by Mary Smith
“Hamilton.” She moans and shakes with a shiver.
“Yes, sweetheart.”
I lick the small of her back and dip my fingers down to her clit and gently rub it. She’s already wet and I’ve not even done anything yet. I stand and plunge my fingers inside her. Her knees go weak but I hold her tighter to my chest.
“You like my fingers in you, don’t you?”
“Yes. Yes.” She rests her head on my chest.
“You’re wet for me and only me.” I work her faster.
“Mmm.” She grinds her ass against my cock and I almost explode in my pants.
Quickly I remove my fingers and spin her around. “Do you want this?” I grab my dick.
“I do.” Janan reaches for my belt and removes it with ease. She never takes her eyes off mine. I have to keep reminding myself she’s a virgin, and I can’t be rough with her.
But damn I want to stick it in so fucking bad.
I stretch my legs and kick my pants away and remove my socks.
“Do you ever wear underwear?” Janan giggles.
“They’re a waste of time.” I guide her over to the bed and lightly push her onto it. “Get in the center.” She slides back and opens her legs.
She’s ready.
“You’re the hottest woman I’ve ever laid my eyes on and you’re all mine.” I lick her core.
“Yes, Hamilton.” She wraps her legs around my head. I loved when she did it before and I love it even more now.
I suck on her click harder and slide two fingers in her. She rocks her hips harder against my face, and it fuels my frantic tongue and fingers.
“I’m cumming. I’m cumming.”
Janan arches her back, and her entire body locks up. I feel a gush of her fresh juices on my fingers and lap them up until she relaxes her tense body. I kiss up her body, biting down on both her nipples.
“Yes. I’m ready, Hamilton. I’m ready.” She pants hard and even though she just came, I know she’s ready for me. “I need it hard. Don’t hold back.” Her brown eyes are begging me.
“Lay back flat.” I instruct and she does.
I nuzzle her neck taking in her vanilla scent and suck on her earlobe.
“Stop teasing.” She groans and lifts her hips.
“I need a condom.” I reach over to my nightstand and grab one from the drawer. I raise up on my hunches and put it on me. Janan is watching my every move and I begin to stroke myself. “You like watching me?”
She bites down on her lip and nods. She sits up and reaches for me. I remove my hand and let her take over the hand job. Her tight squeeze causes my head to fall back, and I try to find some air.
“Should I continue or are you going to fuck me raw?” Janan’s voice is low.
“How did a sweet girl like you learn so much dirty talk?”
She releases me and grins. “I read—a lot.”
The jokester side of her makes me chuckle. I can’t remember laughing when having sex.
“I’m ready, Hamilton. Please trust me.” She begs dragging her nails softly down my cheek and lays back down spreading her legs.
I rub my tip up and down her slit. I watch her face as I push into her. I want to make sure I don’t hurt her, although I’m ready to rip her apart. “I’m going to shove it in fast, and then I’ll go slow until you’re ready for more.”
She nods and her eyes are wide.
I take a deep breath, line myself up with her again, and slam into her. She screams out and digs her nails into my shoulders. I remain still.
“Don’t stop,” Janan says with watery eyes.
“Not until—”
“I’m ready. I swear.”
I listen to her and against my better judgement, I pull back and push into her again. I don’t slam this time. My motions are slower but faster. Janan moans and calls out my name as I continue to fuck her.
“Faster.” She orders me and I do.
My balls are tightening up and I can’t cum before her. I want her first time to be the greatest time. I reach between us and rub her clit. “Come on, sweetheart. I need to feel you.”
“Yes.” She bellows out again as her body locks up again, and she’s rubbing harder on me.
“Janan.” I call out her name. I can’t hold out another second. My release finds me as her body shakes.
“Hamilton.” Janan breathes heavily. “I love you.”
I kiss her hard. She is my world and nothing will come before her.
