Sinful Secrets Box Set: Sloth, Murder, Covet

by James, Ella

  I straddle her, taking care with her position in the ropes. She opens for me, and I am welcomed by her lips and cheeks and rolling tongue. She takes as much of me as she can into her throat, swallowing around me.

  “Fuck…”

  She makes an “mm” sound, and I can feel her move her shoulder. Ahh—she wants a hand. I release one of them, and Cleo’s fingers wrap around my taut balls. I’m so fucking hard, even the light brush of her fingertips makes me jerk. She trails over me lightly, then wraps her hand around them, and I grunt.

  I tug her hair it as she sucks my cock and rolls my balls, and then it’s too much and I’m fucking her mouth—not too hard, but hard enough so that I know she’s tired and strained and so focused on me, she’s not as close to her own edge. The way I need her, so I can draw this out…

  Sometimes I relax and lose myself, but this night is for her. I enjoy her tongue and make my home deep in her throat, but I pull out before I come, so now it’s me who’s ravenous and Cleo who is cooled.

  I kiss her breasts and shut my eyes so I can’t see her. If I see her swollen breasts and hard nipples, I think I’ll come. I kiss her there until she’s gasping. I can feel her swinging in the rope below my spread legs, wanting to lift her hips, wanting to fuck.

  I trail my mouth over her belly, kissing gently, taking my time because I know she’s insecure about this part of her, this soft, sweet part of her that ranks among my favorites. Then I kiss her cunt again, making her need my cock, making her pull my hair with her free hand, making her curse and hiss my name.

  My cock is oozing when I press against her entrance, rubbing slowly, so she struggles in the ropes. I chuckle. Cleo whines. “Please…”

  I push inside, then draw slowly back out as Cleo shrieks.

  “Kell—”

  I’m in again, so nice and deep, before she finishes my name. I drag back out, then bury myself.

  “Fuck! Oh Kellan…Kell… Oh—”

  In.

  “Shit!”

  Out.

  “Oh God.”

  In.

  “Ahhhh!”

  And out.

  “Oh God!”

  I fill her deeply, wrapping my hands around her levitating hips so I can pull her up against me, fucking her so hard and deep she starts to cry.

  I look at her and see she’s wasted on this… Red-cheeked and wet-eyed, her lips parted, her eyes rolling.

  I continue fucking her, taking my time now, and grab something out of the sheets. It’s a bullet—lubed. As I am fucking Cleo, I reach around and press the tip of it against her.

  “OH MY GOD…” She groans as I push it inside, and then she’s going crazy. She’s trying to move, but that only makes her more off-balance, more in need of steadying hands. I wrap an arm around her hips and fuck her harder, trying to maintain control and orchestrate the perfect escape—but Cleo’s little gasps and panting, her hand around my neck, her sweet tears and warmth and scent…

  She’s my wife. My love. My heart. So I can’t help myself. I let the thread of self-control snap, and I fuck her like an animal. I give her everything I’ve held onto: exhaustion, stress, unspent desire… Our life is great but it is tiring—all life is—and so I’m hungry for this. For this woman’s skin. For the way she wraps her arm around me, leans her head near mine, clamps around my cock and murmurs my name…reverently.

  I’m on my knees, upright, so that my hips meet hers, with Cleo still hanging. As I fuck her, I can’t seem to keep my knees steady. I’m holding onto her, groaning as I lose myself in her sweet pussy.

  Fuck, my cock is hard. I feel the pleasure building in my lower belly and my legs, the concentration of it in my balls. Oh fuck, I’m gonna blow…

  I take a second to assess Cleo…the way she’s jerking in her binds, her breaths are almost sobs…

  “Please!” And I can feel it in the angle of her body: the way her back is arched. I drag my cock out of her cunt, rub the base against her clit, and when I thrust back into her, she screams.

  I come with her, holding onto one of her ropes as I rest my head against her breasts and let my body spasm, draining all my cares away.

  “Oh God…” I hear her giggle. “Kellan…”

  I lift my head, regarding her with curiosity.

