Lord Oda's Revenge
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The pain grew more and more intense, until he couldn’t bear it any more, and he felt blackness overtake him. The last thing he was aware of thinking was, Please let Hana wake up.
He fell into the sun, and he didn’t burn. When he was conscious again of anything, he was crossing that jewelled bridge that was not jewelled, and he was once again in death, though he had entered it another way. This time his body was shining, and he knew that last time he had entered death as a dead man; this time it was the ball that had brought him, and he was under the Buddha’s protection. He would not know the speech of the dead, and if they talked to him he would understand nothing.
He walked past Enma’s throne, and the kami of death cowered from him, covering his eyes. Taro smiled. He continued, over the mountains and seas, and finally he came to the place where the dead were. Shades pressed at him from all sides, shadows looking for a sun to cast them. He thought of Hana, and then the dead before him parted, and he passed through them. He climbed a thousand mountains and then the quality of the light changed, and he knew he was no longer in hell. In fact there was no longer any ground beneath his feet – he was standing in darkness, surrounded by stars.
Hana, he thought. Hana.
CHAPTER 59
KENJI KIRA WAS screaming. He had been screaming since he came to Enma’s realm. There were no demons poking at him with swords, no pots for boiling. Instead he was in a field of dead men, surrounded by the stench of decay, and there were no spirits around him and no demons either, and yet he knew he was in hell.
He was trapped again, among the rotting bodies. His leg was once again shattered beneath a horse – was it his horse? He thought perhaps it was – and the low things were feasting on his fallen comrades. He saw the maggots crawl from their mouths, he saw the rats gnawing at their entrails.
He had known from the beginning that one day the rats would finish their meals, and they would turn on him, and eat him, too. Even on the first day he had felt things crawling on his flesh, and he had tried to brush them away, screaming, always screaming.
Now, though, he had been here for some time, and the creatures were in his body. He felt them – he felt every agonizing incision as the larvae and the vermin attacked his flesh with their tiny mouths. He felt them fluttering, like painful emotions. He heard them, consuming. He heard them even over his own screaming, and he thought at first that the pain would lessen, that he could not bear it and he would pass out, but there was no passing out in death.
Yukiko.
It was Yukiko who had sent him here – who had come up behind him and ended his life. As he watched a fly settle on the swollen purple lips of a dead samurai to his right, he dreamed of her death. Certainly on dying she would come to hell, and he would be waiting for her here. Maybe he would be her hell – maybe instead of a battlefield of corpses she would see him, killing her, for all eternity. . .
He was picturing her face as he tortured her, when there came the sound of footsteps. He thought that was odd – he heard only the calls of crows, usually, as they fought over scraps of human meat; or the munching of worms on flesh, or the chewing of rats. There was no other sound in this place – there was no sky, only a grey nothingness above.
Yet here came footsteps.
He struggled up on one elbow and was stunned to see Taro, walking through the dead men and horses as if they were not even there. His knee burst through a stallion’s head, and in its passing it allowed Kenji Kira to see beyond the illusion, and for just a moment he saw that underneath all this decomposition was just blankness, which was somehow more terrifying.
Following behind Taro was Hana, and Kenji Kira recognized her for a soul like himself, lost from life. Taro was alive – that much was obvious. He shone so brightly it hurt Kira’s eyes. But Hana was a shade; she was like a beautiful female shadow behind the boy. He narrowed his eyes.
Taro is taking her back to life, he thought.
He had stopped screaming, he realized, for the first time since he came here. He was aware of the things inside him, eating him, but he ignored them. They are not there, he told himself, just like the dead men and the horses – and to his surprise it helped. The pain was still an enormity – it was a cloak he wore, it was the bones inside his body – but it was manageable, conquerable.
He got his hands under the cold corpse of the horse on top of him and he heaved, all the while watching Taro’s slow progress across the battlefield that was somehow also a blank place among impossible mountains. He bit into his tongue and was surprised, and horrified, to find a maggot in there – he sawed it in half with his teeth, and he swallowed it, and he wasn’t sure if it was just his imagination or not but it seemed to give him strength.
