“I have never been into a mall before and I'm slightly shitting myself” I whisper out more to myself than anything as Lillys hand finds mine she curls her fingers around my shakey sweaty one.
“I got you, it’s going to be ok,” she says to me opening my eyes I see belive in hers and I feel calmer “Ready” she says before I know it the SUV has stopped and our door is being opened by Branson and we are jumping out.
Lilly is super excited I shallow hard I will be ok it’s ok, I say this over and over while I count how many steps it takes from the car to the front doors that seem to open all on there own in a whish of air I'm assulted by all the different smells and senes of what is normal for so many yet so freaking overwheleming for me.
Shop after shop I find what I need shoes, underwaer, jeans, tops, sweaters, dresses the whole nine yards and some even freaking handbags and all the damn lady products there was on the dam self and make up like shit I thought being a girl was going to be easy but no not with Lilly she reckons that I need all this stuff and poor Branson is loaded with the bags and Lillly's too. Falling into a chair at Starbucks Lilly heads up and orders us some coffe and cake I love cake.
“So ya mom was a junkie huh and fucked ya up her and her drug lords?” I'm shocked and speechless by his statement how much do these people know about me.
“It’s ok babe we all come from shit olds, Ghost is no excepition.” His confession has my mind reeling. “Yeah, you can say that.” I answer him my voice shaky. “It’s ok babe I get it, Ghost filled us all in at a meeting we all kinda needed to know.” Nodding my head is all I can do.
“Hope I didn’t upset ya “ he says leaning over and squezzing my hand the warmth in his eyes lets me know hes genunie and they do actully care. “I had it really rough and I havent even spoken to Ghost about all of it yet” I say to him his eyes meet mine “Got ya babe if ya need to talk and cant to Ghost im always around my mother died when I was born and my father beat me and raped me daily for 16 years before I found the Reapers. So I get it.”
Sitting back in his seat he folds his leg over his thigh his boot sitting on his thigh his ever bright smile lights up the room as Lilly walks over with a tray.
“Nice timing Lill I was just about to eat my arm” he says as he breaks out laughing and just like that the fog of dark confessions has been lifted and we settle in to eat cake and drink coffee.
Pulling into the compound I see that Ghost's bike is not there along with all the others they all seem to be out Lilly and I head upstairs to her room. Branson drops our bags on the couch wipes his forehead letting out a long ‘phewwwwww’
“Ladies you know how to kill a man” he says with a wink making me laugh.
“ I bid you farewell, fair madams I shall go and drink myself into a stupor, to rid my mind of lace underwaer and high heel shoes.”
Bowing to us he walks out clicking the door behind him I fall into a heap on the oversized and stuffed couch as Lillys heads about pulling all of todays items from there bags.
“Wear this, oooo no wear this, shit how bout this” shes so excited and it warms me I'm a mess I have no clue how to wear or where to wear all these items to.
“Shower” Lilly pulls me up by my hands “An mumma I shall make you hot! And the envy of all the club girls.”
Rolling my eyes at her “You know I hate the attention Lill” I say slumping my shoulders as she pulls me up.
“ I know but this will fuck Jenna right off coz Ghost will lose his mind!” she exclaims all happy and child like, how can you not like this women.
“Lill I don’t want to make ememies with this girl” I say to her and I cant help the panic rise in my voice just the mere thought of having to deal with her sends my body into a panic.
“She will always be a cunt Tim, it’s her job shes a club whore and Ghost’s dick is the one she loves and you are now a threat she, knows Ghost doesn’t want her he never has and now look you’re here and boom Ghost is all different and shit.”
Her words wash over my shocked numbed body “This world is so freaking intense Lill I don’t think I'm strong enough for it.”
I push out closing my eyes I'm so tired all of a sudden it’s hard to stay up. “ Tim belive me I know but you'll be ok I'm here I got you.”
Pushing me into the bath room “Now shower.” She snaps pushing me in she hangs the clothes for tonight up on the hook and walks out with a sumg smile on her face.
