Never Again, No More 3

by Untamed

  I wrestled for a few moments between knowing what she said was the truth and knowing what I felt in my gut I wanted to do. Begrudgingly, I forced myself to concede to what was for the best. “Fine. I’ll leave it alone. For you.”

  * * *

  Those were the last words we’d spoken about the incident. However, it sure wasn’t the last time it was on my mind. I knew Charice wasn’t cheating, but still it does something to a man’s ego when his wife—hell, even a jump off—called another man’s name. I won’t lie. That shit affected me. I couldn’t even have sex with Charice the way I wanted to because of it. I could get it up, but I couldn’t get to the finish line. So here I was, running, trying to relieve some stress from the situation—and from having the fucking blue balls—and still only finding stress in simple bullshit like songs.

  After running two additional miles, one and a half of them iTunes free, I still was in no better shape than when I came to the track. All I could do was imagine Charice sleeping with Lincoln, and I still wanted to whip Lincoln’s pretty-boy ass. I decided to call it quits and head over to the center to check on my paperwork and hopefully get up on a pickup game of basketball.

  As I got to the parking lot, Lincoln pulled up in his Ford F250 truck and hopped out with his duffle bag.

  “Fancy seeing you here, Mr. Westmore. How’s it going?”

  All of my anger ignited as if I were having a true Kill Bill moment, and I shoved him into his truck. “Fuck you, Lincoln.”

  “Get your hands off of me,” he said tensely. “I’m not playing with you.”

  Charice’s words floated into my mind. Divide. Conquer. So, I calmed down. “Fine.” I released him. “But I’m warning you. Stay away from me and stay away from Charice,” I said, backing away from him with my chest heaving up and down and my eyes dancing with anger.

  “Woooo,” Lincoln said cynically as he shook his head, laughing.

  I paid his ass no attention. I just jumped into my SUV and let down the windows. Before I could back up, Lincoln called out to me.

  “What, nigga?” I asked in frustration.

  “You know, Ryan, if you’re having girl problems, I feel bad for you, son. I’ve got ninety-nine problems, and a . . . bitch ain’t one.” He laughed and then turned and walked toward the track.

  Son of a bitch, I thought. Jay-Z’s “99 Problems,” another song that was getting removed from my iTunes playlist immediately. As I pulled off, I knew this was definitely Fuck with Ryan Week.

  Chapter Twenty

  Charice

  No, I didn’t lie for Lincoln to protect him, so you can get that out of your mind right now. I lied to make sure my husband didn’t end up in the penal system. With the way he reacted when I told him that Lincoln only hugged me, I couldn’t risk telling him it went any further.

  Shit, we were already having our share of problems as a residual effect from the whole incident. I’d noticed Ryan questioning my whereabouts more and more, and on top of that, there were the issues in the bedroom. Isn’t make-up sex supposed to be the best sex? Key word supposed. The two times Ryan and I had attempted it had been the worst experiences in our lives. So, needless to say, we had enough on our plates to worry about for me to go confessing the whole truth and nothing but.

  However, I felt so horrible for lying. I’d never lied to Ryan about anything the entire time I’d known him—aside from not telling him about Lincoln and me, which really wasn’t a lie—and now that we were married, this was what I was reduced to. This was not how I had envisioned my marriage. I was mad as hell with Lincoln for forcing me into a situation where I’d have to lie to Ryan. Okay, sure, perhaps I had little room to be angry with Lincoln since I was lying to him in a major way, but Ryan was my husband, and my loyalty lay with him. The way I saw it, it wasn’t like I was actually lying to Lincoln about Lexi. I just never told him. If I ever had to tell him about Lexi, I wouldn’t deny that he was the father, but my goal was not to be put in the situation where I had to admit that.

  Anyway, I was madder with myself for allowing Lincoln to get inside my mental like he had. Ryan actually took the whole situation a lot better than I expected and a helluva lot better than I would’ve. I couldn’t believe I’d allowed myself to get so caught up in old memories that I would do some disrespectful shit like that.

