Hopscotch

by Kevin J. Anderson

  He had to know what it was to be old and frail, and to be young and athletic. He needed to be exhausted to the core from a lifetime of hard work . . . and filled with manic unreleased energy, never able to sleep.

  He would be muscular and he would be obese. As a woman, he could be flat chested or well endowed. He would be short, and tall; he could wear different colors of skin. He wanted to be pregnant and give birth to a child. In one deformed body he’d be looked upon with disgust; in another, he’d be stunningly beautiful, stimulating the glands of every person who looked at him. And he would do it both from the male side and from the female side.

  Garth had to experience everything.

  He finished his tiny cup, the caffeine singing through his system, but he felt more energized than even the espresso could account for. He scanned the List and knew he had written barely half of the things that would occur to him. But he could keep adding ideas even as he removed completed ones.

  He had a mission now. Life itself would be his full-time job.

  After the new painting was hung in a well-lit hallway in Mordecai Ob’s house, the only thing that looked out of place was the Bureau Chief himself. Garth just couldn’t get used to seeing the man wearing Eduard’s body.

  Without speaking to the blond artist, Ob appraised the eerie painting of glitter-oils that gradually flowed across preprogrammed paths. Garth had re-created the tumbling breakers from Waimea Beach, but replaced the frothing wavetops with a scatter of stars that spilled into a black universe, showering upon a vague luminous representation of a human form, a soul.

  “It’s very compelling, Garth.” Ob at last turned to look at him with a very un-Eduard-like expression. “Hypnotic, but disturbing. I’m glad you’re not painting flowers or puppy dogs.”

  Garth had told him about his trip to Hawaii, about his near-death experience. Then he told his patron about the List. “It’s like a quest, Mr. Ob. A specific catalogue of things I want to do and experience.”

  “Such enthusiasm! I truly envy you your ambition and your inspiration. I just wish I could capture some of that for myself. Does this mean you’ll be wanting additional money?”

  Garth felt embarrassed. The thought hadn’t even occurred to him. “No, sir. I just wanted to tell you what I intended to do. I thought you should know.”

  The Bureau Chief gave him a patronizing smile. “Of course. I’ll transfer more credits into your account within the hour.” His shoulders sagged, as if Eduard had gotten too little sleep in his own body. He began to lead Garth down the hall toward the exit.

  Garth hesitated, looked at his friend’s familiar features. “Would it be possible for me to visit Eduard while I’m here? Just to say hello.”

  The other man frowned, then slowly shook his head. “I’d rather you didn’t, Garth. Eduard will be exercising my body for another hour, and I don’t want to distract him.”

  Disappointed, Garth agreed. “All right, maybe next time. I’ll bring you another work soon.”

  No longer spending his weekends among the aspiring artists, Garth returned to the bazaar as an observer. Now, as he walked among the stalls and rugs, he gazed upon the marketplace with new eyes. He studied faces and illustration techniques, including sculptures made of colored plasmas, gravity-defying paintings fashioned from 3-D gels, aroma symphonies.

  Excited, he took notes, seeing things he had never seen before. Some vendors gave him strange looks, suspicious of his questions and scrutiny. One woman even asked if he was working undercover for the Beetles or some other investigatory agency.

  With an artist’s eye, he jotted down details, questions to ask someday. He noted how the vendors were attentive to well-dressed customers in healthy bodies, while a swarthy, hirsute man had to clamor to get the attention of the person behind a chocolate stand.

  The incident piqued Garth’s curiosity, and he wondered if this short hairy man had a stunning wife at home, or someone just as lumpish. Perhaps the man was a convict finishing a probationary term in a brutish form, and would not receive his own physique back until his sentence was up.

  Over the past century of hopscotching, equality had come with particular force . . . but only in certain areas. Skin color and gender didn’t matter much, men and women, blacks and whites, Hispanics, Asians—anyone could be anyone, by choice. On the other hand, different manifestations of discrimination crept in with a vengeance, creating a clear-cut and striking physical class system. Anyone wealthy or powerful enough could lease a young and attractive physique, while poor and downtrodden people were forced to trade away their bodies to make enough money to survive.

