by D. C. Hall
“Kind of. I probably won’t seriously look until Gertrude and Theodore have retired.”
“So, not for a long time?”
“After the holidays.” Williams responded. Nathan came to a full stop.
“They’re retiring?” Why had no one mentioned this to him?
“Yeah, they decided on that when they found out their daughter was pregnant.”
“Oh, I didn’t know.” Nathan said. It took him a moment to regroup. His hands went back to Williams’s shoulders. “Are you going to be okay when they leave?”
“I guess I’ll have to be. At least I’ll know if they care about me or if it’s just the money.” Williams stated. Nathan stopped again.
“Those two love you to death. It’s not just money.” He was almost offended for them. Gertrude loved him like a son, and he was questioning it.
“I get scared sometimes.” He said softly. “It's stupid. I've seen them as my parents for a long time, but I still end up being afraid that they'll retire and not speak to me again.”
“That's not going to happen.” Nathan responded. Williams sighed and turned to lay on his back. Nathan laid a hand on his thigh and squeezed gently. “No one is going to just leave you by yourself.”
“You say that now. Another four years and our contract is up.” Nathan furrowed his brow and shifted where he sat.
“…What does that mean?” he asked.
“You said no one is going to leave me. Did you plan on sticking around after the contract is over?” Williams said. Nathan tried to ignore the sting from the question. He pulled his hand back to rest in his lap. Williams laid there like he wasn't expecting an answer. Nathan let out a sigh.
“Do you want me to be here?” Nathan asked. If Williams asked, he wouldn't lie. That question had irritated and hurt him. Williams looked up to him looking shocked. He could see the disappointment in the other man's eyes. He sat up quickly and took his hand into his own.
“Of course, I do. You’re my friend. I'm sorry I said that. I wasn’t thinking.” Williams stated with mild panic. Nathan was still irritated but less so then before. It was apparent that Williams didn't know what to say, and Nathan didn't have anything to add. He thought that meant that he should probably get up and leave. He didn't have time to think about that.
Nathan found himself laying on his back with Williams on his chest with his arms wrapped around him tightly. There was a surge of panic run through him, but he quickly calmed down. He knew that Williams wouldn't do anything to hurt him. He kissed Nathan's cheek before placing his head in the crook of his neck. Nathan laid there a moment before ultimately hugging him back. The hurt in his chest was being replaced by warmth.
“I didn't mean to upset you.” Williams stated. Nathan wasn’t sure what to say. So, he just hugged him harder. Williams knew he’d have to work on this. It was one thing to upset himself occasionally, but he didn’t want to do that to Nathan.
***
Williams straddled Nathan’s hips. They were on the bed in Williams’s room with every intention of using that rain check from the week before. Nathan let his fingertips trail over the other man’s forearms up to the rolled up sleeves.
“This is where we were, wasn’t it?” Williams asked, voice low as he untucked Nathan’s shirt and started on some of the lower buttons.
“It seems about right?” Nathan responded. He bit his lower lip in thought. He wanted to ask a question but wasn’t sure what the outcome would be. Should he ask anyway? What would be the harm? He took the other man’s hands into his gently. “Eugene?” he said causing Williams’s gaze to fall on his face. Nathan only really called him by his first name in times of intimacy or when he needed his attention. Either way, it always made him look.
“Yeah?”
“I want to ask something, but don’t get ahead of yourself. I’m just asking.” He let go of his hands since he had his attention.
“Okay?” he was confused but listening intently.
“What would you do if I let you fuck me?” he asked and felt like his insides twisted. It felt dangerous to even ask the question. He felt like Williams would use that as an excuse to do what Antoine tried to do. Even if that wasn’t likely to happen. Williams furrowed his brow.
“Are you asking how I would respond, or are you asking me how I would do it?” he questioned. Nathan thought for a moment.
“Both.”
“Well, I think I would start by asking if you were sure.” Williams stated. Nathan listened, still very aware that the other man was sitting on his hips. “This probably sounds stupid, but I would do whatever I could to make you feel safe.” Nathan chewed on his lower lip as he thought. “Why are you asking me?”