Chapter Eleven
Janan
THE SUN IS bright. The air is fresh. The coffee is the best I’ve ever tasted. My classes were entirely invigorating. When they finish, I’m skipping all around campus until I get to the car. It’s been two days since I lost my virginity, and I’m still riding the high. We had sex the next morning, then when he finished practice and right before he left for the road trip.
Now I have to wait until he comes home tomorrow.
I check my phone to make sure I won’t be late for lunch with Uncle Oliver and Nova. I love our lunches together. After Sharon killed herself, he made it mandatory. Uncle Oliver really has been there for us. We kept our home life so private he really had no clue about the abuse. He apologized to us profusely and then insisted we spend time together.
As I park the car and gather my purse and cellphone there’s a tap on my window. I’m certain it’s Nova until I turn and see a pair of hazel eyes staring back at me.
“Alex?” I furrow my brow, but I don’t get out of the car. “What do you want?”
“Just to talk. Please, I really want to talk. No funny business this time.”
I sigh. I didn’t tell Hamilton about Alex trying to kiss me. I damn near kneed him in the balls. Against, my better judgement I get out of the car. “What, Alex?”
“Listen, I really thought about what you said. You’re right about me acting all weird. I just really wanted us to be friends and, you know, more than friends.”
I roll my eyes. “Alex, let me say this—again—you blew your chance being friends, or anything else to me, when you went bat shit crazy on me at the party. Plus, and let me tell you this again as well, I have a boyfriend and I’m extremely happy. I wish you all the best, but please stop following me. If you don’t you won’t like me very much when I’m through with you.”
I rush away from him and into the restaurant. I should tell Daddy and Uncle Oliver about the issues with Alex, but he’s harmless. I think he’s just lonely. I see Uncle Oliver and Nova in his usual booth in the corner and make my way over.
“I’m here,” I announce myself hugging Uncle Oliver and kissing Nova’s cheek. “Sorry, I got tied up for a moment.” I partially lie.
“You’re fine.” Uncle Oliver grins. “I ordered you a glass of water, but if you want something else let me know.”
“Water is perfect. Thank you. How’s your day going?”
“Well, girls, I’m thinking about buying a minor league hockey team.” He broadcasts.
Nova and I stare at him.
“No offense, Uncle Oliver, but you have the Bears plus the Manchester Cats and the Concord Rams. Are you sure you can handle another team?” I ask.
He tilts his head from side-to-side. “Yes. I have an amazing staff of management and workers.”
“I know you do. However, the Bears seem to be your baby and you’re now taking on more babies, so to speak.” I reason with him. “It’s your money and you can do whatever, but Nova and I don’t want you working yourself into a grave. We want you here for a long, long time.”
The waitress comes over and takes our order. Of course Uncle Oliver asks for the biggest steak. I go for grilled salmon and a microgreen salad and Nova goes for the grilled chicken.
“Girls, I love you two as if you’re my own blood. There’s nothing in this world I wouldn’t do for you, but my true love is money and sports. I have been blessed enough to make a lot of it to fuel my passion. As much as I appreciate your concern, I think a minor league team will bring my p
ortfolio to its peak.”
Nova and I look at each other. We have a silent conversation. Nova is as concerned as me, but we know there’s nothing we can do about it.
“Will you promise us something?” Nova’s voice is soft.
“Possibly,” Uncle Oliver answers.
“If it becomes too much please sell the minor league team.” Nova’s request is exactly what I was thinking.
“I give you my word.” He swears. “Could we please move onto another subject?”
We both nod.
“The topic I want to discuss is boys.”
Nova and I groan.
“No, now listen. I just want to make sure Hamilton and Teo are treating you well.”
Nova clears her throat and speaks first. “Teo is very kind and we’re learning a lot about each other.” She doesn’t tell Uncle Oliver they’ve now begun to have sex.
“We all know Hamilton carries a halo on his head.” Except when he’s in bed with me and me fucking riding him like a horse. Of course I omit those parts. “We’re both good.”