  Cleo grins. “You are the best husband. The very best.” She sighs, and I lower her to the bed and get her cleaned up. Afterward, she falls asleep. I call the sitter. Both the kids are fine, and so I let her sleep. I wrap myself around her, stroking her dark hair, and shut my eyes so I can count my blessings. I’m a lucky man. So many reasons…

  She’s my favorite one.

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  Murder

  A Sinful Secrets Romance

  This book is the first standalone in a collection of books, each inspired by a sin and centered on a huge secret.

  murder: the crime of unlawfully killing a person; something very difficult or dangerous

  Summary

  Gwenna White's new neighbor is...distracting. He's a beautiful, motorcycle-driving enigma. One she can't allow herself to think about. Since the accident that ruined her face and stole her career, Gwen, a former model, lives under the radar, seldom leaving the bear sanctuary she runs in the Tennessee mountains. She's not reclusive, but that doesn't mean she's looking for a lover. Definitely not someone who looks like that.

  * * *

  Barrett Drake could use a friend: a tall order, since most of his are dead. His damaged hand may be the reason he's out of special ops, but it's not his only wound. Not by a long shot. All that's left between Bear and a new life is one last job. If he can hold on, get it done... He won't be here that long. Just long enough to ruin Gwen's life and make a speedy exit. That's the plan.

  But things don't always go as planned.

  You can't choose who you love.

  You can't fix fate.

  And that's the problem...

  For You.

  This one was always about us.

  Prologue

  The night is dark. The road is white. The snow-caked trees that crowd the shoulder dangle icicles that click as wind dives down the famous ski slopes, somewhere in the pinkish clouds above us.

  The weather radio said the snow will keep on through tomorrow night. A New Year’s blizzard, maybe twenty inches. This is Breckenridge in winter. Frozen to a crackle. Cloaked in white.

  Gwenna’s breath and mine plume silver in the dark that hangs like a stage curtain over the curved road. Snow is falling fast now, caking our jacket hoods and freezing in a sheen of sparkles. Her coat is the color of a plum—or blood. The thick down softens her form. She reminds me of an animal: one sweet and small, in need of shelter.

  I must be more head-fucked than I thought, because she turns around, her cheeks red, her lashes wet with snowflakes, and I realize she’s gotten about twenty feet ahead of me.

  “Bear?” she says.

  Her large brown eyes are widened slightly—in affection or alarm? Her mouth twitches, then presses into a small, red line. She doesn’t speak, and there’s no need. I know her so well. I can see the worry on her face, the burden of her fear and grief a notch between her brows.

  “Come walk by me and hold my hand.” She pulls her left glove off and reaches for me.

  I oblige her. Anything she wants. With two long strides, I’ve closed the space between us. My hands are ungloved. I told her I forgot my gloves, but that’s a lie. I need to feel the sting.

  Her hand folds around mine, and Gwen gasps.

  “Barrett! Brr, I need to warm you up…” She pulls my hand into her jacket sleeve, gripping it tightly. “Crazy man.”

  She laughs, despite the somberness of our affair. Her eyes, wet ink in the moonlight, shine with love—for me.

  “Hang on.” With her right hand, she unzips her jacket. “Come here…”

  She takes my hands and pulls them into her jacket, pressing them atop her
sweater, underneath which I can feel her heart beat.

  Her face tilts up to mine, despite the driving snow. “You can’t be leaving gloves at home. It’s so cold. You’ll get frostbite.” Behind her words, there is a smile—a small, lopsided smile she gives me almost all the time. A dreamy smile I love more than my life.

  I try my best to return it.

  Her boots shuffle in the snow as she tries to step closer to me. “It’s so freaking cold. Even with a-all these layers.” She shivers, and I pull a hand out of her coat, tucking her close to me and rubbing my hand over her back.

  “Better?”

  “Yes!” Her voice trembles with cold.

  I press her hood over her head and rub behind her neck, down to her shoulder blades, right where she likes.

  “I love you.” Her eyes peek out from behind the faux-fur lining her big hood. I see them crinkle with another smile.

  “I love you too.” I pull her close again, and God, I’d like to keep her here forever, locked against me like a splint.

