My Deepest Desire (Hidden Desires)

by Dane, Sanya

  Vincent laughs, “Yes, she does have that effect on me.”

  “I saw her today when I was leaving the hospital.”

  Vincent looks at his brother, “Did you? And what did you think?”

  “I think she’s cute but quirky.”

  “That she is, but are you attracted to her?”

  “Sexually? Yes, but I don’t know if I would keep her.”

  “Then find out.”

  “It would be my pleasure.”

  Vincent nods his head at Zander as he picks up his jacket and heads for the door.

  Naira is waiting on her front porch when Vincent opens the door to her courtyard. She smiles as she stands and walks towards him. He gives her a long lingering kiss that sends a chill through her body causing her to shiver.

  Noticing he asks, “Are you cold? Let me help you put on your sweater.”

  Although she is comfortable Naira allows him to help with her sweater so she doesn’t have to explain that it’s him giving her goose bumps. Instead she says, “Thank you. You look very handsome.”

  “Thank you. You look stunning too.”

  Naira kisses him, “Shall we go?”

  Vincent puts his arm around her and guides her to his car. He opens the door for her and buckles the seat belt before getting in the driver’s side. They talk about what they did during the day on the drive to the restaurant.

  They are immediately seated and order drinks to start. While they look at the menu a shadow falls over the table. Just as she looks up Vincent says, “Naira, I’d like you to meet my brother, Zander Kincaid.”

  Oh Shit flashes in Naira’s mind as she looks up and see’s the gorgeous guy she ran from earlier. Knowing her feelings always show on her face, she has to actively control her facial expression to keep from looking surprised. Naira holds out her hand, “It’s nice to meet you Zander.”

  Zander shakes her hand. Vincent invites him to join them for dinner. After sitting Zander says with a smile, “I was going to tell you who I was earlier but you took off before I could talk to you.”

  Naira blushes a little embarrassed, “Sorry about that, good looking guys make me nervous.”

  Vincent says, “You weren’t nervous when we met.”

  Naira looks at Vincent, the red in her cheeks deepening then she looks back at Zander, “Good looking guys that I can’t flirt with make me nervous.”

  Zander puts his hand over hers, “I wouldn’t want you to be nervous so you can feel free to flirt with me.”

  Her temperature spikes and she starts to panic a little from the two insanely attractive men siting with her. Naira excuses herself to go to the restroom; as soon as she is out of their sight she dials Leah.

  “Hello”

  “Hey Leah, are you busy?”

  “Ut oh, what happened?”

  “What makes you think something happened?”

  “Ara you only call me Leah when you’re introducing me to someone or are about to freak out so what’s going on?”

  “I’m at dinner with Vincent and his brother and I need a wing man.’

  “What! Why?”

  Naira speed talks, “Look I know you are currently on a dating hiatus but Vincent’s brother is the hot guy from the banquet and they’ve both got we wired so tight I’m wondering how badly it would look if I slide under the table to suck them off so I need your ass here, like now.”

  “Okay first off that would look really bad, second I can be there in ten minutes.”

  Naira sighs in relief, “I love you.”

  “Yeah, yeah, I’m on my way.”

  Naira goes to use the restroom then returns to the table. As she sits down the waiter comes to take their order. They tell the waiter what they want and Naira orders for both herself and Leah. Vincent’s eyebrow goes up but before he can question her Leah walks up to the table.

  “Good evening everyone”

  Vincent and Zander look up at Leah then at Naira. She smiles, “Vincent and Zander this is my best friend Leah Arias, Leah this is Vincent and Zander Kincaid. Guys I hope you don’t mind that I invited Leah. I figured since Zander was here Leah could keep him company and this keeps her from working into all hours of the night.”

  Zander looks at Vincent then at Leah, “Please, join us.”

  Leah sits and the four of them talk until the waiter brings their dinner. As they eat Leah and Zander begin talking to each about the law since they are in the same field. Naira and Vincent discuss their hobbies and other things they like when he mentions Dante.

