Sadie (Alpha Series #1)

by Todd, E. L.

“I said I wouldn’t sleep with you.” I had no idea why I kept saying this. I wanted to have sex with him on the damn table.

  “I know what you said.”

  “So you don’t believe me?”

  He leaned forward and lowered his voice to a whisper. “I’m not with you just to have sex, despite what you may think, but I am going to be inside of you one way or another. I’ll wait as long it takes, but it’s going to happen.”

  His words made my heart palpitate. Such a threat should have left me frightened and paranoid, but it didn’t. I wanted him to keep his word. I crossed my legs and squeezed my thighs together. I felt the burn.

  Ethan leaned back and stared at me. “No rebuttal?”

  I shook my head.

  “Good.”

  The waitress brought our food and we ate in silence for a while. I felt the tension from his earlier words. I had never been more attracted to someone than I was to him. A part of me wanted to sleep with him even if he did drop me like a hat. He ingrained a neediness inside me that I couldn’t satisfy. I hadn’t even kissed him but I wanted to jump to home base. Maybe I was one of those girls that I claimed I wasn’t.

  When we finished our meal, Ethan slipped some cash into the folder. I didn’t offer to pay or leave a tip. I could tell what type of guy Ethan was. He would never let me pay for anything. I didn’t need to do the check dance to figure that out.

  “Thank you for dinner.”

  He nodded. “You’re welcome, Sadie.”

  My spine shivered when he said my name.

  “Are you ready to go?”

  “Yes.”

  He stood up first then pulled my chair out, helping me to my feet. He grabbed my hand then guided me down the sidewalk. He didn’t call for a cab, and we walked down the street together. I didn’t mind. I just liked being with him, feeling his hand in mine. “Would you like some dessert?”

  I touched my stomach. “I don’t think I could eat another bite.”

  “I’m not surprised. You ate more than I did.” He laughed softly.

  “I like food.” I nudged his arm with my shoulder.

  “I like it when girls like food. None of that house salad with no dressing bullshit.”

  I laughed. “Well, that’s a relief. I’m definitely not like that.”

  “And I’m glad.”

  We went back to my apartment building and I couldn’t believe our date was already over. I felt like time passed so quickly when we were together. We stood side by side in the elevator as it ascended the floors. Anytime I was alone with him, I felt the sexual tension in the air. I wanted to jump his bones so bad I could have screamed.

  When the doors opened, I breathed a sigh of relief. We walked down the hallway until we came to my door. I fumbled with the keys for a while, unsure of what I should do. I didn’t want him to leave. I wanted him to come inside—and do things. But I felt stupid for doing that. I wasn’t thinking with my brain. I finally turned the lock and opened the door.

  “Good night, Sadie,” he said. He kissed me on the cheek.

  Feeling his chest against mine made my thoughts blurry. “Do you want to come inside?” I whispered.

  He smiled. “I was hoping you would ask.” He guided me inside the apartment and closed the door behind him.

  Koku was sitting on the back of the couch and he wagged his tail when he saw us.

  “Hey, honey,” I said as I kneeled to pet him.

  Ethan stood next to me. “Where’s the bone?”

  I laughed. “It’s gone. He either ate it or hid it—probably in my bed.”

  “Well, maybe I should take a look,” he said with a smile.

  Yes, you should. I shook the thought away. I was such a slut.

  “Let’s watch a movie,” Ethan said.

  “What? I mean—okay.”

  “Did you have something else in mind?”

  I could hear the accusation in his voice. He knew what I was thinking. “No, that sounds great.”

  “Okay.” He sat on the couch and Koku immediately hopped in his lap. Ethan stroked his fur while I grabbed the remote.

  I glared at Koku. It was like I didn’t exist anymore.

  “I think he likes me,” Ethan said as he smiled at him.

  “And he’s forgotten me.”

  “Maybe you should give him more bones.”

  “I don’t want him to get fat.”

  “Why? Fat dogs are cute.”

  I laughed as I turned on the television. I put it on a random movie station. Casablanca was on.

  “What a classic,” Ethan said.