  “My Bear,” she whispers.

  I swallow. We’re not there yet, but I’m starting to feel frozen—on the inside. A deep breath does nothing to thaw me. She rubs my arms through my jacket and smiles at me again. This smile is curious, perhaps concerned.

  “Your nose is red,” she croons.

  Her sweet voice doesn’t thaw me either, but I still smile. “Yours too.” I hug her close once more, but even that can’t pierce the ice that’s thick inside me.

  We walk on, along the road’s edge, through a deep snowdrift I worry will spill into her boots.

  Somewhere miles away, I hear a lone firework.

  She takes my hand again, searches my face as we walk. “I’m glad you came with me. I’m feeling better than I ever have before. Just knowing that I’m not alone, you know? Jamie used to come with me, but you’re different. I feel…healed.”

  My jaw clenches. I force my lips to curve up at the corners. “Good.” I know my eyes on hers are earnest. “That’s good,” I murmur.

  She comes closer to me. We are leg to leg, shoulder to shoulder. I’m walking off the road, so she seems as tall as I am.

  “Bear?”

  “Yeah?”

  “Are you okay?”

  I blink. “Of course.” I stroke her hand. “I’m supposed to ask you that.”

  She smiles a little, tight and sad. “I am.”

  We’re almost to the bend where the road curves into a copse of trees when pops like mortar sound above us. The clouds are too thick to see the fireworks. They glow faintly—green, pink, gold, purple, blue.

  Gwen’s face looks delicate and beautiful in the changing light. Her eyes hold mine, and she smiles.

  “This is kind of nice.”

  I nod. Her gaze shifts upward, and I struggle to swallow.

  Fuck.

  I shut my eyes. I think about her under me tonight, about the way she leaned up when we both finished and wrapped her arms around me, bringing me down on her.

  “Sweet Bear. Something’s bugging you. I’m going to find out. Unless you decide to tell me. Hmm?”

  A snowflake melts on my temple, and I can feel the ghost burn of her lips there.

  “I love you. You know that, right? You’re mine—and you will always be mine. Just because I said so.”

  “Bear?” Her voice right now is high and sharp. Her hand is on my arm.

  I keep my eyes shut, even as the moisture freezes on my cheeks.

  “What’s wrong?” Her voice is softer now. Inviting. Understanding.

  I inhale, and I can’t feel my frozen chest. I still can’t look at her.

  “Hey…” She wraps her arms around my waist.

  Don’t do that.

  “Is it the noise?”

  I squeeze my eyes shut tighter. Shake my head.

  “What is it then?”

  She strokes my shoulders. I can barely feel it through my jacket. But my hands are free. My hands are free to reach into my pocket.

  “It’s okay, baby.” She wraps her arms around my neck and pulls me lower. Her lips touch my face—ice cold. I feel her stand down off her tiptoes.

  “Is it me?” She whispers. “I’ve been feeling like it’s triggering for you. Something about this. Coming here?”

  She knows me, this girl. Gwenna misses nothing.

  It’s an effort to open my eyes. To look at her face. Gwenna, whom I love. Gwen, for whom I’ve waited my whole life.

  That I have to do this…

  That this is the end. It hurts so much. I ease my hand into my pocket, wrap my fingers around the gun grip. I look into her lovely eyes, although it almost kills me.

  “Gwen…”

  Part I

  He takes her in his arms

  He wants to say I love you, nothing can hurt you

  But he thinks this is a lie, so he says in the end

  You’re dead, nothing can hurt you

  Which seems to him

  A more promising beginning, more true.

  — Louise Gluck, from “A Myth of Devotion”

  Chapter One

  Gwenna

  October 20, 2015

  “Shit!”

  I smack the mouse with my whole palm, making my giant iMac monitor quiver on my desk. Then I lean in, squinting at the frozen image of the woods inside the bear enclosure.

  “Ugh.”

  Just like the last two times, I’m pretty sure that right beside that tree—right there, near the upper right-hand corner of the screen—is…something. The ground and limbs and leaves don’t match up right. I can’t explain it. It’s as if a ghost is there, making things almost imperceptibly blurry. Someone in a Harry Potter-style invisibility cloak. Someone in the universe’s best camouflage.