  I would never admit this to Ryan or anybody else, but a part of me—a very tiny, micro-morsel part of me—would always care for Lincoln. So, I guess that was why he was able to affect me the way he did. Just being honest, Lincoln was the first man I was going to actually marry, so of course I’d have some residual feelings, but damn, I never expected that to happen. I don’t know. I guess a part of me liked to see him groveling for me. Hell, it made me feel better to know that he was enduring the same heartache he put me through. Still, there would be no more times like what happened that morning between Lincoln and me, and I put that on everything I loved.

  To clear my mind of any thoughts of Lincoln, I stopped by the center before it opened. I wanted to do a little dancing for my exercise routine, and I had to come up with a new dance sequence for the girls. I’d been at it about ten minutes when my cell phone rang.

  “Hello.”

  “Hey, baby,” Ryan said.

  “Hey, you.” I giggled into the phone. “What are you doing?”

  “Getting dressed to go meet Brendon about this new endorsement deal. Johanna will be in later today, so Ms. Lorraine from across the street is here to watch Lexi for us until she gets here, and I’m going to drop the boys off at school. I was just checking on you. You’re still at the center, right?”

  “Yes, baby. I am. When I leave here, I was going to do some grocery shopping and then head back to the house and go through the gazillion emails I know I have from the consulting firm.”

  “Sounds like you have a busy day.” He paused as if something caught his attention.

  Not wishing to hold him, I stated, “Well, I guess I will see you later on then.”

  “Why are you rushing me off the phone?” he asked quickly, his tone getting tense instantly.

  That tone let me know that this thing brewing between us was definitely going to have to end. I couldn’t take his condescending ways, and I hated being ridiculed on every word that came out of my mouth. As each day passed, his attitude got progressively worse, and it was slowly beginning to choke the life out of our relationship.

  “Baby, we really need to go somewhere just me and you. We’ve got to—I don’t know how to say this—reconnect.”

  “So, there was a disconnect?” he asked.

  This shit was on my last fucking nerves. I rubbed the back of my neck. I couldn’t do this shit right now. He was going to throw me off my mode, and I had to get this routine together for the girls.

  “Baby, listen. I can’t imagine how hurt you still must be, but we have to find a way to work through this. I just want us to be how we were before. Is that really asking too much?” I asked softly into the phone, trying to soften his mood.

  After a few moments, he released a deep sigh. “I’m sorry, Charice. I’ve just really been buggin’ lately. I know that you want to try, and so do I. It’s just hard for me right now.”

  “I understand.”

  “Look, we’ll talk about it some more when we both get home,” Ryan said.

  “I’d really appreciate that.”

  “Okay, well, I’m going to let you go so you can finish up.”

  “Okay, babe. I love you.”

  “Yeah, I love you too.”

  I drank a swig of my bottled water and stretched. Life with Ryan had been so blissful before Lincoln showed up and straight fucked up everything. All I wanted was my husband back. Lincoln could never, nor would he ever be able to come between us. The residual feelings I felt for him were just due to having my love scorned by him. What happened was because of Lincoln and his feeble attempt to remind me of a past that had long since died. So, it was simple. Stay away from Lincoln and stay out of drama.r />
  At any rate, I was determined to get this routine together, go shopping, and finish my emails so that I could be free to discuss things with my husband. As I turned the music back on and began to dance, I heard clapping. I spun around and saw Lincoln.

  “What the fuck are you doing here?” I asked angrily.

  “What the fuck is up with you and your husband with these fucking attitudes?” Lincoln shot at me. “Damn. I was giving you a compliment, ma.”

  “I don’t need no fucking compliments from you. What I need is to know how the hell you got in here before I call the police,” I yelled with my hands on my hips.

  “For what?”

  “Breaking and fucking entering,” I said, rolling my neck.

  “Pipe down, ma. Rob let me in.”

  “I will not pipe down. Why’d he let you in?”

  His condescending smirk turned into a light chuckle. “He’s in his office, and he and I were going to work out together. He stopped here first, so I came to see you shake your groove thang while he finished up some paperwork.”

  Squinting my eyes, I spat, “I don’t believe you.”