Cursing, his forearms threatening to snap, he managed to lift the horse enough to pull his leg free. He stood. He noticed, in passing, that his leg seemed fine. He turned his back on the awful place and he scrambled, slipping in blood, towards Taro and Hana. He found that a sort of wake flowed behind Taro, a slipstream of brightness, and in it there were no dead things. He touched himself – his own body was unharmed, the holes made by the rats and crows had gone.
He smiled.
And he followed Taro out of death.
CHAPTER 60
WHEN TARO OPENED his eyes, he was standing over Hana again, the ball in his hands. Once again it was just quietly turning, a patchwork of clouds and brightness, smooth and efficient as a well-oiled machine.
Hana’s chest rose and fell slowly, but her eyes were closed.
It hasn’t worked, thought Taro. He had dived into the sun and walked into death for her, and it had done nothing. He let out a deep sigh.
From outside, Hiro’s voice. ‘Taro!’
‘Are you all right?’ called Hayao.
Taro wondered how long he’d been in here. A moment? An incense stick? More? ‘I’m coming out,’ he said.
Before leaving, he bent down to place a last kiss on Hana’s forehead, and that was when her eyes opened.
He took a step backwards, and he must have gasped or screamed, because suddenly Hiro and Hayao were in the small room, and they were gazing at Hana in astonishment.
Hana looked up at them, as Taro shrank back into the shadows. He was afraid of her, he realized suddenly. He was afraid of what she would say.
‘Is this. . . heaven?’ she asked.
‘No,’ said Hayao. ‘No, you’re alive.’
‘I had the strangest dream,’ said Hana.
‘Yes,’ said Hiro. He turned to beckon Taro forward, but Taro’s feet would not move. ‘Yes, but it’s over now.’
‘Hayao. . .,’ said Hana softly. ‘You came after me. I saw you running down the hill. You entered the building; you were not afraid of the flames. You were so brave.’ She sat up, then raised a hand to touch his face, still scarred from the fire. ‘And you, Hiro – I saw you running too.’
Taro felt a sob escape his chest – it was as he’d feared; he had abandoned her, and she would never forgive him.
He glared at Hayao. ‘You’re welcome to her,’ he said.
Hayao stared at him, said nothing.
He staggered from the room, and he only half heard voices behind him, telling him to stop. He walked to the cliffs on the east side of the mountain, the world around him a blur, and sat down. He put his face in his hands. Hana would marry Hayao, he was sure of it, and he would. . . he did not know what he would do. The only thing he was good at was killing people.
Time passed.
Later someone came up behind him, and their step was soft on the grass. ‘Go away, Hiro,’ he said.
‘It is not Hiro,’ said Hana.
Taro looked up at her. Her cheeks were streaked with tears, but she was smiling. ‘They told me about your mother,’ she said. ‘I’m sorry.’
Taro nodded. ‘I’m sorry I—’ His voice broke off. ‘You will never forgive me, I know. But Hayao is a better choice anyway.’
Hana sat down beside him, frowning. She was as beautiful as
ever, that was what hurt the most. ‘What are you talking about?’
He looked down, so as not to meet her eye. ‘I chose my mother. When you were running to the burning temple – I went back to save my mother instead. Hayao went to save you. I’ve seen. . . I’ve seen how you look at him. I won’t stand in your way.’
Hana laughed, a sound like bells. ‘Of course you went to your mother,’ she said. ‘I didn’t want to be saved anyway. I wanted to rescue the scrolls.’
‘And you did,’ said Taro. ‘While my mother still died.’ He moved a little farther from her. ‘I bring death everywhere I go.’
‘That’s not true,’ said Hana. ‘Hayao said you would not let me die. He said you searched for the ball, so you could use it to save me. And then you did.’
Taro was obscurely surprised. He had thought that Hayao would take this opportunity to claim Hana as his own.
‘I did want to save you,’ said Taro. ‘But I wanted to kill Yukiko and all of Oda’s men. Lord Oda, too, when I learned he was alive.’
