The Grass is Greener

by Loretta Hill

  ‘Unfortunately I can’t say that’s the whole reason.’

  Grape-picking in February, working in the cellar door in June – she had loved every minute away from her parents’ world. Oak Hills Winery was a family-run business with a family-run flavour. It felt more like home there than any of the mansions her parents had shifted her through during her choppy childhood, which was characterised mostly by their contentious and long-winded divorce. The memories she had of Oak Hills were more meaningful than anything she’d experienced in the city. It had been the best sort of therapy, squished as she was between stressful study and the nagging of ambitious parents. If anyone deserved to be envied, it was Claudia.

  ‘Claudia, you have a family. A real family.’

  Claudia’s large blue eyes rolled. ‘Tell me about it. Can’t bloody get away from them.’

  ‘You don’t know how lucky you are.’

  Claudia had two brothers and two parents who interfered in her life as much as they loved her. Sure, the Franklins had their problems, but they talked about them bluntly or fought like cats and dogs. Bronwyn couldn’t imagine speaking her mind to her mother. Ever.

  ‘Believe me, my family takes as much as they give,’ Claudia remarked bitterly. ‘You know where I would be right now if it weren’t for them? Here in the city with you.’

  After her graduation and before she had been called back to Oak Hills, Claudia had worked for two years in Perth as a lawyer. She had loved every second of it. Bronwyn remembered whenever they’d caught up for lunch Claudia would be high on the case she was working on. Eager to discuss what hole in the evidence there might be, the missing link in her circle of witnesses or the latest gossip from the bar, when all Bronwyn had wanted to know was what was going on in Yallingup.

  Once they started working, neither of them made it back to Oak Hills often. Bronwyn even less so than Claudia. In fact, she was sure she’d only been back a handful of times since becoming a lawyer and that was in the early years. She emailed the family regularly, of course, and often made plans to visit but then always seemed to have to cancel at the last minute. Law was a profession that more or less swallowed your life.

  To make her feel even more guilty, just before they graduated there had been an accident in Yallingup and one of Claudia’s brothers had become permanently disabled. When Chris Franklin had been sentenced to life in a wheelchair after a stupid prank, it had hit everybody hard. Bronwyn often thought of him and the events leading up to his terrible trauma. Not that Claudia didn’t. But she was more positive about it and proud to tell Bronwyn about how Chris was handling it.

  ‘He’s amazing, Bron. If it had been me,’ she shook her head, ‘I’m not so sure I would have bounced back like he has.’

  ‘It’s your family,’ Bronwyn had reasoned. ‘The support and encouragement you’ve given him.’

  Claudia had snorted. ‘Everyone except Jack, that is.’

  Pain throbbed in the centre of Bronwyn’s chest whenever Claudia mentioned her other brother.

  The black sheep of the family.

  The outcast.

  The man who had broken Bronwyn’s heart and abandoned them all when it counted the most.

  Not that she didn’t feel partially responsible for that. It was the one reason she couldn’t put her time in Yallingup to bed. She had to know news of Chris’s progress, if only to assuage the terrible feeling that it was her fault the two brothers had never fully reconciled and Jack hadn’t been home in years.

  Two years ago, tragedy had struck the Franklin family again. Horace, Claudia’s father, was diagnosed with glaucoma and had to pull back on his workload. With Jack gone and Chris unable to fully take the reins, Claudia had been called home to help out. If she hadn’t, Oak Hills most definitely would have gone under.

  The problem was, Claudia’s return was only supposed to be temporary.

  Weeks had turned into months.

  Months had turned into years.

  Somehow, in it all, Claudia had become stuck.

  ‘It’s never going to end, Bron.’ Her friend’s shoulders slumped now over her tea. ‘With Dad retiring completely this year because of his illness, I’m needed more than ever. I don’t know what to do. I don’t think I’m ever going to be able to leave Oak Hills to practice law again.’

  ‘What about Jack?’ Bronwyn was surprised at herself for asking the question. Claudia rarely mentioned him and when she did, it was always with resentment.

  ‘Are you kidding me?’ Claudia retorted. ‘We haven’t seen him in years. And I have no expectations of him doing the right thing anytime soon.’

  ‘You don’t hear from him at all?’ Bronwyn asked tentatively.

