Pretty Hot (The Pretty Trilogy Book 1)

by Donna Alam

  He needs to go boil his head. Preferably using his arse as a receptacle.

  ‘That’s not the point.’ I strain to keep my voice even, trying hard to regulate my rising temper through deep breaths. Truthfully, I’m about two steps beyond blowing my cool. ‘I asked you not to do this, the one thing I asked.’

  ‘To err is human, Katie.’

  ‘Yeah?’ The word hits the air coldly. ‘He’s not peddling that crap here ‘cos I know what a lying bastard he is. He broke my heart, Mum, broke my fucking heart!’ From outrage to tears, the final words crack from the strain of trying to hold it all in. Isn’t unwavering support a mother’s function? Isn’t that a mother’s place? Not mine.

  ‘There’s no need for profanity, that’s not how you were raised.’ Her voice never alters in volume, but the reprimand is there all the same.

  ‘That’s where you’re wrong. There’s every need for profanity the way I feel. If you don’t want to hear it, maybe next time you’ll think about me. Look, Mum, I’ve got to go. I’ll call you soon.’

  I push the end button, wishing it was as easy to end my connection to him.

  Deep breaths, deep breaths. Don’t let it all in.

  Acid washes violently through my stomach as I place my phone on the bench. My mother’s tactics are, as usual, classic passive-aggressive. Though I suppose it’s better than arguing with my stepdad, who leaves me feeling like I’ve banged my head against a solid brick wall.

  ‘Why can’t she be on my side?’ I mutter. Then I remember Matt sitting stock-still on the sofa, forgotten in my soap-opera call.

  ‘Families,’ I say with a weak smile. ‘Can’t live with them . . . so you move to another continent.’ He smiles sympathetically, that small touch of understanding allowing the threatening tears to spill. ‘Christ, I’m losing the plot. I totally cracked the shits with my mum!’ I press fingers against my temples to stave off the building ache. ‘I’m so rooted—she’ll get miles out of this, fucking miles!’

  ‘Hey, it’s okay.’ With his hands on my shoulders, he peers down at me, eyes sincere. ‘I have no idea what you just said, but it can’t be that bad.’

  My return smile is watery, it’s all I can manage as I allow him to lead me to the sofa. My hands shake as adrenaline courses through my bloodstream, a reaction to the possibility of Shane having access to me in any way—I can’t face him. I won’t—and the fact that I’ve totally played into my mother’s hands. She’ll play the injured party forever. Why can’t she ever support me?

  ‘I shouldn’t have lost it with my mum.’ I sniff, wiping my nose with the heel of my hand. ‘She’s a total emotional blackmail ninja.’

  ‘Should I make tea or something?’

  I peek out from behind splayed fingers: tea, the ageless, cross-cultural, crisis management tool. ‘I’m okay, really. I’ll be fine.’ Not to mention, I don’t have any tea. In fact, I don’t have much of anything in the kitchen at all. ‘Just give me a minute then we’ll head out for that coffee.’ I wipe my fingers under my eyes, concerned I might look like a sad panda. ‘What I could really do with is a drink,’ I mutter, wondering where I’d stashed Niamh’s last bottle of wine.

  ‘Hey, now you’re talking!’ Laughing, Matt holds out his hand. ‘As you may remember, I’m an expert in that area.’

  ‘But I don’t think I’ve . . . ’

  ‘No, I’ve got this one. Come on.’

  Grabbing my keys, I pull the door closed as we pass through.

  Chapter Fourteen

  Matt’s living room is almost a mirror image of my own, save for the monstrous tiki-style bar which takes up almost an entire wall. I can see now why Niamh wasn’t sure of their colour scheme as every surface seems to be covered with boy stuff. The walls are plastered with abstract posters and beer mats, the sofas covered in denim-coloured throws. But it’s the massive bar that is the focus of the room. Well-used, and almost battle-worn, it’s pinned with postcards from far flung places and other holiday paraphernalia, including a huge sombrero and a novelty nodding Indian Sadhu. A baba bobble-head, would that be? It would be tacky enough without the accoutrements, but with them it’s lifted into a whole other level of tastelessness. And I love it.

  I clamber onto a high stool as Matt slides in behind the bar with an infectious smile.

  ‘What’ll it be?’

