Todd stopped and looked at her.
“You heard me,” she smiled. “I want you to come on me.”
Todd didn’t look certain. It felt like a line to cross. It felt like a very big line, and Pam wasn’t sure he should either.
Not being sure made her want him even more. Not being sure turned her on.
“Does Steve know?” Todd said.
Pam shook her head.
“Will he?” Todd said. “Will you tell him?”
“No.”
“Should you tell him?”
“Probably.”
“But you won’t.”
Pam lay there for a while, then shook her head. “This is our thing, you and me.”
“I don’t know if we should.”
“But you will. Because you want to so much.”
In the end he did. Kneeling beside her while she rubbed herself, he held himself over her so that hot thick semen landed on her tummy.
She liked it. She actually really liked it as a way to complete this weird thing between them.
Chapter 36
he next time they saw each other, Todd came on Pam’s breasts, and some of his semen dribbled onto her tummy close to her moving hand. She lay and watched him and thought it was pretty much what she’d done before with the blowjob guys. And Steve hadn’t minded that.
So this, she told herself, ought to be okay. She wasn’t touching Todd. They were almost touching, and semen was on her skin, but she wasn’t touching him.
That should make a difference.
The next time, as Todd got close, Pam turned around and lay with her face near his cock.
Todd stopped.
“Go on,” Pam said, and kept rubbing herself.
She lay beside him and looked up at his cock as he touched himself. She always enjoyed watching men pleasure themselves and liked how confident Todd was with his body and more importantly his cock. She loved watching his hand sliding up and down his shaft. Todd wasn’t shy or reserved, and that turned her on.
He was close to her face. Not even out of reach. If she moved a little, she’d have Todd in her mouth. Like she had the other guys.
Todd came. Came over her face. Some landed on her lip. At the last minute she opened her mouth so some landed on her tongue. She tasted him, and he watched, silent, as if they both knew this was something they shouldn’t be doing.
She touched her mouth. Todd’s semen felt hot and sticky against her lips. She touched, and tasted, and looked up at Todd.
He didn’t seem to know what to say.
She was turned on. She could taste Todd.
Her fingers were sticky. She reached down, and touched herself. She rubbed herself with Todd’s semen, so a little of it went inside her.
She made herself come. She masturbated and came with Todd’s semen on her hand. It was as close as they could come to sex without actually touching.
It was too much.
Pam knew she had to tell Steve.
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here’s a thing.” Pam took a deep breath. “I need to tell you something without you getting upset, but I’m sorry. I think we need to cut Todd loose, and it’s my fault, and I feel bad.”
“What happened?”
“We got too close. It’s getting strange.”
“How do you mean?”
“I’ve been letting him jack off on me.”
“Like come on you?”
She nodded. “It kind of seemed unfair he watched us and never got to jerk off.”
Steve wasn’t as upset as Pam thought. Instead he seemed turned on, she thought. Interested.
“Is that okay?” she said, pretty sure now it was.
“It’s fine.”
“It’s okay I did that on my own?”
“Did you have sex with him?”
Pam shook her head. “He jerked off. I did, too. We took care of ourselves.” She paused noticing Steve’s growing reaction. “But he came on me. Is that okay?”
Steve groaned in pleasure as he mentally visualized what she was telling him. “It’s fine.”
“Do you find that kinky?”
Steve stood there for a moment, then nodded.
“You want to watch, don’t you?” she said.
Steve shrugged.
“I’m warning you. I’m getting close to him, in a weird way. We shouldn’t.”
“I want to.”
There it was. Pam knew that Steve was thinking with his wrong head.
“I really don’t think we should.”
“Just once, to see.”
“Steve, I mean it. Like with the blowjobs, we should walk away.”
“Just once, Pam. Please.”
He wasn’t going to listen, Pam realized. Just like the blowjobs. He wasn’t going to listen, and he’d probably be the one who ended up upset. What could she do.
What did she want to do.
Well, part of her wanted to, but she was worried about wanting more. Pam didn't trust her emotions having already been alone with Todd, and that was bad. She wanted him and that scared her, but she wasn't sure why it scared her. This is what Steve wanted and even though he freaked out afterward, she still wanted more. She wanted Todd to make love to her and thought about him a lot. That worried her. Would her desire for sex turn into more than just sex? Could she trust herself?
