Forged by Desire (London Steampunk Book 4)

by Bec McMaster

  The voice shivered over her skin, under it. She held on to Lynch until the last second, a wash of heat sweeping through her. Then Lynch gently disentangled her and passed her into Garrett’s arms.

  “She’s all yours,” Lynch replied, and the words sounded vaguely prophetic.

  Music started up, a hint of a Middle Eastern hum rasping over the strings. Perry’s gaze jerked to Garrett. The assah. A dance designed to tempt, to display a thrall or debutante’s best assets to a blue blood.

  “You look beautiful,” he said, sweeping her into the dance. Of course he knew the steps, though she didn’t ask how. There’d been affairs in his past with ladies of the Echelon, and Garrett had always been able to master any skill with minimal effort, damn him.

  He turned her in a slow circle, holding on to her wrists from behind. “Though I prefer you in red.” Another turn, drawing her back against his chest, his voice whispering over the skin of her neck. “And wet.”

  One hand curled around her waist, drawing her in tight against him. Perry slid her gloved hand over his, holding it in place, her breath trembling through her chest. “You shouldn’t be here. You’re going to ruin everything.”

  “Precisely.”

  The dance swept them apart again, Garrett twirling her in elegant circles. Then she was back in his arms as if she belonged there. Oh, how she wanted to stay. This dance was forbidden, but the feel of Garrett’s arms made it seem as if the world had vanished around them, as if they could create their own world. Somewhere safe, just for them.

  “I told you to go!” she whispered harshly. “I made my decision.”

  “If I recall, I don’t believe I actually agreed with it.” Garrett twirled her in a pirouette, their eyes meeting for a brief smoldering moment before she was back in his arms.

  “You’re a stubborn bastard.” Despite her anger, a tiny part of her warmed.

  “We’re well matched.” His breath tickled her hair. “I’m going to give you stubborn children, my love.”

  Perry flinched. She couldn’t focus on that. Not now. And he knew it. “He has a cure for the craving,” she murmured, trying to force him off balance as much as she was.

  Stillness leeched through the hard body holding her. They paused in the middle of the dance floor. “If you tell me this is why you’re doing this, I’ll wring your bloody neck.”

  “Then I won’t tell you.”

  Perry twirled, giving him a sharp look to keep going.

  Garrett glared at her, moving sullenly into the next step. “I’m not leaving without you tonight. I did it once. Not again. And you can argue all you damn well like.”

  Perry glanced over his shoulder. The Moncrieff prowled the edges of the dance floor, watching her with a dark, possessive look on his face. She jerked her gaze back to Garrett. “He’ll kill you.”

  “Not here, he won’t,” Garrett replied with considerable aplomb.

  “This isn’t a jest!”

  At that his eyes darkened and he leaned close to her. “I’m not laughing, Perry.” His grip tightened on her until their hips were almost pressed against each other, his lips trailing against her cheek. She trembled at the rasp of his stubble.

  “Damn you for a stubborn fool.”

  “People in glass houses, my dear.”

  Perry drew back enough to be able to see his face. “What are you planning?”

  Another swirling circle, where she caught a glimpse of the duke, strolling slowly through the crowd. Their eyes met, then she was swept into Garrett’s arms, her back cradled against his chest.

  “Best if you don’t know.”

  “Garrett,” she whispered over her shoulder.

  His gaze locked across the room. The duke stared back, a tight expression on his face. Perry couldn’t stop herself from grabbing Garrett’s hand reflexively.

  “He’s not alone,” she whispered. “Whatever you’re planning, you need to know that he’ll protect himself first.” She hesitated. “Don’t forget about Hague.”

  Garrett’s attention snapped to her.

  “You know what he did to those girls.” Her chest seized, but she kept going. “It’s not the first time I’ve seen such a thing. It’s not the first time…” She couldn’t go on, shook her head. “I escaped, Garrett. I’m the only one who ever has.” The words were coming faster now. “The duke told me the cellars were out-of-bounds, and I should have listened to him. But I was curious. And there were…strange noises sometimes. Crying. At night. That was why I begged my father to get me out of there. I should never have gone searching. I should never have opened the cellar door, but I did.”