‘My father’s alive?’ asked Hana.
‘Yes. It’s complicated. I’m sorry.’
‘Don’t be. I’m just sorry he isn’t dead.’
Taro felt something untether inside him, some great weight. ‘After my mother died and you. . . after you went to sleep, I wanted revenge. I would be a liar if I said I just wanted the ball to bring you back from the dead.’ He took the small globe from his cloak and held it in his hand.
Hana put out her hand, palm up. ‘Can I see it?’ she asked. Taro handed her the ball, and she twisted it in her fingers.
‘Such a small thing,’ she said absently. Then she looked into Taro’s eyes. ‘Did you kill her, then?’ she asked. ‘Yukiko? And all of Lord Oda’s men?’
He shook his head.
‘Did you kill anyone?’
‘Some of Lord Oda’s samurai. And not with the ball – it was before. But when they were dead, I just felt sick. It didn’t bring my mother back. It didn’t bring you back.’
‘Well, then,’ said Hana. ‘But you did save me.’ She moved over to sit closer to him, and put her hand on his.
‘Do you remember anything?’ he asked.
‘It seems to me I was in the burning temple,’ she replied, ‘and then I woke up to see Hayao and Hiro. I don’t remember much in between.’
‘Nothing at all?’
A dreamy expression overtook her. ‘It seemed that I was crossing a bridge, and it was all sparkling as if it were covered with jewels, only there weren’t any jewels. And then I was in a strange place, where nothing ever moved, and there was only black sky and stars. That was when I thought I saw you, but it’s all so confused. Sorry,’ she said, seeing his expression. ‘It’s very vague.’
Taro smiled. ‘No,’ he said. ‘I know exactly what you mean. I think I remember the stars too. I looked into the Buddha ball, and then I was with you in starlight, and then I was back in the room, and you were waking up.’
She sighed. ‘I can’t believe my soul died. The abbot said he thinks my body was preserved because I rescued the scrolls.’
‘Yes. He says it’s a miracle.’
‘That’s nice,’ said Hana, with a smile. ‘I like the idea of being a miracle.’
Taro swallowed painfully. ‘It suits you,’ he said. Then he cleared his throat. ‘I meant what I said. I would not. . . I mean, I like Hayao. I think he would make you a very good husband.’
This time Hana laughed so hard she began to hiccup. ‘Not very ladylike,’ she said.
‘You never were,’ said Taro. He was looking at her quizzically. What did she find so funny?
Hana squeezed his hand. ‘I don’t want a husband,’ she said. ‘I don’t want any husband.’
Taro blinked. ‘Oh,’ he said, happy and disappointed in equal measure.
‘But. . .,’ said Hana slowly. ‘If I did want a husband, it would not be Hayao. It would be you.’
Taro stared at her. ‘Really? But I’m just. . . I mean, I’m not high-born like you. I’m a peasant, and a killer.’
‘Your father is Lord Tokugawa.’
‘Yes. But not really. I mean, not in the way that counts. I was raised by peasants. I’m not good enough for you.’
Hana held up her hands. ‘I’m not burned,’ she said. ‘But. . . I was in the fire. . . it was so hot. . . And then I thought I was floating among stars, and I saw you there – and after that I opened my eyes and the scrolls were undamaged, and I was unhurt. And do you know what, Taro? It didn’t surprise me. It didn’t surprise me that you saved me, that you brought me back from the dead. You’re good enough to risk everything because you wanted to save me so much. You’re good enough to come after me into death itself and bring me out.’ She paused. ‘You’re good enough for anyone, Taro.’
‘I—’ he began.
‘No,’ said Hana. She put a finger on his lips. ‘Don’t talk.’
She leaned towards him and closed her eyes, and his heart leaped in his chest, and when their lips met everything fell away from around him, and he was one with her, and it was as if they were floating in the stars again.