  Definitely more a vin rouge girl, I note the absence of wine amongst the bottles, so opt for a vodka tonic instead.

  ‘Whoa, the hard stuff. Sorry,’ he says, shaking his head, ‘we finished it last night. Straight.’

  ‘After you yakked on the way home?’

  ‘Good for cleansing the palate. Rob’s logic.’ He shrugs.

  ‘Sounds to me like he might’ve been trying to finish you off, especially after you scuppered his and Niamh’s plans!’

  Oh, shit. From Matt’s expression, he obviously had no idea what the pair intended.

  ‘Were they really going to—’

  ‘And most people rinse with mouthwash,’ I bulldoze on. ‘Vodka’s a bit posh for bleach. How about you surprise me with that drink instead?’

  When put like that what else can he do? He begins to select unfamiliar bottles, gathering a glass from beneath the bar. His eyes rise hesitantly to mine once or twice as he examines and measures like someone in a lab. Then, flipping a small bar towel over his shoulder, he places the glass before me, grabbing a beer from the fridge for himself.

  I twirl the stem in my fingers, recognising the shape of the glass, though I’ve never tasted the actual drink before.

  ‘A martini?’

  ‘Dirty, is that okay?’

  ‘How’d you make a martini dirty? Take its knickers off, call it a bad girl?’

  Matt chokes a little, teeth clashing with his beer bottle before he places it down, thumping his chest once with his fist. ‘I think you might’ve confused it with its slutty cousin, the appletini.’

  ‘The appletini does sound like a bit of a flirt,’ I agree.

  ‘And we only serve manly drinks here.’

  ‘That so?’ I eye a bottle of butterscotch schnapps on the shelf behind, without comment. ‘What constitutes a manly drink, then?’

  ‘Beer, straight from the bottle.’ He raises his. ‘The martini, naturally.’

  ‘Of course.’ I dip a finger into my, as yet, untasted drink. Slightly bitter, but not unpleasant. ‘If it’s good enough for Bond.’

  ‘Exactly,’ he agrees. ‘Then there’s vodka, which we don’t have; bourbon, which we do. Would you like me to slip you a couple of fingers?’

  He holds out two gun-like fingers and I know he means the gesture as a measurement, but my smutty mind goes somewhere else, and it’s my turn to choke. Matt, meanwhile, looks like his head’s about to pop off.

  ‘No! I meant . . . you haven’t touched your drink. I could . . .’ His neck moves as he swallows.

  ‘Of course you did,’ I sing.

  The awkwardness clears once I’ve stopped giggling, Matt grateful to move on. We chat about everything, and nothing, including his travel aspirations and mine. He’s very easy to get along with and tactfully doesn’t mention my phone call, other than asking how a person goes about cracking shit, for purely anthropological purposes. In the interest of cultural understanding, I explain. I also further educate him by explaining rooted in Australia is pretty much getting, or being, screwed. Depending on how lucky you are, I suppose.

  One martini becomes two, two becomes three, and I’m feeling extremely relaxed as his phone vibrates against the bar top. As he answers, I realise not only is it getting late, but I’ve also left my phone in my kitchen next door. Toes against the stool rung, I lean across the bar and plant a swift, smacking peck on his cheek. Making to hop down from the stool, I mouth my thanks when his hand catches my wrist.

  ‘Wait,’ he whispers. But there’s no fizz or spark as his skin meets mine, despite the warmth growing in his eyes.

  Mental note to self: no kissing mates in Dubai.

/>   ‘I can’t. Honestly, I’m done in.’

  Hand still on my wrist, he lifts the phone back to his ear and with a curt murmur, he ends the call. As his head turns to mine, I’m reminded of a turret on a tank. ‘What’s your rush? Is it that guy, the one from the hotel?’

  So much for a drink-induced lack of memory. I pull my wrist away.

  ‘That’s none of your business.’

  A frown creases his brow as though attempting recall. ‘Did you stay back at the hotel after we’d left?’ His frown morphs into an expression of surprise, like he can’t believe what he’s said.

  ‘And that’s really none of your business. Just leave it at that, yeah?’

  I leave with his apologies following me through the door.

  Wobbling indignantly along the corridor, I recognise I’m also a teeny bit drunk. Three martinis make Kate well on the way to wasted, which totally excuses misreading the kissing thing, I hope.

