The City of Mirrors: A Novel (Book Three of The Passage Trilogy)

by Justin Cronin

  Silent nods passed around the table.

  “Then we’re adjourned. I’ll want everybody back here at fifteen hundred. Gunnar, stay behind a minute. I need a word.”

  They waited as the room emptied. Apgar, elbows resting on the table, eyed Peter over his meshed fingers. “So?”

  Peter rose and stepped to the window. The square was quiet, with no one about, everything becalmed in the summer heat. Where was everybody? Probably hiding in their houses, Peter thought, afraid to come out.

  “Fanning will have to be dealt with,” he said. “This will never end otherwise.”

  “This would be the part of the conversation when you tell me you’re going to New York.”

  Peter turned around. “I’ll need a small contingent—say, two dozen men. We can use the portables as far north as Texarkana, maybe a little farther before we run out of fuel. On foot, we should reach New York by winter.”

  “That’s suicide.”

  “I’ve done it before.”

  Apgar looked at him pointedly. “And you were fucking lucky, if you’ll excuse my saying so. Never mind that you’re thirty years older and New York is two thousand miles away. According to Donadio, it’s crawling with dracs.”

  “I’ll take Alicia with me. She knows the territory, and the virals won’t attack her.”

  “After last night’s performance? Be serious.”

  “The city won’t stand unless we kill him. Sooner or later, that gate will fail.”

  “I don’t disagree. But taking on Fanning with two dozen soldiers doesn’t seem like much of a plan to me.”

  “What do you suggest? That we hand Amy over?”

  “You should know me better than that. On top of which, once we give her to Donadio, we’ve got nothing. No cards to play.”

  “So what, then?”

  “Well, have you given any more thought to Fisher’s boat?”

  Peter was speechless.

  “Don’t get me wrong,” Apgar continued. “I don’t trust the man any farther than I can throw him, and I’m glad you tossed his ass out of here. I don’t tolerate division in the ranks, and he was way out of line. Also, I have no idea if that thing will even float.”

  “I don’t believe what I’m hearing.”

  Apgar let a moment pass. “Mr. President. Peter. I’m your military adviser. I’m also your friend. I know you, how you think. It’s served you well, but the situation is different. If it were up to me I’d say sure, go down swinging. The gesture might be symbolic, but symbolism matters to old warhorses like us. I hate these things, and I always have. But by any measure, this isn’t going to end well. Like it or not, you’re the last president of the Texas Republic. That pretty much leaves you in charge of the fate of the human race. Maybe Fisher’s full of shit. You know the man, so that’s your call. But seven hundred is better than nothing.”

  “This place will come apart. There’s no way we’ll be able to mount a coherent defense.”

  “No, probably we won’t.”

  Peter turned back to the window. It really was awfully damn quiet out there. He had the unsettled sense of observing the city from some distant future time: buildings empty and abandoned, dead leaves rolling in the streets, every surface being slowly reclaimed by wind and dust and years—the permanent silence of lives stopped, all the voices gone.

  “Not that I’m objecting,” he said, “but is this first-name thing going to be a habit?”

  “When I need it, yeah.”

  Below him in the square, a group of boys appeared. The oldest of them couldn’t have been more than ten. What were they doing out there? Then Peter grasped the situation: one of the boys had a ball. At the center of the square, he dropped it on the ground and kicked it, sending the rest scurrying after it. A pair of five-tons pulled into the square; soldiers disembarked and began to set up a line of tables. More were hauling out crates of weaponry and ammunition to be distributed among the civilian inductees. The boys took only cursory notice, lost in their game, which appeared to have nothing in the way of formal structure: no rules or boundaries, no objectives or way to keep score. Whoever possessed the ball tried to keep it away from the others, until he was bested by one of his companions, thus starting the mad chase all over again. Peter’s thoughts took him back many years, first to the formless contests that had diverted Caleb and his friends for hours and their contagious youthful energy—just five more minutes, Dad, there’s still plenty of light, please just one more game—and then to his own boyhood: that brief, innocent span in which he had existed in total obliviousness, outside the flow of history and the accumulated weight of life.

