The Changing b-1

by T. M. Wright

  He managed these words at a low, harsh whisper, his voice quaking: "Not too much pain. Please!"

  And the thing beneath the ceiling light heard the words somewhere deep, deep below the awful force that was driving it. It understood them. And it cared. And it wanted to spare Walt whatever pain it could, because it didn't require pain. Only death. And dismemberment. Its soul had become the soul of anarchy and disorder; it was a rabid thing that no virus had ever touched. And so it whimpered something unintelligible and swept down on Walt Morgan as rapidly as sound. And in that moment it forgot its caring, it forgot the dregs of humanness quivering in some small, grimy room deep within its brain. And it ripped Walt's cheek away, so the cheekbone was bared and Walt felt an incredible, searing pain there, and he screamed, "No, please!" though it was almost instantly unintelligible because of the blood pouring into his throat. He clung hard to his sheaf of Employee Evaluation Charts. And through the agony of pain and terror drenching him, he saw that the creature ripping away at him had what looked like breasts beneath the short, matted, reddish fur covering its body. And if his mouth had not been hanging open anyway-because his jaw muscles were gone-it would have hung open in awe at this. But then his jaw was gone, too; he heard it being ripped away, which made a sound almost exactly like the sound of hard snow being crunched underfoot. Then he heard his jaw hit the wall farther down the corridor; and he heard himself scream, "No, please, no pain, please!" But of course, no one else heard it, not even the thing tearing away at him, because by then everything from the bottom of his nose to the top of his chest was gone. And he still clung hard to his Employee Evaluation Charts.

  The thing ate him. Much of him, anyway. His intestines, his brain, his lungs, his heart, his liver, his genitals. This wasn't its usual routine. But, for various reasons, it was very hungry.

  And when, in its human state, it woke up inside the little room marked "AIR," it looked down at its sticky, red, human nakedness. And it wept. Then it washed itself as well as it could in a washbasin there and climbed into a pair of overalls hanging from a hook near the washbasin.

  And it forgot. It pushed the events of the past half hour far, far back into its consciousness where, in its human form, it would never find them.

  It had grown very good at forgetting.

  It needed to forget. Because, in its human state, forgetting had become survival.

  Chapter Five

  Tom McCabe's glass-enclosed office at the Public Safety Building in Rochester was small and cluttered and smelled of stale coffee. When Ryerson Biergarten was shown in, McCabe stood behind his big green metal desk, which took up fully one third of the office, and shook his hand mightily. "It's good to meet you, at last, Rye," he said. Though Ryerson knew that McCabe's welcome was genuine, he also read, quickly, Probably jogs. Jesus, why does anyone jog?!

  "Thanks," Ryerson said. "It's good to be here, Tom."

  McCabe let go of Ryerson's hand and grinned thinly. He was a tall, stocky man in his late forties, with close-cut, thinning brown hair and a round, essentially pleasant face, despite an excess of worry lines at his forehead.

  He nodded to indicate an uncomfortable-looking metal chair in a corner of the room; there were files piled high on it, and a brown, half-eaten apple sat on top of the files. "Sit down, Rye."

  Ryerson put the files on the- floor, the apple in an overflowing wastebasket, pulled the chair closer to the desk, and sat with his arms flat on the arms of the chair. "I don't believe in werewolves, Tom," he said.

  McCabe grinned. "I don't either, Rye." He paused, went on, "You want some coffee?"

  Ryerson shook his head. "No. Thanks. And by the way, I don't jog." It was his turn to grin.

  McCabe shook his head. "Don't people tell you to stay out of their brains, Rye?"

  "Only when they know I've been in them, Tom. And believe me, I try to stay out of them as much as I can. It's not always pleasant-"

  McCabe cut in, "Okay, so this is what we've got; we've got this creep, this asshole, this loony, and he thinks he's a werewolf, Rye. His M.O. is straight out of… out of Orion Pictures."

  "Orion Pictures?"

  "Sure, you know, the company that makes all those horror movies."

  "You mean Hammer Films, Tom?"

  "Yeah, yeah." He waved the observation away. "Hammer Films; this guy thinks he's a fucking werewolf, Rye. I mean, what he did to this poor woman, this…" He checked a file on his desk, continued, ".. . this Tammy Levine was no damned picnic. It made me want to toss my cookies, for Christ's sake!"