  Claudia shrugged. ‘The occasional vague email. He contacts Mum sometimes. Probably because she’s the only one who doesn’t judge him.’

  Bronwyn smiled. ‘Of course.’

  ‘No, it’s just not fair, you know,’ Claudia said crossly. ‘He gets to go off and tour Europe while I’m stuck juggling the business he was born to run. I don’t think I’ll ever forgive him for taking off when he did.’

  ‘Jack did love Oak Hills,’ Bronwyn whispered.

  ‘Not as much as he hates Dad.’

  ‘I see.’ Bronwyn didn’t meet her eyes.

  ‘Hey,’ Claudia eyed her knowingly, ‘what’s up with you? You always get like this when we talk about Jack.’

  ‘Like what?’ Bronwyn tried to lighten her tone.

  ‘Cagey as hell.’

  Bronwyn started. She had forgotten she was speaking to the most skilled cross-examiner on the planet. ‘You know, you’re right, you really are wasted on that vineyard.’

  ‘And yet you still haven’t answered the question.’

  ‘I don’t know what you’re talking about.’ She was never more glad that she had refrained from telling her best friend the full details of the tragic love story of her and Jack Franklin.

  Claudia’s eyes narrowed shrewdly. ‘It wouldn’t have anything to do with that kiss you two shared in the gazebo when everybody wasn’t looking?’

  ‘Puh-lease.’ She tossed her head a little too indignantly. ‘That was a big fat nothing.’

  ‘I don’t know.’ Claudia shrugged. ‘You were awfully upset about it at the time.’

  ‘I was nineteen,’ Bronwyn scoffed. ‘And incredibly idealistic. Ripe for lessons in love.’

  Claudia laughed. ‘Oh, but now you’re all worldly and sophisticated. Nobody could pull the wool over your eyes.’

  Bronwyn shoved her shoulder playfully. ‘Stop it. That’s not nice.’

  ‘I apologise.’ Claudia said with a grin. ‘The truth is, I’m jealous of your busy love life.’

  If she meant that Bronwyn dated a lot and no one ever stuck, she was right on the money.

  ‘I don’t know what there is to be jealous of.’ Bronwyn rolled her eyes.

  ‘Come on, you’re talking to the girl who hasn’t been out on a date in months. Don’t leave me in suspense when I’m supposed to live vicariously through you. Who’s the latest?’

  Bronwyn grinned helplessly. She knew Claudia was hopeful of a story involving longing looks and tantalising flirtation. However, the latest – if you could call him that – had been more her mother’s choice than hers.

  Phillip Bilson.

  Son of a judge

  Nephew of a QC.

  He was a federal court barrister who had been born rich but now earned enough to do without his inheritance. He was good-looking, if you liked slick, pale and well-dressed. Her mother had introduced them at court one day and gently but firmly pushed her in the right direction.

  ‘Darling, if you want to marry well you have to date well, and he’s just the sort of feather I want in your cap.’

  She was beginning feel that this so-called ‘cap’ she was wearing was more like a shackle round her ankle.

  ‘So tell me all about him,’ Claudia urged.

  ‘He’s, er … nice.’ He had no sense of humour to speak of and was far
more interested in himself than her, but perhaps that was just being too fussy. She’d only seen him twice, after all. Maybe she hadn’t given him a good enough chance.

  ‘Nice?’ Claudia repeated, her expression so horrified that Bronwyn felt compelled to add with a slight cough, ‘Very nice.’

  ‘Like a hot cup of tea?’ Claudia raised her eyebrows.

  ‘No, not hot. More like lukewarm.’

  ‘Okay, girl,’ Claudia flattened her palms on the table, ‘you know when you said before you hated your life? Now I believe you.’

  Bronwyn grinned. ‘Why? Because I’m not desperately in love?’

  ‘Well, you need to feel something more than lukewarm,’ Claudia protested. ‘Remember when we were in university and we made a list of things we wanted in our ideal man?’

  It was Bronwyn’s turn to laugh. ‘The Checklist. You still remember that?’

  ‘Hey. It’s all I have to keep me warm at night at the moment. You remember the fantasy, right?’

  ‘No,’ Bronwyn lied.