  A thumb stroked her hand, drawing her back out of the nightmare. Perry looked up bleakly as he swirled her gently in his arms. Garrett said nothing, letting her say what she needed to say. His presence was an anchor against the fear and horror.

  “When they found me, I was trying to free one of the girls. The duke told me that if I ever breathed a word of it, he’d kill my father, and Hague…he wasn’t supposed to touch me. I had to live there, knowing what was going on. One night the duke went out, to his club”—she was babbling—“I tried to free them again and Hague took me. He h-hurt me. He just wouldn’t stop cutting me, no matter how much I screamed.” She wet her lips, seeing it all over again. Garrett’s hand caught her chin, forcing her eyes to his. Forcing her to see him, rather than the blood on the blade.

  “You escaped,” he said quietly.

  Running down that long hallway in the duke’s mansion. Slipping in her own blood. And there, over the fireplace, a pair of crossed broadswords. She’d been so desperate by then. “When Hague came after me…I thought I’d killed him,” Perry whispered. “The blade went through his face, his jaw. I don’t know how anyone could have survived.”

  “And then you ran.”

  “Hague had injected me with the craving virus. So that I’d survive his experiments. By the time I fled, I wasn’t in my right mind. I could barely fight off the hunger, let alone actually think about what I should do. And my father—I couldn’t go home. It was the first place the Moncrieff would look. And he’d threatened—”

  “It’s all right,” Garrett whispered, his hands stroking her hips as he rocked her. “You don’t have to be frightened anymore.”

  So easy to surrender to that gentle touch. She wanted to. “You don’t understand. The duke knew what Hague was doing. They have no conscience, no…no empathy. You can’t arrest them. You can’t duel them; only a blue blood of the Echelon can. With this ability to reverse the craving, the duke owns the prince consort. Any court case would simply vanish, and the witnesses too.”

  Garrett’s hold tightened. “So you’ll stay with him. Knowing what he did.”

  “I will do what I need to.”

  “And so will I,” he said quietly.

  “Don’t.”

  “If I asked you not to stay with the duke, would you obey?”

  Perry’s jaw tightened.

  “I thought not,” he replied. “So don’t ask me to watch the woman I love go with another man to save my life. I won’t have it, Perry.”

  “Stop saying that.”

  “I’ll keep saying it until you believe me.” His arms locked around her, drawing her close, his breath a harsh exhalation against her cheek. “I love you, Perry. I’ll always love you. And I’ll tell you every day for the rest of our lives if you need me to.”

  She couldn’t keep fighting him anymore. And the dance was drawing to a close, people’s eyes turning their way. He was holding her far too closely for even the assah.

  Her eyes met the Moncrieff’s. The duke was waiting for her on the edge of the dance floor, a blank expression on his face. Too blank.

  “Trust me,” Garrett whispered.

  It broke something inside her. “I’m frightened,” she admitted. “All of this… Everything I’ve done… I can kill a man with one blow, but as soon as I see the duke, I’m just a frightened young girl again. I hate it.”

  “
The problem is that you still think you’re alone.”

  She looked up.

  “And you’re not,” Garrett said fiercely. “You have me—you’ll always have me. And Lynch and Rosalind, Byrnes…even Barrons is here… Do you think we’re frightened of the duke?”

  Hope stirred, that fickle bitch. “What are you going to do?”

  “Promise me you haven’t given up.” He used her own words against her.

  Another darting glance at the Moncrieff. Perry wet her lips. “Garrett…” She wanted to believe him. In her entire life, she’d never met anyone who gave her as much hope as he did.

  “Swear it,” he demanded in a fierce whisper.

  Their heads were curled together. He was barely rocking her now, both of them cocooned in their own little world. Perry tasted his breath on her lips. Her heart gave a wild thump. To take this step frightened her almost as much as Hague did. She’d been trying to protect Garrett, to protect her father, but if she didn’t do something, she’d be trapped forever. There would always be someone the Moncrieff could use against her. And I don’t want to do this anymore. Her heart twisted again. I want to be with Garrett. “I swear it.”

