Camera Shy

by Lauren Gallagher

  "Jason," Simone whispered. His very presence sucked the breath out of her chest as he strode toward her. She couldn't read the intense expression on his face. It was somewhere between the icy fury she saw earlier and the feverish desire he'd had every time they made love. She couldn't breathe as he came closer, her knees trembling as she wondered what he'd come to say. She wanted to run to him and back away all at the same time.

  She wetted her lips and started to speak, but his hand went to her hip and the other to her face, pulling her to him in a deep, passionate kiss. When he broke the kiss, her hand went to her mouth as emotions overwhelmed her.

  "I'm so sorry, Jason," she said finally. "For everything."

  "I know," he said. "I heard everything you said." He dropped his gaze for a moment. "I understand why you did it." Simone stared at him in disbelief, and he went on. "I was angry, but now I see why you did it." His eyes swept an angry arc across the gathered press. "I suppose if my life were spent under a microscope, I'd have done the same thing."

  But . . . ? There had to be a but. There had to be. He swallowed hard, and when he looked at her, his eyes—his devilish, boyish eyes—were filled with emotion. "I forgive you," he said. "And I'm sorry I was such an ass to you over it. I hope you can forgive me."

  Forcing the emotions back, Simone could only nod.

  Jason's arm tightened around her waist, gently pulling her closer. "I love you, Simone."

  The sound of his voice saying her name was almost more than she could bear.

  "I love you, Jason." Tears overcame her and Jason held her close, kissing her lightly. She was vaguely aware of the snapping cameras and questioning reporters, but she didn't care. All she cared about was being back in Jason's arms. After a moment, they took their eyes off each other and turned their attention back to the press.

  "What's next for you two?"

  "Wedding bells?"

  "Babies?"

  Jason tensed beside her, but Simone just held up a hand and shook her head. "For once in my life," she said. "I think I'm just going to take this a day at a time and see where it goes."

  Without another word, she clasped Jason's hand and led him out of the crowd. They ignored the questions and the cameras until they were in the Jeep. Away from the prying eyes and ears, Jason muttered, "I don't know how you stay sane around that."

  Simone shrugged. "I don't know that I'd call much of what I've done in the last ten years ‘sane'."

  He slid his hand onto her thigh. One of his "I just need to touch you" gestures, and damn it, it felt so good just to be touched by him again. Gooseflesh prickled her skin, a shiver running up her spine just like it did the first time he touched her out on the pier.

  She rested her other hand on top of his. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner. About everything."

  "I know." He turned his hand over under hers and laced their fingers together.

  "Let me ask you something, though."

  She swallowed. "Go ahead."

  He glanced at her before looking out through the windshield again. "Why were you here the day we met? I mean, what really brought you to Tofino."

  "Honestly?"

  "Yeah."

  "Ironically," she said. "My agent sent me up here to sober up and get my head together."

  He nodded once, slowly. "So, you were trying to straighten your life out?"

  "Yes."

  He said nothing for a moment. Then, "Did it work?"

  "Well, sort of. I gave up the alcohol that day, but . . . ." Jason glanced at her again. "But?"

  "She told me I was forbidden from alcohol and men." She paused. "So, technically I made it halfway."

  Their eyes met. When Simone gave him an innocent smile and a shrug, they both laughed.

  "So you did," he said, squeezing his hand as he chuckled. Simone's laughter faded and she chewed her lip. "To be serious, I really am sorry about all of this, Jason."

  "So am I." He nodded and squeezed her leg gently. "I overreacted."

  "No, you didn't. I think I would have done the same." After a moment, she whispered, "I meant everything I said last night. And today. I really do love you."

  "I know." He smiled. "And I love you."

  They drove in silence for a while. As Jason's house came into view, she turned to him. "So where do we go from here?"

  He put the car in park and thought for a moment, chewing his thumbnail. "I don't know. I really don't." Then he grinned. "But I know where we can go right now." Simone raised an eyebrow. "Oh?"

  He cocked his head and rubbed his chin, pretending to be deep in thought. "Well, except that I can't quite decide between the bed or the sofa . . . ." Simone laughed. "I'll race you."

