A Dance of Chaos

by David Dalglish

  It was as they carried the baskets of kindling back to the main keep that Vaelin dared ask a question of Master Sollis. ‘Why can’t Master Smentil speak, Master?’

  He was prepared for a caning but Sollis confined his rebuke to a sharp glance. They trudged on in silence for a few moments before Sollis muttered, ‘The Lonak cut his tongue out.’

  Vaelin shivered involuntarily. He had heard of the Lonak, everyone had. At least one of the swords in his father’s collection had been carried through a campaign against the Lonak. They were wild men of the mountains to the far north who loved to raid the farms and villages of Renfael, raping, stealing and killing with gleeful savagery. Some called them wolfmen because it was said they grew fur and teeth and ate the flesh of their enemies.

  ‘How come he’s still livin’, Master?’ Dentos enquired. ‘My Uncle Tam fought agin the Lonak an’ said they never let a man live once they got him captured.’

  Sollis’s glance at Dentos was markedly sharper than the one he had turned on Vaelin. ‘He escaped. He is a brave and resourceful man and a credit to the Order. We’ve talked of this enough.’ He lashed his cane against Nortah’s legs. ‘Pick your feet up, Sendahl.’

  After chores it was more sword practice. This time Sollis would perform a series of moves they had to copy. If any of them got it wrong, he made them run full pelt around the practice ground. At first they seemed to make a mistake at every attempt and they did a lot of running, but eventually they got it right more than they got it wrong.

  Sollis called an end when the sky began to darken and they returned to the dining hall for an evening meal of bread and milk. There was little talk; they were too tired. Barkus made a few jokes and Dentos told a story about another of his uncles but there was little interest. Following the meal Sollis forced them to run up the stairs to their room, then lined them up, panting, drained, exhausted.

  ‘Your first day in the Order is over,’ he told them. ‘It is a rule of the Order that you can leave in the morning if you wish. It will only get harder from now on so think carefully.’

  He left them there, panting in the candlelight, thinking of the morning.

  ‘Do ye think they’ll give us eggs for breakfast?’ Dentos wondered.

  Later, as Vaelin squirmed in his bed of straw, he found he couldn’t sleep despite his exhaustion. Barkus was snoring but it wasn’t this that kept him awake. His head was full of the enormity of the change in his life over the course of a single day. His father had given him away, pushed him into this place of beatings and lessons in death. It was clear his father hated him, he was a reminder of his dead wife best kept out of sight. Well he could hate too, hate was easy, hate would fuel him if his mother’s love could not. Loyalty is our strength. He snorted a silent laugh of derision. Let loyalty be your strength, Father. My hate for you will be mine.

  Someone was crying in the dark, shedding tears on his straw pillow. Was it Nortah? Dentos? Caenis? There was no way to tell. The sobs were a forlorn, deeply lonely counterpoint to the regular woodsaw rhythm of Barkus’s snoring. Vaelin wanted to cry too, wanted to shed tears and wallow in self-pity, but the tears wouldn’t come. He lay awake, restless, heart thumping so hard with alternating hatred and anger that he wondered if it would burst through his ribs. Panic made it beat even faster, sweat beaded his forehead and bathed his chest. It was terrible, unbearable, he had to get out, get away from this place …

  ‘Vaelin.’

  A voice. A word spoken in darkness. Clear and real and true. His racing heart slowed instantly as he sat up, eyes searching the shadowed room. There was no fear for he knew the voice. The voice of his mother. Her shade had come to him, come to offer comfort, come to save him.

  She didn’t come again, although he strained his ears for another hour, no further words were spoken. But he knew he had heard it. She had come.

  He settled back into the needle discomfort of the mattress, tiredness finally overtaking him. The sobs had ceased and even Barkus’s snores seemed softer. He drifted into a dreamless, untroubled sleep.