  "Do I have any authority on this, Tom?"

  McCabe didn't answer at once; Ryerson saw procrastination in his eyes and heard a number of excuses-few of them intelligible-running about in his head. " Authority, Tom," he coaxed. "Do I have any authority on this case?"

  McCabe shook his head, frowning. "No. I'm sorry, Rye. You don't. Not beyond what I can grant you from moment to moment. I'm sorry; I've got people to answer to, and these people ask tough questions, Rye."

  "So give them the answers; tell them you've got a psychic investigator working with you-"

  "They'd tell me to turn in my badge, Rye. I'm sorry."

  "My God, Tom, psychic investigators have been helping police departments for years."

  "Sure, sure, I know that, Rye. And if this were any other case, if this were just a kid who's wandered off, or a simple shoot-'em-stab-'em kind of murder, it wouldn't be a problem. But since our murderer wants us to believe he's some kind of… supernatural steamroller-" He stopped, sighed. "You can see what I'm driving at, can't you, Rye? How is it going to look if I tell the brass, 'Hey, our murderer believes he's a werewolf, so I thought I'd bring in a fortune-teller-"

  Ryerson bristled. "You know how I feel about that term, Tom."

  McCabe nodded. "Yeah, sure. Sorry." He meant it, Ryerson knew. "But listen, even if I can't give you any authority-what does it matter? If you need something, if you've got some hard evidence to share with me, or if you want to look at our files, whatever, you know you can get hold of me anytime, here or at my home. Any time. I mean that, Rye."

  "Uh-huh," Ryerson said, unconvinced. He stood. "Where is this place?"

  "Kodak Park?"

  Ryerson nodded. "Yes, Tom. Kodak Park." McCabe gave him directions, shook his hand again.

  "I really am sorry, Rye. If I could change it-”

  “I appreciate that, Tom."

  McCabe said, "You're to meet with someone named ‘Youngman.' He'll be waiting for you at the Personnel Department."

  Ryerson nodded and left.

  AT KODAK PARK: 2:00 P.M.

  "This is the swimming pool," Jack Youngman said to Ryerson Biergarten.

  "I thought there was a swimming pool on the eighth floor," Ryerson said. They were in Building Six-Recreation. Around them, several dozen men and women were enjoying the big Olympic-style pool, making the most of their hour-a-day free time at The Park.

  "Yes," said Jack Youngman, whose eye wandered quite often from Ryerson and his Boston bull terrier pup, Creosote, to a tall, willowy blond woman named Sandi Hackman, who, Youngmen knew, spent most of her company free time at the pool. "Yes," he repeated, "there is a pool on eight, but it's not in use. The architect forgot to figure in the weight of the water when he designed it."

  "Oh," Ryerson said simply. A number of incredibly obscene images-with Sandi Hackman as their focus-had vaulted from Youngman's mind to his, and he was a little embarrassed.

  Youngman grinned. "Stupid, huh? These college-educated dimwits shouldn't be let out-" He stopped in midsentence, eyes wide, his grin suddenly a leer: Sandi Hackman, her back to him, was adjusting the rear end of her clingy red one-piece suit to let her cheeks have what Youngman called "more breathing room."

  Ryerson looked too, and grinned as well, though more at Youngman than at Sandi Hackman. "You were saying," he coaxed.

  Youngman savored the moment without answering. Then Sandi Hackman dove into the pool; he sighed and turned his attention back to Ry
erson. "I was saying that there is a pool on eight, but no one uses it"

  "You already told me that," Ryerson said and paused while Creosote cut loose with a longer-than-usual session of grunting and gurgling and wheezing.

  Youngman looked offended: "What's he-sick?"

  Ryerson shook his head; Creosote quieted. "All Boston bull terriers do that. It's asthma." He thought a moment. "So I suppose he is sick, yes. I'm sorry." Creosote started chewing on a small rawhide bone that Ryerson had fastened to his collar, using six inches of heavy twine, to satisfy the dog's puppy urge to chew. Ryerson also hoped that it might cure Creosote of mangling his socks, which Ryerson, not being the very neatest of men, usually let lie around his bedroom until washday.