“I just… I just thought that you might want to switch things up from time to time. Not everyone likes to be on bottom all the time.”
“I’m fine. Don’t make yourself do anything that’s going to make you feel unsafe.” Williams leaned down and kissed him softly. “There’s plenty of ways to change things up, if you feel like we should.”
“That may not be the only reason.”
“Oh?” Nathan’s face was beet red.
“Sometimes, I just really want you to fuck me.” Might as well get everything out in the open. Williams looked like he didn’t process what had been said to him. “You alright?”
“I’m sorry. I think I short circuited.” Williams said, getting a snort from the other man. He ran his hand through his own hair with a huff of laughter. “I mean, if you want me to. I’d be more than happy to help.”
“Like I said, don’t get ahead of yourself. I don’t think I’d actually be up for that for a while.” Nathan stated. Williams laid down flat against the other man with a smile. Maybe, he shouldn’t have told him. He looked a little too happy.
“Take your time. We’ve still got four more years that I’m contractually obligated to do whatever you want.” He gave him a quick peck on the lips.
“You’d be up for anything?”
“I did not say that. If you come up with something like knife play, I’ll be requesting a judge.”
“Knife play?” Nathan looked concerned. “Was the fist fight not good enough?” Williams chuckled and rested his chin on the other man's chest. Nathan let his hands run over Williams’s sides. He wondered why Williams had gone with wearing a button up and vest. He looked wonderful in them, but they seemed a bit odd considering what their intention had been.
“I’m guessing you weren't aware of that kink?”
“No, I can't say that I was. I'm going to hope you don't have that one.”
“No, I don’t. I’ve read about plenty of kinks, but I don't have many.” He said and Nathan gave him a little smirk. They were starting to get relaxed in the position they were in.
“Mind if I ask what's on your reading list?”
“Is that something you really want to know? You don't strike me as the kind that knows about many fetishes.”
“I’m sure it’s not much more out of line than knife play. What’s the weirdest kind you’ve read?”
“Lets not go to weirdest right of the bat. How about intermediate?”
“Sure.”
“Just keep in mind, I didn’t seek any of these out. I just liked the covers. So, I read them okay?”
“Okay.” Nathan responded, his hands went to rest in the small of Williams’s back. The other man’s weight was comforting.
“…Monster fucker.” He chuckled at the look on Nathan’s face. It looked both horrified and confused.
“Maybe, I’m a little more vanilla than I thought.” Williams gave him a brief kiss on the lips.
“What about light bondage?” Williams asked, looking intrigued. He remembered when Nathan had tied his wrists in the car, when they first met. Nathan narrowed his eyes at him.
“You know damn well, you aren’t tying me up.”
“Not you. I meant you could tie my wrists behind my back.”
“Would you want to do that?”
Nathan asked. He was aware of the arousal that was starting to form in himself.
“Sure, why not?” he shrugged. He was aware the hand that had drifted lower to cup his ass cheek.
“You trust me enough to let me tie your hands together?”
“I’m pretty sure that if you were going to do something to me, you would have already done it. Now, is it something you want to do?”
“I mean, we could try. It could be fun.” He squeezed Williams ass idly. The other hand still rested on his lower back. “We should have a safe word.”
“I’m rather impartial to the word ‘stop’.” Williams responded.
“Okay. I guess that’s fair.” His cheeks reddened slightly.
“What did you have in mind?”
“We don’t have to talk about that.”
“Well now, I want to know.”
“…Pumpernickel.” His face reddened even more when Williams chuckled. “It’s not that funny.” Williams smiled at him brightly before kissing him again. Nathan still felt a little embarrassed but didn’t let that stop him from kissing him back. Now, he let both hands rest on Williams’s ass and squeezed in sequence. It made Williams think of a cat kneading. Nathan hummed lightly as he deepened the kiss, his mouth working against his.
Williams stroked Nathan’s hair and traced a finger down the back of his neck. Nathan shivered at that before pulling his lips back. Williams grunted at the sudden lose of contact.
