The Mak Collection

by Tara Moss

  “You don’t want me?” He sounded like a spoilt child.

  “Roy.” She was annoyed. He couldn’t have missed it. “Don’t do that.” She gave him a firm and steady “back off” look and felt her body prepare for a possible confrontation. What if he freaks out and gets violent?

  Roy looked at her for a while and she looked straight back.

  “But, Makedde, I can help you. I know what you’ve been through, and I can help you.”

  A chill went up her spine.

  “Professor Gosper told me all about it. It’s terrible what you’ve been through. I can understand why you’re pushing me away, but really, I can help you.”

  “Professor Gosper told you about what?”

  “About the man who abducted you in Sydney. The serial killer.”

  Her blood ran cold.

  Her toe began to tingle.

  “I’m not going to discuss this with you.”

  “Don’t do this, Makedde. I can help you,” he pleaded.

  “I don’t need your help.”

  “Don’t push me away! I understand you! I can help you!” He opened his mouth again to protest, but stopped, stood up and tossed his gift on the ground so hard that it bounced on the pavement. He stormed off in a huff in the direction he had come.

  Makedde sat on the bench and hung her head.

  Damn.

  That hadn’t been as easy as she had hoped.

  And he knew all about Sydney!

  When Makedde finally left the bench she wasn’t sure what to do about the little gold box. If she gave it back it would mean facing him again, and if she left it at his work station or something similar it would be like rubbing salt in his wounds. She wished he had just taken it with him, whatever it was.

  I should at least open it, she thought.

  Makedde bent over to pick up the little box. It felt light in her grasp, the gold paper smooth under her fingertips. Carefully, she peeled open one end of the neat wrapper and pulled out the box.

  Chocolate.

  Inside was a large milk-chocolate heart sitting in a bed of crimson gift paper, but his act of throwing it to the ground had caused it to break—right through the centre from top to bottom.

  The heart was split.

  Mak fought a terrible melancholy as she drove home.

  In no time at all the weather had turned nasty, just like her day. The clouds had come over as soon as she reached Zhora in the university carpark, and now rain lashed the sides of her car and thunderclouds hung heavy over the city.

  You’ll see Ann again tomorrow, and then you’ll be making progress again. You’ll be okay. Don’t panic.

  But she was panicking. Makedde couldn’t remember the last time she felt so down.

  By noon she had locked herself away in her apartment and had immersed herself in a textbook—The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders. There was no way she could face the conference, or face anyone at all.

  You’ll be okay…you’ll be okay…

  She flipped the textbook open to page three hundred and twenty, “Major Depressive Episode”.

  When the phone rang, she didn’t move a muscle. Her answering machine picked it up.

  “Hi, Mak.” It was Jaqui. “I just got your message. Are you okay? You sounded a little down. I’m worried about you. Call me.”

  I’m worried about me, too.

  Not long after, the phone rang again, and Mak thought fleetingly of answering it. It’d be Jaqui again.

  Her machine got it.

  “Makedde, it’s Roy. Pick up the phone.”

  Oh no…

  “Pick up the phone…”

  She didn’t move.

  “Pick up the phone, Mak. Pick up the phone, pick up the phone…”

  The sound of his voice made her feel cold and she shivered.

  Makedde listened to the background noises, the sounds of the wind and the rain. He was clearly calling from outside somewhere. He was calling from his mobile phone, from somewhere rainy and wet, and windy.

  Her eyes went to the window, to the trees swaying in the wind.

  My God. What if he’s outside?

  She jumped up and checked that the door was locked, pulled the security chain and went around closing the curtains in every room. With trembling hands she peeked through a crack in the curtain fabric of the main window and scanned the street outside. No sign of him.

  I’m going crazy. I can’t take this any more.

  Breathing hard, she opened the cupboard in the bathroom. Her heart was pounding and so was her head. She pulled out a box of medicines she never used.

  There it is.

  Makedde popped a small pill out of a foil wrap, and snapped it in half. She slugged it back with a mouthful of tap water. Within ten minutes she felt the drowsiness hit.

  It was barely one in the afternoon when Makedde crawled into bed and fell into a deep drug-induced sleep.

  CHAPTER 36

  Roy drove along the Sea to Sky Highway, frustrated and upset.

  She doesn’t want to see me any more. Why? Why?

  He really cared about Makedde. He wanted to help her. Why couldn’t she understand that? He wasn’t judging her on her past. He wasn’t judging her on what she had been through or what she was going through. He really understood her. He understood her needs.

  She was a nice girl, and she had been through so much, but now she was pushing him away.

  Why?

  He’d stay away for a while and calm down. He would spend the time with his brother and the wilderness, and get his head together, and then he would think of a way to get her back.

  Danny would be a good ear to his sorrows. He always was.

  Perhaps we’ll even go hunting together?

  It was Danny’s favourite thing. And they hadn’t gone together in a while.

  CHAPTER 37

  “See you next week, Martin.”

  Dr Ann Morgan rose from her chair to see Martin Sawyer from her office. He was her last appointment of the day, and it had become a late day, indeed. Another after-hours patient, but Martin had been insistent that he needed to see her right away.