  He flashed her a devilish grin and they both leapt out of the Jeep. They didn't make it past the front porch.

  Epilogue

  About a year later . . . .

  Los Angeles, California

  The limousine stopped and started, inching along the limo-packed boulevard toward the red carpet. Simone looked out the tinted window at the throngs of fans and paparazzi swarming up ahead. Nerves tingled in the pit of her stomach. How many times she'd done this, she couldn't count, but this time was different. Beside her, Jason switched the phone from his right ear to his left. "Well, if that's what you want to do, then we will when you come up next weekend." He paused, listening. Then he chuckled. "Yes, yes, I promise. Cross my heart and hope to die." Another pause, another laugh. "Okay, kiddo, I should let you go. Here's your mom." He held the phone out to Simone. They exchanged smiles as she took it from him. She'd barely put the phone to her ear before Cecily said, "Did Jason tell you?

  We're going to take a canoe out and try to catch a crab in a net!"

  "Is that right?" Simone looked at Jason, who showed his palms and gave her an innocent look. She laughed. "Maybe I'll have to follow you two around with a camera, then. Can't miss this."

  "I can't wait!" Cecily said, practically squealing on the other end.

  "Neither can I, baby." The limo lurched forward. Simone glanced outside. They were almost to the red carpet. "I have to go for now, but I'll call you tonight before you go to bed."

  "Okay. I hope you win."

  "Me too. I love you, baby."

  "Love you too, Mom."

  Simone hung up and slid the phone into her purse. "Hopefully the weather holds out next weekend. She'll be mighty disappointed if you guys can't go out." Jason laughed softly. "We can still go out if it rains."

  "You would, wouldn't you?"

  He said nothing. When she glanced at him, he idly fingered the cufflinks on his tuxedo shirt. Their eyes met and he smiled, but a hint of nervousness tugged at the corner of his mouth. She took his hand and squeezed. His palms were sweaty.

  "Nervous?" she asked.

  He raised his eyebrows and took in a hiss of breath through his teeth. "You could say that."

  "Are you sure you want to do this? It's not too late to turn around." He shook his head. "I'll be fine. I can do it."

  "Are you sure?"

  "No." He squeezed her hand. "But you're not going to miss this because I've got a little bit of stage fright."

  Simone smiled at him. They had spent the better part of the last year in the seclusion of his house in Tofino, but when the announcement came out that she was nominated for an Oscar for her most recent film, he had not only suggested they go together, he had insisted on it.

  "We can't hide from the rest of the world forever," he'd said. "It's not like they don't know about me; we might as well face the music and go public." Now, though, she wondered if he was second-guessing that decision. He had never quite grown to like the fishbowl life she led, and they had never appeared publicly together after the incident in Tofino. They still dodged paparazzi in Tofino from time to time, but otherwise avoided the public eye.

  But now, he insisted he was ready to face the cameras and the reporters. Ironic, she thought. He's the one who ended up being camera shy. She watched him. He looked out the win
dow, drumming his fingers nervously. Several times, he slipped one hand into the pocket of his trousers, as if making sure he hadn't forgotten or dropped something. He'd done it a dozen or more times since they left the hotel room.

  He tried his best to look comfortable in the tuxedo, but she was certain he felt completely out of his element. Even at his gallery events, he'd told her, he rarely wore anything more formal than a shirt and slacks. Just like the first night we had dinner at the house, she thought, an involuntary shiver running through her at the memory. In spite of his discomfort, he looked amazing.

  Simone stifled a soft giggle when she noticed the smudge of makeup on the collar of his tux. They had tried to get all of it off, but a faint whisper of color still remained. She hoped no one noticed, but every time Simone looked at it, her breath caught.

  Back in their hotel room, just before they hurried downstairs to catch their waiting limo, he had to have her just one more time. Up against the hotel room door, completely dressed, her legs wrapped around his waist—bringing to mind that night a lifetime ago when he had pushed her up against her rental car in the pouring rain—he'd had her just one more time. And somewhere amidst the passion and urgency, a little bit of her makeup ended up on his collar.