Walking from the bathroom drying my hair with the crisp white towel Lill is dressed in her killer red dress that hugs her body in all the right places a pair of black heels well I’d say sky scrapers on her feet she is curling her long blonde hair humming away to herself as I stand behind her.
“Sexy” I say she jumps at the sound of my voice “Fuck Tim” she says as she turns to face me and her eyes go wide when she looks me up and down.
I'm dressed in the black high waist pants that hug my hips and thighs Ciggrette pants the lady called them my feet which are pushed into a pair of cherry red shinny Loubotin’s which I may add Lilly says are what all women need wrapped around their feet me I don’t think so at the price of them I'm sure Ghost will die.
I just about choked on fresh air when the lady said the price Lilly assured me that was a steal for a pair of Christin Loboutins.
Still shaking my head now at the cost and the fact that they feel so dam good on my high heel wearing virgin feet. Fishing off my outfit for tonight is a silk red shirt that is tucked into the waist of the pants pulling in my small waist and showing it off to perfection the sales lady said my breast sit out front in a nice sexy black lace victoria serect bra and matching panties I'm unsure who these people are but Lilly insits that I waer them.
I could quite easlyly sink into the Jeans and t that I got with a pair of converse sneakers on my feet.
Lilly walks around me whistling picking up the soild sliver bangle and placing it on my wirst reaching for my rosary beads I pull my hand back.
“Please leave those” I say my voice cracks “Sure Tim, mean something” Lilly says her voice fill of love.
“Yep, my Nan gave them to me” I say as she pulls back her hair and I see the necklace that she wears “ Same with me, this was the last thing from my mom.”
Her voice cracks on mom and I wrap her in my arms as tears well in her eyes “I'll tell you one day” she murmurs as she pulls away all I do is nod. My hair falls nautrally around my body sitting just at the base of my spine.
“Ready to go down.” I ask her
“You’re egar.” Lilly jokes pushing my shoulder. “Yeah I miss Ghost and can do with another one of them drinks from last night.” I say sheeplisy as a smile kisses Lillys lips.
“Good old Jagger, Ghost’s favourite and only drink. It’s good stuff.”
“Last night was the first time I had ever drank” I say wrapping my hair around my front so I can form it into a messy lose fishtail braid as we walk towards the door
“Shit Tim, really?” Lill questions me.
“Yep” I answer “Sure was babe” laughing at how free I feel with her
“Shit babe you go easy then till ya body builds up to it.“ She says laughing linking her arm through mine and pulling the door shut it clicks.
“Ready” Lilly says
“Ready” I say back not really sure what I'm ready for but with her by my side and Ghost I’m sure I'll be fine.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Ghost
The moment I walk into the club my breath is knocked from me.
My fucken knees go weak and I reach out for 81 who is on my right “Whoa boss you right?”
I hear his voice but can’t seem to form any words my eyes rake up and down the beauty that is counting each step as she takes it her body moving to the beat of my heart and the twitch of my cock.
Her waist length hair is tied in god knows what design to the side of her and it bounces and sways slightly as she steps reaching the last step her eyes lock onto mine and I swear all the
air has left the room and I see nor hear nothing but her stepping out from 81 and the iron grip I had on his hard road worn leather cut I walk over to my lady wrapping my arm around her waist.
I pull her into my space and let her breathe for me “Hey” she says
“Hey back” I say to her “Look at you baby” resting my forehead onto hers closing my eyes I breath all of her in, all time and space has gone it’s stopped and it’s just her and I.
I don’t give a fuck if I'm the VP to The Reapers Fucking Reign right here right now I'm just a fucking man brought to his knees by a lady who fills my fucking cold soul with hope and not dope like all the other bitches before her.
“Drink baby?” I ask my lips grazing her plump rose red ones running my tongue over the bottom lip. “Mmmm” tastes like blueberry lip gloss her hands tighten around my hips as her breath hitches in her chest pulling her lip into my teeth the sharp intake of air she sucks in has me wanting to fuck her so dam hard I can feel my cock twitch and push against the zipper of my jeans.
My body quivers into her pulling her deeper into me releasing her lip I look into her glazed eyes her hand moves up my back pulling on the base of my neck.