  He turned from the window. “Do you remember the day Vicky summoned me to her office to offer me a job?”

  “Not really, no.”

  “As I was leaving, she called me back. Asked about Caleb, how old he was. She said—and I think I have this right—‘It’s the children we’re doing this for. We’ll be long gone, but our decisions will determine the kind of world they’re going to live in.’ ”

  Apgar gave a slow nod. “Come to think of it, maybe I do remember. She was a cunning old broad, I’ll give her that. It was a masterpiece of manipulation.”

  “No chance I could turn her down. It was just a matter of time before I surrendered.”

  “So what’s your point?”

  “The point is, this patch of ground doesn’t just belong to us, Gunnar. It belongs to them. First Colony was dying. Everyone had given up. But not here. That’s why Kerrville has survived as long as it has. Because the people here have refused to go quietly.”

  “We’re talking about the survival of our species.”

  “I know we are. But we need to earn the right, and abandoning three thousand people to save seven hundred isn’t an equation I can sit with. So maybe it all ends here. Tonight, even. But this city is ours. This continent is ours. We run, Fanning wins, no matter what. And Vicky would say the same thing.”

  A moment of stalemate passed, the two men looking at each other. Then:

  “That’s a nice speech,” Apgar said.

  “Yeah, I bet you didn’t know I was such a deep thinker.”

  “So that’s it?”

  “That’s it,” said Peter. “That’s my final word. We stay and fight.”

  * * *

  64

  Sara descended the stairs to the basement. Grace was at the end of the second row of cots, sitting up, her baby resting in her lap. The woman looked tired but also relieved. She offered a small smile as Sara approached.

  “He’s fussing a little,” she said.

  Sara took the baby from her, laid him on the adjacent cot, and unwound the blanket to examine him. A big, healthy boy with curly black hair. His heart was loud and strong.

  “We’re calling him Carlos, after my father,” Grace said.

  During the night, Grace had told Sara the story. Fifteen years ago, her parents had moved out to the townships, settling in Boerne. But her father had had little luck as a farmer and had been forced to take a job with the telegraph crews, leaving the family alone for months at a time. After he’d been killed in a fall from a pole, Grace and her mother—her two older brothers had long since moved on—had returned to Kerrville to live with relatives. But it had been a hard life, and her mother, too, had passed, though Grace shared no details. At seventeen, Grace had gone to work in an illegal saloon—she was vague about her duties, which Sara didn’t want to know—and this was how she’d met Jock. Not an auspicious beginning, although the two were, Grace asserted, very much in love, and when she’d turned up pregnant, Jock had done the honorable thing.

  Sara rewrapped the baby and returned him to his mother, assuring her that everything was fine. “He’ll complain a bit until your milk comes in. Don’t worry—it doesn’t mean anything.”

  “What’s going to happen to us, Dr. Wilson?”

  The question seemed too large. “You’re going to take care of your son, that’s what.”

  “I he
ard about that woman. They say she’s some kind of viral. How could that be?”

  Sara was caught off guard—but of course people would be talking. “Maybe she is—I don’t know.” She put a hand on Grace’s shoulder. “Try to rest. The Army knows what it’s doing.”

  She found Jenny in the storage room, taking inventory of their supplies: bandages, candles, blankets, water. More boxes had been brought down from the first floor and stacked against the wall. Her daughter, Hannah, was helping her—a freckled, disarmingly green-eyed girl of thirteen, with long, coltish legs.

  “Sweetheart, could your mom and I have a minute? Go see if they need anything upstairs.”

  The girl left them alone. Quickly, Sara reviewed the plan. “How many people do you think we can fit in here?” she asked.

  “A hundred, anyway. More if we really stuff them in, I guess.”

  “Let’s set up a desk at the front door to count heads. No men get in, only women and children.”

  “What if they try?”

  “Not our problem. The military will handle it.”

