My heart broke for my tenderhearted doctor. I just wanted to make him feel better. I wanted to make him forget the pain and erase the link his mind made between them and us. I wanted to sooth his pain. Without saying another word I shut the door and locked it. Taking Gavin’s hand I lead him to the bathroom off my bedroom. He stood watching me with anticipation of what was to come as I pulled my shirt over my head and slipped off my lounge pants. Wearing only my panties I stepped around him and turned on the shower. Walking up to Gavin, I ran my hands up under his scrub top and removed it while kissing him with enough passion to sear the pain from his beautiful heart. Slowly running my fingers down his taught chest feeling the ridges of each muscle, I made my way to his scrub bottoms. Reaching inside the waist band, never taking my eyes off his or my lips off his, I pulled the drawstring and pushed his pants and boxer briefs to the floor. He kicked off his shoes and pulled off his socks before stepping out of his pants.
Losing all inhibitions, I lowered myself to my knees in front of him fisting his long, thick shaft. I start to worry how something so big will fit inside me. I knew he was big but I didn’t realize how incredibly large he really is until I had him in my hand and my fingers couldn’t even circle around him. Summoning my courage, I swirl my tongue around the tip. He let out a primitive growl when my mouth slowly enclosed over as much of him as I could take. I took this as a good sign. I suck him in and out of my mouth slowly making sure the only thing he thought about was the feel of my mouth on his rock hard cock. Gavin’s hands fisted in my hair and low moans escaped his mouth as I continued to stroke him with my hand and mouth.
Without a word he stopped me abruptly and hooked his hands under my arms and pulled me to my feet. Suddenly, I was fearful I did something wrong. I was about to ask him when he smashed his mouth to mine kissing me with all the passion in his heart. He had one hand fisted in my hair and the other on my back pressing me into him. I broke the kiss long enough to look up into his beautiful bluish-gray eyes and say,“I love you.”He briefly froze before a smile kissed his lips as he stared into my eyes as if in shock. His lips crash back into mine. He turned us toward the shower and slowly walked us into the oversized shower.
My shower is pure luxury. The ceiling and three walls are covered in tiny earth toned tiles, a smooth river rock floor, one wall mounted shower head and a rain shower head overhead. A built-in tile bench anchored one side and is enclosed by a seamless glass door.
Gavin backed me against the wall and propped my foot on the bench. One hand still fisted in my hair, he smoothed the other from my knee to my hip and down to my sex aching to be touched. Slipping a finger between my slick folds he slowly circled my clit a few times before slipping first one then two fingers deep inside me. The feel of his fingers inside me was exquisite. Achingly slowly, he slipped his fingers in and out building the burning desire within me. He released my hair and moved his hand to massage my breast while continuing the sweet assault on my pussy, slowly driving me higher and higher until I finally exploded around his fingers.
Foreheads resting against each other’s we stood panting, breathless with desire. Gavin’s hands rested on the wall on each side of my head.“I wanna make love to you right here right now.”He panted out. Though this isn’t the first time we had played like this, this time it felt different. There was an urgency; a need there that couldn’t be fought.
“Yes, please.”I say running my hands up his back.
“We can’t. I don’t have any condoms.”The defeat evident in his voice.
Bringing my hands to cup each side of his face I kissed him slowly, sweetly.“We don’t have to use condoms if you don’t want to. I’m on the pill and we’ve already addressed the fact we are both clean.”A blush crept across my face suddenly feeling very shy. Why am I feeling so shy? I know Gavin. I’ve loved Gavin since we were young. I would do anything this man asked. So why does this feel so much more; so much more intimate?
With fire in his eyes and not another word spoken he pulled me against him once again smashing his lips to mine. Running his hands down my body to my thighs he lifted me up and wrapped my legs around his back. Pressed up against the wall he slowly started to sink into my core.“Oh God, that hurts.”I cried out against his lips trying to remain still, my eyes screwed shut. It didn’t hurt like this when I lost my V-card. I really didn’t expect it to hurt this time since I’ve used BOB ever since. However, none of my BOBs have ever been as big as Gavin.