“Let me know the second either of you aren’t good because I will break their fucking knees.”
He’s not joking, but Nova and I giggle anyway because we have great guys.
“Now about this fundraiser.” Uncle Oliver changes the subject and I’m most happy about it.
“LET’S TALK ABOUT Alex for another moment.” Caryn controls the conversation today.
“Nothing more to say. I think he’ll leave me alone. It’s possible he’s just one of those clingy guys and doesn’t understand my personality. He thought I meant one thing and I actually meant the other,” I explain staring up at her ceiling.
“He didn’t comprehend when you told him no repeatedly?”
“I guess.” I shrug away the question.
“I think you should be careful. Are you still taking the self-defense classes?”
I nod. “Macy, Nova, and I go again this week.”
“Well.” Caryn clears her throat. “Just be careful. If he does come back then let Taden or Oliver know.”
“Promise.”
“Now, about the sex.”
I giggle and turn my head toward her. “Caryn, are you looking for some sordid details?”
She glares at me. “No, Janan. I’m asking you if you were comfortable with everything. I know you said it was rough.”
I roll my eyes. “I know you say it has nothing to do with the shit Sharon put me through, but is it egotistical to say I think it’s the best sex ever?”
Caryn does her best not to laugh. “As long as it’s consensual and you’re happy, that’s all I need to know.”
“It was and I am.”
She smiles. “Then I’ll see you in two weeks.”
“I’M GLAD YOU were able to take time out of your busy schedule.” Dacey’s thick Irish accent always seems to make me smile.
“Hey, I really am busy. Between school, the shelter, Hamilton, and now the fundraiser details I can’t even say when the last time I’ve had a full night sleep was.” I sip my coffee.
Dacey has been hounding me all week to have coffee with her because she had something important to tell me. “Well, it seems like forever since we talked. How are you doing?”
“Besides being busy.” I joke and smile. “I’m happy.”
“Really?” Dacey beams.
“I am. Hamilton and I pushed each other away for so long. Now being together makes so much sense. Dacey, in all my life the only times I was happy was with Nova and Daddy, but with Hamilton... it’s pure joy.”
The waitress brings my coffee and Dacey is quiet. When I look at her, she has the biggest smile on her face. “I can’t explain how elated I am for you and Nova. Vance says she and Teo are getting closer.”
“They’ve had sex.” I blab but not too loud so I don’t tell the entire crowd in The Latte Bean.
“Wow!” Her mouth drops a bit.
After Sharon’s death, Dacey kept in contact with us. She never made us feel ashamed of our home life. She’s truly our only friend besides each other.
“What about you?” She smirks.
I blush. I... actually... blush!
“Oh my God, you did.” Dacey’s face lights up. “How wonderful.”
I almost thought she would jump up and cheer, but she remains in her seat.
“How do you feel?”
I tell her the same thing I told Caryn. “I feel complete.”
She reaches for my hand. “You and Nova deserve happiness.”
I give her hand a small squeeze. “Thank you. Thank you for everything. Now, tell me your news. Are you getting more dogs?” I change the subject because I’m becoming uncomfortable talking about me.
“No, no more dogs for us.” She releases my hands and sits taller. “I’ve only told my sister and Mum about this, but I’m pregnant.”
I gasp. “Shut up.”
“It’s true. Vance and I have always had issues about forgetting birth control and now…”
I study her face. “Dacey, are you happy?”
“I’m scared.” She bites down on her bottom lip. “All my family is in Northern Ireland. I love Harlow and she’s the greatest boss in the world, but she’s never been around kids. Vance and I are still newly married and adjusting to our arrangement.” She sighs.
Everyone knows Vance and Dacey are in an arranged marriage by their families.
“It’ll be okay.” I reassure her. “All mothers are scared because it’s a huge responsibility. But Dacey you’re an amazing, caring, loving person. You’ll make the greatest mother ever. I know it.”
