A Long Distance Love Affair

by Mary-Ellen McLean

  Oh My Running Bull

  It was so wonderful to talk to you on Monday. You probably picked up from my emails that I was feeling a bit on the desperate side at the thought of having missed you last week. And I was feeling particularly intense and wanting to hear from you last week. So just now I’m back on the bliss train…

  I love to talk to you. You’re very easy to talk to. I feel so relaxed with you and you bring out the joy in me (which has been buried for a very long time and it’s so wonderful to have it surfacing now). I feel such a lovely vigour for life now. You make me feel wonderful and your interest in me is so very flattering and your friendship for me is so good for my emotional health.

  I am also so very happy to have come back to Brisbane. What I really love about the place is its lushness, its beauty, its interesting contours and the kind of ‘bush’ optimism about the place where nothing is too big a challenge. There is such a lovely sense that life is all about enjoyment and I find the Brisbane people to be natural, happy, open and warm and there is a real sense of community here. Although there is much more intellectual rigour and serious thought in Melbourne, it’s a dour place, with a huge population of lonely, disconnected and stressed people.

  Oh I am so keen to bring pleasure and joy to your life too in whatever way I can.

  Your Crazy Horse

  Oh King of my Realm (notice I’ve promoted you…) and of all of my associated undulating geography,

  Your text message was a lovely surprise! But what were you doing up so early on your holidays?? You’re supposed to be indulging in relaxing do nothing things like sleeping in!

  Oh how I’d love to see, hear and touch you too. You make all of my senses just come alive and burn for you. I just need to think of you and my receptors wake up in delightful anticipation… I would so love to be on top of you and moving down on you and leaning over and kissing you on every beat just now with your hands stroking my breasts and your face turned up to me in desire and delight… I would tantalize you with my movements, sometimes oh so slowly and sometimes hard and fast. At night when I’m alone, I imagine what I would like to be doing to you and you to be doing to me and the yearning becomes almost too much to bear sometimes. I would really like you to let me explore you with my kisses. I love to kiss your beautiful mouth and want to suck your bottom lip and run my tongue all over your lips and in your mouth. Oh God you excite me so much….I’d better stop this. But you just thrill me so much and fill me full of lusty desire that I can’t help myself.

  It’s not all just sexual passion though...I have very tender feelings towards you and would love just to look into your beautiful eyes and stroke your lovely cheeks and touch your hair. In many ways I find the thought of these things more intimate and moving than all of the above….but I wouldn’t mind doing all of the above just the same…

  “Give me kisses thousand-fold,

  Add to them a hundred more;

  Other thousands still be told

  Other hundreds o’er and o’er.

  None shall know to what amount

  Envy’s due for so much bliss;

  None - for none shall ever count

  All the kisses we will kiss.”

  Your Chariette who is SO full of kisses for you she will implode if you don’t provide her with an outlet!

  Dear Missing Chariot

  Oh I'm missing you so much! It's been SUCH a long two weeks. It will be so good to hear your divine voice again soon.

  I hope you've had a good time and that you feel relaxed inside and out. I am not relaxed at all inside with wanting you and could do with some of your very special treatment!!

  Oh I'm so looking forward to hearing from you next week. You are my divine Adonis who has swept me off my feet.

  Chariette

  My Heart of Joy

  I'm so HAPPY at the thought of your return. You are probably a nut-brown beauty now after your lazing in the sun beside the sea. How I would love to be gazing on your beautiful legs just now. The thought of you delights me to the core!

  I hope your blood is still running hot for me....

  "He spake; I heard and was glad,

  And took him, alas! by the hand and softly drew him alow

  On the soft bed by my side, and our limbs began to glow,

  And hotter became our cheeks and so sweetly whispered we....

  Love's rites were accomplished, and we both tasted of Love's delight."

  Your most cruelly neglected Chariette

  My Beautiful Dear Chariot

  Wonderful to hear from you today! However briefly! Although you have me on a starvation diet of you just now I still manage to feel just as intensely about you and so full of longing and desire for you....and this is despite all that is going on in my life just now.

  I think I've done more socialising in the past few weeks than in the past few years! (But everywhere I go it's you I look for even though I know you're not there! I know - I'm the one that needs treatment!) You have so eclipsed me I don't know what to do about it. I so adore the look of you, the sound of you, the touch of you, the taste of you, the feel of you. My tongue is longing to connect with you, as well as my lips and my eyes and fingers and my special parts... Oh I wish I could envelop you in the complete joy of life you make me feel. I wish we could come together in a passionate frenzy of desire and fulfilment just now....