  Note to self: European-style goodbyes don’t always translate well into other languages.

  And three martinis also make Kate thirsty, or hell bent on a bit of a bender, so once back in my flat, I open my last bottle of red. Pouring myself a large one, I head to the sofa and grab the remote for the idiot box. But I’m antsy, my mind too busy to pay any attention.

  How bloody dare Matt! He was such a tool. Frikken’ men, where the hell do they get off . . . other than the obvious places.

  Second note to self: men can be complete arseholes.

  The liquid gleams like blood in my glass as I stare into it, my head continuing to swim with angry thoughts. Matt’s behaviour and old news from home, such that it was, are uncomfortable reminders of the promises I’d made to myself. To protect myself. But how is it that, even as cross as I feel, my every second thought is of Kai? Of how, last night, I’d stepped out of myself for a moment, out of my comfort zone. How right it felt. Could I have done that with anyone else?

  Closure. That has to be it, a sort of primal thing. And like Niamh said, getting under a new man to prove I’ve moved on from the old. Okay, slightly drunk and incredibly horny closure, but my reasoning is sound, right?

  Maybe I should dig out Reading without Heaving, or whatever it’s called. Reread a few chapters. Once I’ve finished my wine.

  In the dark, I come to, my face plastered against the sofa cushion, an empty glass cradled to my chest. My phone is ringing. Wincing, I switch on the kitchen light, mentally preparing some choice vocabulary additions for my mum, just in case. I have two missed calls from Australia, along with the current one.

  ‘Kitten.’ This one husky word pulls taut invisible strings inside. If voices were a flavour, I’m sure Kai’s would be caramel. And despite earlier abstinence plans, I find I don’t mind being referred to as a feline by this man. ‘You do know the thing you’re holding to your ear is called a mobile for a reason, or are you avoiding me?’

  I can almost hear his rancorously raised eyebrow down the line.

  ‘No, I like talking to you. You’re a pretty cunning linguist,’ I say with a giggle, then replay the statement in my head, surprised the words came out coherently.

  ‘Cunnilingus?’ Enunciated slowly, the word rings with salacious intent. ‘Are we talking dirty again?’

  I don’t have a response. In fact, I can’t think beyond his mention of cunnilingus. The effect on my body is disconcerting, my knees requiring that I sit down.

  ‘I didn’t say that,’ I eventually answer, albeit a little breathlessly.

  ‘Don’t spoil my fun, I’m allowed to imagine.’ He laughs, the rich, seductive sound vibrating down the line.

  And I like that he’s imagining. In fact, right now, I’d like to audition for a starring role in those thoughts. That I don’t answer doesn’t seem to put him off his stride, the words rolling down the line and straight to my lady-parts.

  ‘You’ve been on the sauce and that’s something I don’t need to imagine. Your face flushed with wine, lips plump with the taste of it . . . Tell me, did you enjoy a girly liquid lunch or are you drinking alone now? Drowning your sorrows and thinking of me, perhaps?’

  ‘I’m not lonely,’ I answer, realising this as true. Dubai hasn’t allowed me to be.

  ‘I thought you might be missing me.’ Forlorn. It’s like a sweater that doesn’t fit.

  ‘I had sundowners. Martinis.’ No need to mention the half empty bottle propped next to my arm. ‘Dirty. Like you.’ Crap. Did I just say that out loud?

  ‘And you like that, do you?’

  ‘Maybe.’ My fingertips jump and dance along the worktop as he hums down the line. It’s the best explanation I can come up with; a breath of appreciation that curls around my ear and shoots straight to my crotch.

  ‘Dirty from the girl who suggests cunn—’

  ‘Did not.’

  ‘It’s always good to know what’s on your mind. It’s even better when minds are synchronized.’

  My brain and mouth may not be cooperating, but I’m sentient enough to know if he were here, I’d be in trouble.

  ‘You’ve gone awfully quiet.’ His smouldering tone turns to teasing. ‘I’d love to know what you’re thinking.’

  ‘Trust me, you don’t.’

  ‘Would you like to know what I’m thinking?’

  ‘Erm, no.’ Because his tone drips with it.

  ‘So you don’t want to know I’m wondering if you’re free tomorrow.’

  ‘Oh. Yes.’

  ‘Yes, you want to know more, or yes you’re available for anything I please?’