“I know, baby. I’m sorry. It’ll get better, I promise.”He breathed showering my face with sweet kisses as he moved one hand between us to slowly rub my clit. He sounded pained by my cry.
When my body finally relaxed adjusting to his substantial size I look into his eyes and whisper,“I’m ok.”He slowly started to move in and out of my body. His lips moved from mine to my jaw and then down my neck to the very sensitive spot on my collar bone. I let out a soft moan as he sucked and licked across my collar, to my shoulder back to the spot on my collar bone then up to my ear.
“I love you.”He whispered in my ear as he began to pick up speed.“I wanna feel you cum around my cock.”
The pleasure was too much. The sweet and dirty words he whispered in my ear, the grunts and moans spilling from our lips as he picked up speed moving in and out of my body was too much. A feeling I’d never experienced so intensely pulled at my core. He tugged on my nipples as he sucked and licked on my collar bone. The feeling became too much and I exploded around him yelling out his name. Gavin thrust in and out of me a couple more times before following me over the edge with a primal grunt. He kissed me with all the passion I’ve desired before slipping from my body.“WOW”we say in unison, eyes locked trying to steady our ragged breath.
A sly smile pulls at his lips as he kisses my nose.“I’ve imagined doing that to you for a very long time, but in the shower wasn’t what I was expecting when I came here tonight. I just needed to see you and hold you but thank you.”
“There was so much pain in your eyes. I wanted so badly to take away all your pain.”
“You did. Just being with you makes everything perfect. It couldn’t have been better. Thank you.”He lifted my hand and kissed the tip of each finger.“We’d better get out of here. You’re starting to prune.”
He shuts off the shower, we step out and start to dry off. I can’t help but to sneak glances at him out of the corner of my eye.
“What’s with the smirk?”He questions, making me look down at the floor.“Why are your cheeks turning pink?”
Shit, my cheeks are heating. How do I tell him what I want? Can I even ask him for more? Isn’t there a mandatory recovery time? I don’t want him thinking I’m needy, but I really want more. Damn, now my face is positively on fire. I conjure up my courage while staring at the floor I mutter,“That was incredible. Um…”
Gavin moves close to me with one finger lifting my chin so my eyes meet his.“Don’t be embarrassed with me. If you want something then just ask me. I’ll move the moon to give you whatever you want.”He places a soft peck on my nose.
“It was incredible. Can we do that again?”
Laughing, he wraps his arms around me and places feather light kisses on my neck.“I was absolutely planning on it. I think I’ve created a monster.”With that he leans over and tosses me over his shoulder carrying me to my bed. I yelp out with surprise and excitement when he slaps me on my ass before tossing me on the bed.
CHAPTER 16
Gavin
When I left the hospital tonight my head was so fucked up. I’ve lost patients before. Not to sound cold but it’s part of my job. You can’t save everyone. You have to stay detached. It’s the only way you survive in this profession. Tonight though, this patient was different. It wasn’t that he was young or that he was killed by a drunk driver. Sadly, I see this all too often. It wasn’t even the look on his fiancé’s or his families face when I told them he didn’t make it. It was his story. He and his fiancé had been high school sweethearts and s
eparated when they went to separate colleges. They only reconnected about a year ago and were getting married next month. As his fiancé sat there in the private waiting room crying, telling me about their past I no longer saw her face, only Hayden’s. That’s another unusual part about this; I don’t normally stay and talk to the family. I deliver the news and leave. It may seem harsh but this is part of staying unattached. You have to be unattached to be able to make good calls when the pressure is on. I really don’t know why I stayed and talked to them.
Anyway, I changed into a clean pair of scrubs since mine were soiled and left the hospital and started walking home. The next thing I knew, I was standing in Hayden’s loft with her arms around me asking me what was wrong. My face was wet with the tears I had shed. Men aren’t supposed to cry; or so they say. Fuck it. This situation just hit too close to home. I couldn’t stop it. I just needed her. She took me by the hand and led me to her bathroom where she and I made love for the first time, ever. I almost stop everything when I sank inside her. She cried out in pain. Her eyes were screwed tightly shut. I couldn’t stand hurting her. I never want to hurt her again. Her body finally relaxed and I’ve never felt what I felt with her with another girl. The innocence and trust in her eyes was almost my undoing.