  Since he seemed to like that film, I left it on the channel. I put the remote down and sat next to him. He grabbed my hand and held it in his own. Sitting so close to him, smelling his scent, had me practically shaking with neediness. I never thought it would be so hard not to sleep with someone. Ethan was sweet, sexy, and just perfect. It was almost too good to be true. I really wanted him to kiss me but he didn’t make any moves. One of his hands was still scratching Koku behind the ears. I started to shake my leg in anticipation.

  I leaned in closer to him and rested my head on his shoulder. When I did this, he kissed me on the forehead. I practically melted at the touch. I felt like I was going insane with longing. I turned my face toward him, trying to communicate that I wanted him to kiss me but he continued to watch the movie. Now he was being too much of a gentleman and I was starting to hate it. I invited him inside my apartment for a reason. I wanted to kiss him myself but I was too scared.

  “Sadie, if you want to kiss me, just do it.”

  I flinched at his words. “What?”

  He pushed the dog off his lap then turned to me. “Kiss me if you want to kiss me.”

  “Why don’t you just kiss me?” I whispered.

  “You made it clear that you don’t want a physical relationship. So, if you do want me, you should tell me or just go for it.” He pressed his face close to mine and stared at my lips, waiting for me to kiss him.

  “I do want to kiss you.”

  “I want to kiss you—everywhere.”

  I shivered. “Then why don’t you?”

  He leaned in closer to me. I felt his breath fall on my skin. My breathing had increased and I couldn’t stop it. “I think I might.” He pressed his lips against mine. At the instant of contact, I moaned. His kiss was gentle and tender. He barely moved against me. Ethan broke apart and rubbed his nose against mine before he kissed me again. It was so hot. It was the best kiss I’ve ever had. He lips caressed mine slowly, and he breathed into my mouth. His lips tasted sweet. I moaned again. I had never been that aroused for someone before. I wanted to be embarrassed but I couldn’t help it. The fire he lit inside me had already spread to a growing wildfire.

  I placed my hands on his chest and felt his body. He was solid. My hands ran free, touching his shoulders and arms then his brown hair. Ethan placed his hand on my thigh then moved to my hip. With his other hand, he cupped my face and touched my hair lightly. Every little gesture he made just heightened my arousal. I wasn’t sure how he did it but he managed.

  Ethan lowered me down to the couch then moved on top of me. I touched his abs then gripped his back, pulling him closer to me. Against my will, I wrapped my legs around his waist. I felt his cock against my hip. Even through his jeans, I knew it was big.

  Ethan kept his hands in safety zones, areas that wouldn’t violate me. His fingers caressed my hair and my stomach.

  “Ethan,” I whispered.

  He moaned. “I like it when you say my name.”

  “Ethan, touch me.”

  His hand moved to my chest and he gripped my breast, squeezing gently. Then he moved his hand down to my waist. He unbuttoned my jeans. I felt my heart accelerate as he moved lower. He placed his forefinger on my clit and rubbed gently.

  I gasped. “Ethan.”

  “Baby.”

  I gripped him tighter and kissed him with more passion. With just two fingers, he was giving me more pleasure t
han I ever had before. My hands grabbed his shirt then pulled it over his head. He didn’t resist me. I stared at his chest and moaned. He was beautiful, strong, and cut. I thought I would come just by looking at him. I grabbed his jeans and unbuttoned his pants, pulling them down.

  “I know what you want to see,” he whispered. He grabbed my hand and placed it on his ass. I squeezed it, feeling the prominent muscles of the area. He was strong.

  Ethan still didn’t remove my clothes. I was waiting for him to do it but he never did. He continued to rub my clitoris, making me shake.

  “Ethan.”

  “Baby?”

  “Take off my clothes.”

  He pulled off my jeans then threw them on the floor. He came back to me then pulled the shirt from my body. When he lay back on top of me, he stared at my body. “And you don’t realize how beautiful you are? You get to see this every day.”

  I grabbed his face and kissed him, needing him again. I felt his erection against my clitoris through our clothes. I wanted to take those off too but Ethan hadn’t removed them. He started to grind against me slowly. His dick pressed against me and rubbed me the right way. I already felt my body start to crumble.