“Nothing else matters, Just you and I in this world right now.” I say to her “I’ve never felt this way before ever, but with you nothing and I mean nothing else matters all I want is you.”
I say to her kissing the tip of her nose “Ghost,” she says to me the plea in her voice has my heart stopping.
“Yeah poppet.” I say my voice low
“Would you still want me after you know the horror that lives in my head? And the fact that I want to punch that bitch right there behind you in her fucking face!”
I turn with her in my arms my eyes lock with Jenna and her little squad of club whores.
“You were just something that kept my cock warm, and sweetheart you will never been women enough for me can’t change a whore’s spots.” I spit out to her “But this here,” pulling Timberly into my chest “She’s my fucking Queen, so best you fuck off.” Her mouth falls open and her eyes bulge anger rips over her face as she begins to shake.
I pull Timberly’s body into me and my eyes on Jenna as I take my queens my lips crashing onto hers with such force I can taste the metallic twang of blood hit my tongue fulling me further my cock dances against my zipper pounding to be set free and skink deep into its queen.
Pulling free from my queen before I take her on the floor in front of the whole dam fucking club. Jenna’s face reddens grabbing Lila’s arm she stomps from the club stopping at the door her eyes burn back into me.
I pull Timberly up and place her behind me she doesn’t need to wear the wrath of this bitch. “Remember just who you’re fucking playing with Ghost.” she snaps at me I throw my head back in laughter lowering my gaze back to hers.
“Really, is that a threat, babe?” I holler back to her laughter lacing my vice and amusement in my eyes.
“It’s a fucken promise I’ll be back and bitch...” she points to Timberly, “Watch yaself sweetheart,” she spits out. Timberly shakes in my grip her hands wrapped around my waist as she places her head on my back.
“Is she serious?” she whispers into my shirt and just as I'm about to answer her Lilly with Blue hot on her heels she storms on over to her and then she looks back at me as her fingers wrap around Jenna’s throat.
“Want me to take the trash out babe?” she winks at me as a smile plays at her lips and Lilly grabs the chick called Lila and they both together like the fiery tag team that they are take-out todays trash and I pick my lady up under her ass cheeks her legs wrap around me her head rests on my forehead. “I got you, I promise she will not fucking touch a hair on your beautiful head.”
I breathe out to her as my cock filches a small giggle leaves her mouth at the movement “You feel that?” I say her eyes burn into mine she nods her head as her checks pinken.
“It’s hungry for you, it wants to be inside you so fucking bad baby that it hurts,” I say my breath coming out harsh and needy her eyes close as she grinds her hips into me and presses her pussy down to where my cock is straining against my jeans.
“Not yet baby this is one thing I won't fucking fuck up,” I say my voice a crack above breaking my cock screaming at me along with the devil that lives in my ‘Man what the fuck’ I shake my head and clear my mind her eyes open and she just nods a shy smile graces her sweet lips as I begin to walk over to the boys and our seats we have the right corner of the club and the couches are black leather that sit in a arch around a long as cedar wood table up on a small stage so we are elevated above the club below it gives a good view of what’s going on but puts us at a nice level where we all can still interact with members and visitors lets people know that we fucking run this ship. We are cool and all but not complete assholes.
Sitting down the couch creeks out as my weight sinks into the old worn leather my queen on my lap I turn her so her legs cross over my legs and her body is still nice and close but so she can still look out over the club below. Lilly and Blue walk in Knox and Kash behind them the boys give me a head nod. Kash and Lilly disappear up the stairs no doubt to the roof which he now occupies with Lil at least she's not alone much to the broken heart of Branson he sure does have a soft spot for Lilly.
Knox jumps up onto the stage where we sit extending his hand I shake it in the usual bro way I’ve come to like this kid and his twin is just what Lilly needs.
“Well brother who do we have here’ he says looking at Timberly she tenses in my arms I feel her breathing halt and her heart pound running my hand over her thigh to calm her.
“This is Timberly,” I say to him. “Aahh the little miss who has had this man fucked up,” her eyes snap up to meet his.