  Sara examined four more patients—the boy with pneumonia; a woman in her forties who had rushed in with breathing trouble that she feared was a heart attack but was nothing more than panic; two little girls, twins, who had come down with acute diarrhea and fever in the night—then returned to the first floor in time to see a pair of five-tons roar up to the entrance. She stepped outside to meet them.

  “Sara Wilson?”

  “That’s right.”

  The soldier turned back to the first truck in line. “Okay, start unloading.”

  Moving in pairs, the soldiers began carting sandbags to the entrance. Simultaneously, a pair of Humvees with .50-caliber machine guns attached to their roofs backed up to the building and took flanking positions on both sides of the door. Sara watched this numbly; the strangeness of all of it was catching up with her.

  “Can you show me the other entrances?” the sergeant asked.

  Sara led him around to the back and side doors. Soldiers arrived with sheets of plywood and began hammering them into the molding.

  “Those won’t keep a drac out,” Sara said. They were standing at the front of the building, where more sheets of plywood were being used to cover the windows.

  “They’re not for the dracs.”

  Sweet Jesus, she thought.

  “Do you have a weapon, ma’am?”

  “This is a hospital, Sergeant. We don’t just leave guns lying around.”

  He walked to the first truck and returned with a rifle and pistol. He held them out. “Take your pick.”

  Everything about his offer went against the grain; a hospital still meant something. Then she thought of Kate.

  “All right, the pistol.” She tucked it into her waistband.

  “You’ve used one before?” the sergeant said. “I can give you the basics if you want.”

  “That won’t be necessary.”

  —

  In the stockade, Alicia was gauging the strength of the chains.

  The bolt on the wall was negligible—one hard yank should do it—but the shackles were a problem. They were constructed of a hardened alloy of some sort. Probably they had come from Tifty’s bunker; the man had made a science of viral containment. So even if she freed herself from the wall, she’d still be as trussed up as a hog for slaughter.

  The thought of sleep enticed her. Not merely to obliterate time but to carry her thoughts away. But her dreams, always the same, were nothing she cared to revisit: the brilliantly lit city dissolving to darkness; the happy cries of life within waning, then gone; the pitiless, disappearing door.

  And then there was the other issue: Alicia wasn’t alone.

  The feeling was subtle, but she could tell Fanning was still there: a sort of low-grade hum in her brain, more tactile than aural, like a breeze pushing over the surface of her mind. It made her feel angry and sick and tired of everything, ready to be done with it all.

  Get out of my head, goddamnit. Haven’t I done what you asked? Leave me the hell alone.

  The promised food did not appear. Peter had forgotten, or else he’d decided that a hungry Alicia was safer than a full one. It could be a tactic to make her pliable: Food is on the way; wait, no, it isn’t. In either event, she was perversely glad; part of her still hated it. The moment her jaws sank into flesh, hot blood squirting upon her palate, a chorus of revulsion erupted in her head: What the hell are you doing? Yet always she drank her fill until, thoroughly disgusted with herself, she sank back on her heels and let the lassitude engulf her.

  The hours moved sluggishly. At last the door opened.

  “Surprise.”

  Michael stepped into the room. A small metal cage was pressed against his chest.

  “Five minutes, Fisher,” the guard said, and slammed the door behind him.

  Michael put the cage on the floor and took a seat on the cot, facing her squarely. In the cage was a brown rabbit.

  “How’d you get in?” Alicia asked.

  “Oh, they know me pretty well around here.”

  “You bribed them.”

  Michael seemed pleased. “As it happens, a little money changed hands, yes. Even in these troubled times, a man has to think about his family. That, plus nobody else had the stomach to bring you breakfast.” He nodded toward the cage. “Apparently, the little bundle of fur is somebody’s pet. Goes by Otis.”

  Alicia allowed herself a good, long look at Michael. The boy she’d known was gone, replaced by a middle-aged man of sinewy hardness, compact and capable. His face had a chiseled look, nothing wasted. Though his eyes still possessed their twinkling, busy alertness, a darker aspect lay within them, more knowing: the eyes of experience, of a man who had seen things in his life.

