DAMON: A Bad Boy MC Romance Novel

by Meg Jackson

  “Are you gonna come on my tits, daddy?” she asked, pouting, playing up the “daddy” angle. It wasn’t really Reign’s thing, but he liked to do whatever made the girls happy.

  “Yeah, baby girl, daddy’s gonna come all over your tits, and I want you to lick it all off,” he said with a snarl, doing mental gymnastics to try and put some meat on the lithe body in front of him – too thin for his taste. She was gorgeous though, with those pouty little-girl lips, and soon he felt himself automatically jerking off harder, his balls churning, the girl in front of him thrusting her chest out for him and running her hands up and down his thighs.

  “Fuck,” Reign groaned as a stream of cum shot out of his cock, landing square on the brunette’s chest, making her close her eyes and squeal in pleasure. He shot load after load onto her, watching her systematically wipe the cum from her tits and suck it off her fingers with relish.

  “Thank you, daddy,” she whispered through a mouthful of his hot cum, the last of his load landing just short of the mark. He watched her get the last bit of semen, which hung almost comically from her nipple, and guzzle it into her throat. She’s cute, he thought, unable to fight the slightest bit of affection for the otherwise anonymous girl.

  “Thank you,” he said. “But daddy’s gotta sleep now.”

  “Of course,” the girl said, knowing her place well enough not to ask if she could sleep with him. Instead, she hopped to her feet and quickly dressed herself, leaving her shorts unbuttoned. Reign noticed the slightest string of cum dangling from her hair and decided to leave it be; she’d probably just move on to Endo or whatever other club members were hanging around the bar. He leaned forward to smack her ass, playfully, as she skipped from the room.

  He grabbed the bottle of whiskey that was sitting on the floor near the couch and took a huge guzzle, feeling it burn down his throat. And then he lay down on the couch, stretching out, closing his eyes. As he drifted off to sleep, he felt cold and wished he had a blanket, or a warm body next to him. Not the girl, but someone else. Someone he’d never met, but who, deep down where he could barely admit it to himself, he wished he would meet soon.

  3

  I was almost done. Three more rooms, and I’d have finished my duties for the day. I was more than ready to clock out, change into real clothes, and drive away as fast as I could. Less excited to arrive at home than I was to just get the hell away from work, I knocked on the door of my next room before letting myself in. My eyes immediately fell to a blue duffel bag sitting on a chair in the middle of the room.

  I picked up the duffle bag, wondering how someone could have forgotten about it when it was just sitting on the chair, declaring its presence at first glance around the room. It was surprisingly heavy when I lifted it and set it down near my cart, meaning to bring it straight down to the front desk once I was through with the room.

  There was an odor in the room that I couldn’t quite place. It smelled metallic, cold. But, blessedly, that seemed to be the only major problem with the room. No vomit or spilled beer here.

  As I heaved the comforter and sheets off the bed, back aching from performing the same motions over and over again, I saw something that made my blood turn cold. I wanted to believe it was something other than what I saw, but I couldn’t fool myself. That smell was blood, and what made that clear as day was the small pool of brownish-red liquid under the bed. And in the middle of that pool, just barely peeking out, were two fingers.

  Two fingers that were, presumably, attached to a whole body.

  I nearly pissed my pants and threw up at the same time. I backed away from the bed. I’d seen a lot of things in my time at the hotel, but nothing like this. Nothing even nearly as bad as this.

  Maybe it’s ketchup and a glove, I thought, irrationally, knowing full damn well that it wasn’t. But something inside me insisted that I make sure it was what I thought it was before telling everyone about how the sky was falling. Tiptoeing around the bed, heart pounding, I kneeled down a fair distance from the pool of blood (or, I still hoped, ketchup). Holding my breath, I peered under the bed.

  Yup. That was a body. Sure as shit, that was a dead-ass human being lying underneath that bed.

  Why even bother to hide it there…I wondered, my mind moving slowly, not quite processing what I was seeing. I shot straight up, mouth suddenly very dry, heart beating faster than a drummer in a metal band. My eyes darted to the duffel bag set near my cart.