  ‘Depends on what you have in mind.’

  ‘Lots of things, but I’d settle for something to eat and a chance to . . . talk.’

  ‘I could do that.’ I try, and fail, to suppress the squeak at the end of my words, before remembering the realities of the day. ‘After work?’ Definitely not dinner. No alcohol or bad decisions made in the cocooning dark.

  ‘If you’d prefer. My driver could collect you at four, if that suits?’

  ‘I can make my own way . . . wherever.’

  ‘Nonsense,’ he scoffs. ‘What would be the sense in that?’

  ‘No, really. I’ll get a cab.’ I’m not sure why I feel the need to be so insistent, or why I feel a sudden satisfaction as he agrees in an exasperated tone.

  ‘At the hotel, then. Make yours a martini, shall I?’

  And with what can only be described as a filthy laugh, the line goes dead. Just as well, as I have no words. Not in my throat, not in my head, although my thrumming pulse seems to have quite a bit to say. Mouth suddenly dry, I grab a bottle of water from the fridge and carry it into the lounge, collapsing once more against the sofa.

  He says he wants to talk. I wonder if that’s a euphemism for something else.

  Chapter Fifteen

  Act in haste, repent in leisure.

  Playing it cool I’m not as I stand outside waiting for my overdue cab. The late afternoon sun is still hot enough to scorch the pavement, its rays rebounding from the surface and burning my work tired feet. At least I’d had the presence of mind to wear ballet flats today.

  I’m not dressed for the weather, the fabric of my dress is unforgiving in the heat, making it feel like some kind of horse-hair/latex mix. It had seemed like a good choice for a daytime meet, not too overt. Functional, with a side order of sexy. A sort of I-like-that-you-look-but-I-won’t-allow-you-to-touch kind of dress.

  Wonder if it’ll work?

  Just before my body reaches the chemically correct point for melting skin from bone, my cab arrives. Hurrah!

  The hotel foyer is sublimely cool after the taxi’s crappy air con but as sweat beads on my back, I further regret my choice of dress. I imagine a dark spot forming at the base of my spine and pull the fabric away from my skin in a flapping motion as, with a sinking feeling, I realise I don’t know where we’re supposed to meet. There have got to be at least a dozen restaurants here. Then, all of a sudden, Kai takes my hands in his much larger ones, mid-flap.

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bsp; ‘You’ve kept me waiting.’ His is a serious tone and for reasons I don’t understand, it makes my stomach flip. Dressed in dark jeans and a gleaming white shirt, he looks pristine and polished, with just an edge of rogue.

  He towers over me, making me feel tiny, helping me recall how amazing it felt to be held by his arms. Flustered, I blink rapidly and stare up into his mock-admonishing expression.

  ‘S-sorry, my cab was late.’

  ‘Forgiven. I hope you’re hungry.’ His eyes glitter in the setting sun as he steps backwards, leading the way.

  But for Kai and myself, the elevator is empty as the doors close in a soft susurrus. He leans closer, his nearness stealing the breath from my lungs. My breath hitches in that instant, an instant where I can almost taste his mouth. I tilt my head as, eyes lustrous, his hand reaches out, fingertips brushing my waist. My entire skin ignites, my heart pounding loudly as I anticipate the touch of his mouth over mine . . . Then I realise he’s reaching for a button on the elevator panel next to my hip.

  My heart stays on the ground floor as the elevator rises, my shoulders following suit.

  ‘I thought about it.’ The words are delivered in a low rumble, his hand grasping mine, lightning fast. Where they join, a very masculine watch covers his wrist. The kind I imagine comes with an instruction manual to decipher its many dials and functions. Breitling, maybe?

  ‘I don’t know what you mean.’

  ‘Your poker face leaves a bit to be desired.’ He glances at me pointedly, challenging my pretence with his fingers at my chin. Raising both my face and the stakes, he kisses me softly, pressing me against the wall.

  ‘Someone will see.’ I make a half-hearted attempt to pull from his arms, conscious of the elevator doors and their propensity for opening unexpectedly.

  ‘And if I’d acted on your expression?’ he whispers hotly against my ear. ‘Because there’s no hiding what’s on your mind.’

  ‘Maybe you need glasses,’ I rasp, extracting myself from his embrace precisely one moment before the doors ping