," Jeanne said, as if considering the man's words, "I see what you mean. I have no such scrap of dead tree to bind my bargain in blood. I come from an earlier time, a time of honor. In that day, a man – or woman – spoke their truth, and they stood behind it. The words were enough to bind. I thought you'd remember."

  The stranger looked at Jeanne Dubois as if seeing her for the first time. After a moment, his empty smile returned, and he bowed.

  Something yanked Benjamin downward with incredible force. He clung to the witch's wrist, unable to scream. He was buried to his waist in the packed dirt of the road and sinking. She held him fast.

  "It has been a long time," the dark man said.

  "It will be a long time again, I think," Jeanne replied. She did not smile.

  In that instant, everything shifted. Jeanne yanked back on Benjamin's arm, and there was a wet, tearing sound. In that same instant, fast as a snake, she snatched at the contract in the dark stranger's hand. He moved – and he was fast – but she owned the grace and speed of moonlight.

  He stepped into shadows. The raven took flight in a screaming cacophony of flapping wings and screeching, raucous caws. The contract tore. It was not a clean tear. It started at the edge of the page and ripped a jagged line at an angle downward, splitting the signature cleanly.

  Benjamin saw none of this. He stared down at where his torso had once joined his legs. Bone and gristle, flesh and dripping blood trailed away toward the yawning hole where his legs had disappeared. He tried to scream but sucked blood and air into disassociated lungs.

  Jeanne's image flickered, shifted, and again there was a sickening wrench as she drove her legs, now talons, into the soil and kicked into flight. Bright, silvery wings spread out to either side. She whirled in that instant, latched onto Benjamin's ruined form and soared. Within seconds she cleared the tops of the nearest trees and was gone.

  The dark stranger stood at the crossroads, staring after her. The ground had drawn in and sealed itself. He stood still as a statue, and then, from deep inside his thin, powerful frame, laughter burst forth. It didn't start slowly and build, but rolled out like thunder. The frost, which had momentarily warmed and begun to melt, became a sheet of solid, crystal ice that coated ground and trees. The sound of his laughter cracked it, and everything near him shattered, falling away as so much frigid dust.

  Carefully, he rolled the torn contract. He leaned and shot his hand into the earth with no more effort than that of a child sticking his hand into a snow drift. He pulled free a long, slender tube, and slid the document inside. When it was sealed, he tucked it under his jacket, turned, and walked away down one of the crossed trails. As he reached the edge of the shadows of the first great trees, he began to fade from sight. A few paces more, and he had disappeared completely. Only the dusting of frost, and a fallen quill, carved from a raven's feather, marked his passing.

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  As if waking from a dream, Mariah became aware of the fire, still crackling in front of her. The day had passed. The shadow of the wagon had grown long and engulfed them, only to disappear as it neared the blaze. Balthazar sat beside her, hands steepled and an odd, contemplative expression masking his angular features. He'd fallen silent. Or…she shook her head, confused. Had he even spoken?

  "That can't be all," she said. She found her throat dry again. Was it possible they'd sat there through the afternoon, and the early evening? Could it be night? She reached out and picked up her drink. It was still cold.

  "No story is ever truly over," Balthazar said. He sat up straighter, unfolded his hands, and turned to gaze at her.

  "Lives and stories are circular. Everything is a pattern. You are correct in guessing that this one is unfinished."

  He held up the torn document again. Mariah's mouth dropped open as comprehension drowned coherent thought. The bottom third of the document was missing. It was torn directly through the signature. What remained, as well as she could make it out, was the name Benjamin.

  Balthazar offered no further comment. He rolled the document, tucked it back into its tube, and stood.

  "The night is upon us," he said. "You'll need to eat, and then, it will be time for rest. Battles are seldom won by the weak. There are things you need to know before we can proceed – and things you need to remember. I will … watch over you. There is a bed in the back of the wagon. It's not luxurious, by any means, but I believe you'll find it clean and comfortable."