  Nonchalantly, he shrugged. “Call his office or go see for yourself then. Do you really think I would break in the center? I’ve done some foolish things in my past, but I think I have a little more sense than to break into a community center. I mean, if I really needed to see you that bad, you are only three houses down, ma.” Lincoln chuckled.

  Well, that tidbit was mostly certainly true, and it was highly unlikely that Lincoln would break in. He just got under my skin so badly, especially since all the drama popped off at my house.

  “Fine. Stay in the center as long as Rob is here, but get the hell out of my classroom.”

  “Why are you so sensitive?”

  “I’m tired of being bothered by you, Lincoln. Isn’t that enough?” I asked in frustration.

  “Perhaps, but see, your husband reacted out of character too. I know you all don’t want me around, but attacking me off the rip and him pushing on me the first moment he saw me leads me to think something went down between you two and I’m smack in the middle,” he said, walking in the classroom and shutting the door. He walked up toward me. “Be honest. Did you tell Ryan about last week?”

  “Leave now,” I commanded tensely.

  “Oh, did I strike a nerve?” he pressed. “So, you actually told him, huh?” he continued in disbelief.

  Disgusted, I shook my head at him. “Get out and stay out,” I yelled, pointing toward the door.

  He threw his hands in the air in surrender. Then, he turned and walked to the door. Once he reached the door and opened it, he snapped his fingers. “You didn’t tell him about the kiss.”

  “What?” I asked, caught off guard. “I don’t know what you’re talking about, but you need to go, and you need to go now.”

  “Yes, you do. I know Ryan. If he knew I touched you that intimately, he would’ve been the one breaking and entering into my house. And I know you, Charice. If you had told him, you would’ve gladly gloated that in my face. You didn’t tell him for a reason. What was the reason?”

  “I got your ass.” I walked over to my purse and picked up my cell phone. “Nine . . .one . . .” I said aloud as I pressed the buttons.

  “Hey. Hey. Whoa. Don’t do that. I’m going.” He relented, and I paused with my thumb in midair, ready to press the next 1.

  “I see you’re serious about this,” he said.

  “As a heart attack,” I said in a no-nonsense tone.

  We stared at each other for a second, and when he saw I wasn’t going to back down from my threat, he exhaled in defeat. I didn’t really want to call the police on Lincoln, but I’d do what I had to do to keep my nose clean. That meant that these chance meetings between Lincoln and me were going to have stop immediately. With my marriage being on pins and needles, I didn’t need anyone getting the wrong idea about us, especially not Ryan.

  Just as he was about to walk out the door, Lincoln turned around with a serious expression on his face. “Just tell me one thing,” he requested, looking intently at me. “Did you lie to Ryan about what really happened to protect him, or to protect your true feelings?”

  The gasp that escaped me couldn’t be denied. Lincoln knew both Ryan and me far too well, and that was going to pose a problem. Regardless, I had to stand firm. I didn’t want to give him any tidbit of information so that he could have an opening, since he’d already proved he could take any opening and run with it.

  Recovering quickly, I crossed my arms with a smirk on my face. “You know, Lincoln, what my husband and I discuss is none of your business. It’s our marriage, and we are the only ones privy to the information discussed in it. For your information, however, I told Ryan. The reason he didn’t pummel you is because neither of us has the time to waste on you. We have a life—together. Now, you need to get one of your own.”

  Lincoln looked at me as if I’d hurt him to the core. “Damn. Hmph. Well, I guess I was wrong. You have a nice day, Charice. I’m sorry to bother you.”

  “You have a nice life, Lincoln,” I said harshly.

  Just then, Rob walked up to the doorway. “Everything all right in here? You all look really intense. Linc isn’t plaguing you, is he Charice?” Rob tried to joke.

  “As a matter of fact, he is. Next time, leave your company in the car,” I snapped, walking to the door and shutting it in both of their faces.