  Garth wondered how much real variation there was at the ultimate core of a human being. If he could answer that question, he could make the most profound statement any artist had ever produced.

  He remembered the amateurish mural he had painted in the basement of the Falling Leaves, how his one small idea had grown to encompass new details, new characters and scenes. Now Garth was attempting a vastly larger task: a mural of all humanity.

  The next step would be to figure out how to implement that plan.

  Club Masquerade provided the most opportunities all in one place. The majority of people didn’t hopscotch indiscriminately, too shy or too afraid, viewing the process as more personal than sexual intercourse. But many Club patrons already wanted temporary new bodies, wanted different experiences. Garth saw them as resources for his work.

  One heady evening, he picked up an attractive ginger-haired woman for a one-night/two-body stand—no strings attached, no expectations, just hedonistic fun. They danced, and touched . . . then swapped, and danced and touched again. Later, during the hours in her bed, the woman pleasured herself in her own body, and then in Garth’s.

  The woman played strange mood music and insisted on keeping the bedroom air temperature uncommonly cold. They were forced to keep themselves warm through body heat, which she happily provided.

  Garth had been a woman before, and he’d had sex in Teresa’s original body, but this time he paid complete attention to how everything felt, how everything fit. As he touched his soft female skin, her moist openings, Garth wished he had placed his electronic pad within reach. He needed to document his impressions before they faded from memory. In a woman’s body, the nerve endings were different, distributed in new patterns. Various movements produced alternate responses.

  He wanted to jot down his observations as a man, then as a woman, comparing the differences in intensity and sensation during orgasm in each gender. But the ginger-haired woman kept him too busy with her own agenda. She seemed very familiar with the workings of both types of bodies, but had no particular interest in contributing to the world of art.

  When Garth continued to ask questions, the woman was at first delighted but eventually put off. Clearly, she’d never done such internal self-analysis. Before long, Garth knew the answers and the subtleties better than she did herself.

  The ginger-haired woman gave him an insincere invitation to look her up again. After he left, Garth realized that of all the questions, he’d forgotten to ask her name. . . .

  29

  Flowers, surrounded by beautiful flowers. Glad for her new job, Teresa went on her rounds through office buildings in search of customers for whatever bouquets hadn’t been presold.

  During her weeks of recovery, Tanu the gardener had contacted a friend and secured Teresa a job from the cavernous central greenhouse hangars. Fully healed now, she found peace in her baskets of colorful blossoms, accompanied by their delicate perfumes, the gentle pastels.

  Something that would let her forget the dark times with Rhys.

  Since Teresa had little else she could give back to them, she always kept extra blossoms to send to both Eduard and Garth as a special thank-you. The Beetles wouldn’t let her send flowers to Daragon. She was starting her life fresh once again, a cleaner beginning than when she had departed from the Falling Leaves. This time she swore it would be different.

 
At first, Teresa had thought about returning to the monastery as a place to contemplate, despite Soft Stone’s admonition to the contrary. She wanted to be safe again, protected behind the walls. But she eventually realized that she had made her own mistakes, and she would make her own solutions. Teresa was determined not to disappoint her mentor.

  While she occupied herself selling flowers, Teresa went back to considering the Big Questions that had fascinated her for so many years. She had been fooled into thinking the Sharetakers offered the answers she needed; instead, they had simply taken everything from her. From now on, she had to find the revelations on her own.

  Eduard had invited her to stay with him at Ob’s mansion for as long as she needed. He even offered to marry her, if that was what she wished. Teresa held him long and hard, feeling his unconditional devotion to her—as always—but she wanted to be by herself, to prove that she could live on her own, without depending on other people. As with Garth, their friendship was deeper than romantic love or sex, and that was what she needed most from Eduard.