She didn’t understand how they could end up here again, but part of her was glad they had.
This time, she thought, she knew what was probably going to happen, though. This time she could be ready and could be clear where they would stop.
“I’m giving him a hand job,” Pam said.
Steve looked surprised.
“I’m not going to unless we agree to that first,” Pam said.
Steve was thinking.
“Come on,” Pam said. “We have to be fair to him.”
“What?” Steve said, apparently fixating. “Him coming on you?”
Pam could see how turned on Steve was. She could see and was turned on herself. This was a mistake.
This was stupid, but she wanted to as much as Steve did.
“Yeah,” she said. “Okay. Why not?”
Steve grinned.
“This isn’t like last time. If you want to do this, I’ll go through with it.”
Steve nodded. “I know.”
Pam sat there waiting for Steve to change his mind. She wanted to say he’d regret this, but couldn’t bring herself to. She didn’t understand why she didn’t object more.
“Okay,” she said. “Let’s do it.”
Steve smiled.
“I mean it,” she said. “Tomorrow night.”
“All right.”
“This is a mistake,” Pam said, telling herself she had to try one last time.
“I promise,” Steve said. “It isn’t.”
“She wanted to say she’d heard that before. She wanted to say he was wrong. Instead she just kissed him, and stopped arguing.
She wanted this too. In the end she wanted this enough that she couldn’t bring herself to talk him out of it, because even though she expected problems, she was almost certain that she and Steve could get through whatever complications came of this.
Just like they had last time.
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teve put things in motion pretty quickly when Todd came over the following night. Steve let him in knowing that Pam was already undressed on their bed. Steve was shocked when he walked in with Todd and found Pam on the bed with her favorite toy already masturbating.
Pam smiled when she noticed her men walk in, and felt pretty kinky when Todd started to undress.
Todd knelt between her legs and masturbated, too. She’d thought about how and decided this was best. Todd liked to see her clearly, see what she was doing, but she didn’t mind having both men watching her.
Steve sat beside them both, in a chair next to the bed, and watched. His hand was on his pants, like he was pressing down without actually moving much. Pam grinned at him
now and then, and watched Todd the rest of the time while she rubbed herself slowly.
Then Steve changed everything.
“Put it inside her,” Steve’s words resonated.
Todd stopped moving. Pam stopped, too. They both turned and looked at Steve.
It was pretty clear what Steve meant, and who he’d been talking to, but Pam was still surprised.
She was more than surprised, she was shocked. Steve was being stupid, taking a dangerous risk. A risk about health and a risk about his feelings.
Steve reached over and opened the drawer beside him. He took out some condoms and threw one over onto the bed.
So only a risk about feelings, Pam supposed.
She still didn’t know what to say. She lay there without moving. Okay, she was using her toy thinking about how it would feel if Todd would do her, and now Steve put it all on the table. She wanted to fuck. She wanted to fuck Todd, a lot, but she also knew it was a terrible, dangerous idea.
“Hey,” she said to Steve, ignoring Todd for a moment. “Don’t say that, because I will.”
“I want you to.”
“Think first. I mean it.”
“Please.”
She looked at him, and decided he wasn’t going to listen. Like last night. Like he hadn’t about her blowing other men, and that had ended badly.
She’d thought they could overcome any problems. But if this went wrong, it was worse. This was actual sex.
She shouldn’t even consider this. But she wanted to. And if Steve wouldn’t listen, it wasn’t her fault. She shouldn’t have to always be the one thinking about his bad decisions.
“Go on,” Steve moaned. “Please.”
Pam looked at him for a long, long time, then looked up at Todd.
“I don’t mind,” Pam said to Todd. “I will if you want to.”
Todd seemed stunned. Shocked into silence. He didn’t answer.
She assumed that meant he would. In a moment or two. When he got used to the idea.
And she would, too. She was fairly sure she was going to if Steve let her.
She almost left it there. She almost just fucked Todd and forgot about Steve. Then she decided she had to try one last time. She looked at Steve. “Are you really sure,” she said. “Because last time…”
“I’m sure,” Steve said. “Like this, when I’m not jealous, I’m sure.”
“Okay,” Pam said. “I give up.”
“Good.”
“I mean it. I promise I mean it. I promise I’ll do this, right now, unless you tell me to stop.”
