Fallin' For a Thug

by Mz. Lady P

  "Promise me that you won't be upset if the test comes back negative." I had to ask because my biggest fear was him being upset about the results. He grabbed my hand and kissed the back of it.

  "I could never be mad at you." The buzzer went off that Fadia gave us to time it.

  "You go look at it, Khalil." I put my head down in my hands and waited for him to reveal the results.

  "Congratulations! You're going to be a Mommy."

  "Ahhh! I can't believe it," I screamed. Khalil picked me up, and spunt me around.

  "Come on, let's go tell everybody." Khalil was so happy. We both had tears in our eyes. This was the greatest thing that had ever happened to me.

  "I know that you're happy. Let's wait before we tell the family. I want to go to the doctor first. I just want to make sure every thing’s fine." I hated to rain on his parade, but I needed to be absolutely sure things were good. It would crush me if things weren't okay with the baby and me.

  "Of course, we can wait. You have to have faith that everything will be okay. I love you and my unborn. I'm not claiming nothing but the best for y'all health." Khalil got down on his knees and placed kisses all over my stomach. It was the little things like this that made me love him more and more. I hoped and prayed everything was fine. I wanted to give my future husband his first son and namesake.

  Chapter 28

  Khalil

  Oran was the most beautiful city I had ever seen when the sun was setting. I had every intention of retiring here when I left the streets. Mustafa had been flooding me with so much shit that I was barely home. I knew that Tissa would rather me be at home more, but I just couldn't right now. I needed to rethink things because I was about to be a father for the second time. I loved my baby Liyah, and I had missed out on so many milestones with her. Now that Tissa was pregnant, I had every intention on being there for my seed every step of the way.

  It felt good to be on vacation with my family. I was still in shock that my mother decided to come. I'd been trying to get her to join everybody, but she had been in her room since she got here. Something was going on with her and I was concerned.

  "What's up nigga?" Johanna said as she sat next to me on the balcony.

  "Shit. Just enjoying this view. What's up with your pregnant ass?" I hated when I said that because I saw her eyes water. I couldn't believe it because she was a goon. She killed people for a living. Johanna was what I would call a Heartless Bitch. If the price was right, it was off with your head.

  "I'm all fucked up. I need to tell you something and I don't want you to go crazy." She wiped the tears with the back of her hands."

  "You're like a sister to me and I can't promise you that. Seeing you cry let's me know it's something that's going to make me snap the fuck out." I poured me a shot of Hennessy and knocked it back. I had to prepare myself for what she was about to tell me.

  "I'm pregnant by Gunz."

  "Come the fuck again. How the fuck are you pregnant him? To my knowledge you can't stand him." I had to drink straight from the bottle after hearing this shit. I was with Gunz everyday all day. I couldn't believe this nigga never told me.

  "I know what you're thinking. He doesn't know. As a matter of fact, he doesn't even know that Aniyah is his. Over the years, we've had sex from time to time. We never wore protection. He always wanted to tell you. It was me who threatened to kill him if he ever revealed my secret."

  "I can't believe this shit. That man deserves to know about this. If you haven't noticed, he's in a relationship with Tosha and she's pregnant with his seed. He has plans on proposing to her."

  "That's just it. I'm in love with him and I want him to be with me. My kids deserve to have their father. I had no idea about her until she came here today flaunting her pregnancy."

  "You need to come clean before I do." I had to walk away from her ass. All she had to do was be honest with the nigga about her feelings and she wouldn't even be in this predicament. Tosha was cool as hell and had been through enough. This shit was going to crush her. I just hoped Gunz don't kill Johanna.

  As we all sat around the dinner table, it was quiet as hell; it was like everybody was in their own thoughts. I watched how Johanna was mean mugging and rolling her eyes at Gunz and Tosha. They were openly displaying affection to one another and she was ready to snap. I was so happy when Mustafa stood up and started talking. Tissa grabbed my hand under the table and squeezed it real tight.