“You want to do this? You know, the hands behind your back thing?” Nathan asked, cheeks flushed. He could feel where his pants were starting to get tighter. If they kept going, he wanted to know for sure what the plan was.
“Let’s try it.” Williams crawled off of him and stood by the bed. His own arousal was evident. Nathan bit his lower lip as he stood and looked over the other man’s body. A part of his mind said rip Williams’s clothes off of him now. The most sensible part said that the clothes were expensive, and he would feel guilty later. Williams pulled his own tie off before handing it over to Nathan and turning around. He held his wrists together behind his back and waited.
Nathan could feel himself getting harder as he made two loops with the fabric and tightened it around Williams’s forearms. Williams tested the hold and found that he wouldn’t be able to get out without assistance. Nathan would be having a panic attack about now, but Williams just felt excited. He turned back around to see a concerned look on Nathan’s face.
“What’s wrong?” Williams asked.
“Are you sure about this?” Nathan asked, placing his hands on the other man’s hips softly.
“I am. Do you still want to?” he questioned thinking that Nathan wanted to back out.
“Yeah, I want to.” Nathan responded. He leaned down to meet his lips. Williams let his eyes drift shut as a hum escaped him. His hands wanted to comb through Nathan’s hair again, but the tie wouldn’t budge. Nathan pulled back again causing Williams to stagger. “You would tell me to stop, right?”
“Yes, I would tell you to stop.” Williams raised on his tip toes to try to catch his lips again, but Nathan was too tall.
“You trust me?” Nathan asked, deep concern in his eyes. Williams sighed before looking up at him again.
“Look, Nathan. I want to make this clear. I do want to do this. I trust you with most everything. I have no doubt in my mind that if you think that you’re hurting me, that you’ll stop.” He said and saw the other man relax. “Now, I really want you to fuck me. So, for as long as my hands are tied, I’m all yours, sexy.”
Apparently, that was all Nathan needed. He grabbed the front of his shirt and yanked him in a hard kiss. Williams thought if he had cut it any closer, they would have clicked their teeth together. He shut his eyes again as Nathan kissed him in a way that he could only describe as hungry. Nathan’s grip loosened on his shirt as he pulled back to start sucking at Williams’s neck just as hard as the kiss had been.
Williams moaned, his hands suddenly restless, but he wouldn’t tell Nathan to untie him. He was sure there would be hickys covering his throat tomorrow. Hopefully, Gertrude wouldn’t get too upset with them. Williams felt the front of his pants growing tighter as his arousal grew. It was going to start aching soon. Nathan licked up the side of his neck, drawing a shiver from him.
Nathan finally drew back and started unbuttoning Williams’s vest. By the time he reached the bottom, he felt like it was excessive. Then, he started on the button up shirt. The ache between his legs made him want to just rip through them, but he wouldn’t.
“Can I ask why so many buttons.” Nathan asked as his fingers started to fumble.
“Maybe, I wanted you to work for it.”
“Oh, I’m working for it all right. You just wait. I’m gonna-“ he didn’t finish that statement after the last button came undone, and he dove back into kissing Williams. His lips sucked at his shoulder while his hands went to his waist, squeezing gently at some of the soft flesh there. Williams moaned again as Nathan's hands fumbled with his belt buckle. He had to back away to see what he was doing. Finally, he got it off.
“Do you like being spanked?” Nathan asked, snapping the belt together to make a cracking sound. Williams’s eyes widened momentarily at the sadistic look in the other man's eyes.
“N-no.” Nathan tossed the belt away before going back to Williams. He nudged him back to lay on the bed. “Do you like being spanked?”
“A little.” He answered, putting himself over the other man. Williams found it a little intimating to have Nathan so close while his hands were pinned behind his back. Nathan went back to pressing his lips to Williams’s skin, now, in the middle of his chest. One hand held him up while the other slid his fingers over his side. Williams leaned his head back and closed his eyes. His breathing started to get quicker as Nathan seemed to drift lower. He sucked in when he felt Nathan palm his erection through his pants.