  ‘Come on, The Checklist’s only got five things on it.’ Claudia tapped her chin. ‘He has to be one of the boys, a real lad but deep down incredibly romantic; smart, like wickedly intelligent; easygoing; great sense of humour and, of course, chronically good-looking.’ She tilted her head with a secret smile. ‘I’ve added blond specifically to that last point, because I do like a man with a fair head.’

  ‘You always have, haven’t you?’ Bronwyn smiled. Claudia’s last three boyfriends had been blond, all lads, smart and funny. ‘You definitely have a type,’ she nodded seriously. ‘I don’t know why it’s not working for you.’

  Claudia sighed. ‘Because lads want to be lads. They don’t want commitment or a serious relationship. Is it so wrong that I want the whole nine yards?’

  ‘Don’t we all,’ Bronwyn groaned wistfully. ‘But honestly, I don’t have much time for falling in love. I don’t have much time for anything really.’ She worked nearly twelve hours most days and usually all weekend. Her apartment was sparse, not because she couldn’t afford to fill it with stuff but because she had no time to shop. Her fridge was empty but her freezer was full of microwave meals. And she was the thinnest she’d ever been due to a lack of food, not exercise.

  She couldn’t remember the last movie she’d watched.

  The last book she’d read.

  Or the last walk she’d taken.

  The thing with law was, once it got a hook into your life, it started worming its way into every aspect – all in an attempt to be impressive.

  Bring in new clients.

  You’re impressive.

  Have no life.

  You’re impressive.

  Stay back later than everyone else.

  You’re impressive.

  The problem with being an Eddings was that you were expected to be more impressive than everyone else. Sometimes, the pressure of living up to the assumption that she was a cut above the rest became too much. In fact, the expectations of her colleagues were occasionally more gruelling than the actual casework itself. If she’d known that this was what her life was going to be like after she left university, she probably would have rebelled earlier.

  ‘Still,’ Claudia shrugged, ‘I’d trade places with you in a second. Do you know how difficult it is to meet guys when you live with your parents and your father has a shotgun?’

  Bronwyn smiled. ‘I’d be lucky if my father cared where I was, let alone who I dated.’

  ‘My father knows where I am every second of every day,’ Claudia groaned. ‘I swear everyone from Yallingup to Margaret River is in on his little spy network. Last week, I went to this little gathering in a bar in Dunsborough, you know, with Phoebe Maxwell and the usual set? I thought maybe if I put myself out there a little more …’ She sighed.

  ‘Go on.’

  ‘I got all dolled up for it. Wore a dress and everything.’

  ‘A dress!’ Bronwyn widened her eyes. ‘That’s a big statement for you.’

  ‘Damn straight!’ Claudia tossed her head, her heavy mane gleaming as it rippled over the shoulders of her plaid shirt. Bronwyn would have bet anything that she had looked absolutely smoking. Claudia didn’t have much occasion to dress up as she was constantly working the land but when she did – wow! She turned heads. Bronwyn was almost certain that she’d turned more than a few when she’d walked into that bar in Dunsborough.

  She grinned. ‘Get some attention, did you?’

  Claudia’s eyes twinkled. ‘Sure, maybe. Then, surprise, surprise, my father walked in right after me and gave everyone the evil eye.’

  Bronwyn had seen ‘the eye’ on Horace Franklin many times before. ‘He didn’t.’

  ‘Oh, he did,’ Claudia nodded. ‘And he followed it up with a little announcement.’

  ‘No!’

  ‘He said, “Okay, gentlemen, now that I’ve got your attention and you’ve seen my daughter walk in, you will notice that Death has followed her.”’

  Bronwyn gasped. ‘You’re kidding me.’

  Claudia glared at Bronwyn. ‘Do I look like I’m joking?’

  Bronwyn had often been jealous of Claudia’s ability to inspire a super-protective streak in Horace Franklin. Who wouldn’t want a father who cared? But this sounded a little over the top, even for him. ‘That’s insane,’ she whispered.

  ‘Will you tell him that next time you see him? Because no one else thinks it’s worth the mention.’

  Bronwyn laughed.

  ‘I just feel like if I could get away from them, I could finally have a life.’ Claudia threw up her hands. ‘And a career to boot. It’s not like I haven’t earned it.’

  ‘You have,’ Bronwyn agreed.