  This beautiful man was making me feel things that I never felt before. With every move, I wanted him inside me more and more. I was about to scream because I wanted him so badly. I already felt the orgasm building and we weren’t even doing anything. His hand glided through my hair and made me feel like a goddess. When he pressed against me again, I felt the momentum increase. His kiss, his body, his touch, sent me to the brink with pleasure. I gripped his back as the orgasm slammed into my body. I pulled him closer to me, making him press against me again and again. Ethan broke our kiss as he watched me have my moment.

  “Ethan,” I whispered. “Ethan.”

  “Baby.”

  It shattered my body and soared everywhere. I was shaking in his arms, overcome with the unbelievable pleasure that rocked my body. It felt so good that I bit my lip. I held his face close to mine as the moment came to an end. I was breathing hard and I felt the sweat form between my breasts. Ethan still moved on top of me.

  When I was done, he looked down at me.

  “Did you just come?”

  I felt my cheeks blush. “Please don’t judge me.”

  He smiled. “I’m not. I’m just surprised. I barely did anything.”

  “But you’re so hot, Ethan.”

  He kissed me. “Thank you.” He stared at me for a moment. “That’s how you take a compliment, by the way.”

  I ignored his joke. “Let’s go in the bedroom.”

  His eyes turned serious. “And do what?”

  I swallowed the lump in my throat. “Have sex.”

  “I thought you didn’t want to?”

  I ran my hands up his chest. “Well, I changed my mind. I want it.”

  “I want it too.” He kissed me gently before he pulled away. “But it’ll have to wait.”

  “What? Are you being serious?”

  “You’re only saying this because you are in the mood. If you weren’t turned on, you would say no to me.”

  “Let me get this straight. You’ve been wanting to sleep with me, even threatened that you would get inside me eventually, but now that I’m offering it, you don’t want it?”

  “It’s not that I don’t want it, baby.”

  “Then what’s your problem?”

  “I just know you aren’t ready.”

  “And why do you care?”

  “Because I care about you—a lot. I meant what I said. I don’t just want to sleep with you. I want more.”

  My eyes softened. “You do?”

  “Yeah. And if we sleep together, I already know what’s going to happen.”

  “What?”

  “You’re going to be mine and I’ll never let you go.”

  “That doesn’t sound so bad.”

  “Well, we just met. Doesn’t that seem a little soon?”

  “Not if you don’t think so.”

  “Wow, you’re really turned on,” he said with a laugh. “I could make you agree to do anything. I’ll make you come again and you’ll be back to normal.”

  “Ethan, I really like you.”

  He leaned over me and placed his two fingers on my clitoris. “And I really like you.”

  “I want to please you too.” I reached down and grabbed him.

  He pulled me away. “Don’t worry about me,” he said as he started to rub me. “I want to make you feel good, Sadie.”

  “I want you inside of me.”

  He moaned. “You can’t talk to me like that, Sadie.”

  “Please.”

  He moaned. “Please don’t beg.”

  I pulled off my underwear then pulled down his shorts, revealing him to me. He was big. There was no way that thing was going to fit inside me, but we had to try. “Please, Ethan,” I said as I wrapped my legs around him. “I want you. I want you. Please.”

  “Dammit, Sadie.” He pressed his cock against my wet pussy. He rubbed against me gently. “You have no idea how much I want to be inside you.”

  “Prove it.”

  He moaned again.

  I grabbed his cock and aimed the tip at my entrance. I couldn’t believe how I was behaving, but that’s how much I wanted him.

  He closed his eyes and said nothing for several seconds. “I can’t.” He pulled his dick away then leaned over me, rubbing his two fingers against my clitoris again. “But I’ll make you come this way.”

  Before I could argue, he was kissing me while he pleased me. I was already tender and his touch made me shiver. It felt so good that I gripped his back tightly. He slipped his fingers inside of me while he rubbed my clitoris. I was panting for him, on the verge of another orgasm. I spread my legs wider as he continued to touch me.

  “Ethan.”

  “Come for me, baby.”

  “I am.” I dug my nails into his back. “I am. God.”