Now I’m lying in her bed, her soft delicate body pressed next to mine; her back to my front. I want to spend hours kissing, touching and worshiping this body. Every time I kiss and suck on a spot on her left collar bone she starts moaning and fighting to get away. Oh yeah, that’s a spot where I’m going to focus a lot of attention. Her soft breasts are more than a handful. I love the feel of them in my hands as her nipples tighten into taught peaks. Kissing the spot on her collar bone, rolling her nipple between my first finger and thumb I rub my hand down the center of her body to her neatly trimmed mound. Oh God, she’s so wet. Slowly I rub one finger up and down between her slick folds. Teasing her just to see how her body will react to my touch. Hayden started to buck against my hand as I stroked her clit. As the pressure on her clit increases so does the way she writhes under me. She’s moaning, begging for release. I can’t wait to spend some time exploring whether she likes it easy or rough. I bet she’ll play rough. Fuck, the thought about makes me blow my load. Increasing the pressure on her nipple and clit while flicking my tongue on the spot on her collar bone proves to be her undoing. She throws her head back and yells out as her climax ripped through her body leaving her panting.
“That was…that was…”
“No words, baby?”I arch an eyebrow then kiss her lips. She looks dazed and I love it. Now the challenge is to see if I can leave her speechless. I roll her to her back and slowly start kissing my way down her body giving extra attention to each nipple in turn. I watch my hand smooth over her soft, freckled, peaches and cream skin.“You are so beautiful.”I muttered as I kissed every inch of her stomach. Little moans of pleasure escaping her mouth urging me on. Her head arches back as her fingers rub over my arms and shoulders. I love her fingers lightly running over me. She started grinding her body against mine with each kiss and lick on her skin. I don’t think she even realizes what she’s doing. She may not have much experience, but her body definitely knows what it wants and I am all too happy to oblige. When I reach the soft skin below her belly button she stiffens and grabs hold of my shoulders stopping me.
“What are you doing? You’re not going to…”There is fear and a hint of excitement in her eyes.
“Give your body what it craves? Hell yes, relax, baby. I won’t hurt you. Let me make you feel good.”
She dropped her head back and moaned as I sucked and lightly nipped at the spot below her belly button. I work my way south kissing as I go. I lick up the full length of her lips and she moans out in pure pleasure while fisting her hands in my hair. Pulling back her slick folds with my thumbs I circled my tongue around her swollen clit before latching on. Sliding two fingers inside her body I start fucking her with my fingers, again. Hayden’s bucking against my mouth as her body shakes; her head falls back as she’s moaning out my name. Her body tightens down on my fingers stroking her on the inside. With a few more hard sucks on her clit her body explodes against my tongue.
Crawling up her body with a smug smile on my face, I settle between her legs and thrust inside her before she has fully come down from her orgasm. She yells out from the shock. She wraps her legs around me as I thread my fingers in hers, raising her hands above her head. The feel of her body locks around me as I slowly move in and out of her. Kissing her eyes, nose, cheeks and mouth I want to feel every part of my body touching hers as I bring her to complete ecstasy. Her body quivers as I quicken the pace. She’s crying out for more begging me to give her what she needs. I start pounding into her. She clinches down, exploding around me, sending me over the edge; spilling my seed into her.
Panting, our bodies spent, I kiss her lips soft, tenderly.“I love you.”I tell her but can’t help grinning at the out-of-it look on her face. I caress her cheek and slowly pull out of her, trying not to hurt her.“Are you ok?”
“Hmm…”Content crosses her face.
“Hmm…Is that all you can say?”A Cheshire cat grin on my face.
“Hmm…”
Chuckling, we rolling to our sides, I spoon her body to mine. Leaning up I kiss her temple and say,“I love you, baby. Sweet dreams.”She sighs and we drift off into a peaceful sleep.