  She made other promises, too. After such a dizzying flow with the Sharetakers, Teresa resigned herself to remain inside this waifish body that was not really her own. She couldn’t just toss it aside for another, as the Sharetakers had done. From now on, this slight, large-eyed female would house her identity.

  Teresa pushed through the revolving door into an office building, where she arranged roses and carnations in boardrooms and reception areas, brightening the enclosed spaces. Enough bouquets remained in her basket for one more building, then she would return to the central greenhouse hangar for another load. But she was in no hurry and had no real schedule to keep. She did not feel the urge to grab an even larger piece of business than the previous day.

  Outside, Teresa walked across the plaza and stopped by a stylized modern-art fountain made of gray and tan stone. Crude flint mirrors protruded at odd angles, distorting reflections. Balancing the flower basket on her lap, she sat on the fountain rim, leaning back on her outspread arms. The COM weather programmers had selected a cool, clear day with a bite of salt breeze from the nearby bay. She took an inventory of her remaining bouquets, inspecting each bloom, plucking wilted petals to keep the flowers looking fresh. Childlike, she tossed petals into the fountain.

  “Good thing our fingers and hands don’t fall off like that when we get old,” said a man who shuffled up to her. “It would mess up the entire physical system.” Teresa was startled by his appearance, but not frightened. The thin stranger had ice-blue eyes, yellow-gray hair, and an unevenly cut beard. His brow was furrowed, as if frequently creased with deep thought.

  “I . . . I don’t have any spare credits to give you, if you’re panhandling.”

  “Panhandling? No, I have all I really need.” His skin pallor and his scrawny physique belied the statement.

  “What about your clothes?” Teresa could see he lived on the streets, probably alone. His shirt and pants were out of date, dirty, tattered.

  “These?” The man plucked dismissively at his faded sleeves. “Outer coverings. Only a shell. I keep my body in good condition. That’s what I was born with. Everything else is just . . . adornment.”

  She watched the flower petals on the water, thinking again of the Sharetakers and her lost dreams, how so many things had already drifted away from her. “Some people might say hopscotching is like casting off petals from a flower. Discarding an old body once it’s fulfilled its purpose.”

  The man frowned in sudden distaste. “Who’s to say what the body’s purpose is and when it’s been fulfilled?”

  He sat beside her on the edge of the fountain, and she felt sorry for him, decided she could help. “Well, it looks as if you could use a solid meal if you’re so concerned about your body, don’t you think?”

  “Okay, I admit malnutrition is sometimes a problem.” The ragged man dipped his hand in the fountain and self-consciously rubbed water to rinse his arm. “Gotta watch for any cuts to make sure they don’t get infected. I exercise to keep my body functioning smoothly.” He squeezed his bicep with mock seriousness.

  Teresa looked down at her waifish body. The flowers in her lap smelled sweet and warm. “I have a friend who maintains his boss’s body, exercising for hours each day.”

  The stranger laughed, a braying chuckle so loud it caused other pedestrians to look at him. “Exercising for somebody else? You think that would help anyone understand how a body works?”

  His ice-blue eyes became suddenly intense, and he blinked repeatedly. He reached out to take Teresa’s hand and thrust her own palm in front of her face. “Once you know the details, you can’t help but worship the complexity. This delicate and intricate machine is far superior to any mechanism human beings have managed to devise. Okay, just look at your fingerprints, at the blood vessels beneath the skin. See your pores.” He bent two of her fingers down. “See the way the tendons move in your wrist. Magnificent, isn’t it?”

  “Oh—I never really thought about it before.”

  “No one should take the human machine for granted. No one should ignore it or treat it badly, discard it like a bad card in a hand of poker.” He let out a shuddering sigh. “And all this hopscotching, one person to another to another! You shouldn’t change bodies like you change a set of clothes.”

  Teresa looked at him, thinking of the special times she had swapped with Garth and Eduard, and how often she had hopped from member to member in the Sharetaker enclave. “You have a very odd way of thinking, sir,” she said.

  “Please call me Arthur.”