  I seem destined to go crazy, though, because each time such a thing has caught my eye on one of the bear cams, it’s been impossible to tell for sure.

  The first time I saw something funny in the footage was two weeks ago, Cam 2, at 4:45 a.m. The blur looked man-sized. I could have sworn I saw an arm swinging, the shadow of an arm, with the rest of the body behind a tree. But it was too dark, and the image therefore too grainy, to say for sure.

  Then last week, last Wednesday I believe it was, I was following Aimee from Cam 4’s view to Cam 3’s, trying to be sure he didn’t try to bash his new tracker anklet against that freaking rock like last time, when I saw it again: a funny blurriness on the screen, right up against the bottom of a pine tree trunk. The cameras film in color, but not infrared, so all I could manage to identify was a smudge.

  I froze the frames, getting down into the milliseconds, looking for the subtle differences between the frames—and there were subtle differences. As if someone was moving: a semi-invisible form, moving between two trees. But it was dusk. Again, I couldn’t quite be sure.

  And then today—right about the time I finished kicking some punching bag ass in the clearing and started heading down the hill behind my cabin, which is situated at one corner of the 300-acre Bear Inc. enclosure, I heard this weird noise. It sounded like two people wrestling in the leaves.

  I booked it home and reviewed the footage from Cams 1 and 2, the ones closest to where I was walking. And I found this. This—person. I swear it is! A person in some kind of top-notch camo—or a ghost. I can only see the back and maybe a bent head, but it totally looks like a person.

  …A person-like blur.

  Would I swear on it in court?

  Well, no.

  Can I be one-hundred percent sure where the person’s outline ends and the thick woods begin again? Not exactly. But it seems like something. Seriously it does.

  And if it is something, I need to know. If it’s someone, I have to be cautious. With all the ruckus going on around here lately, it could be anything. Maybe evil Haywood has some asshole spying on me. Maybe there’s a serial killer in the area, one who gets off on victimizing girls with disabilities. The likelihood he would have an invisibility cloak seems slim, but you
never know. It could be really good camouflage. They make some patterns that blend in really well with the woods inside the Smoky Mountain National Forest. My property backs right up to it.

  I tilt my head to the side, as if that will help my eyes focus. Then I let out a long sigh, rewind and view the footage one last time, and click the red button on the upper left-hand corner of my Safari window.

  The computer’s clock says it’s 5:15 p.m., which means I need to get moving.

  I let out my version of a bear moan. Living alone, I’m free to be as dramatic as I want on any given day. With no pets or people, just me here in the forest and the bears—various distances away from me, in the enclosure behind the cabin—it’s not like my shouting, cursing, singing, dancing, or moaning is going to upset anyone. The house next door is empty. That evil bastard Haywood.

  I’ve still got to get a shower, but first…

  I hustle from my office into the living room, then through the half-wall opening between den to kitchen. There, inside the cabinet underneath my big, trough-style sink, I keep a bottle of Emile Pernot “Vieux Pontarlier” Absinthe for just such an occasion as this.

  I twist the top off, bring the bottle to my lips, and take the smallest of swigs. The warm, licorice taste coats my throat, leaving behind a tang of bitterness as I shut my mouth. I imagine I feel more relaxed as I put the bottle back under the sink.

  Absinthe aficionados would be horrified by my bastardization of their fancy drink, but whatever. Again—no one here but me.

  I strip out of my workout clothes as I march toward my bedroom, set my iPhone in the Bose sound system on my dresser, grab the remote, and blast some Florence + The Machine as I quickly scrub my body, wash my hair, and dry it, tilting my head upside down and flinging my long, copper locks around like a ’70s rock star. I swipe deodorant underneath my underarms twice, because I know I’ll sweat tonight, then apply a faintly blue eyeliner that makes my brown eyes pop, followed by my signature red lipstick. I don’t care what anybody says about redheads and the color red. It’s bullshit. I can rock the red.