“Okay.”
“And I won’t stop once I start. Not this time.”
“All right.”
Pam gave up. She looked up at Todd, still kneeling above her. “Want to?”
“Yeah.”
“I want you to.”
Todd didn’t wait. He was still hard. He tore the condom open, and rolled it on. Pam watched, horny and almost nervous, ignoring Steve now. Todd shifted, leaned forward, holding himself, and pressed the end of his cock into her. She moved her hand and helped him in.
It was that simple.
Fucking another man after years with Steve was as simple as blowing other men had been.
Pam looked over at Steve as she held Todd against her. She had to ask,“You’re really sure?” But it was too late. Todd pushed, and was inside her.
Todd groaned, and Pam sighed.
“I’m sure,” Steve said anyway, watching carefully.
Todd slid deeper into Pam, as far as he could. He was breathing hard, almost panting against her neck. He was pushing deeper into her, slowly, taking his time, she thought, feeling her. She wrapped herself around him, held him, felt him hot and hard inside her.
Todd started moving, and she kissed him, even though she wasn’t sure she should. She had intended not to seem too interested, not to join in too much in case it upset Steve, but she couldn’t help herself.
Todd was fucking her, was deep inside her, and she put her arms around him, and breathed against his neck, and felt a cock that wasn’t Steve’s filling her. Someone who wasn’t Steve was inside her, when she’d never thought that would happen again. She almost liked the idea of that as much as the sex.
Todd came quite suddenly. He was quick and hadn’t asked how close Pam was, but Pam had assumed that might happen. Todd liked her, and they’d been teasing each other, and this had all happened fairly suddenly. Too suddenly to plan for self-control. Todd came, then lay on top of Pam, limp. When he stopped moving she remembered not to get too interested. She gently pushed him away.
She sat up. She touched herself. She could still feel the space where Todd had been, the shape of him, imagined, inside her. She could almost feel him, all hot and hard.
Her fingers started to slide around where she was warm and slippery. Todd was still watching her.
She made herself stop and look at Steve.
“Are you okay?” she said.
He nodded.
“You’re okay with this?” she said, astonished. She wouldn’t have been if he’d just had another woman. She couldn’t see how he could be.
“Completely,” Steve said.
“You’re not horrified? You don’t hate me?”
Steve shook his head.
Todd was quiet, still watching.
“Okay,” Pam said, and slid over to Steve. “I want you.”
Steve stood up and started pulling his clothes off. Pam grabbed for his trousers, and he did too, and between them they got them open.
He fucked her. When he slid inside her, he felt more oily than usual, felt slicker, because she’d already had sex.
She had the feel of Todd inside her, and now Steve was there, too. She could feel the shape of Steve differently from every other time they’d had sex, because she was comparing him to another man.
Steve should hate her, but he didn’t seem to care. Pam lay there and fucked him and worried.
She should be enjoying this, but she couldn’t concentrate. She was worried how Steve would react once he got off and his horny was gone.
“Hey,” Steve said, after a while, noticing. “What’s up?”
“Nothing.”
“You’re not into this?”
She bit her lip and looked at him, wondering if she could say it. “I’m not sure you aren’t about to freak out.”
“I’m not.”
“Not right now.”
“Not in ten minutes either.”
“Maybe Todd should go.”
Steve looked down at her. “He doesn’t need to.”
“Maybe I should,” Todd said.
“You don’t have to.”
“Maybe you should,” Pam said. “Just in case this gets complicated in a second.”
Todd stood up.
“Don’t…” Steve started to say, but Pam put her hand over his mouth.
“Let him go,” she said. “Just in case.”
“There’s no just in case.”
“There might be,” Pam said. “So let him go.” She looked up at Todd. “I’ll call you tomorrow, okay? I’ll let you know.”
Todd nodded. “Thank you.”
“Nah, dude. Thank you.”
Todd grinned and went to the door. He stopped before he went into the hall. “Um, don’t get up,” he said and left.
Pam wanted to laugh. She heard the front door close. She looked up at Steve.
“You’re really okay?’ she said.
“I really am.”
“He was inside me. He fucked me.”
“I know.”
“And you don’t care.”
“Pam,” Steve said. “Shut up. Please.”
“You’d better not be mad in ten minutes.”
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