“Oh, god.” He moaned. He could feel Nathan smile against his skin before pressing one last kiss to his stomach. He stood up and hooked a finger under the button on Williams’s pants. The way his hips buck made Nathan bite his lip.
“You're so sexy.” Nathan said, pulling Williams’s pants and boxers down his legs and finally off past his feet. Nathan tried not to think of Williams as a present all tied up for him, but he looked so good laying there. Nathan could feel his own cock throbbing. He reached to the night stand and grabbed the bottle of lube.
He may have been a little too liberal with the lube, but he didn't care. He was generous with what he put on his dick. Then, he used the rest to work Williams open. He loved the sound coming from Williams as two fingers massaged his prostate. Nathan pulled his fingers out leaving Williams wanting, but he knew he wouldn't be for long.
Nathan lined himself up sliding into Williams. They moaned together at the feeling. He laid forward to kiss him while he thrust. Williams gripped the sheets behind his back and bucked his hips in time with Nathan's thrusting. Williams pressed his tongue into Nathan’s mouth while Nathan focused on his thrusting. Nathan moaned and started to move faster. His breathing was heavy. Williams knew that Nathan wasn't going to last much longer. He was mildly afraid he wouldn't be able to finish in time. Would he have to finish himself, or would Nathan jack him off?
Nathan's movements started to get more erratic. He tried to calm himself, but it was no use. His whole body shivered as he came. He pulled out and back to look at the other man. Williams’s erection was still standing, leaking a bit. Williams expected a lot of things, but he didn't expect for Nathan to lower to his knees and press his lips to his tip.
“Oh fuck, Nathan!” he moaned as he felt a tongue move up his shaft and Nathan's mouth suck him in. His head fell back as he panted. Nathan kept moving, his head bobbing slowly. He let his tongue caress the bottom of his shaft as he went. Williams tried to keep still and just enjoy it, but he couldn't help to buck his hips. Nathan took him fully into his mouth and sucked. “oooohhh, fuck. I-I can't last much longer.” Nathan d
idn't stop. Instead, he pressed two fingers back into Williams, feeling the slick of where he had already cum. He rubbed his prostate slowly but deliberately in time with the movement of his mouth.
The noises that were coming from Williams were obscene. Nathan could feel his dick throbbing in his mouth and could taste some of the precum leaking from his tip. He wouldn’t last much longer. Williams was in ecstasy and misery. It felt so good. His body felt like it was levitating. But, he wanted desperately to grab Nathan’s hair or his shoulders. He wanted to feel something of him with his hands. It didn’t matter. His hips jerked and his toes curled as he came. His body relaxed as Nathan moved away, swallowing what had been shot into his mouth.
“Want me to untie you?” Nathan asked.
“In a minute.” Williams said. He was still breathing hard. Nathan sat on the bed next to him and waited. Williams eventually came down off the high and sat up. Nathan undid the tie and pulled it away. Williams rubbed his forearms before looking over to Nathan with a sigh. “Would you like to take a bath with me?”
“Sure.”
***
They were already clean. Now, they were just relaxing in the warm water. The bathtub was larger than any that Nathan had seen before, but it just made it easy for them to stretch their legs. Nathan had his back pressed to the edge of the tub while Williams leaned against his chest. Nathan had one arm propped on the side of the tub while the other was wrapped around Williams’s waist.
Williams had his head laid back on Nathan’s shoulder with his eyes shut. He had never been this comfortable in someone’s arms. If he wasn’t careful, he’d drift off to sleep. Nathan found himself looking at the other man’s soft features with a content smile. He wanted to press their lips together, but he didn’t want to disturb him. It was nice to see him so peacefully.
Nathan took his free hand and gently played with the soft curls on Williams’s head. Williams gave a soft smile but didn’t move. His smile made Nathan want to melt. He idly wondered when they reached this point. It had been several months since he had told Brad that he wanted to know more about Williams. Now, he did, and he craved to know more. He could feel butterflies in his stomach. Nathan knew that his friendship with Williams was starting to turn into a bit more of a crush.