HUGE 3D: A MFMM MENAGE STEPBROTHER ROMANCE (HUGE SERIES Book 5)

by Stephanie Brother

“Take a seat,” she says, fumbling to start the music.

  I slump down into the low sofa, not wanting to think about how damn dirty it must be. As Jessie turns, her eyes glaze as though she’s put on a mask so she can do her job. Her mind seems elsewhere and it gives me a lump in my throat.

  When she takes hold of the pole and spins round slowly, I want to tell her to stop but I find that I can’t. My throat is tight but my eyes are greedy to see her lithe body do what it’s trained to do. She’s strong but still soft, her curves complementing the muscles that enable her to hold herself in back-arching positions that have me in awe. Fuck. My hands itch to touch her. My eyes yearn to see what’s under the tiny bra and panties she’s wearing. There is little left to the imagination but the parts of her that are covered that I crave the most.

  She spins and seems as light as air. Her hair fans around her like a halo of spun gold and even as I think that I feel a little crazy. The money in my pocket weighs heavy and the more Jessie dances for me the less I feel confident about carrying out my plan.

  Failing is never an option, so when Jessie is finally back on her feet I ask her if she’ll take a seat for moment.

  She eyes me nervously. I guess guys have said the same kind of shit to her before with the intention of touching what they’ve greedily watched.

  I hold my hands up. “These are gonna stay over here,” I say and try to crack a smile. It’s hard because this isn’t just about what I’m going to ask her. It’s about so much more.

  She leaves the music on and takes a seat tentatively.

  “I was thinking about what you said last night.”

  She shifts, looking down at her hands. I can tell she’s uncomfortable but I need to explain this. I need her to trust me or she’s never going to say yes. “Which part?” she asks.

  “What you said about the guilt of living.”

  She nods. “Is that how you feel?”

  “It’s how I used to feel. I think I’ve made peace with that part.”

  Jessie looks thoughtful. “So which part are you still having trouble with?”

  Now it’s my turn to shift nervously. “I feel guilty for wanting to look at you.”

  Her cheeks pink and she lowers her eyes. It’s just about the most adorable thing I’ve seen in a long time. “Looking isn’t a bad thing to do,” she says. “It’s nature. We can’t do much about our urges.”

  “What about for wanting to touch you?”

  She looks up at me, her eyes trying to read what I mean. I keep my hands resting on my thighs so that she doesn’t get the wrong idea. I’m not going to paw her here and now.

  “It shows you’re moving out of the deepest stage of grief,” she says softly. “Try to look at it as a good thing.”

  “Do you feel like that?” I ask her.

  “Desire?” she asks softly.

  “Yes.”

  “I’m not sure that this kind of thing is part of the service.”

  “You mean you don’t want to answer.”

  “I mean that maybe I should dance for you.”

  “I love it when you dance,” I tell her. “But I’d rather ask you another question, if you’re okay with that?”

  She looks over to the pole as if she’s contemplating what to do next.

  “Okay,” she says. “One more. Or security is going to come down here wondering what the hell is going on.”

  5

  JESSIE

  I don’t understand what’s happening. I don’t understand these feelings I’m having for this man. It’s not right to feel drawn to someone so quickly. It feels reckless and dangerous, as though my heart has been curled up with injury and now suddenly its flung itself open and is beating fine. I’m sitting here craving his touch.

  The low wall lights in this private room cast his profile in an amber wash; straight nose, full eyebrows and those lips. His expression is more relaxed than I expect to find. Gone are the lines of worry and the veil of sadness that clouded his eyes.

  I wish I knew what was going on inside his head. I listen to the sounds of our breathing and the distant beat of the music from the club. Life is going on outside this room but it feels remote. Existing here feels as though I’ve stepped into a bubble, away from my usual existence. I don’t think I realized how much I was just going through the motions until now. As stupid as I feel for admitting it, I feel safe here and the prospect of opening the door to this shabby room and slipping back into my life fills me with dread.