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The morning is spilling through the curtains. Hayden’s head is on my shoulder with her hand over my heart and mine curled around her back. I can feel her breath tickling my neck. Slowly, I roll over to face her. I know Hayden is probably sore since I woke her up twice more during the night to have her. I just hope she’s not too sore for one more round. Now that I’ve had her I can’t get enough. I wake her up with soft kisses on her shoulder and down her arm. She stretches lazily,“Mmm, good morning. Is there a reason you are waking me up?”
“I couldn’t resist the beautiful woman sleeping in my arms.”I say in between kisses on her lush lips.
“Didn’t you get enough last night?”A shy smile crosses her beautiful face.
I roll on top of her continuing to kiss her body until I latch onto her nipple.“I’ll never get enough of you.”Her body bowed into mine as I slip two fingers inside her; slowly moving them in and out.“Oh God, you’re so wet and ready for me.”
Hayden moans,“Please”into my neck letting me know she is ready.
I sink into her. Slowly, achingly slowly I started to move inside her; lazily making love to her. Conveying every ounce of emotion, every ounce of love I have for this girl. I continue at a slow pace until we both fall over the edge of bliss.
I love the look of shock that crosses her face when she climaxes. She looks shocked and so confused by the pleasure ripping through her body before the euphoria of it takes over. I want to see that look on her face every day. I want to be the one to put that look on her face every day. Ok so add,‘always put that look on her face’on my daily to-do list of things to make Hayden happy for the rest of our lives.
She leans up and whispers,“I love you, Gavin”while softly kissing the hollow of my throat. I love hearing her say that. Emotion chokes the back of my throat. I nearly melt. How can this girl get to me?“I love you, Hayden. I always have and I always will.”I carefully slip out of her as I kiss her.
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“Gavin!”Hayden yelled for me as she slammed the door upon returning from taking Trix and Bella outside. The fear and anger in her voice is alarming. She met me in the hallway holding up a note.“What the fuck is this?”
Taking the note I read,“Stay away from Gavin he’s mine!”
“Is there something I need to know? Are you seeing someone else?”The pain in her eyes sent anger coursing through my blood at the person responsible.
“Baby, I promise you there is no one else in my life.”I step up close to her and wrap my arms around her. Looking into her eyes,“You are the onlyone in my life. I haven’t dated a
nyone else in a couple years. Even at that I’m not on bad terms with any of my ex’s. Besides, I haven’t dated anyone seriously since high school.”Frustrated, I ran my hand through my hair down to rub the back of my neck.“Hayden, I thought those notes you were getting at work was something to be concerned about.”
“I don’t understand. How would anyone know where I live? I keep all my information private.”
“What do you mean all your information is private?”
“Since I’m a professor at a local university, I regularly check the internet to make sure my address, numbers and whatever is not there. We have all our utility accounts addressed in initials. Brooklyn and I both do this.”With a shrug she said,“Sometimes we piss off students so we go to great lengths to keep our private information private.”
“Well that explains why I couldn’t find you all these years when we’ve been so close.”
“Sorry,”she looks at me sympathetically.“Two females living alone, we protect ourselves as much as possible. So what, now?”she questions to nobody in particular as she blows out an annoyed breath.
“Now, we call the police and file a report. No more blowing them off as nothing. You need to alert Campus Police as well and no more walking to and from campus.”
“That’s a bit extreme don’t you think?”She rolls her eyes at me while asking me the question. Why won’t she take this shit seriously? It’s starting to piss me off.
“No, I mean it! No being alone. We don’t know if it’s a scare tactic or someone is seriously messed up.”Placing my hands on her cheeks,“Baby, I love you and only you. I don’t know who did this but I want you safe.”I hug her tightly. Whoever it is–and it better not be her –is going to wish they left us alone. I’m not about to tell Hayden my theory yet, but if it’s hershe’s going to wish she’d never tried to walk back into my life. I hate not telling Hayden everything but I don’t know if she could handle this without knowing for sure who it is. She’s a runner and has already run once. I’m not letting her run again. Whether Hayden likes it or not she just got herself a full-time roommate.
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