  Youngman whispered, "Yeah. No problem," though he still looked offended, which pleased Ryerson because he'd taken an instant dislike to the man. Youngman nodded to indicate a big flabby man wearing tight black swimming trunks that were all but hidden beneath the huge white mound of the man's belly. "Looka that," Youngman breathed in disgust. "Jesus. Guy's got tits just like a woman."

  "Uh-huh," Ryerson said, and thought, You're a real specimen, yourself. "Could you show me the cafeteria, please?" he continued. And that's when the shrill blare of a siren shot through the room. Once. And again. Then, over the intercom:

  "Will Mr. Ryerson…" A pause; then, lower, "What's this guy's name?" Another pause; then, "Oh." And yet another pause. "Will Mr. Ryerson Burn -garden please report to Building Nine Security at once." The message was repeated, and everyone around the pool froze, as if knowing its importance.

  "Take me there," Ryerson told Youngman.

  Youngman said, "Are you really psychic?"

  It was a question Ryerson got asked a lot, and no one ever believed him, whether he said "Yes" or whether he said "No." He answered impatiently, "Mr. Youngman, some of the sexual positions you want to put the young lady in"-he nodded at Sandi Hackman-“are anatomically impossible. Now would you please take me to Building Nine Security?"

  Youngman gulped, and then obeyed.

  Ryerson leaned over what was left of Walt Morgan. Detective Second Grade Bill Andrews of the Rochester Police Department, Homicide Division, put his hand on Ryerson's shoulder. "I know that Chief McCabe has given you authorization to be here, Mr. Biergarten, but if you're thinking of touching the victim's body-"

  Ryerson glanced back. "I'm not about to touch him, Detective."

  The detective, a tall, thin, nervous man in his late twenties, took his hand off Ryerson's shoulder. "Yes," he said, embarrassed, "of course you aren't."

  Ryerson added, "Where's my dog?" Detective Andrews, protesting that Creosote might "corrupt the crime scene," had taken him from Ryerson.

  "I gave him to one of the uniforms. He's okay." Ryerson could tell that the detective was having a pretty hard time of it; the smell in the corridor was awful, for starters-a mixture of bile, saliva, excrement, and blood; Ryerson imagined that it was probably like the smell of a slaughterhouse. He covered his mouth and nose with his hand, studied Walt Morgan's corpse for a few moments-long enough to realize that most of its internal organs were gone-then straightened. "I've seen enough," he said.

  There were several other people in the corridor: one of The Park's security guards, who stood well back from the body, two uniformed cops, a man and a woman, both of whom looked as if they were fighting to keep their lunches down, and a police photographer who said to Ryerson and the detective, "You guys finished here?"

  Andrews managed, feeling proud of himself for it, Ryerson knew, "What's your hurry? The guy's not going anywhere-"

  And the photographer answered, "How the hell can you tell it's a guy, for Christ's sake?" which, Ryerson decided, was a good question, though it was easy enough to answer.

  "The shirt," he said and nodded at it. It was light yellow, short-sleeved, badly torn, and bloodstained, lying open on the corpse.

  The photographer smiled a long-suffering kind of smile. "What about the shirt?"

  Ryerson shrugged. "It buttons on the right. It's a man's shirt. Men's shirts button on the right."

  Tom McCabe said to Ryerson, "He's number three." They were having coffee in the Building Seven cafeteria while the people from the crime lab made what sense they could of what had been found in Building Nine's basement corridor.

  Ryerson sipped his coffee, set the cup down delicately. "Were the other two also… mutilated, Tom?"

  McCabe smiled thinly. "Don't you mean, 'Were they eaten,' Rye? Isn't that what you mean?"

  "That's what you think happened to this man?" Creosote was on Ryerson's lap jockeying for the proper sleeping position; he snorted and gurgled occasionally, though not as loudly or for as long as usual. Ryerson wondered if he might be coming down with something. In between the snorting and gurgling, he chewed disconsolately on the rawhide bone attached to his collar.

  McCabe held his hand up, fingers outstretched. "Number one, the guy's heart is missing." He pulled his index finger down. "Number two, his liver's missing." The middle finger went down. "Number three, his lungs." The ring finger. "And number four, his genitals." The pinkie. "So unless we find those items some where, we have to assume that they were eaten."