  Life has taught me one very harsh lesson; counting on there being a tomorrow is a dangerous business. My husband had plans before he died, lists of things he wanted to do, books he wanted to read and places we were going to travel to. He hated his job but didn’t make the effort to find something that would have fulfilled him more. Everything was put off until another day, until there just weren’t any more days.

  “Jessie,” Ryan says softly, reaching out to stroke my cheek. “Will you come with me tonight?”

  My heart skitters at his invitation. What is he thinking? That he can buy my time here but invite me out for freebies when I finish work? I’m stupid for feeling a little stab of hurt. I know what I do for a living and I know what people think about it too. No man is going to come to a place like this and want to make me his girl. No one is coming here to find a wife. His eyes are searching my face and I know I have to answer. “Where?”

  He pauses, focusing on a strand of my hair that he’s rolling between his fingers. I can feel the tension in his body as he contemplates what to say. His hesitation makes this feel like he’s about to say something important. Something that he’s considering carefully. “I’m taking some time off,” he says. “A month. I hate being alone. Will you come and stay with me? As a companion, or more if you would be willing. I’m willing to pay you fifty thousand dollars cash for one month of your time.”

  I almost choke. Did he say fifty thousand dollars?

  “A companion?” I want to laugh because that isn’t what I was expecting him to say at all. I feel as though I’ve entered into an episode of Downton Abbey without knowing it. Sitting here in my underwear, I don’t exactly feel like companion material, and as a customer of the Kitty Cat Club, Ryan shouldn’t be the kind of man who would suggest that.

  “You sound amused,” he says, and I think I see a little color rise on the soft parts of his cheeks just beneath his eyes. I get a sudden urge to kiss him there, to feel the heat of his embarrassment on my lips, but I don’t. Instead, I lean back into the sofa and look up at the ruined ceiling.

  “A companion,” I say again. “Fifty grand.” Just the sound of that rolling off my tongue sends a shiver over the skin of my arms. Fifty thousand bucks is money that would change my life. It’s money that would get me back on my feet. It’s also way more money that I can believe anyone would be prepared to pay for a month of my time, without me having to do some seriously terrible shit.

  “What would I need to do?”

  He looks me dead in the eyes as though he wants me to see that he’s genuine and trustworthy. All things that I’m doubting at this precise moment. “You would need to stay at my home. Accompany me to social occasions and on trips. Spend mealtimes and weekends with me.”

  “And?”

  He runs his hand through his hair, a stress-tell that I find endearing and completely unexpected. Why is he nervous? I’m just Jessie, and if he has fifty grand to spend on hiring me to keep him company for a month then he must be pretty important at doing something.

  “It’s been a long time since I had someone,” he says gently.

  I blink slowly at that admission. He’s the kind of man who could find a different woman every day of the week, so knowing that he hasn’t been making the most of his god-given talents makes me feel sad. “It’s been a long time for me too,” I say softly.

  The moment hangs between us like a fragile line of spider’s web. Two lonely souls contemplating something that will take us both somewhere we’ve been before but lost to
the perils of life.

  Things like this just don’t happen to people like me. This is Pretty Woman territory. Or Christian Grey-esque.

  “Fifty thousand?” I say again.

  He nods and reaches into his pocket and pulls out an envelope. My eyes widen as he tugs out a stack of bills. “I have it here and I’ll give it to you now. I know we don’t know each other enough for you to trust me, but I hope that if you have this upfront that it will be enough for you to know I’m genuine about the proposal.”

  He hands me the envelope which feels heavy in my hands. Heavy with the weight of a decision.

  I’m a stripper not a whore. I might sell my body in a way but looking is a whole lot different from touching. This is not a decision that I can make sitting in my underwear next to this man who both intrigues me and terrifies me in equal measure. I feel a little lost. I wish I could call my sister and tell her, but she doesn’t know what I do and how would I explain any of this? As long as I keep this job a secret it feels like a blip in my life that I can move on from without it tarnishing my future. If I take Ryan up on his proposal would the next month feel the same? I could agree to what he’s asked of me and tell no one. If only I knew, could I get away with it?

