BABY BLUES_Satan Seed MC

by Naomi West

  “Yes, and yes, I remember.”

  “I want you to run for it as soon as we’re done here,” he says. “Run as fast as you can and then crouch down on the floor, put your hands over your ears, and don’t move for anything. I’ll come get you when it’s over. Now hand me that gas.”

  I hand him a metal container of gasoline, grunting with the effort. He takes it with one hand and starts pouring gas all over the garage.

  “Take that one there.” He nods at another container. “Spread it all over the place, especially the walls.”

  “Okay.” I do as he says, splashing the walls with gasoline, struggling to lift it over my head to get the top of the walls. I’m careful, but some of the gasoline splashes back onto my face and clothes. By the time we’re done, standing at the entrance, I reek of the stuff.

  “Shit, a lighter,” Dante says. “Wait here.”

  He returns a moment later with a flip lighter.

  “You need to leave now,” he says. “No arguments.”

  “What are you going to do?” I ask.

  He flips the lighter. The flame lights his face. His eyes are dark, and yet there’s a glint in them. It reminds me of the tip of a blade. He looks dead-sharp and just plain deadly. “I’m going to fight,” he says. “Now go.”

  I’m going to leave. There’s no way I’m saying here and getting involved in what’s about to happen. He’s right about that. But I can’t leave just like this. I grab his face and kiss him, hard, kiss him with the kind of passion only the prospect of never being able to kiss him again can produce. I kiss him until the fire between our bodies is hotter than the fire of the flip lighter. He kisses me back even harder, pushing his tongue into my mouth. I push my tongue against his, the tips brushing, nerves flaring, pleasure exploding. I grab his arms, his muscular arms, and move my hands down to his hands, his strong hands. He has closed the lighter but the metal is still warm.

  Then he abruptly steps back. “You have to leave,” he says. “Because if you keep kissing me, I might go with you. I might leave my men to die and go with you and start that life we talked about. I might be tempted to screw the club and screw everything that isn’t us. When I kiss you, Selena, it ain’t like any sort of kissing I’ve ever done before. When I kiss you, it’s like you’re speaking to me. I know how that makes me sound but it’s the truth. It’s like you’re speaking right into my mind. I don’t know.” He sighs. “I’ve never been too good at explaining how I feel.”

  “I understand,” I assure him. “I feel the same.”

  “You do?”

  “Of course I do.”

  He flips open the lighter again, the flame framing his features. “Then go,” he says. “Go and hide, and if I die, know that I love you, ma’am. I love you, and I don’t give a damn about reason.”

  “I love you,” I reply, heart flooding with emotion. I kiss him one last time and then leave, jogging down the street toward Whisper’s car. I stop at the end of the road and glance back.

  The flames consume the garage with frightening speed, chewing through the walls and lashing at the roof supports. The roof creaks, and then cracks, and then collapses. I turn and run and keep running until I’ve reached the car. I do as Dante said, crouching down in the footwell and putting my hands over my ears, but even with my hands over my ears I can hear the gunshots.

  They start infrequently at first, a few bang-bangs that might be fireworks. But then they come almost without pause, a steady string of gunfire.

  And any single one of those shots could mean Dante’s death. Every time I hear a shot my body seizes up tighter, and tighter and tighter until I can barely think. Then something strange happens. I disconnect from my body as I did all those times with Clint, but now instead of watching myself, I fly through the air and stare down at Dante. Each bullet fires into his corpse, the men crowded around him, firing down into his face until its nothing more than red-white mush. Each bullet which rings across from the clubhouse is just another piece of lead in the man I love.

  I tell myself that this is stress, that it doesn’t make any sense, that I have no idea who’s firing those bullets. But that doesn’t change that I see. Bang, bang, bang … and Dante is dead, stone-dead, and there might be a baby growing inside of me and now my baby is going to be without a father. My child will ask how his or her father died and I’ll have to explain about the torrent of bullets and the unrecognizable corpse.

  I curse myself: “Stop it, stop it now. Have faith in him. He knows what he’s doing.”

  I can only hope that’s true.

  Chapter Twenty

  Dante

  I back off to the street opposite the main entrance, lying on my belly with my guns gathered around me, my ammo piled next to them, looking down the sights of my rifle and waiting. I’m hidden in the dark, a shadow lying in the shadows, but even so I’ll need to be accurate. If I give them enough time to find out where I am, it’ll mean my death.

  The fire does its work for me. It eats the garage, chewing through it like red-yellow teeth, and then leaps from the garage to the clubhouse, shattering glass and clinging onto the rafters. A few flickers, spitting, and then the flickers rush into the air, kicking thirty feet toward the sky. I wait patiently, trying not to think about Selena and trying not to let the frantic beating of my heart distract me. Dimly, I hear men yelling. I think I hear Brose roaring at his men to do something.