  “You’ve changed, Michael.”

  He shrugged carelessly. “This is something I hear a lot.”

  “How’ve you been keeping yourself?”

  “Oh, you know me.” A cockeyed smile. “Just keeping the lights burning.”

  “And Lore?”

  “Can’t say that worked out.”

  “Sorry to hear it.”

  “You know how it goes. I got the potted plants, she took the house. For the best, really.” He angled his head at the floor again, where the caged rabbit was anxiously working its cheeks. “Aren’t you going to eat?”

  She wanted to, very badly. The intoxicating scent of warm meat, warm life; the swish and throb of the animal’s blood surging through its veins, as if she’d cupped a seashell to her ear: her anticipation was intense.

  “It’s not a pretty sight,” she said. “Probably best if I wait.”

  For several seconds, they just looked at each other.

  “Thanks for standing up for me last night,” Alicia said.

  “No thanks necessary. Peter was way out of line.”

  She searched his face. “Why don’t you hate me, Michael?”

  “Why would I do that?”

  “Everybody else seems to.”

  “I guess I’m not everybody else then. You could say I don’t have a lot of fans in these parts myself.”

  “I hardly believe that.”

  “Oh, trust me. I’m lucky I’m not living down the hall.”

  A smile, unbidden, rose to her lips; it was good to talk to a friend. “Sounds interesting.”

  “That would be one word for it.” He placed the tips of his fingers together, a man making a point. “I always knew you were out there, Lish. Maybe the others gave up on you. But I never did.”

  “Thanks, Circuit. That means something. That means a lot.”

  He grinned. “Now, seeing as it’s you, I’ll let that nickname slide.”

  “Talk to him, Michael.”

  “I’ve made my opinion known.”

  “What’s he going to do?”

  He shrugged. “What Peter always does. Hurl himself at the problem until he bashes his way through it. I love the guy, but he’s a bit of an ox.”
r />   “It won’t work this time.”

  “No, it won’t.”

  He was watching her intently—though, unlike Peter’s, his gaze held no suspicion. She was a confidante, a co-conspirator, a trusted part of his world. His eyes, his tone of voice, the manner in which his body occupied space: all radiated an undeniable force.

  “I’ve thought a lot about you, Lish. For a long time, I believed I was in love with you. Who knows? Maybe I still am. I hope that doesn’t embarrass you.”

  Alicia was dumbstruck.

  “I see from your expression that this comes as a surprise. Just take it as a compliment, which is how it’s meant. What I’m saying is that you matter a great deal to me, and you always have. When you appeared last night, I realized something. Do you want to know what that was?”

  Alicia nodded, still at a loss for words.

  “I realized I’d been waiting for you all along. Not just waiting. Expecting.” He paused. “Do you remember the last time we saw each other? It was the day you came to visit me in the hospital.”

  “Of course I do.”

  “For the longest time I wondered: Why me? Why did Alicia pick me, of all people, at just that moment? I would have guessed Peter would be the one. The answer came to me when I thought about something you said. ‘Someday, that boy’s going to save our sorry asses.’ ”

  “We were talking about when we were kids.”

  “That’s right. But we were talking about a lot more than that.” He leaned forward. “Even then, you knew, Lish. Maybe not knew. But you felt it, the shape of things, just as I did. Just as I do now, sitting here twenty years later talking to you in a jail cell. Now, ‘why’ is another question. I don’t have an answer to that one and I’ve stopped asking. And as for how this is all going to play out, your guess is as good as mine. Given the general direction of the last twenty-four hours, I’m not especially optimistic. But either way, I can’t do this without you.”

  The sound of tumblers; the guard appeared in the doorway. “Fisher, I said five minutes. You need to get the hell out of here.”

  Michael reached into his shirt pocket and waved a wad of bills over his shoulder, not even bothering to look as the guard snatched it and skulked away.