  I can only chalk my actions after that up to divine intervention, or possibly shock, or maybe even just morbid curiosity. The appropriate thing to do would have been to get on the walkie-talkie and report what I’d found to my boss, and the police, and get the hell out of that room before I further muddled up what was certainly a crime scene. Instead, I walked to the duffel bag, leaning down and yanking at the zipper with shaking hands.

  Holy

  Fucking

  Shit.

  That was a LOT of money. Like, stacks on stacks. Of hundreds, not twenties. And mixed in with the money was a lot of taped-up Ziploc bags full of what I’d come to recognize as cocaine. Like I said, you find a lot of crap in hotel rooms after people have flown the coop.

  I took one large step back before falling on my ass against the bed. Thinking of the corpse that was only a foot away from me, I scurried away from the bed to the wall on my hands and knees. If my heart had been pounding before, it was basically ricocheting out of my chest at that point.

  I guess, even then, I knew what I was going to do.

  See, there’s only so much a human mind and body can take before it breaks. And everything in my life had been working on me so long: Jeremy, the job, the dullness of my days, the violence of my nights. I hadn’t thought I could ever get away.

  And now?

  It was like God was shining a light down from the ceiling right onto that duffel bag. Tempting me, maybe even taunting me.

  Everything I needed to make a clean break.

  Right there.

  And who’s money could it be, anyway? It sure as hell didn’t belong to anyone good…and if whoever had killed the person under the bed hadn’t seen fit to take the money with them, I was pretty sure it didn’t belong to anyone at that point.

  Except me.

  It belonged to me.

  Once that thought came into my mind, I acted like it was true. Propriety be damned. With that sort of money, I could make straight for Mexico, or Canada, and change my name, and no one would ever find me…

  Not Jeremy. Not the cops. Which, by the way, was pretty much the same thing, since he was a cop.

  I scuttled forward towards the duffel bag, hands itching to get around that money. But I stopped myself; be smart, Gabriella. For once in your stupid, pathetic life, use your fucking brain.

  See? I even thought in Jeremy’s voice and tone. I’d never thought I was stupid before getting involved with him, but he’d had me so beat down that I believed him when he said I was a dumb bitch.

  I straightened up, grabbing two gloves from my cart and snapping them on. I took all the cocaine from the bag. Where…where…I thought, looking around the room. My eyes lit on the dresser; throwing a drawer open, I threw all the little bundles into the drawer and then closed it, though I left it slightly ajar.

  I didn’t need the drugs, just the money.

  And, I figured, it would probably help the detectives or whoever to know that whatever happened was a result of a drug deal gone wrong.

  As for the money…

  And the body…

  I leaned into my portable laundry basket, pulling out the sheets and comforter I’d just stripped. Working quickly, I made the bed in a way that looked as though someone had slept in it. Not too messy, not too neat.

  I needed it to look like I’d never been there.

  But the key…I thought to myself. The keys at the hotel were automatic, and wireless, and they recorded whenever anyone came or went into the room.

  I threw the duffel bag into the laundry, covering i
t with sheets and comforters.

  I took a series of deep breaths, grabbing my walkie-talkie and preparing to lie like my life depended on it.

  “Rosa, Melanie, come in,” I said, actually happy for the quiver in my voice, hoping it would make me more convincing.

  “Go ahead, Gabriella,” Rosa’s voice came over the other end, her heavy accent hard to understand over the crackly radio.

  “I was just about to go into 303, and I just got sick everywhere. Had to run right to the bathroom. It smells funny in here but I think it’s something else. I’m gonna come down, I need to go home,” I said. It wasn’t the best lie in the world, but what else could I do? They would know I went into the room when they checked the logs. The best thing I could do was pretend that I only went into the room to throw up, that I’d never seen the body or even touched the bed.

  Of course, once I never showed up back home, and once someone discovered the body in the room, there would be a lot of questions. And, with Jeremy on the force, those questions would probably be broadcast across America once he figured out I wasn’t coming back. I could only hope that by the time those questions were asked, I would be safely on my way to Mexico.