  But this isn’t just about my reputation, it’s about my heart too. I know what I’m like. I can’t get involved with someone sexually without my heart somehow getting sucked in. I think women are made differently like that. Men can see sex as a purely physical release. They can reduce it to a transaction in the way that Ryan has and think nothing of it. I look at Ryan and I can’t work him out. I think he’s a good man. Well, as good as a man can be who finds it necessary to pay to see women take their clothes off. I know he’s been through a lot; things that I can empathize with. But I don’t understand this. He’s a good-looking man. He has presence and charisma. I’m sure with all his natural attributes and the addition of his obvious wealth that he could get a woman without paying for it. What is driving him to do this?

  “Are you going to say something?” he asks.

  I want to find out the answer to my question but I just don’t feel able to ask it. Is it stupid that I’m considering saying yes to this outlandish proposition, one that will most probably involve me having sex with this man, but I don’t feel comfortable enough to ask him a simple question? I know the answer. It’s completely ridiculous. But this is about fifty thousand dollars, money that will get the monkey off my back.

  My life really needs changing for the better.

  His eyes are soft when I finally look to them for reassurance. He puts his hand to my cheek and gently strokes back a lock of my hair. My hearts skips at the tenderness, and I know in that moment what my answer will be.

  “Yes,” I say softly, and that one word feels like the most important that I have spoken since the day I said ‘I do’.

  6

  RYAN

  She said yes.

  I’ll be honest and say that I thought she would. When fifty grand is on the table, there aren’t many people who’ll turn it down. Well, not many women who work in a place like this. It’s why I brought it with me. I’m not a man who likes to take chances. I size up my opposition and find their buttons. Then it’s just a matter of pressing them.

  As Jessie climbs into my car, I glance down at her slim legs and think about a button she has that I’d like to press very much. Maybe we’ll get to that tonight. Or maybe I’ll make her wait. Tonight it might feel too much like coercion, but I know once she’s been in my space for a day or two it’ll feel more natural. I want her to want it. I need to know that even though I’m paying her, she’s enjoying everything that happens. I’m an arrogant fucker and I have no qualms in using money to get what I want, even when it would seem unethical to others, but I’m not a monster.

  I really want this to be a good month for her too. It won’t serve my purpose well enough if it isn’t. I turn to her as I start the car. She’s gazing out of the window, her hands clasped primly in her lap. I’d give fifty thousand bucks to know what she’s thinking right now. The thing is, buying someone’s physical presence is one thing, but buying their mind is impossible. She may give me what I want but I’ll never truly know what’s going on behind her eyes.

  “I’ll take you home so you can collect some things,” I say.

  She nods, glancing across at me quickly before she turns back to the window. In the club she’d disappeared to get changed and talk to her boss about needing some time off. She sounded worried about getting fired but then she remembered the money and seemed to relax. I have a feeling she’s not going to be returning to this job when the month is over. I really hope she’ll find something else.

  We drive in silence, me lost in thoughts of what the next month is going to hold in store, and Jessie… well, I have no idea.

  In her neighborhood, I get a clenching feeling in my gut. This place is rough. I wouldn’t want to walk these streets without security, let alone a tiny fragile woman like Jessie. I pull up outside but before she gets out I tell her to wait. I want her to understand what kind of man I am so I walk around to her side and open the door for her. She blinks up at me as though nobody has ever treated her like a lady and my gut clenches again.

  “You don’t need to walk me to my door,” she says, her cheeks turning a little pink. Is she embarrassed about where she lives?

  “You don’t want me to help you carry your things? I can wait outside the door while you pack.”

  She goes to shake her head but I slam the car door and rest my hand on the small of her back to gently steer her forward. It seems to be enough for her to acquiesce and she leads the way to a door into an apartment building.