  "Who are you," she asked him again.

  He stared at her, not a hint of emotion in evidence, and shook his head. "Everything you need to know, you already hold here," he patted his head, "or here," he touched his hand to his heart. "Don't ask me questions you'd rather not hear the answer to out loud…that is my advice to you. Eat, sleep, get your strength back, and be patient. All things come in their time."

  Mariah opened her mouth, and then closed it. She stared off across the dancing flames of the fire, and Balthazar turned to his wagon. In the shadows at the perimeter of the camp, shapes materialized, flickered, and disappeared. They were tall, slender shapes. Mariah thought she recognized them, but their forms were insubstantial, and every time she tried too hard to concentrate on features, or a face, they blew apart in the wind and left her grasping at memories.

  They were men, but not men. At times, great black wings spread out behind them, like those of huge dark-eyed ravens, or crows. Their faces were pale and draped in shadow, and if she watched long enough, and one turned, it seemed she could make out the long, sharp beak. They ringed the camp as though standing guard, and though she knew she should be frightened by such a thing, what she was was curious – and frustrated. Something itched at the back of her mind and tugged at her temper. She knew these – things – but she could not draw the memory to the surface.

  At some point the scent of searing meat told her Balthazar was cooking again, and as hard as she tried to ignore him and concentrate on those others, her body betrayed her. She was ravenous. Her mouth prickled with it, and she licked her lips. Her stomach screamed to be filled, and she felt weak again.

  The shadows melted into the night. When Balthazar handed her a plate, a slab of meat and some sort of vegetable he'd fried in the grease, she wolfed the food, unheeding of his warning to take things slowly. The plate was empty in moments, and she glanced up. Her first instinct was to ask for more, but then she suddenly realized she was no longer hungry.

  Balthazar took her plate and stepped back.

  "The bed is in back," he said again. Then he turned away.

  Mariah was exhausted. She lifted herself from the chair, where she'd sat all that day, and her legs nearly betrayed her. She steadied herself on the arm of her chair, took a deep breath, and tottered to the wagon. She worked her way down the side, using it for balance. She wondered if Balthazar was watching. She thought he wasn't, but she didn't waste the strength to turn and check.

  After what seemed like hours, she reached the rear of the wagon. There was a single step, and it was nearly at her waist level. Above the dark interior of the wagon waited. She laid her cheek against the side of the rear panel of the wagon. It was too far – too high. She felt as if she might fall, or just lean there, letting the wagon support her weight as she drifted off into oblivion.

  From very far off, she heard a sound. It was very faint, and she thought maybe it came from behind her, but then it shifted. It came from the wagon…from the shadows. It was the voice of a child, a newborn, crying. It was the voice of regret, the voice of loneliness and pain. She gripped the wagon so tightly her fingers grew white from the strain and lifted her leg so that her knee found the first step. She saw this would not work, that the next step – the floor of the wagon – was too high, and with a groan of pain, she lifted her leg again and brought her foot up to the step, bending at the waist. The crying redoubled, and she cried out.

  With a lunge that spent every bit of her remaining strength, she clawed her way up and over the lip of the wagon's rear door
, spilling onto the floor. There was almost no light, but it was enough. Ahead, to her left, was a rough mattress, covered with dark blankets. She crawled to it, scraping her knees and her hands on the rough plank floor, dragged herself onto the bedding, and closed her eyes. The crying faded slowly, as if moving away from her. She dropped into fitful dreams, chasing the sound and yearning for her child.

  Balthazar stood at the rear of the wagon, watched her just for a moment, silhouetted in the moonlight, and then gently closed the wagon door, cutting off the night.

  Chapter Fourteen

  Colleen Daisy Tranter woke in darkness.