  You are just the most desirable, handsome creature on earth to me. Oh comme je t'adore et comme je te veux....

  Your poor besotted one.

  Mon Cher Ami

  Feeling very French again lately. Maybe because I went to see the film 'Après Vous' this week. I wouldn't really recommend it, it was quite predictable and slow, but I think I was in the restaurant it was filmed in so that was a bit of a thrill.

  I'm so glad the working year is coming to a close for me tomorrow. I could do with a rest. It's been a very hectic year, but very exciting.

  I was thinking today though about how fortunate I am and that this has come about because I've made some highly significant decisions over the past three years. The first and most deeply significant in a completely life changing kind of way, was my decision to finally end it all with my marriage after years and years of trying to hold it all together. Because that decision was a long time in the making I was very fearful during that time of what the future would hold for me. I didn't think in a million years that happiness would just flow into me and infuse my every waking (and sleeping) moment as a result. The second great decision was to return to this state despite the upheaval we all knew would be associated with that. That has turned out also to be just the most wonderful injection of optimism and happiness for me and for my sons. I have never seen my eldest son in particular so happy and my youngest son too is emerging from a dark period in his life at last. And the third decision that has also made a hugely significant contribution to my current manic levels of happiness, was the decision to abandon myself to the wicked temptation of you. Oh how that has changed my life too...

  Seeing that you appear recently to have lost all use of your fingers I'm sending you a poem that you can send to me. All you need to do is use your nose to move your mouse to press 'reply' and it will come to me. You'll probably notice I've taken a bit of licence with some of the descriptions, particularly those in relation to the 'tapering thigh' but I hope you'll forgive me this excess...

  "O fairy foot! O shapely leg! O tempting taper thigh!

  O comely back! O clipsome waist! with ivory which vie;

  O shoulders soft! O budding breasts! O neck of swan-like fall!

  O lovely hands! O lustrous eyes! for which I madden all,

  O gestures of transcendent grace! O kisses! sweeter far

  Than nectar, and O voice! to which my senses victims are-"

  Your most adoring Chariette

  O Heart’s Delight

  “Give me, soft, a velvet kiss,

  Dove-like glued in searching bliss:

  You suck my breath! O heaven!
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  Your lips – I faint – my sweetest love!

  Your kisses – hold! They pierce my heart:

  I feel thee in each vital part:

  Hold!- thou wicked creature! Why

  Suck my life’s blood thus cruelly?

  Cruel! See you not I languish,

  Thrilling with ecstatic anguish?

  Do you leave me; leave me lying

  Almost fainting, almost dying?”

  Thinking of you…too much …. Too much

  Chariette

  Dear Chariot

  A 'Guid New Year' I wish you. May it bring you all you hope for.

  "Let top and maintop crowd the sail,

  Heave Care overside!

  And large, before Enjoyment's gale,

  Let's take the tide!"

  From your Chariette - poor slave to your charms.

  Chapter 4:

  Almost Drowning

  “O Sire!

  I fear thou hast abandoned me!

  Thou makst my heart so grievous sore -

  A word is all I ask of thee,

  Lest I expire for ever more!”

  Dear Chariot

  So wonderful to hear your divine voice yesterday. It transports me even more than listening to the most beautiful work of Puccini that I love so much. Other parts of you transport me too.....

  So what New Year's Resolutions have you made? One to get your tax organised early by the sound of it (I am very impressed...I won't tell you how overdue I am in that regard...) Probably another to get out of your current role. You still sound very jaded in there. I know the feeling so well. When enthusiasm for your workplace is dead, work becomes such a negative place to be, and so bad for your soul. As I'm not a praying kind of person, all I can do is fervently hope for you that things will turn around quickly in the way you want them to (and fervently hope for me that this doesn't result in a move of you offshore...)

  My New Year's Resolutions are: to continue in my quest to enjoy life and seek happiness - it's worked extremely well for me so far - ; to get back to the gym; to learn to love my belly - given that it appears very attached to me and won't go away despite all efforts-; to try not to bring home work too often; and to try to stop thinking about you so much.

  I think the last will be the first to be broken...

  Chariette

  Sweet Prince

  Your call filled me full of lovely happy feelings. You have brought such joy to my life! You have really brought me to life over the past couple of years after a period of great darkness and I'm so grateful to you for that. I can't explain how important and life changing this has been for me - and you have been such a catalyst in all of this. I so love my life the way it is now. I'm just bursting with joyous energy. (Would love to be channelling some of this your way - you would make it positively explosive!)

  "Oh! let my tender trembling hand

  The awful gate of life expand!

  With all its wonders feast my sight

  Dear prelude to immense delight!