I do know it. Dacey has a heart of gold and is always putting others before herself. She’ll never be like Sharon. She’ll put her child first and protect it until her last breath.
“Wait.” Realization hits me. “You’ve not told Vance?”
She shakes her head.
“When did you find out? How far along are you?”
“I found out a couple of days ago. I’m about ten weeks along. The reason I’m telling you is because I need your help.”
“With what?”
“You know Vance and I aren’t ones to do a lot of things publicly and such.”
I nod. Vance and Dacey hold hands when they’re out, but that’s about the end of their public displays of affection.
“I know how much the Bears and the team means to Vance and I want everyone included on the announcement. I need your help and I thought maybe we could do it at the annual skate and dinner.”
The Bears annual skate and dinner is when Uncle Oliver hosts a party for the family and team. It’s something I look forward to every year. Especially this year since I’ll be going as Hamilton’s girlfriend and not as Daddy’s daughter.
“Tell me what you want to do?” I ask with excitement.
IT HAD BEEN three long days without Hamilton. He just sent a text letting me know he’s on his way, and it makes it feel not so bad. I’m in the apartment bubbling over with excitement and ready to see him. We’ve talked every day, and he missed me as much as I did him. The Bears had won all three of their road games. They’re at the top of the league standings but in the world of hockey those numbers can change quickly.
The buzzer is loud and I rush to let Hamilton in. I stand in my doorway until he steps off the elevator and into my arms. We kiss each other hard and he kicks my door shut.
“Are we alone?” he says guiding us to my bedroom.
“Nova’s at Teo’s place,” I explain in between our kisses.
“Outstanding.” He smirks.
We begin to tear each other’s clothes off until we are both naked on my bed and Hamilton is rolling on a condom. There’s still pain when he pushes into me, but it fades quickly when he pumps in and out of me. Joy fills me and I wrap my legs tighter around him. It’s like I can’t get enough of him. I almost want to climb under his skin and be one with his soul. Okay, that’s a bit farfetched, but I need him. I want him.
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sp; “Wait. Stop.” I push on his chest. Hurriedly Hamilton removes himself from me.
“Are you okay?” He pants checking me over. “Did I hurt you?”
“No. I want to try something different.” The only two positions we’ve tried is him on top or me on top. My sexual appetite needs something new.
“Huh?” He sits back on his hunches.
I rise up to my knees. We’re close to the same height, but I pull him down to me and kiss him. When I release him, I maneuver myself until my back is on his chest. I grab his hands and rub them over my breasts then drag them down to my clit. “Fuck me from behind.” I manage the words.
The reward is a soft growl from Hamilton as he rubs me.
“I want to feel you behind me.” I reiterate the words.
He nips my shoulder and then my collarbone. He removes his hands from me and positions me down. My arms are above me, my head down, my hips high up in the air.
“Tell me if I hurt you.” Even in the middle of sexual arousal he’s concerned about me. “Promise me, sweetheart.”
“I promise.” I give my word because he knows when I’m lying.
He moves himself until his tip is slightly inside me. I inhale deeply as he plunges back into me. I thought I felt full before, he definitely fills me now. He’s splitting me in two and all I can say is, “Harder.”
Hamilton jackhammers me and the tension tightens deep in my soul as my body heat rises. Neither of us are going to last long as he grunts and moans my name. As if a lever had been pulled, my release is hard and I buck with all my might against Hamilton, shouting his name. He doubles his efforts and squeezes my hips until I know they’ll be bruises on them. Finally, he yells my name and slows down. We both collapse in a heap on my bed.
“Fuck, I love you.” He pants.
I turn my head toward him. “I love you too.”
I HAD TO go to the Grand Hotel in Concord to look over the seating arrangement with the event planner. We also needed to discuss the silent auction as well. I can’t believe how many people donated for the shelter. I know it’s Uncle Oliver’s doing, but it still makes me happy I’m able to help.