  “All right. You have a very odd way of thinking, Arthur.”

  “Okay, but it’s my own philosophy, and I’m proud of it.”

  Smiling curiously, Teresa stood up. “I’ve got more flowers to deliver.”

  He shook her hand again, then gazed into her large eyes. “I’ll be around. I hope I recognize you again.”

  Since she didn’t plan to do any hopscotching in the near future, Teresa knew that wouldn’t be a problem. “You will.”

  For the rest of that day, Teresa pondered her conversation with the shabby old man. Everybody hopscotched—it was only natural to switch bodies if you needed to, though some people were frightened by the occasional stories about slippage. When Daragon had proven unable to swap, the Splinters had considered it a tragic flaw.

  Now Arthur’s ideas intrigued her. From that point on, she sought out the old man as she went on her delivery rounds. He wasn’t hard to find: he sat on benches in the sunlight or in secluded spots in the shade, reading through an ancient book he carried.

  When she sat next to him, sharing her meager lunch, he paid her back by letting her look at his precious book. “Found it in a dump behind a museum.” Arthur showed her the cover, then some of the text and the illustrations. Obviously, he revered the volume as if it were a religious artifact. “It’s a facsimile of the original Gray’s Anatomy, annotated with medical commentary and updated drawings.”

  As he flipped from page to page, Teresa stared at meticulous drawings: the circulatory system, musculature, tendons, glands, bones, the central nervous system. Arthur became so absorbed in the book that he seemed not to notice her. He ran his fingertips over a diagram of the heart’s chambers, and his voice held a quiet awe. “Okay, I’ve read this book from front to back at least six times, and I still don’t understand how my body works.”

  “Arthur, if you’re interested in this stuff, why don’t you just get a data uplink from COM? The latest medical studies, detailed electron microscope holographs, even interactive—”

  Arthur slammed the book shut and tapped hard on the cover. “I’m not interested in sheer quantity of information, but in the best quality information. I want the right reference, rather than every single reference. And this one has stood the test of time.” He regarded her with his eyebrows cocked. “Look.”

  As Teresa listened to him, the old man showed her his hands, his fingers, the veins beneath the skin, the call
uses built up from a life of hard work. He pushed his fingers so close to her face that she had to squint before she could focus on the whorls and lines of his fingerprints.

  Teresa had never before thought about the minutiae, the clockwork mechanisms of her human form. “I don’t have my original body anymore. I haven’t even seen it for a year. It . . . got lost somewhere along the way.”

  Arthur pursed his lips. “I’m sorry to hear that. You’ve lost an opportunity to . . . to get to know yourself, as it were.”

  Strangely enough, Teresa got the sneaking suspicion that this ragged man understood more about reality than she did. And she had promised Soft Stone she would never stop looking.

  “I like talking with you, Arthur,” she said.

  “Likewise,” he said.

  30

  The man was so incredibly obese he could barely walk. His girth was enormous, his garments made from acres of cloth. He took each plodding step with care and intense concentration, like a captain guiding an oil tanker through treacherous reefs. He overheated easily, sweating from the simple effort of moving his own mass across the street.

  As soon as Garth spotted him, he knew that this must be one of the first targets on his List. With no inhibition whatsoever, he jogged up to the puffing man who stood on the street corner. “Excuse me! This is . . . this is amazing.” Garth took a deep breath. “Sir, I’d like to swap with you, live in your body for an hour or so. Would that be possible?”

  The man looked at him with suspicion. “What do you want?”

  “I want to hopscotch into your body. If I paid you . . . uh, fifty credits, would that be enough?” Garth blinked at him like an optimistic puppy. “I don’t have a lot of money to spare.”

  Looking at the artist’s healthy body, the obese man reacted to the offer with astonishment, then with even greater suspicion. Breathlessly, his words tumbling together, Garth explained his creative quest to experience different aspects of being human. The man cautiously agreed, still suspecting some kind of practical joke. “No paperwork? Nothing?”