  “Make sure you flush,” Melanie’s voice came over the walkie-talkie. “Clock out and go home. Come in tomorrow?”

  “Maybe, I’ll see,” I said, letting the walkie-talkie fall to my side once more.

  I looked around the room once more, but knew I needed to get out of there as soon as possible. The longer I stood there, the more I’d freak out, the more I’d rethink what I was doing, the more I’d overthink how to cover my tracks.

  Pushing my cart out the door, leaving the lights on, the way they had been when I got there, I made my way down to the basement, praying no one else would be down there. No one should have been down there. Rosa was still doing rounds, the laundry room was a separate building, and Melanie would be half-tossed and chain-smoking in the courtyard by that time of day.

  And, as though God was still smiling upon me, no one was.

  I tossed my load of laundry into one of the huge baskets, the sheets mingling together. Grabbing the duffel bag once it fell, I didn’t bother to put my cart away or even change into my regular clothes before going to my locker.

  I had my own duffel bag in there, my gym bag, for the three times per week that I went to the gym after work. Today was not a gym day, but I kept a change of clothes in there all the time in case Jeremy made one of his “suggestions”.

  That was another thing, by the way, about that marriage. When Jeremy didn’t want me to come home, so he could do whatever – or whomever – he did when I wasn’t around, he’d “suggest” that I go to the gym, and God help me if I didn’t take him up on that suggestion.

  Now, I was thanking God for his little “suggestions”. I shoved the duffle bag full of money into my larger gym bag, throwing my running shoes into my locker to make room. I grabbed my purse as well, and threw my street clothes, which had been hanging up, into the duffel bag.

  I didn’t clock out.

  I didn’t look back.

  I was on the highway, pedal to the floor (though not speeding), mind numb as I began to unravel what I’d just done, what I was going to do.

  Which, I realized, was a total mystery.

  I didn’t know how to start over with a duffel bag full of cash. I didn’t know how to create a new identity. I wasn’t wise in the ways of criminal behavior.

  Jeremy was, but I couldn’t exactly turn to him for help, could I?

  Well, all I had to do, for then, was get to Denver. Just get to Denver, I thought.

  Wait, no.

  I didn’t realize I was slowing the car down until I heard frantic honking all around me. I pressed my foot on the gas once more.

  Not Denver, not Denver, Utah, go to Utah, I thought. I was driving the wrong direction for Utah, but I knew it was the smarter choice. It had to be. Jeremy had friends in Denver, cop friends. Utah? A whole new state? A wild sort of state? Lots of open land, not too much in the way of cell phone towers…

  Utah.

  I took the next exit, feeling my stomach flipping as the car swerved around one of the mountain highway’s many looping, high-octane turns, got back on the highway, going the other direction.

  Utah, Utah, go to Utah, I thought, over and over again, my mind only able to focus on that one word, that one destination. It was all I could do not to throw up in my lap. The duffel bag, tucked underneath driver’s seat, seemed to pulse and throb behind my feet.

  Holy shit, what the hell are you doing, Gabriella, you stupid bitch, you’re never going to get away with this, you better fucking turn this car around right now and go home before Jeremy gets there and wonders where you are. That voice, I realize now, was Jeremy’s voice in my head. But it sounded like mine at the time. And it was loud.

  Keep going, you’re never going to get another chance, this is it, this is it, you have to go now, another voice was saying, a voice that sounded strange at the time but which, I’ve learned, is actually my voice. And it was louder.

  It was 4pm. Another hour and a half and Jeremy would be home, wondering where I was. Just as I had that thought, my cell phone dinged.

  Shit, I forgot about that fucking thing, I thought, panicking, knowing that cops could trace you by your cell phone signal. I reached down, keeping my eyes on the road, and grabbed the phone from the pocket of my maid’s uniform. It was Jeremy texting me. Shit, shit shit, I thought, my heart starting to race once more, my mind leaping to imaginary scenarios – all of which ended in blood. It would be my body tucked underneath a bed this time.