  The hard line of his shoulders softened. “Good. My first impulse was to come in here with that recurring pistol Fitz has been dabbling with and kidnap you like a pirate, but Lynch and Barrons—and common sense—have convinced me to wait until we have a workable plan. We’re putting things into place for tomorrow at the exhibition. I still need to contact several people, but I needed you to know you weren’t alone.” Gloved fingers brushed against her hair. “I’m not going to duel him, Perry. Though I damned well want to. But this is another world and I’m going to play by their rules.”

  “And me?”

  “Be prepared,” he whispered. “For anything. Lynch will give you the details at the exhibition—I daresay I won’t be allowed close to you.” For a moment his eyes darkened. “Moncrieff won’t hurt you? Tonight?”

  “I can handle him,” she stressed, her voice a little stronger now. “He can’t afford to hurt me. Not now. In a way, returning to the Echelon was the safest thing I could have done. He can’t do anything to me without destroying his standing in society.”

  “What about Hague?”

  “There’s been no sign of him, and I doubt I will see one. The duke knows how I feel about that. And Hague is disciplined, despite everything. He will be working on the device.”

  The muscle in his jaw ticked and he shut his eyes, his chest expanding as he took a slow breath. “If he lays one hand on you…”

  “If he touches me, I’ll break his fingers,” Perry whispered, squeezing his hand. That warmth was spreading through her now. Belief. She had the ridiculous, light-headed feeling that they were going to do this. “You know I will.”

  For a long moment she didn’t think she’d convinced him. Garrett opened his eyes and stared at her, releasing the breath he’d been holding. “Tomorrow,” he said. Then, foolishly, “I don’t want to let go of you.”

  “I don’t want to let you go, either.”

  His eyes searched hers. “You mean it.”

  “I always meant it,” Perry whispered. “Even if I never dared say it.”

  The light in his eyes almost made her smile. But neither of them dared, at this moment. Garrett squeezed her hands where they were laced through his. “Don’t tempt me to take you out of here,” he growled. “Tomorrow, when this is done, I’m going to lock you in my bedchambers and make you tell me that until you’re hoarse.”

  “Tomorrow, then,” she whispered.

  “I’ll hold you to that.” Garrett glanced over her shoulder as if meeting someone else’s eyes. Perry didn’t dare look; she could feel the Moncrieff’s gaze drilling between her shoulder blades.

  Slowly she rubbed her thumb over the back of his hand, bringing his attention back to hers. “Trust me.”

  “Tomorrow.” He said the word as if it was a promise, then he gave a taunting nod to someone behind her and, turning, strode away through the crowd.

  A hand locked around her elbow. “What the hell is he doing here?” the Moncrieff hissed.

  “Saying good-bye,” Perry whispered, watching as the crowd swallowed up the man she loved.

  Twenty-three

  Perry had barely gotten a wink of sleep for the nervousness that racked her and the fear that something was going to go wrong, that Garrett would be harmed. That was truly her worst nightmare. To come so close to being in his arms—his heart—and have it all torn away from her. To lose him forever.

  “You look rather unimpressed,” the Moncrieff murmured at her side, tearing her thoughts from the man who held her heart.

  Perry blinked. She’d barely noticed any of the exhibitions they’d passed, or the chorus of amazed exhalations from the attendees. Everyone was curious about her, of course, and though she’d exchanged small pleasantries, they’d been distracted ones at best.

  “The exhibitions are truly first-class,” she said, meaning none of it. “The prince consort shall be overjoyed with their reception.”

  Feathers bobbed as ladies fluttered fans and the echo of conversation hummed through the air, floating up toward the glass ceiling high above. The enormous building was formed of glass, and light streamed through the panes, highlighting every curtained partition and the brass gleam of the latest standard of automaton, or enormous threshing machines an American company had shipped all the way from Manhattan City. Businessmen and nobles from all over the world had come to see these marvels of modern engineering. Ahead of them, light sparkled off what appeared to be a line of mirrors—a mirrored maze in the heart of the aisle.

  The duke offered his arm, tucking her gloved hand into the crook of his elbow and holding it there. A possessive gesture. “The best is yet to come. This way, my dear. Let me show you the device.”