  Tiill plung'd in liquid joy profound,

  The dark unfathom'd deep I sound;

  All panting on thy breast recline,

  And, murmuring, bless that bower of thine."

  My dark unfathom'd deep awaits you!

  Chariette

  My beautiful fecund passionfruit

  I can't tell you how glad I was to get your call yesterday and to know that you are still speaking to me. I went through a few days there where I thought it was curtains for me and the awful desperate ache of that thought was terrible. It made me realise how much you bring to my life and how awful it would be not to have that any more. Despite our limited contact and constrained circumstances, your contact fills me with warmth and joy. You are a very lovable, charming, sexy man and it's wonderful to be around you.

  I hope I will really be around you in a couple of weeks. My hands are dying to be all over your gluteus maximus, not to mention your other tumescent splendours! Oh it will be so wonderful to connect with you again...paradise really....

  Your burstingly ripe fig – Chariette

  Oh divine one

  I was thinking of your beautiful face today, trying to capture it in my mind. But it refused to be captive and wouldn’t be still. I ended up with a pastiche of fleeting glances of you dredged up from my memory. (You are occupying more than your fair share of my grey cells in this regard….) But oh how those glances of your face thrilled me so!

  I have other parts of you stored in my memory too and they were playing havoc with me all weekend. I can be happily unconscious of you for periods of time, but then thoughts of you invade me from nowhere, and fill me with such longing – oh such longing for you.

  Longing for the taste of you, the sight of you, the feel of you.

  Chariette

  Beautiful Adonis of my dreams

  Your phone call last night was wonderful. I love to hear the beautiful, resonant, sexy tones of your voice and your laugh is delightful. God I am such a sucker for you....

  I have had a day of back to back meetings and through lunch as well. By the afternoon I find my mind wandering to you. Around 3pm it was flashing very lascivious images of you into my consciousness - very naked, very active, exciting images. ..it makes it hard to concentrate on the agenda at hand! My face is probably a study in goodness knows what at these times. I think my subconscious is fixated on the possibility of being with you in the flesh again soon, and it won't let me be in peace. I try to suppress thoughts about this to avoid disappointment should it not be possible (devastating, complete and utter disappointment....) but I'm obviously not using the right technique, or, more likely, I'm enjoying the images too much.

  Oh how I'll love to indulge in your beautiful nakedness again, and your wonderful physicality that thrills me so much. I'm so keen to pleasure you and be pleasured by you.

  Apart from lusting after you most of the time, I do think of you very tenderly and hope that things are going well for you. I hope for happiness in your life and pleasure in all that you do.

  Ton amie - Chariette

  My Chariot

  God how will I ever sleep tonight at the thought of being with you again tomorrow!

  Chariette

  Oh Sweet Prince

  Found it very hard to concentrate back at work today for some reason...wonderful images keep coming to me. Loved everything. Having my fill of you...loved stroking you too. Love touching your hands. Loved looking at you, hearing you, feeling you, touching you.

  Thank you for a glorious wonderful evening. Will be dreaming of you tonight for sure.

  Chariette

  Beautiful Chariot

  I’m glad you enjoyed it. I’d like to know which particulars bits you enjoyed particularly. And then I’ll tell you which bits I enjoyed….

  Oh God, I can’t contain myself…I’ll tell you now:

  · Seeing your beautiful face when you opened the door

  · Touching your cheeks

  · Feeling your hands touch mine

  · Your wonderful champagne kisses

  · The lovely fast urgency of our first encounter

  · Talking about Rodin with you

  · You talking to me about your life

  · Watching you make me a cup of tea in the morning

  · Drinking in the lovely curves of your arse and thighs with my hands and eyes as you walked about naked

  Oh there’s more…more…but I’m conscious of spoiling you too much.

  You are the sun and the moon and the stars to me.

  Chariette

  Not thinking about you

  I'm not thinking about the way your face lights up when you smile, or about your lovely prominent cheekbones, or the delicious curve of your lips....

  I'm not thinking about your strong square hands, or the thrilling touch of your fingers, or how your hands are a perfect counterpoint to mine....

  I'm not thinking about our hands clasping to steady us in a passionate embrace..
...

  I'm not thinking about the luscious curves of your thighs or your bold strong calves....

  I'm not thinking about how the mellow sexy tones of your voice just thrill me to the core....

  I'm not thinking about what I would love to be doing with you just now...

  I'm not thinking about you at all really...

  Dear Chariot

  I woke up in such a lovely happy state this morning and it made me think about what role you've played in that. I think that what you've done for me is - set me on the road to recovery.