  And then the first Wraith comes running out of my clubhouse. He takes two steps forward before my bullet catches him in the forehead, sending him flying back into the door. He collapses, bleeding and gurgling. I don’t let myself feel anything at the sight of the dead man. It’s either the Wraiths or the Saints, and that ain’t a hard choice since the Wraiths killed my brother and tried to kill Selena, not to mention me. Two more Wraiths run out. I gather that the gunshots are hidden within the crackling of the fire since they look down at their fallen friend in confusion. Their confusion swiftly turns to death when I pull the trigger, a line of bullets cutting across both of them.

  Then the return fire starts.

  It comes from the windows, firing blindly into the dark. Bullets chip at the ground all around me, throwing up pieces of concrete like shrapnel. I duck my head and fire back, picking my shots carefully. My bullets crunch through glass and brick and flesh, killing three men from three windows, and when the bullets start again I just start firing again. When my rifle runs out of ammo I pick up my submachinegun and keep going, firing like a crazed man, not thinking, not feeling, just firing. I turn myself into a machine.

  When the fire begins to chew through the clubhouse, I know I have to move. Smoke fills the building, gathering outside the windows like steam from a sauna. I pick up my shotgun and run across the street, barrel aimed, senses honed. A man charges out of the building. I pump him in the chest. Two more men; two more corpses. I push into the building, checking the corners, shirt pulled up around my mouth because there’s so much smoke.

  When I reach the bar I run to Lion and drop my knife to him. He catches it in his clasped hands and cuts the ropes tying his wrists whilst I keep watch. Without saying anything, he goes around cutting the ropes of everybody else. When all the men are free, I turn to Lion. “Where the fuck is Brose?” I say, voice wheezing from the smoke.

  “He ran out the back with four men,” Lion says. “Boss … he said something about Selena’s mom.”

  “With me!” I roar. “Right now!”

  “Boss.”

  Lion and the men pick up whatever guns they can find and follow me. I kick through the door, the wood ash-black now, and charge into the night. He’s going to try and kill my woman. And it doesn’t even matter if he doesn’t know she’s here, because he knows about her mom, and he’ll take her mom hostage and … I grit my teeth at the thought. If he takes her mom hostage, we’ll be right back where we started. Brose will have all the leverage and I’ll be forced to call him sir again. I don’t know if I’ll be able to do that.

  I sp
rint toward my jeep, head down, and then change direction as I see Brose and his men veer toward the basketball court. I fire a shot after them, catching two of the men in the lower halves, their legs snatched from under them. My men fire more rounds, killing them. Then the man beside Brose falls.

  “Stop!” I roar, when only Brose remains, standing alone in the center of the court. His fancy outfit is in disarray, his jacket torn, and his cane nowhere to be seen. For a second, he looks like a kindly, lost old man. But then I remember Markus, and Selena, and me. I remember the years of fighting and death. I remember the pain and the misery.

  My men stop firing. Brose looks down at his dead, and then up at me. He smooths down his jacket and stands straight. “So this is it, is it?” he says, watching me coldly. “This is how the great war ends?”

  “There never was a great war,” I say, dropping my shotgun on the ground. “There was only you and your goddamn ego. We had a deal with your men. It seems like a damn long time ago now, but it was only a couple of days ago. They fired on us. They tried to kill us. You killed my brother. You think you’re bigger and better than a man, but the truth is you’re just a man, just a deranged old man with deranged appetites and a deranged sense of power. You were never the big bad wolf, Brose, and you never will be.”

  “Your brother deserved to die,” Brose says. “You’ll never get me to take that back.”

  “And you deserve to die, too,” I say, holding my hand out. “Knife.”

  Brose’s eyes go wide, watching as Lion steps forward and places the blade in my hand.

  “So you’re going to gut me, then?” Brose mumbles. Tears bead in his eyes, one sliding down his cheek, another clinging to his eyelashes. “That’s how it’s going to be.”

  “That’s it,” I say. “Any last words?”

  “I have a son!” Brose squeals. “His name is—James, and he’s a good boy. He’s only five and …”

  “Stop,” I say. “I reckon you’ve heard about how I let Slug go, and maybe you think I’m gonna go soft again. But if Slug was guilty, it was of being an asshole who trusted the wrong asshole. You killed my brother. You tried to kill my woman. Do you really think there’s any coming back from that?”

  “Just wait—”

  I leap forward and stab Brose in the neck. Blood spurts over my face, pissing down my chest, drenching me. He stumbles backward. I stab him again, falling on him like a wolverine, stabbing so fast that I don’t even aim. I stab his neck and his face and his chest and his shoulder and his hands. I stab until parts of him have turned into red ribbons. I stab until his body goes from defense spasms to death spasms, and then I stab him again. I see Markus, leaving me, turning away to his bike. I see Selena lying dead in that cell.

  When I’m done, I collapse to the side, panting heavily and lying on my back, looking up at the stars. The sky is clear tonight, the stars beautiful. The smell of blood surrounds me, the taste of blood strong on my tongue. I stretch my arms out and just keep watching the sky, waiting for the stars to fall to mark this moment. Something should mark it. My brother’s killer is dead. The Wraiths are dead. The Saints are the biggest club in Austin. A big moment.