  There were things that needed to be done, things, she was sure, that needed to be said, but she wasn’t in a mood for doing or saying. She lay in the darkness and tried to get her bearings. When she'd first come under the influence of Silas Boone, she'd been young, and pretty, a girl of only eight years. She'd also been afraid of the dark. Nothing about Silas Boone, or the life he'd given her, had provided a reason to let go of that fear. Some fears were worth holding onto. It didn’t matter that she was twenty-three, not eight, or that the years had stolen her beauty. She hadn’t felt pretty for a long time. The darkness had become a constant companion, fuelled by her imagination and full of horrors just beyond her sight.

  She lay still, listening and remembering; the world moved around her but she was removed from it. The sounds of the darkness were far from comforting. Still, she listened to the unfamiliar grunting and sighing of the Deacon’s flock as they moved about their labors. There were those more comfortable working, and living, by night. They worked to the sound of the lonely caws of the crows, a melancholy song if ever there was one, and to the distant ghosts of music and laughter far away on the other side of Rookwood. She heard all of this, and she listened, but she captivated by the voices of the Deacon’s freaks.

  It wasn’t just the darkness, or the strange dislocated sensation she'd felt since awakening that frightened her now. It was where she was and the knowledge of who she was with. Her thoughts returned to The Deacon . . . she felt the ghost of his touch on her breast. It was the least sexual of contacts she had ever experienced. And yet . . . and yet it had gone deeper than physical contact. He had had been inside of her, reached into her soul. That was the only way she could think of it. He had reached into her soul and he had healed it, somehow. She didn’t understand, but on some instinctive level she knew understanding wasn't necessary.

  What was important was that she had answered the holy man’s call. She remembered the incense and the smoke, and some of the words, the Deacon telling the congregation that she walked in the darkness – how right that had sounded to her - and most of all, the overwhelming power of his voice. She'd felt a physical need to approach him, as though some part of her soul needed to be with him. That was the one undeniable truth. She had gone to him because she had to – something deep inside her had compelled her.

  But she hadn’t been ill; the Doc had checked her out a dozen times in the last year as part of the service he offered Boone. She’d been given a clean bill of health every time, maybe accompanied by some unguent for the stinging in her private parts, and a stiff brandy to purge any lingering bacteria. The worst she'd had was a dose of the clap, hardly life threatening.

  The memory of The Deacon's hand on her breast lingered. She recalled that tiny flare of light shared between the two of them as he touched her – how she'd stepped into that touch.

  And out of the light, the serpent.

  Had she been dying inside, slowly? Was that it? Had there been some sort of cancer eating away at her while she was oblivious to it? She didn't know what the serpent had been, but she felt its absence, and marvelled.

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  Before long, the freaks found her.

  It was as though thinking about The Deacon drew them to her.

  There were three of them, sisters of grief, mourning and lament. Suffering was etched into each of their faces, the lines of their lives ground in hard. Their stories were inked in pain, and scored into their skin.

  "The Deacon wants you," the tallest of the three said, "and he is not a man that likes to be kept waiting."

  "Patience is not his virtue," the shortest echoed.

  The middle one said nothing.

  Colleen pushed herself up out of the blankets and tried to stand, but her legs were weak and they buckled beneath her. She would have sunk back down onto the bed but the sisters didn't let her. They swooped in, withered little arms slipping out from beneath the black folds of their mourning dresses to grasp her at elbow and thigh. Then with strength that belied their brittle bones, they hauled her up to her feet.

  The chill of the night air hit her like a physical slap, stinging her back to awareness.

  "Best not to keep him waiting," the tallest said, steering her by the elbow.

  She followed, dragging her feet. She felt nauseous. Her head spun. She looked down at her feet as they swam in and out of focus.

  "Head up, girl," the shortest sister told her, and with a bony finger under the chin lifted it. "And smile, he saved your life. Be thankful."