CHAPTER 61
sOMEONE SCREAMED, FROM higher up the mountain. Taro heard yelling, the sound of people running. He broke away from Hana, jumped to his feet. Together they ran up the steps, breathing hard. Was it another attack on the mountain? When they reached the top, though, Taro saw no soldiers, no samurai anywhere. There were only monks, standing around in confusion. Then he saw a body, lying near the biers on which the dead had been laid. He began to rush down the other side, towards the main hall, Hana behind him.
His first thought was for his mother, but as he neared, he saw that she still lay peacefully in her white clothes, the abbot having covered her ruined chest. Near her lay the other monks who had died, awaiting the moment – as prescribed by the traditional obsequies – when their bodies could be burned.
He came to the body on the ground – monks surrounded it, muttering. They sound scared, Taro thought. The idea sent a frisson down his spine.
He pushed through the monks and saw the body up close. It was one of their own order, lying dead on the ground, his eyes open and white. His neck was bent at an unnatural angle, as if someone had snapped it, but it would take force no human could possess to break it so fully. The head seemed attached to the body by little more than a flap of skin.
‘Gods,’ said Hana. ‘What did that to him?’
One of the monks turned to them. He pointed to the bier behind that of Taro’s mother. Taro hadn’t noticed it, because he had been thinking only of his mother, but now he saw it was empty. He stared at it.
That’s where Kenji Kira’s body was, he thought. A sickness had taken root in his stomach and was growing, spreading branches through his limbs.
‘The b-b-b-body got up,’ said the monk. ‘It got up!’ He burst into tears.
Another monk put a hand on his shoulder and looked at Taro, terrified. ‘He saw it – it’s quite unhinged him.’
‘Saw what?’ said Hana. She still didn’t understand – she hadn’t known where Kenji Kira’s body was laid.
‘The dead man got up,’ said the second monk. ‘That’s what Yamada says. He got up and he killed that monk because he was in the way, and then he went down the mountainside. He was shouting something, apparently.’
‘Shouting what?’ said Taro.
‘It doesn’t make sense.’
‘Shouting what?’
‘Yamada says he was saying, “Yukiko”. Over and over.’
Taro shivered.
‘What dead man?’ said Hana. ‘What are you talking about?’
Taro was looking at the broken neck of the man on the ground, and at the empty bier, and that sickness was everywhere in him now.
He pointed at the bier. ‘It was Kenji Kira,’ he said. ‘Yukiko killed him, and we laid him down there.’
‘But. . . he was dead,’ said Hana. She had gone very pale.
‘So was my mother,
’ said Taro. ‘I still saw her again.’
CHAPTER 62
AS MUCH AS it could, the world returned to normal.
Kenji Kira’s dead body was abroad somewhere, if the hysterical monk was to be believed – the man spent a lot of time in a darkened room, these days – but what was there to do? The abbot and his monks had surrounded the mountain with charms and Buddhas, to ward off evil. If Kenji Kira came back, he would want Taro, no doubt – but for now he seemed to be after Yukiko. And anyway, lots of people wanted Taro dead. He was getting used to it.
Often, Taro practised the sword with the abbot. He still couldn’t move as fast as the other man, couldn’t see how to manipulate the sword with the same dexterity.
‘Do you still have the scroll?’ the abbot had asked, on the first day of their training.
‘Yes,’ Taro had said. ‘I still don’t understand it.’
‘Well,’ said the abbot, ‘keep reading it. One day you might.’
This evening, though, Taro was working with the Buddha ball. The trick was to be inside the ball and in the earthly realm at one and the same time, seeing the same thing from two angles; one part of you floating above the surface of the miniature world, the other standing in your own skin on the solid, undeniable ground.
The oak tree, then, was both below and before him.
He reached out with his mind, inside the ball, and pulled. As one, the leaves dropped from the tree, and he caught them with the wind, swirling them up into a spinning column that gleamed green and gold in moonlight. He’d been working all day, and now, in the dead of night, he had started to get the hang of it.
He concentrated. Slowly the turning leaves began to take on a shape, round at the top. He fashioned arms, then legs. A man of leaves opened his arms in an embrace and stepped towards Little Kawabata.