  She was pleased to note that the thirty-four-year-old paranoid schizophrenic was responding well to a recent change in his medication. After some time spent using the standard anti-psychotic drug haloperidol with limited success, she had prescribed the olanzapine variety, which was a comparatively new drug. So far it appeared to be working wonders. Martin seemed like a different man from the nervous, angry and confused patient who was first referred to her. He had just been a bit panicked about his prescription being found by his new partner, but she felt she’d eased his mind.

  He stopped in the doorway to shake Dr Morgan’s hand vigorously before leaving. “Thank you so much,” he said, smiling broadly with crooked teeth.

  “There is no need to thank me,” she assured him, and meant it.

  Although such a positive change was always rewarding to observe, Ann knew that his recovery was far from a mission accomplished. One of the biggest challenges that psychiatrists face is to keep their patients committed to their medication once they feel well again, and Ann dearly hoped that Martin would continue his daily dose when it came time to wean him off their regular appointments. The studies on olanzapine showed a higher level of compliance than with many of the other antipsychotic drugs, and she allowed herself a feeling of cautious optimism about Martin’s future as she watched him walk out of the clinic.

  With her last patient now gone, her mind focused with neat precision on her next task, and a tiny cloud of apprehension threw a shadow across her heart. Her official day was complete, but there was something else Ann felt she needed to do. She wanted to check a name in the basement files before she left the office, and she suspected that what she would find there would not make her happy.

  Ann made her way down the hallway and walked around to the large front desk where the clinic receptionist was busy at the keyboard. “Sai, could you pas
s me the key for the storage room, please?”

  Sai flashed her wise dark eyes in Ann’s direction, her neat ponytail snapping to one side like a black whip as she turned her head. Without a word she fished the small key out of the top drawer of her desk and turned her striking, symmetrical face back to Ann.

  In Japanese, the name “Sai” refers to intelligence. Ann thought her parents named their girl well. She was by far the best receptionist they had employed at the clinic.

  Ann thanked her, and Sai nodded and turned her attention back to her work at the computer terminal.

  “Will you be staying on much longer?” Ann asked the top of Sai’s head.

  Sai turned and looked at her quizzically, broken again from the focus on her work. “I wasn’t planning on it. I have a dinner date—”

  “That’s okay. I’ll close up today,” Ann said. “I’ll be downstairs if you need anything.”

  Any break from routine in the clinic was unusual, and Ann’s comment appeared to give Sai pause.

  “Is everything alright?” Sai asked, a worry line flawing her smooth forehead. Such a question was inevitable.

  “Yes, everything’s fine. I just need to check some old client files and I don’t know how long it will take.”

  Sai nodded.

  With the single key warming slowly in her hot palm, Ann made her way towards the rear exit of the building and the staircase that led down to the storage room. The corridor grew cold as she ventured further into the bowels of the building, and she was glad for the warmth of her wool Donna Karan pant suit. She pulled the collar close around her neck.

  What if I am right about this?

  Ann supposed that she would have to consider her options carefully, but only if her concerns were confirmed. For now she simply had to check.

  She made her way to the base of the stairs and was met with the stale smell of neglect as she unlocked the storage room door. Blindly, she flipped the light switch on with one groping hand, reaching around the wall in the dark. The overhead lights came on with a flicker and a dull buzz, the fluorescent tubes illuminating the grey filing cabinets that held every file from the clinic that had been inactive for more than two years. The tops of the cabinets were thick with dust, and Ann was glad she didn’t have to come down here too often.

  She went for the first cabinet on the left—“A to B”—and pulled a drawer open. Her fingers moved with nimble efficiency to find her target.

  BLAKE.

  When Makedde Vanderwall had said the name during their appointment, it had rung a bell, but it had taken until today for Ann to place it. As the link surfaced in her mind, Ann found herself wishing she had not heard that man’s name coming from the lips of Les Vanderwall’s troubled daughter.

  Blake…

  She had to be sure.

  CHAPTER 38

  Roy Blake’s mobile phone rang when he was only twenty minutes from the cabin.

  “Blake,” he said.

  “Hi, Roy, this is Georgina.” She was one of the UBC security staff. She usually worked the phones.

  “How’s it going, Georgie?”

  “Good, thanks.” The line crackled a bit. He was starting to get out of range. “Sorry to bother you when you’re off-duty like this, but someone was calling for you just now. She wanted you to get back to her as soon as possible.”

  She? “Oh yeah?”

  Makedde…

  “She said her name was Dr Ann Morgan. She said it was important.”

  It took him a moment to register the name, and when he did, he felt a wave of panic.

  “Sure, Georgie,” he managed. “Hang on just a sec while I pull over.” There wasn’t a lot of traffic around, so he pulled over to the side of the road easily, and grabbed a pen out of the glove box and a piece of wrinkled newspaper off the floor of the cab.

  “Okay, what’s the number?”

  She gave him the digits and he scrawled them on the front of yesterday’s newspaper.