  Anticipation sat heavily in her chest. He’d spent most of the night locked away with the device, after offering her his blood. Perry had taken it, despite a moment’s hesitation. Though the thought disgusted her, she had wanted to be at her best today. “The device you use to neutralize the craving?”

  He checked his pocket watch, then tucked it within his embroidered champagne-colored waistcoat. “All will be revealed within minutes.”

  Drat it. Perry tried not to let her disappointment show, but he saw it, a tiny smile playing over his lips. “Do try to pretend you’re interested in me, rather than my machine.”

  “Why lie?”

  His laughter rang through the room as he led her toward a large, curtained-off exhibit directly opposite the grand staircase. A walkway lined the upper floor, providing excellent vantage points.

  Dark midnight-blue skirts swished around her ankles as he directed her to a spot beside the bloodred curtains. Another dress cut to fit her perfectly. Black lace edged the neckline and dripped down her bustle, and her gloves were gleaming black satin. The amount of thought the Moncrieff had put into her wardrobe was unnerving. Planned. No doubt everything that had happened up until this point was part of his game.

  Not everything. She caught a glimpse of Barrons across the crowd, sipping at his blud-wein, with that outrageous ruby dangling from a hoop in his ear. At his side stood the young Duke of Malloryn. In the light, Malloryn’s hair gleamed like polished copper, and she almost thought it was Garrett until he raked the crowd with a cold, dismissive gaze. Young but deadly, as he’d have to be to keep his seat on the Council.

  She didn’t dare look for Garrett. He’d told her he’d get word to her somehow, but she couldn’t give him away. Instead Perry watched as the Moncrieff strode to the center of the curtain, waiting for all eyes to notice him.

  A hush fell and skirts rustled as people began to edge closer. Someone brushed against her and Perry found Mrs. Carver at her side, her burnished bronze eyes gleaming in the light as she fanned herself. There was no sign of her brutish verwulfen husband, but at her side stood another young woman in delicate condition, weari
ng a sternly cut charcoal day dress that hinted at the soft swell of her curves. From the similarity in their features, they had to be related to each other.

  “This is my sister, Honoria.” Mrs. Carver introduced them. “She wanted to see the device they’re about to reveal. She’s the sister I spoke of at the autopsy, the one with the interest in science.”

  “How do you do?” Perry murmured.

  “Quite well, thank you,” Honoria replied.

  “Don’t look now,” Mrs. Carver said through lips that barely moved, “but your man is behind you. On the gallery above us.”

  Perry glanced up, but Mrs. Carver caught her hand and tilted the large black ostrich feathers in front of their faces as if she were sharing a humorous on-dit. “Don’t give the game away,” she whispered. “It’s very important that the Moncrieff doesn’t know Master Reed is here yet.”

  Here. Watching her. Instantly Perry’s shoulders relaxed. She glanced at Honoria, wondering how much she knew, but the woman was watching the stage intently. “And your husband? I didn’t think he’d allow you here without his presence.” It wouldn’t be easy, being verwulfen in a world that thought such creatures little more than recently released slaves.

  “He didn’t,” Mrs. Carver replied dryly. “He’s at the back of the crowd, with my sister’s husband.” She leaned closer, her voice dropping. “I was the only one they didn’t think the Moncrieff would suspect and…I owe Barrons a favor or two. He asked me to let you know that things are proceeding as planned. However, they need to get the Moncrieff alone.”

  “Alone?” She could certainly lure him away…

  “Not you,” Mrs. Carver replied. “Master Reed wants you to stay here, in the crowd, where it’s safe. He and the Duke of Bleight have matters in hand.”

  “Of course they do.” Keeping her nice and safe while they planned to ambush the Moncrieff. The thought made her unaccountably nervous. “Thank you for helping then, Mrs. Carver. I shall owe you a favor myself.”

  “Lena, please. I feel so terribly ancient when someone calls me Mrs. Carver.” The vibrant young woman flashed her a smile. Then it faded. “Tell me, did you find the man who killed Miss Keller and Miss Fortescue?”