  Still the middle sister said nothing. She walked, stern faced and forbidding, two steps behind, pushing Colleen forward every couple of steps when she faltered. The Deacon’s camp was a hive of concentrated activity, his misfits laboring with crates and baskets and hauling on guide ropes as they erected another canvas construction. It wasn’t a pavilion, though it was similar in size to the Deacon’s private tent. The sisters steered her through a line of wagons and lean-tos

  At one a curious-looking dwarf in colourful patchwork of pants splashed paint over the side of a wagon. He might have been painting a rainbow or hiding a world away in the spiral of colors and she would never have been able to tell. Colleen stopped and smiled, earning another firm shove in the back. The dwarf inclined his head and assayed a paint-dripping bow. It brought a smile to her lips.

  She tried to keep it in place. She really did.

  As the tent flaps were drawn back and she stumbled into the Deacon’s private pavilion, she did her best to summon the same smile she used on the johns to lure them between her legs. That half-smile died on her lips. There was no lust in the man’s eyes as he looked up from nursing the baby in his arms.

  "Ah, Colleen, I see the good sisters found you," the Deacon said, without rising. He put his finger between the child’s lips so that it might suckle. "Come in, join me. Sisters, you have done me a kindness but you are not needed now, the night is yours, go, play, have fun."

  The notion of the three women being capable of fun was almost absurd. Colleen stifled an impolite chuckle.

  She sat on the edge of the mattress, not quite beside him. There was something unnerving about the draw the man exerted. It went beyond the sexual. She had felt lust before. She knew what it meant to want to open herself to a man. It wasn’t like this. She wanted him inside her, yes, but not there, not like that. She struggled to put words on the thought. It was an almost spiritual yearning. It felt as though some part of her resided in him and called out to her to make it whole.

  "How are you, my dear?"

  How was she? It was a simple question but she couldn’t answer it. Not honestly.

  "Well." She said. It was the best of lies, but then she always had been a good liar. He seemed to know she was lying. He smiled indulgently.

  "It takes a little time, but you will feel whole again, I promise. The sickness is gone. Not merely the sickness of the flesh, but the taint that gripped your soul. You felt it, didn’t you? You felt all of that vileness purged from your being. Every touch from every grubby man desperate to drive into you, to own you, you felt the filth of each disgusting wretch drawn out of you. And now you are clean, Colleen Daisy Tranter. So, tell me; what will you do next? Have you thought about it?"

  She shook her head slightly.

  The Deacon nodded as though that were perfectly understandable under the circumstances. "You are more than welcome here.
Family is more than blood in our world. I feel a certain responsibility for each of my flock, those I have healed, and those yet to feel the generosity of my touch. You don’t have to go back to being what you were. That doesn’t have to be the beginning and end of your story."

  Had that been a deliberately sexual reference? She felt something inside her quicken at the thought, imagining the warmth of his hands on her. Again, she was drawn to him. She shuffled closer along the mattress and felt it shift beneath her weight. The echo of his touch brought a surge of heat, pumped through every vein and artery, and she remembered. It still wasn’t sexual.

  She watched him toy with the pendant that hung around his neck. It was a curious thing. He saw her watching and smiled. She licked the dry edges of her lips. She had bitten them raw without realising it.

  "It is my gift," he said, "nothing more. I was put here on this earth to heal; it is what I do. That is an aspect of my story. But it is neither the beginning nor the end. Indeed, no story truly begins, nor for that matter, ends. You might have been reborn in the revival tent, but you were there before, you walked into the hall, you rutted for money, ate, drank, slept and lived. You did all of that before I touched you, so can your story begin there? I think not. What about the moment when you came kicking and screaming out of the womb? Or does it begin on the day your father planted his seed between your mothers willing – or unwilling - thighs? Who is to say it doesn’t begin before, when they first met? For that matter, does it end when you die, or will your legacy live on? Will your life touch others? All of these things are for you to decide, and depend very much on how you chose to live your life. That, dear girl, is down to you and only you. In all of these possibilities there are no beginnings and no ends, not truly. We are linked now, you and I, our stories intertwined in this moment. You can feel it, can’t you?"

  Colleen nodded. She could.

  She had been aware of it from the moment she opened her eyes to the darkness. They shared a bond now that went beyond those few minutes up on his stage. "You healed me," she said.