  “You can come up,” she says and we work our way up to the second floor. The stairwell reeks of cooking and garbage but when we get to Jessie’s front door I can already smell something clean and fresh before she’s even opened up. The entrance hall is narrow but the room opens into a space that’s bright. It’s tiny by my standards. I estimate that her whole apartment would fit into my smallest guest bathroom, but she’s made the best of it and I like that. A twin bed is pressed up against the wall underneath the window, and the kitchen comprises a few cupboards with a sink and microwave on top, but it’s the personal touches and the care she’s taken to make it a home that show me a little about the kind of person she is.

  “It’s nothing,” she says waving her arm around. “But you know… I couldn’t get anything bigger.”

  “You’ve made it nice,” I say and she grimaces, embarrassed.

  “I’ll just get some things.” She disappears into what I’m assuming is the bathroom while I take a seat on her futon and glance at the pictures on the table beside me. Jessie is with a girl I assume is her sister. They look so alike they could be twins, but there is one of them as children and I can see the age gap there. There’s a picture on the wall of a woman dancing on the beach. It looks like Jessie and I wonder who might have painted her. Maybe an ex-boyfriend. Maybe her husband. The thought of other men in her life flairs jealousy in me that I have no business feeling. Stupid to feel territorial over a woman who you haven’t even marked yet.

  Jessie returns from the bathroom with a large white bag that seems heavy. “Give me a moment,” she says, heading to a closet in the corner. She disappears and I hear drawers opening and closing and then the sound of a zipper. Hangers clink as she pulls clothes off the rack. I can’t imagine what she’s packing but she won’t need any of it. I have a closet of clothes waiting for her at my place, the kind of things she has likely never worn before. Again, I choose not to tell her too much. Let her bring along the things that will make her feel at home, and then she can forget about them when she slips into her new life. For a second I feel a pang of guilt. It doesn’t feel kind to take a person from the life that Jessie has found herself living to the kind of life she could live by my side, only to let her return in four weeks’ time, but I can’t be thinking about that now. I have a plan and the plans I
make are always executed perfectly. Even this one which feels so final will be handled the same. I promise myself this even as I know that circumstances may be beyond my control.

  Jessie returns to the room with a small backpack. I was expecting something larger but in a way this is better. “You ready?” I ask and she nods.

  “I just need to take out the trash and empty out the refrigerator.”

  “I’ll deal with the trash,” I say. I can’t remember the last time I dealt with my own trashcans. We handle the practicalities of Jessie leaving her place for an extended period and I keep glancing across at her to make sure she’s not having second thoughts. She seems very preoccupied but I imagine she’s processing. If the situation was reversed I’m not sure what I’d be thinking. “You’re going to like it at my place,” I say. She’s clutching half a cucumber and looks confused for a moment. “You’ll feel right at home.” I feel my cheeks heating because I don’t sound like myself, but that’s understandable. My fingers tingle as I take hold of the trash bag and lift it out of the plastic can and I squeeze my fists tight in response.

  “Can I put this in the bag?” she asks and I hold it open so she can throw out all the perishables. When we’re done, I head towards the door. “The chutes down the hall,” she says, so I make my way. Jessie follows me out and when I’m done, she hands me a baby wipe to clean up.

  Every ordinary action feels sharp and strange in the presence of this girl, and it’s not because of anything she’s doing, but because we are strangers and I’ve set us on a fast-track to more. I take hold of her bag and follow her out of the building.

  “Have you lived here long?”

  She shakes her head as we descend the stairs. “I had to move when my husband…” she doesn’t finish her sentence and I feel the pain of her memories in my own heart.

  “That’s a shame,” I say. Being forced to leave a home because of a tragedy can only have made everything so much worse for her.

  “Not really,” she says. “I couldn’t have stayed there. Every inch of space had him in it. I would never have grieved.”