“Pardon,” she says her voice a tremble off breaking. “Nothing babe just that Ghost has had a hard on for you, for a long time he reckons we didn’t know but we did.”
Leaning in slapping my back he whispers into my ear “I hope she can keep lady love from your veins too brother,” pulling back he winks at me I pale shocked Knox leans in and kisses Timberly’s cheek.
“Welcome to the crazy known as the Reapers doll,” Timberly’s mouth opens and then shuts she like me is unsure of what to say Knox sits down next to us kicking his feet up and onto the table as Blue walks over with a tray of drinks in her hand placing them down on the table.
“So, you’re the new girl who has taken the soul of the baddest Reaper hey?” she questions Timberly and raises her eyebrow at her.
“Blue, fuck sake,” I spit out she laughs picking up her dink and bringing it to her lips
“It’s ok babe, I don’t bite,” she says leaning back into Knox’s chest his arms snake out over her holding her tight into him, as Timberly slides from my lap and sinks down beside me reaching for a glass I pass it to her and grab my own.
“It’s ok Poppet they are cool,” I say to her as I watch her lips wrap around the edge of the glass. I feel her she’s counting as she takes small sips of her drink, “Hey,” I say cupping her chin in my fingers, “Look at me,” pulling her eyes up to me mine.
“Stop counting and slow the fuck down on that drink, you’ll be on ya ass quicker than a ten count you keep going that way.” I say as her eyes dart from me to the cup and back to me again.
“You fit, this is your world, it's not mine Ghost, I don’t belong,” she says to me closing her eyes as I pull her deeper into me snaking my arm tight around her placing my chin on the top of her head looking out over my club the boys and the girls the sense of family I have always known and come to I’ve but the pang of just what my lady is going through hits me hard like a bullet between the eyes I was her, the lost and alone soul needing but not knowing what.
Lowering my mouth to her ears as her breath hitches “Poppet you won’t be lonely no more not here not with me.” I breath into her, her smell elopes me my cock hardens on the wind of her smell fuck this woman has me hook, line and mother fucken s
inker.
Chapter Thirty
Timberly
He says to slow down to not drink so fast, fuck it, it tastes so good and I love the way it makes me feel free from me, from the dark that is Timberly Roe.
Here in this place, I feel so different looking out over his club, his home the people in here that he calls family. Hairs prick up down my spine as goosebumps rise over my arms. Scanning the area for what is making my senses and nerves on edge it's not long before I spot her Jenna, and her little team of hyenas.
Her hate for little old me is so violent and her jealously for what me? Ghost? What we have well that’s laughable not even I know what that is.
Look at the world she lives in and she is what threatened by me?
She brings her two fingers up to her eyes and then turns them my way and back to hers again. What’s that mock ‘I’m watching you’ squaring my shoulders and straighten my spine as send her a smile I silently mouth out.
“Ha watch away babe, I ant going anywhere,” her mouth falls open hands find her hips puffing her chest out looking rather ridiculous stupid little peacock.
I blow her a kiss and wiggle my body deeper down into the arms of Ghost, his arms snaked around me pulling me down into him and resting his chin on my shoulder while he listens to his brothers talk it’s all bikes and women, plans and what’s happening next.
I don’t understand any of it and the mention of strip clubs and sister chapters has me asking myself for the millionth time what the hell have I walked into.
my mind flicks over the memories and events of the last few months and just how much has changed. My mother is now dead, and her dealers took me to a place where so much fucked up shit happened, and I really need to talk with Blue about.
Leaning forward his arms loosen on me as I reach for my glass lifting it up to Jenna whose eyes are burning into my mine sweet as, sweetie I have no soul that got sold way back and I have no problem smacking that smug ass look from ya over made up face. Tipping the rim to my lips I take the rest of the sweet amber liquid closing my eyes as the cool contents slides freely way to freely down my throat who would have thought that I would like alcohol and enjoy it the buzz feeling, it gives me is magic and shit don’t even get me started on the way it makes my body feel. I have no brain to mouth filter when its swimming in my body and I like it, I like it a lot.
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