  “NAHATLATCH MURDERS

  Female students found dead. UBC panic as RCMP clueless…”

  CHAPTER 39

  Now Dr Ann Morgan had a dilemma.

  Roy Blake.

  What she knew complicated everything.

  When she had seen the newspaper article about the Nahatlatch Murders, it got her thinking. The hunter aspect Makedde had mentioned…the Nahatlatch. She knew someone who liked it out there…or used to. Someone who had a place not too far away.

  The Blake brothers.

  Roy and Daniel Blake were an interesting pair. Ann had met them when she hired Daniel to do some basic yard work. He had left one of those photocopied pamphlets at the door. The rates were good, and with Ann’s hectic schedule, there was so much that wasn’t getting done. But the young man had only worked for her a few times before he showed a great deal of interest in the fact that she was a psychiatrist. He started asking questions about certain conditions…things she suspected he was going through. Ann doubted that he had ever talked with anyone about his concerns before. He was confused and he wanted help.

  For years Daniel Blake had been told that he had done things he couldn’t remember doing. People would say hello to him on the street—people who he couldn’t remember meeting. He found things in his room that he thought were not his.

  Daniel Blake was a multiple.

  Multiple Personality Disorder, Dissociative Identity Disorder—Ann had encountered it before. Like so many psychological disorders, the official name had changed a couple of times in an attempt at a more accurate and less stigmatised term. The essential feature of the disorder involves the presence of several distinct personalities that recurrently take control of the patient’s behaviour. There is an inability to recall important personal information when the patient is in another one of their personality states, hence Daniel’s confusion. The different identities tend to involve complete character transformation, mannerisms and inflection of speech. Even different abilities and languages in some cases.

  One of Daniel’s personalities was a fanatical hunter.

  Ann remembered him clearly. He had not been happy about Daniel being there to see her. At all. He had come out in the third appointment.

  Daniel Blake had wanted to be psychologically integrated, but ironically, it wasn’t the hunter who got in the way. It was his well-meaning brother, Roy.

  The relationship between them was complicated. Their mother had abandoned them and their father at a young age. By the time she met them, their father was senile and in a home—all but absent from their lives as well. Roy had pledged to protect his brother’s welfare and the very suggestion that Daniel’s condition might require a stay in a hospital had caused Roy to pull his brother out of therapy.

  And that was it. After only six sessions, the Blake brothers disappeared from her life.

  Until now.

  So Mak had met one of them. What could she tell Makedde about the brothers? She could not violate the confidentiality of a patient. What could Mak tell her about them? How much did she know? Did Mak even know that Roy had a brother?

  Call it intuition, but those reports about the Nahatlatch Murders were making her think of Daniel…or rather his alter ego, the Hunter. Roy had told her straight up that he felt the best thing for his brother was to get out of the city, to stay out there where he could get “his head together”. What was he getting up to out there on his own?

  If Ann was wrong, if Daniel was in an institution by now and she had not been told, if he had left town, even if he was in jail, it would be a great relief.

  But what if her concerns proved correct?

  CHAPTER 40

  After six solid hours of sleep, Makedde Vanderwall woke up drowsy but not distraught. The half dose of sleeping pill had offered her a smooth, dreamless nap. She had bought them for long flights, but had never tried one until now.

  Relax. Everything will be fine.

  Mak hoped Roy would respect her request for space. Surely he would leave her alone. She just had
to stick to her guns, right? And soon Andy would be leaving too. She should just forgive herself for her momentary lapse of reason in the Renaissance Hotel, and get over it. Ann was right, she hadn’t done anything wrong. She was human after all and under a lot of stress, and besides, Jaqui would probably be proud of her for giving in to the moment, if she only had the nerve to tell her. Her heart might have fared better without the experience, or any reminders of it, but no matter. That was the final goodbye. Soon Andy would be gone and she would have peace.

  And then she could sleep. Without drugs.

  And then she could get her thesis done, and she would be fine.

  Then the phone rang.

  Wearily, Mak made her way to the side table and the buzzing telephone. If it was Roy, she would just tell him off.

  She raised the receiver to her ear.

  “Hello?”

  “Makedde?” An unfamiliar voice.

  “Yes.”

  “Makedde, this is Ann calling.”

  “Hello. How are you?” she answered, a little surprised by the unscheduled call. “I didn’t recognise your voice.”

  “Did you just get in?” Ann asked.

  Automatically, Makedde stole a look at her answering machine in the kitchen. She could see that the message light was flashing.

  “I, um…actually I was sleeping. You were trying to reach me?”

  “Sleeping?” A pause. “Yes, I was trying to reach you earlier.”

  Makedde had not even heard the phone ring.

  “There is something I’d like to ask you about, in person. Would it be possible for you to come over…as soon as you can? To my home?”

  “Is there something going on?” Mak asked.

  “Nothing, going on, per se, but I’d like to talk to you. Don’t be alarmed or anything.”

  “Okay. I’ll freshen up and come right over. What’s the address?”

  She took down the directions. It seemed pretty straight forward, and not too far away.

  What was all that? Her head had begun a slow throb. Her instincts told her something was wrong.