  Creosote whimpered. Very briefly, Ryerson read the slow rise of fear in him, like watching ice crystallize on a pane of glass. He stroked the puppy idly, whispered, "What's the matter, guy?" and asked himself, as he'd asked himself a dozen times before, why trying to read what was going on in the head of an animal was such an unpredictable thing, like trying to read a book written in a foreign language; he might decipher some of the words and sentences, but the real substance of the book was ultimately hidden from him.

  McCabe went on, "And, no, the other two were merely mutilated. The woman, Tammy Levine, was almost literally torn apart. And that first guy, Simons, had his stomach ripped open, as if a bear had done it." He paused, added, "I've done some hunting in Alaska. I know about bears."

  Ryerson glanced quickly around the cafeteria, noticing the people nearby. At a table to his right, a red-haired woman, dressed in a black pleated skirt and white blouse, was eating a cheeseburger and fries. Across from her at another table, an older woman dressed in a tent-like lab smock was daintily eating a hot turkey sandwich, mashed potatoes, and a glass of chocolate milk. At the table nearest him he saw a muscular young blond man who was having a small green salad and a cup of tea. He's on a diet, Ryerson realized, and wondered idly what a man who looked so clearly in fighting trim needed with a diet. He turned back to McCabe. "Sorry, Tom-I was drifting. What did you say?"

  "I said, I've been in Alaska, and I know about bears."

  "I see. And do you know about wolves, too?" Ryerson asked.

  McCabe smiled and shook his head. "The only thing I know about wolves, Rye, is that their scat, their shit, has… bugs in it, like earwigs, that burrow right into your brain. I saw that on Never Cry Wolf. "

  Creosote whimpered again. "Uh-huh," Ryerson said. "Well I think what we've got here is someone who thinks he's a wolf, as you've suggested." Again Creosote whimpered, and again Ryerson read fear in him; but it was much stronger now. "Not a real wolf, but someone who thinks he's a wolf, someone who wants to be a wolf-which, to my way of thinking, is a hell of a lot worse than the real thing."

  "You don't buy this 'werewolf garbage, then, right?"

  "I don't know." He sipped his coffee again, put the cup down less delicately. "I'll buy anything if the price is right, and the sales pitch is convincing enough." He leaned over the table. "And just between you and me, Tom, this particular sales pitch is becoming harder and harder to resist." A pause. "There's one thing that doesn't fit, though."

  Getting rid of all the blood had always been the hardest part. Most of it came off easily enough under the shower with a good, abrasive soap, although it hurt the skin and made it red, so excuses had to be made to fellow workers: "Oh, I spent too long under the sunlamp," or "Just a touch of the flu." But still, in the dry spots, under the
nails, at the cuticles, in the hair, the blood was almost impossible to get rid of altogether; small traces of it remained to scream Here, here is the guilty one! Which, upon reflection, was a moot point, because the guilt was so plain, so clear anyway. No one can hide such guilt. So everyone knew-they were just biding their time, gathering up evidence, making sure the case wouldn't be thrown out by a lenient judge because of a "technical error." That was their scam. So the blood was part of their evidence and had to be gotten rid of entirely. In the dry spots, under the fingernails, at the cuticles, in the hair. No blood, no evidence. Just the evidence of the eyes that were filled to overflowing with guilt.

  "My dog's sick," Ryerson told Tom McCabe. Creosote was curled up on Ryerson's lap, flat face buried in his paws.

  "Oh?" McCabe stood slightly and leaned over the table to look at Creosote. "Sorry to hear that. What's he? Old?"

  "No. He's just a pup. And he's sick. I'd better get him out of here." He pushed his chair back. The cafeteria had been at least half full during much of his discussion with McCabe. Now, it being close to 4:30, the mid-shift people were just about ready to go back to work after the afternoon break. News of the carnage in Building Nine's basement corridor had not yet broken out. A woman named Elvira Larson had found the body, and she was under sedation at The Park's hospital. The only other people who knew anything were the security people and the Rochester Police assigned to the case. There were rumors, of course, and they'd kept people talking. During his thirty minutes or so at the cafeteria, Ryerson had overheard bits and pieces of speculation as well as good advice: "Stay away from the lower levels," and "Carry a can of Mace," and "Stay in groups of twos and threes, that's what I say." And during his time there in the cafeteria, Ryerson had reminded himself that the chances were good that the murderer was there, too, at one of the tables, scarfing down a Twinkie, or playing cards, or reading the latest horror thriller.