  Smiling to herself, she looked out the window again. A moment later, they pulled up to the red carpet, and the door flew open, allowing the blinding camera flashes to invade the warm dimness of the car. Simone squinted against the harsh light. She turned to Jason and touched his hand. "Are you ready?" He tugged at the starched collar of his tuxedo shirt, checked his pocket again, and wetted his lips. "As ready as I'll ever be."

  She smiled. "Let's go."

  He took a deep breath, nodded, and stepped out of the car ahead of her before turning to hold his hand out for her. She took it, stepping out onto the red carpet into the sea of camera flashes.

  Simone slid her hand around his elbow, and together they started up the long walk. He followed her lead, pausing here and there for the occasional photo or question. Occasionally she squeezed his arm to reassure him and he'd give a squeeze in return. Once or twice, they exchanged a brief smile. Each time, his smile both warmed her to the core and sent a shiver down her spine. Never in her life had she been so proud to be on the arm of a man. God, I love you, Jason, she thought. They stopped before a particularly aggressive clutch of reporters. Her stomach knotted as they probed for intimate details. This was a mistake. A huge mistake. Shit. She glanced up at Jason. His expression was blank. A ripple ran down the front of his throat as he swallowed hard and his body stiffened. She thought he had paled. Shit.

  "Breathe," she whispered.

  His gaze darted toward her and he released part of the breath he was holding, but he didn't relax.

  Then, a reporter thrust a microphone into their faces and demanded, "What's next for the two of you, Simone?"

  Simone opened her mouth to answer, but Jason said, " That is a damn good question." He turned to Simone, his face unreadable. "I'm actually wondering the same thing."

  Simone's heart leaped. Oh shit. Oh shit. Oh shit. He gently freed his elbow from her hand. The hairs on the back of her neck stood on end and she sucked in a breath.

  "Jason—"

  Right there on the red carpet, Jason dropped to one knee.

  A collective gasp rippled among the reporters. Simone's heart pounded as he reached into his pocket—the pocket he'd checked a hundred times earlier—and pulled out the ring. Dozens of cameras flashed around them.

  "Simone." His hands—one holding the ring, one clasping her hand for dear life—

  shook. Drawing a deep, unsteady breath, he said, "Simone, will you marry me?" She couldn't breathe. Couldn't think. Her knees turned to liquid. She couldn't even see the ring. All she could see was his eyes: a mixture of fear and pride, certainty and doubt, and pure, genuine, sincere love.

  She realized he was holding his breath.

  So was she.

  Everything around them faded into nothing.

  Finally, she willed her tongue to work. "Yes."

  He exhaled in a laugh, one of joy and relief. He slid the ring onto her finger and stood, taking her into his arms and kissing her. They ignored the microphones and cameras in their faces.

  "So that's why you were so nervous," she whispered against his lip.

  "Nervous?" He kissed her again. "I was terrified." The laughter was gone from his expression when he looked at her again, replaced by pure, heartfelt love. His voice hoarse with emotion, he said, "I love you, Simone."

  "I love you, Jason."

  ~The End~

  About the Author

  Lauren Gallagher was born and raised in Seattle, spent five years in Norfolk, Virginia, then moved to Okinawa, Japan, at the end of 2008, where she currently lives with her husband and two cats.

  She does not collaborate with any other authors (though she hasn't ruled it out for future projects), but she does have the privilege of a writing partnership (or unholy alliance, depending upon who you ask) with Scottish writer, Scarlett Parrish. If she had to pinpoint one secret to her success, it's Scarlett, hands down. There is nothing quite like having a skilled writer looking over one's shoulder, critiquing where it's needed and not pulling any punches. Scarlett has also given her the ideas for a few of her

  books, including Between Brothers and Rules of Engagement, and bestowed titles on several of them.

  Lauren writes full-time now, but in other times and places, she has worked in everything from customer service to lower management, from jewelry to car rentals to compressed gas equipment.

  She was a professional photographer at one point, but decided she enjoyed it more as a hobby than a career. She and her husband still enjoy photography and happen to live in a place that lends itself very well to a couple of shutterbugs.

  Learn more about Lauren at http://www.loriawitt.com/default.htm