  Naira inquires, “Have you been to his club?”

  “A time or two.

  “We should go sometime.”

  Joining the conversation Zander asks, “Go where?”

  Naira looks at Zander, “To Eclipse.”

  Leah inquires, “What is Eclipse?”

  Vincent starts, “It’s a B…”

  Naira interrupts, “An amazing club a friend of Vincent owns.”

  Leah eyes Naira suspiciously and asks, “Vincent your friend owns this club.”

  “Yes, the owner is a good friend of both mine and Zander’s.”

  Naira continues, “I’ve been there before but I was thinking we should all go together sometime.”

  Leah agrees, “I think that would be nice, I haven’t been dancing in a long time.”

  Vincent and Zander look at each other then at the women but neither of them says anything. They finish the rest of their dinner talking about different subjects and joking with each other. Leah observes the heated way both Vincent and Zander watch Naira. She smiles to herself knowing Naira will take them on a roller coaster ride. While she is one of the sweetest people Leah knows Naira has huge issues when it comes to giving her heart but if she falls, it will be forever.

  After dinner Leah says goodnight and leaves Naira, Vincent and Zander in front of the restaurant. Naira stands there studying the hungry stares of the men causing various tingles, chills and throbs to surge through her body. Uncertain of Vincent’s motives she looks at him, “Explain please.”

  “You said you want two guys. I want to fulfill your desire and I am hoping you can fulfill ours. I can see you and Zander are attracted to each other, I figured you might enjoy having options.”

  Naira moves closer to him appearing a little confused, “What option? Dating you one night and Zander another?”

  Zander steps up behind her, “Or both of us together.”

  She turns her head to look up at Zander then back at Vincent with suspicion in her eyes, “Why?”

  “Because, you’re mine and I intend to keep it that way. I will always give you what you need.”

  Vincent waits for what feels like forever as Naira just stares at him. Finally she says, “I don’t know if you can fulfill my desire or vice versa but I would like to try.”

  Vincent kisses Naira long and deep. “I’m going to leave so you and Zander can spend some time together. He kisses her again says goodbye to Zander then gets in his car and drives off.

  Zander asks, “Can I take you home?”

  “Sure”

  Zander opens then passenger door, once they’re both settled he pulls off. On the short drive Zander asks Naira various questions about her hobbies, likes and dislikes. Although Naira isn’t big on talking about herself she answers his questions and asks a few of her own.

  When they enter her courtyard Zander takes in the beauty of the space. A large fountain sits in a patch of grass on one side of the yard and a stone walk way on the other. There’s a little patio nook near the door with a teal and cream wicker sectional sofa, a table, two matching arm chairs and a mini refrigerator on the floor next to the sofa. To most people the yard would create a welcome feeling, but, Zander has been an investigator long enough to recognize that the purpose is to make people comfortable outside so they don’t notice her not inviting them inside. Naira confirms Zander’s belief when she asks if he would like to sit outside and have some dessert since they didn’t have any at the restaurant
.

  Zander agrees and sits down on the sofa as Naira goes inside. She returns a few minutes later with a tray holding two crème brulees, and coffee. She hands him the dessert and sets a cup of coffee on the table in front of him.

  Zander tastes the crème brulee and closes his eyes at the smooth creamy vanilla flavor, “This is delicious. Where did you get it?”

  “I made it”

  “Wow, you made this?”

  Naira wiggles her fingers, “With my own two hands.”

  “Between your designs and this you have very talented hands.”

  “Thank you.”

  “You’re welcome. So tell me a little more about yourself. Where did you grow up?”

  “In Brooklyn.”

  “Why did you move here?”

  He notices that she is uncomfortable with the questions but he waits for her to answer.

  “Leah and I were friends as kids. Her family moved out here when we were 15. When I graduated I came out here to go to college.”

  “Do you ever go home?”

  “I am home and no, I haven’t been back to Brooklyn.”

  Before Zander can ask any more questions Naira says, “So tell me about you.”

  He gives her a reprieve by asking, “What do you want to know?”