  "I know you all are wondering why I asked you all to come out here. There are some things that needed to be said that couldn't be done over the phone. I felt like it was time for me to man up and reveal a secret that I have kept for many years. I'm going to get straight to it while I still have the courage to do so. Everyone in this room knows that I have treated Khalil like he was my son, and that is because he is my biological son. Back in the day, me and Rose made some reckless decisions."

  "I did what the fuck I was supposed to do by my son. It was you who let your father tell you to love your son from a distance. Don't put that shit off on me."

  "All these years y'all looked me in my face and lied to me. Fuck y'all. Pack our shit, Tissa, we out this bitch first thing in the morning. Don't nobody say shit to me." I knocked everything off of the table that was in front of me and walked away. The sound of Liyah crying made me go back and pick her up. I snatched Tissa as up as well. The look in her face told me that she knew what the fuck was going on. As soon as we made it in the bedroom, I went in on her ass.

  "Why the fuck you didn't tell me?"

  "Tell you what, Khalil?" I wanted to smack the shit out of her for playing with me. Right now was not the moment to play with my motherfucking intelligence.

  "Don't fucking play with me, Tissa. How long have you known that Mustafa was my father?" She sat on the bed with this stupid ass look her face.

  "I've known since the night we had the dinner for our mothers. Apparently, your mother and my mother have known each other for years. I walked in the kitchen and I overheard my mother telling Rose that she needed to tell you about Mustafa being your father. This was not my secret to tell you, Khalil. Mama Rose promised she would tell you. That's why we're all here."

  "So, basically you're a deceitful ass bitch, too."

  "Khalil! Bring your ass out here," Mustafa said from outside of the door. I swung the door open and I really wanted to kill this nigga. Growing up, I wished he was my father. Knowing what I know now, things were all starting to make sense. He had always been a father to me.

  "There is really nothing else to be discussed."

  "Watch your motherfucking mouth, Khalil. I'm still the same Mustafa. What you won't do is disrespect your mother or Tissa. Let's go to my office. We need to discuss some shit. I'm not asking you nigga. I'm telling you." I had mad love and respect for Mustafa, but as far as him thinking he was about to get down on me, that shit wasn't about to happen. He needed to help me understand why he left my mother to fend for herself. All these years he was acting like a father to me. What the fuck was so hard about letting me know he was my biological father?

  Before I left out to go talk to his ass, I looked at Tissa; she was holding Liyah on her lap and she was crying. Liyah was wiping her tears. The whole scene before me was all fucked up. I never meant to disrespect her or hurt her feelings. I was sorry about that. I was mad because she was my better half. I expected for her to tell me shit that could have a negative effect on our lives. I wanted to apologize, but I wasn't in an apologetic mood.

  When I entered Mustafa's office, him and my mother were sitting down. I came in and sat next to my mother. I decided not to say anything. They were the ones that needed to do some fucking explaining.

  "I know that you're upset Khalil, but if you want to be mad at somebody, be mad at me. Your mother had no control over my selfish actions. She did what the fuck she had to do to take care of you. As long as you live, don't you ever disrespect her."

  "Are you done? I have a plane to catch."

  "No, I'm
not done. I'm sorry you had to find out after all these years, but I am your father. When my father found out that your mother was pregnant, he sent me back here to live. I tried to take care of you, but your mother wouldn’t take anything from us. She preferred to struggle. She was upset and I understood it. Once you got older and I came back to the states, there was no reason for us to reveal it to you. I was in your life anyway. We just wanted you to know that we love you. As far as our business goes, it's all yours. I'm stepping down. I've groomed you to perfection. My organization is yours if you want it."

  "Can I get back to you on that offer?" I wanted his position more than anything in the world, but right now wasn't the time to hop on the offer. I had to weigh my options and talk it over with Tissa.

  "Son, you know that I love you more than anything in this world. We never meant to hurt you. Please forgive me baby,” my mother spoke with tears in her eyes. It was then I knew I couldn't walk around and be mad at her. She was my heart and the best mother in the world. I just wish she would have went about the shit better.