  And yet most of all I think about Selena and how I want to be with her right now. How I want to hold her and kiss her. How I wish she was here to tell me everything is okay.

  Then Lion leans over and looks down at me. “Boss?” he says.

  “Lion,” I reply.

  “You all right down there?”

  “The guns,” I say, cogs turning in my mind. “And the money! Goddamn, Lion, tell me you have the guns and the—”

  “We do, boss.” Timmy peers down at me. “We grabbed them before we followed you out. No worries. Everything’s safe.”

  “You’re a good man, Timmy,” I say. “Both of you are good men. Help me up, will you?”

  Lion gives me his hand. I grab him by the wrist and he pulls me to my feet. Timmy holds one of the duffle bags in his hand, and the others rest on the floor near the men. I take the bag from Timmy and go to the men, and then unzip all of the bags.

  “Spread out the cash and the guns,” I say. “Equal share to all patched members.”

  “Boss.”

  I walk to the front of the men, wad of cash in one hand and weapon in the other. “Listen to me, fellas,” I say. “I know it looked for a while there like I was selling you down the river, but you gotta know there was a plan.” I peel the tracker off the pistol. “We were meant to get these back right away …” I explain to them about Whisper and the plan. “But sometimes plans don’t go to plan. If I’ve learned anything these past couple’a days, it’s that.” Sometimes plans don’t go to plans: sometimes a woman a man meets to fuck and have a fun night with turns into a woman he cannot live without, sometimes a woman who he thought was just going to be some fun turns into everything for him.

  “What now, boss?” Lion asks, squinting at the clubhouse, fire lighting his face up.

  “We rebuild,” I say. “Call the police and the fire office, get them to rule it an accident, get in touch with the insurance people, and don’t let them fuck us around. You know what to do with the bodies. In the meantime, we’ll use the basketball court for any meetings. It’s business as usual, except for the clubhouse. All right?”

  “Boss. And where’re you going?”

  “I’ve got a lady to see,” I say.

  I walk down the street, the blood drying to my skin now, sticking to my cheeks and my forehead and my lips and my chin, my neck and my knuckles and the backs of my hand. I feel light and yet heavy; I feel heavy because I always dreamed I’d feel light the day I killed Brose. I guess some part of me believed that when I killed Brose, Markus would come back to life, and even if I knew that was complete horseshit it didn’t stop some hopeful part of me believing it. But Brose is dead and the clubhouse is burning and nothing has changed except that there’s fire in my heart now, too. A blazing fire which wasn’t there before. The chance at a life. And I’m alive, I remind myself. I got through this alive.

  I spot Whisper’s old junk car a few yards back from mine. I wonder how she was so damn good at following me, and then decide it’s because that’s what she wanted to do. She set her mind to it and so it happened. That’s Selena, I’m swiftly learning. When she wants something, she knows how to go after it. Maybe it pisses me off when I’m trying to save her. But I wouldn’t change it.

  I crouch down so she can’t see me, and then creep up to the car. I knock on the door, hard, twice. Inside the car she lets out a yelp and leaps up, hands over her face. When she sees that it’s me her lips curl for a moment, and then she kicks the car door open and runs at me, hands flailing. “You monster!” she snaps. “You animal! You beast! What’s the matter with you? What the hell is the matter with you? You’re an animal! You’re an absolute animal!”

  “I think you already said that,” I say, catching her hands and restraining her. She goes at me with her knee. I twist my body, blocking her, and then bring my face close to hers. “You don’t want to get in the habit of repeating yourself, ma’am. Listening to you the first time around is torture enough.”

  “You’re a pig,” she says, and then loses control of herself and kisses me.

  I kiss her back, letting her hands go and moving my hands down her body, grabbing her legs and her ass and pressing her against me, hard. She moans through the kiss, and then disentangles herself. “We need to get you cleaned up,” she says, wiping her mouth. “I want you, not Brose’s blood.”

  “Fair enough.” I step back.

  “And that is Brose’s blood, right?”

  “It is,” I confirm. “The Gentleman is dead. He’s never going to capture or torture or kill anybody ever again. It’s strange, though, ’cause …” I tell her about thinking my brother would come back to life.

  “I understand,” she says. “I guess we always believe in fairytales. even when we live in a horror story.”

  I nod, and then lead her to the jeep. “
We’ll take this one,” I say. “I’ll reimburse Whisper for the junker. Knowing him, he’ll charge me double.”

  “Can we make a stop on the way?” Selena asks, climbing into the car.

  “The hospital?”

  “The hospital.”

  “Of course we can. Probably better if I stay in the car, though. Might want to look a little more presentable before meeting my lady’s momma.”

  “Your lady.” She strokes my arm. “That makes me go tingly all over.”

  “Normally I’d vomit in my mouth at the word ‘tingly,’ but do you know what?” I start the engine. “It makes me a little tingly as well.”

  Chapter Twenty-One

  Selena

  “How’ve you been?” Mom asks.