  “Why are you so willing to date someone your brother is dating?”

  “Zander and I often share when we find someone either of us consider special.”

  “Okay, so in essence you are seeing if you’re attracted to me for him.”

  Zander realizes Naira makes a statement instead of asking a question. He studies her for a moment then looks in her eyes, “Yes, and for myself.”

  She crosses her legs and leans towards him, “And what’s your ruling? Am I your type?”

  Zander smiles, “You know, I think you are.”

  Naira leans closer to him but stops her lips a few inches away from his. He waits a moment to see what she will do. When Naira doesn’t kiss him, Zander presses his lips to hers. She lightly flicks the tip of her tongue across his lips. He opens his mouth and she licks the opening. Zander sucks her tongue into his mouth taking control of the kiss. When she feels his hand sliding into her hair Naira breaks the kiss. Catching her breath she says, “Thank you for walking me home.”

  It takes everything in him not to yank her back in for another kiss, “It was my pleasure. Thank you for dessert.”

  “You’re welcome.”

  He stands being sure not to touch her, “Good night Naira.”

  “Good night.”

  Zander walks down the pathway and smiles at Naira once more before exiting the front gate. She takes the tray and dishes back inside while hoping Zander doesn’t just want to date her to appease Vincent.”

  Chapter Five

  Naira gets ready for her date with Zander. They had been out twice before and while there was an attraction Zander seemed less than willing to entertain it. Naira has decided that if she still gets a detached feeling from Zander tonight this will be their last date.

  She meets him at the Italian restaurant they agreed upon. Zander gives her a quick hug before the maître‘d escorts them to their table. Just like their other dates they order dinner then eat as Zander asks her questions she doesn’t want to answer. By the time they finish dinner Naira tells Zander that she’s not up for dessert tonight since she’s trying to watch her figure.

  Leaving the restaurant Zander asks Naira out again but she declines telling him that she is preparing to release her spring line and won’t have the time to go out with him. Naira gets in her car and immediately calls Vincent.

  “Hey Beautiful.”

  “Hi Blue Eyes, I need to talk to you. Are you available right now?”

  “I thought you were out with Zander.”

  “I was, our date is over. Do you want to catch a movie?”

  Hearing the desperation in her voice he says, “I’ll meet you at the mall in twenty minutes.”

  Naira is waiting in the lobby of the movie theater when Vincent walks in. She smiles as he approaches and kisses her. Breathing heavy Vincent guides Naira towards the ticket booth but she shows him that she has already bought the tickets. They go into the auditorium the movie is playing in and are surprised by the small number of people there. Naira leads Vincent to the seats in the back of the auditorium since most of the center seats in the front and middle rows are already taken.

  By the middle of the movie the psychological thriller has Naira so confused that she loses interest in watching it. She looks over at Vincent who is asleep next to her. Naira slides her hand up Vincent’s thigh and quietly unzips his pants. She slips his cock out, licks her lips, making sure no one is looking she consumes the enormous crown. Naira covers Vincent’s mouth then sucks him deep into her throat. Startled, Vincent sits up moaning a muffled curse. Naira moves her hand and Vincent thinks to tell her to stop before someone sees them. The thought is torn from his mind as she deep throats him again while stroking the underside of his dick with her tongue. Naira sucks him harder massaging his balls at the same time. Vincent wraps his hand in her hair and grits his teeth to keep from yelling as his sack tightens and the head of his dick bursts. Naira moans quietly as she swallows his essence, the vibration of her moan making him shiver.

  Once he can open his eyes Vincent tucks his dick back in his pants and practically drags Naira out of the movie theater. As they head out of the mall he pulls her into a small alcove. He takes something out of his pocket, within seconds Vincent has Naira up against the wall. He forces his massive cock into her snug pussy as he slams his lips down on hers. Her walls flex around him, he increases his pace tapping the deepest part of her, his balls slapping her ass. Naira’s pussy locks on his dick, the intense pleasure surging through them shatters. Her pussy milks Vincent until he can barely stand.