  "I love both of y’all. I would be lying if I said I wasn't happy about you being my father. I just hate that y'all felt like I didn't deserve to know. All my life I've had hatred in my heart for my deadbeat ass father. When all along, he had been in my life all my life. I'm really fucked up behind this, but I'll get over it." I kissed and hugged them both and headed back to the room. I needed to get shit right with Tissa. When I walked inside the room, her and Liyah were asleep. I stood and just marveled at the two most important people in my life. I undressed and climbed in bed with them. I wrapped my arms around Tissa and placed soft kisses on her neck and behind her ear.

  "I'm so sorry for taking my anger out on you," I whispered in her ear.

  "I know you are. There's nothing like diamonds that says you're sorry."

  I couldn't do shit but laugh and shake my head at the same time. Tissa was dead ass serious about wanting diamonds. It was a good thing we were in Oran. Some of the best Jewelers were here. I need to get on that ASAP. After thinking about it for a little while, I decided to finish out our trip. I just hope that there was no more revelations or surprises.

  Chapter 29

  Gunz

  It was our last night in Oran and I was more than happy to leave. The whole week we had been there, the bitch Johanna had been on straight bullshit with my girl. I had been trying to look over it. I even had to check the bitch a couple of times. Tosha was trying her best to remain cool due to them both being pregnant, but I knew she wanted to whoop her ass. I had been trying all week to keep shit under control. Johanna was the one who wanted to keep shit on the low. We fucked from time to time over the years. She would secretly fly out to Atlanta to kick it with a nigga. I wanted to tell Khalil about the shit, but it was her sneaky ass who was against it.

  I really wanted to be Johanna, but all she wanted was a fuck buddy. I wasn't beat for that shit. Now that she saw that I was in a relationship and I've moved on with my life, she was jealous. I have mad respect for Khalil and Mustafa, but I would dead Johanna’s ass if she even thought about fucking with my girl. I knew how she got down but she definitely didn't want no smoke fucking with me baby.

  I had been tossing and turning all night. I couldn't sleep for shit, so I got up to smoke a blunt on the patio. The minute I stepped out, I wished I had never left the room. Johanna was sitting on the balcony crying. I should have just turned around, but being the man that I was, I couldn't just walk away without seeing what was up.

  "Why are you out here crying?"

  "Don't act like you give a fuck. Go back in there with your bitch."

  "What the fuck are you so mad about? It was you who just wanted to fuck. I wanted to be with you, but your ass was scared of the fucking commitment. You can't be mad at me because I moved on. I'm happy with Tosha. We're building a family. I'm sorry if that hurts you, but I'm going to marry Tosha." She was crying even harder now that I revealed my true feelings for Tosha. I really didn't understand why she was so upset.

  "Well, since you wifing that bitch, I hope she's ready to play step mommy to Aniyah and this baby I'm carrying. You already know I don't fuck around like that. They're both your children. I hope you're ready; it's your turn to raise these kids. When you book that flight back to Atlanta, make sure you have a ticket for Aniyah. It's time she gets to know her father. Our son will be here in a month, and you can get prepared for him, too. "

  "Stop playing, Johanna. You know motherfucking well that ain't my daughter." This bitch had to be out of her rabbit ass mind pulling a bullshit ass stunt like this. Aniyah was five years old. What type of bitch held onto some shit like this all these years?

  "Take a good look at her. She's your twin nigga and it looks like you have some explaining to do." Johanna had a smirk on her face. I followed her eyes and I turned around to see that she was staring at Tosha standing behind me on the balcony. She wasn't crying, but I could see the hurt in her eyes.

  "I'm sorry. I had no idea about this shit. I'm in as much shock as you are. Please, Tosha! You have to believe me."

  "I asked you was there anything between you and this bitch. You lied to me with a straight face and said no. I heard the conversation from the beginning. I know that you had no idea about her having your daughter or being pregnant now. It's the fact that you lied when you didn't have to. For a whole week this bitch threw me nothing, but shade and disrespect and you sat your stupid ass right there like you didn't know anything. That's real fucked up, Gunz. What I don't understand is that if you and her had things going on, why would you even invite me to her father's home? That shit was disrespectful off top. Did you think we were going to be the best of friends? I can't believe you brought me all the way out here just to make me look like a fucking a fool. Your ass is lucky I'm pregnant, or I would gut your ass like a fish. I've been through too much and I'm tired. In case you forgot, I'm pregnant with your baby too. But you don't have to worry about me and mine, I'm done. Fuck you and that RuPaul looking bitch!"