  As they walked by the glass, Lincoln looked inside at me again, and I could feel his heart breaking. I looked away and sat down on the floor. As soon as I hit the floor, tears sprang to my eyes. I wish I could say they were tears of frustration or anger, but they were tears of loss. I felt just like I had the first time Lincoln and I broke up. The pain of that moment had come alive again for me in this moment as I looked at Lincoln’s heartbroken face. So, the true question for me became, why did I even care?

  Chapter Twenty-one

  Lucinda

  Well, I’ll be damned. I’ll be straight damned. Raul Garcia was the father of Maria’s daughter, Rosemary, and my half-brother—turned out not to be my half-brother, but rather Nadia’s half-brother—Emilio Jr. Ain’t that some shit? My dad even had Eva tested, and luckily she was his child, but still, I could hardly believe that damn Raul wasn’t lying. This had to be the most dysfunctional fucking family I’d ever seen in my life.

  I was at my mom’s house when my dad came back with the shit-face to deliver the gloomy details. He’d told us how Raul stood by Maria’s side, gloating after the results, and how they were now a couple. He’d already filed for divorce from Maria, and now was asking for custody of Eva. He’d also put their house on the market and was officially living back in my mom’s house. I really didn’t feel sorry for my dad, but I knew that I would most definitely be back in court to get my child support reduced. Son of a bitch.

  Now, what tripped me out was how the hell he was gonna ask for custody of a child while he was temporarily living with my mom. None of my siblings wanted him there, and I knew damn well he didn’t expect anyone from my mom down to my siblings to be happy about him wanting to bring Eva into the household. Even my grandparents, who always stayed clear of my mom’s business, didn’t want my dad around my mom, let alone Eva. I just prayed my mom wasn’t foolish enough to turn this temporary arrangement into a permanent solution. My dad didn’t love her. He was just hurt behind Maria. Of course, I’d protect my mom at all costs, but I couldn’t make decisions for her. She was still grown, and hell, she was my madre.

  Probably the most hilarious part of this is—wait for it—Shanaya. She was pissed off with Raul after finding out about Maria and had taken his ass to court about her child support. It’s so funny that when she thought Raul was her “man,” she was giving me her ass to kiss. Now that she realized that Raul wasn’t about shit, she was constantly calling me, wanting to hang out so we could sit around and have a “Raul-bashing session.” I let her talk me into that mess one time. Sh
e called and said that Raulina really wanted to play with Nadia, so I met her at the park. The entire time, all she wanted to talk about was how Raul screwed both of us over and how we could plot revenge. I politely told her that she could do whatever she wanted, but I didn’t discuss grown-up business in front of Nadia, nor did I have a reason to go after Raul. I already had my child support payments coming, and I had a man in my life that was good for me and to me. I wasn’t looking for no drama.

  Ever since then, I kept my distance from Shanaya and watched all the drama unfold between my dad, Maria, Raul, and her.

  As for my child support reduction, I was absolutely correct. My hearing was today. As of now, I was pacing the house back and forth, waiting on Aldris. He was supposed to come to court with me. So, why was Aldris missing in action? He took a vacation day because Jessica was sick, so he’d been at Jennifer’s house watching her while Jennifer was at work. I know you must think that’s crazy for him to be over there, but I trusted Aldris. I was sure Jessica felt better being in her own bed, and I didn’t want Jessica’s cold virus taking root in our house, so it was a perfect solution. However, it was about 2:30 p.m., and I was definitely going to have to leave without Aldris if he didn’t show up in the next five minutes.

  Sitting on the sofa with my legs crossed in my black pencil skirt with my white button-down, three-quarter length–sleeve blouse, I held my black pump stilettos in my hand and looked at my watch for the gazillionth time.

  “Damn it, Aldris, come on,” I pleaded as his cell phone continued to ring in my ear with no answer. I hung up the phone, put it in my purse, and slipped on my shoes, then grabbed the keys to my new Maxima and headed to the courthouse before I was late.

  By the time I got there, I was pissed because I still hadn’t touched bases with Aldris, and I really didn’t want to be back in court with this fool about child support. I still had my same lawyer, Attorney Cheatham, and thankfully the same judge, Judge Cutliff, was presiding over the case again. Those were the two pluses, since my support system wasn’t in place for the day.