  After they recover from their intense orgasms Vincent walks Naira to her car. She asks him to sit with her for a little while so she can talk to him. When they get in her car Naira says, “I can’t go out with Zander anymore.”

  She tells him how attracted she is to Zander but he makes her feel like a chore and neither one of them should have to endure a dis-interested relationship.

  Vincent asks, “It’s that bad?”

  Naira tells him just how bad it is ending with, “I may be fluffy but I’m a bad bitch.”

  Vincent reassures Naira that whether she chooses to date Zander or not she is his and that will not change. He also cautions her about referring to herself as a bitch.

  Naira caresses his cheek. “I didn’t say I’m a bitch, I said I’m a bad bitch which is just another way of saying I’m confident in who I am.”

  Vincent cuffs her chin, “Still, nix on calling yourself a bitch or the next time it’s my hand and your ass.”

  Naira blushes so Vincent adds, “And not in a good way.”

  Vincent tells her about a birthday party Nicole invited her to tomorrow night, kisses her then goes to his car.

  When Vincent walks in the house Zander is watching T.V. He asks, “I thought you were off tonight?”

  “I am. Naira called and asked me to go to a movie with her.”

  Vincent walks into the kitchen. Zander sits back on the couch, “We went to dinner, she didn’t mention wanting to go to a movie.”

  Vincent comes back with two beers and gives one to his brother. “That’s probably because you bore her and make her uncomfortable.”

  “What?”

  “To quote her, she would rather pluck her eyes out then go on another date with you.”

  Zander puts his beer on the coffee table and stands up, “What the hell are you talking about?”

  “I’m talking about you Z. If you don’t want to get close to her than just say so but going out with her just to get information for your case is fucked up. She said you make her feel like a chore and she knows you’re attracted to her but you won’t give in to it. She’s okay with not dating you but she is not okay with you mak
ing her feel insignificant and neither am I.”

  Zander looks at his now thoroughly pissed brother, “She said I make her feel insignificant?”

  “Yes. She was even prepared to break up with me if I wasn’t okay with her decision not to date you.”

  “Damn.”

  “Exactly.”

  Zander sighs, “I’ll talk to her tomorrow.”

  “Good, she’ll be at Glaze tomorrow night for Nicole’s birthday party.”

  ****

  Vincent watches as Naira, Nicole and Leah dance in the middle of the dance floor when Zander walks up to him. They order drinks then continue to watch the ladies laugh as they dance to multiple songs non-stop. As different guys ask them to dance they accept, Naira not allowing any of them too close to her. Dante, Javier and two of their friends walk in. They stop by Zander and Vincent to say hello and watch the ladies dance. Dante asks Vincent for permission to dance with Naira. As the guys approach the dance floor Leah says something to Naira then walks off. Javier follows Leah across the dance floor and Dante asks Naira’s to dance.

  Zander sees Dante spinning Naira to the Latin beat and smiles at Vincent. A few minutes later the music changes, engrossed in his conversation with Vincent and Dante’s friends he doesn’t pay it any attention. Realizing the amount of time that’s past Zander looks up to see if Dante is still dancing with Naira. He snaps to attention to see not only are they still dancing but that Dante has Naira pulled tightly against his body. Zander looks at Vincent, when he does move Zander starts walking towards Naira and Dante. Vincent says, “They’re just friends.”

  Zander ignores his brother, walking over to the dance floor he asks Dante if he can cut in. Dante frowns at Naira when her eyes widen and she tightens her grip on him. Zander notices and says, “Please Naira.”

  She reluctantly lets go of Dante and allows Zander to pull her into his arms. As they dance Zander says, “Vincent talked to me. I’m sorry I made you feel insignificant, it was never my intention. I am attracted to you, so much that I don’t know how to handle it. Will you give me one more chance to show you that I do want to make this work? Will you go out with me tomorrow and I promise not to interrogate?”

  “Okay but first time I feel like you’re forcing yourself to be there with me I’m gone.”