by Reber, Tina
I still could not believe that the last two days had really happened. Ryan and I were still madly in love, his symbol of his commitment clad in diamonds around my finger, and all of my heartache was almost completely forgotten.
“I guess I should call Pete, find out what time they are coming for poker,” I said out loud.
Ryan twisted the cap back onto the bottle of soda and set it back in the refrigerator. “We’re not playing poker tonight,” he informed. “It’s just you and me tonight. We’re going out.”
“Out?” I was shocked. We had rarely ever gone “out” before.
“Yep. I’m taking you out on a date… a proper date,” he corrected. “Go get dressed.”
He pulled his jeans up onto his hips and grabbed a clean shirt off of a hanger in the closet.
“So where are we going?” I asked.
“I have no idea. Out to dinner, bowling… it’s your choice. We’re going to try and have a normal date, even if I have to wear a disguise. I’m taking you out.”
We drove to one of my favorite local restaurants. I looked at my watch, noting the time, so we wouldn’t be late for our next stop.
Ryan tapped me in the foot under the table and snickered to himself when I flinched. We were sitting in a booth all the way in the back corner of the restaurant, well out of the way of most eyes.
“So, my beautiful fiancée,” he teased, “where to next?”
I took a sip of soda to wash down my last bite of pizza, tapping my foot in rhythm against his.
“Movies,” I answered casually. “George Clooney’s latest flick is playing at the Galaxy Theatre.”
Ryan tried to look unaffected, but I could tell he was freaking out thinking about being around crowds and the public. He even wrapped his scarf an extra loop around his neck to cover half of his face when we got up to leave.
He tugged my hand as we walked in opposite directions. “Um, Honey… car is this way?”
I stopped and held my ground, pulling him towards me. “Theater is only three blocks down the street. See the marquee lights? It will be okay. Let’s walk.”
We held hands as we casually strolled down the empty sidewalk in the dark. No one noticed us; no one even knew we existed. It was wonderful.
I squeezed his hand tightly in mine, completely bewildered that he was finally here with me. My heart that was once so devastated with thoughts of losing him was now being stitched back together, like it was never shattered in the first place. His love for me was just the glue I needed, restoring me back to whole.
I knew I could never make the same mistakes again. My insecurities needed to be replaced with trust and assuredness. I would never doubt his love for me or his intentions to have a long life together. Still, I was afraid that if I blinked too many times that I would wake up from this wonderful dream of togetherness.
“That was good pizza,” Ryan said, trying to stifle a burp, but failing at it. His body was making all sorts of noises.
“If your fans only knew!” I teased, giving him a nudge with my hip. “It would definitely blow your whole mysterious, sexy image thing! That was weak, by the way. I’m hardly impressed. I give that one a 2.7.”
“See, this is why I love you. You don’t judge my foulness, you grade it!” He wrapped his arm over my shoulder, putting me in another teasing headlock. I reached up his jacket, playfully retaliating by tickling him in the ribs.
Ryan nodded his chin towards the theater after he twined my fingers back into his. “I bet you a million bucks that George Clooney has his vile moments too,” he joked.
“There’s no way I’m taking that bet! I’m smart enough to know that underneath the movie star facades and special effects makeup are nothing more than beer-drinking, burping, fartypants men.”
“Yep,” he and his body agreed. “But put us in an Armani tux and we look good!”
The Galaxy Theatre was one of our town’s historic landmarks, having been in existence since the 1930’s. It had the old style ticket booth and fancy marquee lights illuminating the title of the feature movie. By the time we reached the theater, no one was in line.
We purchased a bucket of popcorn and a soda at the tiny concession stand and then made our way into the dimly lit theater.
“This place is cool!” Ryan whispered, loosening his scarf just a bit. We had the back row all to ourselves. I noticed him glancing around at the interior - the art-deco wallpaper, thick red velvet drapes bordering the stage, ornate chandeliers and sconces on the walls – it was very reminiscent of an era when films shaped our society.
Ryan stuck his hand in the bucket of popcorn, laughing at the silliness of the old Tom and Jerry cartoon that played on the screen. He was able to enjoy an entire night out without any interference from the paparazzi or enamored fans.
“You know, when I take you to the Reparation premier in a few days your theater experience is going to be much different from this,” he whispered privately.
“I know,” I said as visions of thousands of screaming fans passed through my thoughts. “And I’m ready for it.”
“It will be your warm-up for the insanity yet to come in July,” he continued, a hint of nervous apprehension and regret accompanied his words. I instantly knew he was referring to the Seaside premier, which would be a three-week multi-country tour.
I rested my head on his shoulder to enjoy the movie, but even more so, this time we finally had together. Ryan softly kissed my forehead and whispered “I love you.” It was precious moments like these that made life worth living.
Unfortunately with all blissfully sweet moments, there must always be a few not so good ones mixed in between. I suppose it’s what keeps the balance.
The very next day, I stood there in our bedroom, helplessly watching as he packed another suitcase. His basic needs were fulfilled… clean socks and underwear shoved around a stack of clean shirts and jeans, another script and some gum packed in his carry-on bag next to his laptop.
His other needs, those that could only be met by his lover, were hopefully fulfilled to the best of my abilities as well.
“You have my schedule in your calendar?” Ryan asked as he hauled his suitcase down the steps.
“Yes,” I answered, confirming for the third time that my new phone was synched with his.
“I checked e-mail - all the flight itineraries are there. And there will be a car waiting for you when you land, Mrs. Bailey.” Ryan smirked. “Marla’s assistant is making the arrangements for your…”
“Honey, I know,” I said softly, slipping my fingers into his front pockets to hold onto him for a minute longer. “Don’t worry! I already talked to Trish. Everything will be fine. I promise to look smashing for each of the premiers!” I beamed.
“Oh, don’t forget your passport,” he reminded.
“I won’t.”
“My parents and Nick and Janelle land at LAX an hour after you do so you won’t be alone for long. Oh, wait. What am I thinking? You won’t be alone - the gang will be with you, which I’m glad because I have almost three entire days of press junkets and appearances. Just remember to keep the hotel a secret, and…”
“Ryan…”
“What?” he whined.
“Honey, you’re stressing out. You need to relax and stop worrying. I’ll see you in L.A. tomorrow, I promise.”
He left out a long sigh.
My eyes departed his face and glanced to the door when I heard a car horn honk.
“I love you,” I murmured on his lips as he kissed me goodbye.
“I love you more!” he snickered, pulling me in tighter.
“Go, be a movie star,” I teased him. “I’ll be on the next plane right behind you.”
Ryan held my hands; his thumbs rolled over both of my rings, twisting them on my fingers. It was his subtle way of reminding me of their engraved messages.
“I’ll see you soon,” he said sadly.
He kissed me one more time before slipping from my hands and out to the car that
waited.
Love Unscripted
Copyright © 2010 by Tina Reber
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