  It rocked into me and it felt even better than the first time. I leaned my head back as I enjoyed the moment. It felt so good that it made my toes curl. When my moment passed, Ethan removed his fingers and put on his boxers. I lay there and tried to catch my breath.

  When I was done, I sat up. “I want to make you feel as good as I feel, Ethan.”

  “You’ll get your chance.”

  “Why won’t you have sex with me?”

  “I already said why. You are just hot right now.”

  “You already made me come twice. I’m logical now.”

  He laughed.

  “What do I have to do?”

  He looked at me. “If you really want to have sex with me, I want you to tell me when we aren’t fooling around. When your mind is completely logical and we aren’t naked together. That’s when I want to hear you say it.”

  I crawled onto his lap and kissed him gently. “You’re amazing.”

  He smiled. “I’m glad you enjoyed it.”

  “Why didn’t you do that to begin with?”

  He laughed. “Because you thought I was a pig.”

  “I still think that.”

  “Well, right now I feel like one. Put on some clothes.”

  “No,” I said as I kissed his neck.

  “Now.”

  The command in his voice made me stop. It could be so playful then stern a second later.

  “Sadie, put on your clothes. I won’t ask you again.” He stared at me with his heated gaze.

  I crawled off his lap then did as I was told. I wasn’t sure why he was getting so angry. Ethan threw his clothes on then walked into the bathroom. I heard the faucet running for a while before he came back. He sat on the couch next to me and held my hand again.

  I cuddled next to him then Koku returned to his lap. We sat together and watched the movie. I started to fall asleep from my post orgasm exhaustion. At some point, I fell unconscious in his arms.

  I felt my body being lifted from the couch then placed on the soft sh
eets of my bed. The blankets were pulled over me and Koku lied by my feet. I felt a warm kiss press against my forehead. I vaguely heard the sound of keys jingle in the door, but I was so tired that I didn’t wake up.

  5

  Ethan was at my door, ready to take me out for a drink. His eyes widened when I opened the door. “You look nice.”

  I was wearing a black dress that reached my knees. It was tight and curvy, but it covered all the essentials. I knew I could sit down without giving everyone an X-rated show. I tucked my hair behind my ear, averting my gaze.

  Ethan stared at me, waiting for me to accept the compliment. When I didn’t, he stepped into the apartment. Koku ran to him, his tail wagging excitedly. Ethan pulled a bone out of his pocket and handed it to the dog, who took off running with it clamped in his jaws. I knew I would find the bone in an odd place, underneath my pillows or in one of my shoes.

  “You ready to go?” he asked.

  “Yes.” I grabbed my clutch from the counter. When I looked at him, I saw the tightness of his slacks. They were loose in the right places, but constricted in the better regions. I kept imagining his naked body and it made me hot. His collared shirt exemplified the muscles of his chest. “You look handsome.”

  He stepped toward me then rubbed his nose against mine. “Sounds like we are a matching set.” His hand glided down my back, stopping just above my ass. Just the gentle touch was enough to set my skin on fire. He kissed the corner of my mouth, letting his lips linger for a few seconds. He kissed the other corner then parted my lips with his, caressing my mouth. When he pulled away, I felt cold. I wanted to keep kissing him. I never felt so alive in my life.

  He turned to the door and opened it. “Let’s go.”

  I stood still for a moment before I followed him out the door. He closed it behind him then locked it with my key. He grabbed my hand and squeezed it, guiding me to the elevator. When the doors closed, he turned to me and stared at me. Nothing was said but his thoughts were as obvious as the weather.

  He placed his thumb on my bottom lip. “I could kiss your lips all day.” He rubbed his nose against mine, holding me close. The beeping of the elevator went off but neither one of us noticed the sound. His eyes took me in, absorbing every part of me. I felt like a well that he continued to drink from him, always parched and never satisfied. Only a day had passed and I felt the change between us, the strong connection that seemed to form out of iron and steel. His obsession for me was growing. I still couldn’t believe that someone so beautiful thought I was worthy of his time. He wouldn’t have sex with me because he wanted to prove his interest in me without it. I never thought holding out would get a guy so interested.