  ‘I’m just sick of doing –’

  ‘What everybody else wants,’ Bronwyn finished for her with a triumphant smile.

  ‘Okay,’ Claudia conceded, reaching out and squeezing her hand briefly. ‘Maybe I do get where you’re coming from.’

  ‘Hallelujah.’

  ‘You should have been a Franklin and I should have been an Eddings.’

  Bronwyn grinned. ‘That would sure solve a lot of problems.’

  ‘So what are we going to do about this?’

  ‘What can we do? Book in for therapy?’

  Claudia grinned. ‘Fake our own deaths?’

  ‘Swap places,’ Bronwyn joked.

  Claudia paused thoughtfully. ‘That’s actually not a bad idea.’

  ‘If only we were twins.’

  ‘I’d be the evil one,’ Claudia said with a wink.

  Bronwyn laughed. ‘I sure have missed you, Claud. Don’t leave it six months till you come visit me again. You don’t know how lonely I am out here.’

  ‘Well, you could always visit me, you know. You haven’t been to Oak Hills in over two years. What’s up with that?’

  There were a lot of reasons, none of which she wanted to go into. So instead she said, ‘You know they’d make me take work with me. It would ruin the experience for everyone.’

  As if on cue, Bronwyn’s mobile rang. Frankly, she was inclined to ignore it but Claudia indicated her bag.

  ‘It’s okay, go ahead. Answer it. I wouldn’t want you to get in trouble for taking a long lunch break.’

  She pulled the phone from her bag and lifted it to her ear, immediately regretting taking the call.

  It wasn’t work. It was her mother, which was actually even worse.

  ‘Good afternoon, Bronwyn. Can you talk?’

  ‘I’m kinda in the middle of lunch.’

  ‘Excellent. How did your meeting go this morning?’

  Bronwyn bit her lip, thinking about the dog proposal. ‘Not that great actually.’

  ‘Oh good. I also have some wonderful news.’

  ‘Okay.’ Bronwyn blinked, not knowing whether to be relieved or insulted that her mother didn’t actually care about her answers. ‘What is it?’

  ‘My colleague Francis Aldermon had a heart attack last week.’


  Bronwyn gasped. ‘Mum, that’s terrible. Is he all right?’

  ‘Absolutely fine,’ Bianca returned airily. ‘But the mishap did give me a chance to visit him in hospital and talk to him in a less formal setting.’

  Only her mother would find a hospital visit an opportunity to network.

  ‘I was able to direct the conversation in your direction …’

  You mean, away from the fact that he almost died.

  ‘… and he said he would be very pleased to sponsor you to the bar.’

  Bronwyn choked. ‘But I’ve had no thoughts about going to the bar. I’m fine where I am.’

  Or should I say, less miserable.

  ‘Nonsense. There’s no need to play coy with me, Bronwyn. I’m your mother. I know how stressed you must be getting about your situation.’

  ‘I have a situation?’

  ‘Well, we both know that Simon Bantam is not going to promote you for another year, Bronwyn. I went to uni with the man, he’s a stickler for the trenches. He’ll keep you there as long as he can, particularly because you’re such a good little worker. Why not move across to the bar where all the movers and the shakers are? Including,’ she gave a slight titter, ‘myself.’

  ‘I don’t know, Mum.’

  Her mother–daughter relationship with Bianca Hanks was not good at the best of times. She couldn’t imagine working near her as well. Best not to tempt fate.

  ‘I’m happy where I am.’

  ‘Happiness, Bronwyn, is a commodity you know nothing about.’

  Okay, you caught me.

  ‘When I was your age,’ her mother continued, ‘I thought I was happy too. That’s why I married your father. Look what that got me.’

  A child neither of you wanted?

  ‘A very expensive divorce,’ her mother rattled off.

  Bronwyn’s brow wrinkled. She knew that to speak her mind here would be a mistake. ‘Mum, can I talk about this with you later?’

  ‘All right,’ said Bianca briskly, ‘we can park that opportunity for a minute and talk about the family firm.’

  Bronwyn opened her mouth and then shut it again. ‘Huh?’

  ‘Hanks and Eddings. Your Uncle Cyril is always looking for good junior lawyers and I hear he’s short at the moment. It might be a good opportunity to take your rightful place.’