  "What the fuck you mean you're done? You can't leave me over some shit I had no idea about." Tosha was walking away from me and headed towards the stairs. As soon as she made it to the staircase, Johanna rushed past me and pushed Tosha down the stairs.

  "What the fuck did you just do?" I charged Johanna’s ass and began choking the fucking life out of her. I had blanked out. It wasn't until I felt Khalil and Mustafa pulling me off of her that I came to. I let that bitch drop to the floor. She was gagging and coughing and I didn't give a fuck. Tissa was screaming and hollering as she stood over Tosha. I ran down the stairs and cradled Tosha in my arms. Blood was pouring from her head. I couldn't believe this shit.

  "Come on baby. Please don't do this to me. " I lifted her up off of the floor.

  "We have to get her to the hospital it's about a mile from here," Mustafa said as he ran outside to start the car.

  "I'm about to kill this bitch." Tissa charged Johanna and started whooping her ass.

  "Let my daughter go!" Aamina was pulling Tissa by her hair trying to get her off of Johanna. Out of nowhere, Mama Rose came and cleared Aamina’s ass. She gave her ass a Floyd Mayweather one-hitter quitter. She was laying on the floor and staring up at the ceiling just blinking.

  "Don't put your hands on my fucking daughter-in-law. Your fucking daughter is a wild ass animal. Pushing people down the stairs over some dick. You bitches better hope that girl and her baby is okay." I heard the car honking and I ran outside and placed Tosha in the backseat. I prayed hard that her and my unborn child were fine. I would never be able to forgive myself if something happened to her. Once we made it to the hospital and she was checked out, we found out that she had some bleeding on the brain. They had to do a surgery to relieve some of the swelling that she had in her head. However, Tosha was in a coma and there was no guarantee that she would wake up. The doctor's said it was a miracle the baby was still alive and they would do everything they could to keep him alive.

&n
bsp; When they told me it was a boy, I was happy and sad at the same time. In my heart, I knew there was a possibility that neither of them could make it out of this. If they didn't, I don't know what I would do.

  ***

  After a week, I wasn't comfortable with the care they were giving her, so I paid for a medical staff to ride the plane back Atlanta. She was admitted to Emory University Hospital and it had been four months and she still hadn't woke up. She fluttered her eyes and squeezed our hands, but that was about it. She was seven months pregnant and the baby was still thriving, but he was underweight. Right now they wanted a decision between her or the baby, but I was not losing either of them. If I had to go broke keeping my family alive, then I would.

  Every day I had been thinking of ways to kill this bitch Johanna. Two months after the incident, I came home to find Aniyah and Ameer sitting on my porch alone with a note attached to his car seat. This bitch had abandoned her kids as if I didn't have enough shit going on. That saying, "When it rains it pours" was so true. Fuck my life."

  Chapter 30

  Khalil

  I had been plotting on the nigga Eboe and this bitch Qua since I first found out about them robbing my traps. I never even told Gunz when I was moving in on his bitch ass cousin. He was my brother, best friend, and right hand man, but I had to do this shit alone. Plus my nigga had a lot of shit on his plate right now. I was glad Tissa had been there to help him. She'd been keeping the kids while he sat with Tosha. I could tell this shit was taking a toll on her, but I made sure to stay on her ass. She was five months pregnant with my son and I couldn't afford losing him or her due to stress.

  Besides that, this bitch Belinda had been straight wilding out. I was so sick of fucking this bitch and trying to stay out of jail. Something had to give because I was ready to put a bullet in this bitch’s head. She'd been popping up at my house unannounced and I could tell that Tissa knew some shit was up. I'd been contemplating telling her what was going on, but I'd be the first to admit, I was afraid of the outcome.