  Hey. You should go to the gym after work. Just a suggestion, the text read. I nearly slammed my foot on the brake in utter bafflement. Instead, I started laughing. A psychotic sort of laugh, hysterical and high-pitched.

  What a fucking day for one of Jeremy’s suggestions.

  Fucking rat bastard, you finally threw me a fucking bone, rot in hell you wife-beating piece of shit, I thought, loudly, that same strange voice overwhelming Jeremy’s in my head. I stopped laughing. I had no idea where those thoughts came from. I’d never thought that way about my husband before.

  But it wasn’t just a thought…it was a feeling. I was mad. Mad as hell. And…free. I pressed the pedal harder. Now, it would be 7:00 or later before Jeremy realized I wasn’t coming home. I had three hours to make time before he even suspected anything. The mountains around me were already gradually falling lower, preparing to make way for the high deserts of Utah.

  Everything inside me was at war, it seemed. Fear and rage, sense and whimsy, love and hate, self-defeat and encouragement. I plastered a smile on my face as I sped past a state trooper. Obviously, the guy couldn’t see it, but it made me feel a little better about the duffel bag under my seat.

  Once the trooper was out of sight, I tapped out a quick reply to Jeremy’s text.

  Good idea baby, I’ll be home around 7, want me to make lasagna? I needed him to think it was all a normal day, a normal night, for as long as possible. I waited, agitation increasing, for him to text me back. I wanted to turn my phone off. He could be tracking me right then, for all I knew. Deciding to beat him to the punch, I tapped out another message.

  Phone dying and I think the car charger is broken, wasn’t working this morning, I’ll see you at home, I’ll buy pasta in case you want me to make the lasagna but we can also do take-out. Love you, have a good rest of the day!

  And with that, I shut my phone off. Remembering something I’d seen once on Law and Order, I struggled with the case while trying to keep my car straight on the road. Finally, violently, the back of my phone popped off and I took the battery out, tossing all the parts of the phone back onto the passenger seat. Now, I was totally screwed if I needed to find out where the hell I was, but at least I didn’t have to worry about being tracked.

  Unless he could track the car.

  Fuck.

  Just get to Utah, for now, Gabby, I though
t, surprising myself once more by referring to myself by my childhood nickname. Jeremy didn’t like that name, and I’d stopped going by it after we started dating. It’s a wonder what a car full of cash can do for you. What sorts of changes impulsivity can breed. How one little decision – regardless of whether or not you were even thinking when you made it – can change every single thing about you, about your life, your future.

  And then, on the flipside, how easy it can be to barrel sideways into someone’s life when you’re riding high on that decision. How someone will let you in, only to find out later that you’re bringing a heap of trouble with you. And how amazing it can be when you find out they don’t care, that they think you just might be worth it.

  But I’m getting ahead of myself, aren’t I?

  The farther and farther I got from the mountains that had been my home (and, now that I look back on it, my prison) for three years, I started to feel more and more wild and invincible. Each mile I put between me and Jeremy seemed to take away an hour that I’d spent under his spell. The bruise above my eye throbbed. I looked at it in the rearview, and started to forget why, exactly, I had let him do it to me. Why I’d covered it up.

  Well, I’d known why I’d covered it up. I couldn’t exactly go to the cops. He was the cops. The whole force was friends with him, and I knew that going to the police would just get me in deeper trouble than ever.

  But how could I have stayed through all those nights of crying, all those empty bottles of concealer, all those warning signs that it wasn’t going to get better?

  Because, really, I’d believed for a long time that things “were going to get better”. Either I’d figure out just what it was Jeremy wanted from me, who he wanted me to be, and be able to do it and become that person and we’d both be happy, or he’d realize I wasn’t ever going to be who he wanted me to be and give me a break. For three years I’d really, truly believed that, even though everything was screaming at me that it wasn’t the case.

  Love is stupid. Love is stupid, stupid, stupid.