A Soldier's Love: Mail Order Bride (Brides and Twins Book 1)

by Natalie Dean

  His voice sounded so sincere that she almost wanted to turn to him. She almost gave in and told him everything. About the boy on the bed about what had happened in New York.

  But then she reminded herself that it wasn’t only his judgment she was afraid of.

  Elijah was the pastor of a small town, a very close knit community. If anyone in his flock knew who she really was…

  No. If she were to live safely, happily here, she would have to keep her silence.

  So, putting on the most genuine smile she could, she turned to him.

  “I know you wouldn’t judge me,” she said. “And, if there were something you truly needed to know, I would not hesitate to tell you. But, there isn’t. I’ve told you all there is to know about me already.”

  He looked at her seriously for one moment. For that terrible moment, Agatha dreaded that her lie had not worked. That he would see through her and know instinctively what it was she was keeping from him.

  The moment passed however, and he smiled back at her.

  “You’d best wake the guests,” he said. “I’ll set the table.”

  Her eyes followed him as he took the plates out to the kitchen. A strange mix of emotions filled her.

  Relief that her secret could still be kept a bit longer. Fear that, with that new guest in town, it would not be kept much longer than that.

  Chapter 5

  Elijah Rhodes looked sideways at his future bride in the small wooden wagon as they traveled back from the Dixon’s farm. She was smiling gently and twisting a piece of her long, curled brown hair around her finger.

  He knew both to be good signs when it came to Agatha. In the few days he had known her, he’d come to realize that true smiles, ones that were not forced or shy were rare. And it was even more rare to catch her smiling when she was not speaking to someone.

  She had not smiled at all on the road to the Dixon’s farm. Nor had she smiled or spoken much at all at breakfast. Though she denied it, Elijah knew something about that encounter with the injured young man had shaken her.

  He knew that he would have to find out what it was that had her so terrified. What it was that she was not telling him.

  But, when he glanced over at her again, her smile had widened, and she had now begun to hum a tuneless sort of song. It was clear she was happy. He couldn’t bear to see the smile fade from her face quite yet. And he knew it would the moment he asked again about her past.

  “I was glad to see you and Mrs. Jacobs getting along so well,” he said instead. She turned to him, and his heart fluttered a bit in his chest when her smile remained, and those green eyes sparkled up at him.

  “It was nice to speak to someone who knows what it’s like to move out here alone,” she said. “Someone who has been in my position before.”

  “I thought it might be,” he said. “And it always does me a bit of good to get out of town. Into the open country.”

  Agatha gave a small giggle that made Elijah’s heart lift even further.

  “It seems the whole world is open country here,” she said. “Before coming here, I didn’t know there was so much green in the world.”

  “Come to think of it, I guess Wyoming is a bit greener than you might be used to,” he said. “In spring and summer at least. But, just wait until winter. The whole place will be covered in snow for months.”

  “We got plenty of that in New York,” Agatha said. “Though, it didn’t stop the factories from running. My mother used to make me put on piles of clothes before I headed out for work in the morning. I was so heavy by the time I left our home that I was afraid I would topple over.”

  Elijah laughed at the image as they reached the edge of town.

  “Mothers are known to be overprotective, I suppose,” he said.

  “Mine certainly was,” Agatha replied. “I don’t know what she would say if she knew I’d gone west all alone to meet a man I’d never met.”

  The smile faded from her face and Elijah was more than sorry to see it go. He knew Agatha’s mother had died two years before, but, that was the most Agatha had ever said about her, either in letters or in person.

  “You don’t think she would have approved?” Elijah asked carefully. Agatha shrugged, turning away from him. Her finger was still circling her hair.

  “She knew I could take care of myself,” Agatha said. “But, she would not have liked the idea of me moving so far away from her. I was her only child, and we were…very close.”

  Elijah could see a small cloud come over Agatha’s face, and he had the desperate urge to bring her smile back.

  “I was my mother’s only child too, you know,” he said. “But, when I went to seminary, I think she was more than happy to be rid of me. I caused no end of trouble in my younger days.”

  Agatha turned to him wide-eyed, with an interested smirk on her face.

  “I cannot picture you as being a troublemaker,” she said. “Even as a child.”

  “Oh, but I was,” Elijah answered with a chuckle. “My most infamous prank was when I painted all the sheep on our neighbor’s farm green. His son had teased me about my books in school, and I wanted to get back at him. Then there was the time I doused the school teacher with cold water from the creek. Though, that was my friend, Billy Thornton’s idea, not mine…”

  Humorous stories about his childhood carried them from the road back to the hotel. When they arrived, the ghost of a smile had returned to her face.

  When he touched her hand to help her out of the wagon, the warmth and weight of her skin on his, the small smile on her face almost made him forget what he would have to ask her. For a moment, he thought that, whatever had happened with that boy, it might be best to leave it be.

  This feeling lasted until they walked inside the parlor of the hotel. There, in the sitting room, clearly looking and feeling much better than he had that morning, was the dark-haired boy who claimed to know Agatha.

  Agatha stopped in her tracks the moment she saw him. Elijah turned to her and saw her face become a ghostly shade of pale.

  The boy, however, gave them a smirk that could only be called mischievous. He stood from his chair and moved towards them, his hand outstretched.

  “Mrs. Matthews tells me you’re the pastor around here,” he said. “My name’s Luke Crenshaw.”

  “Elijah Rhodes,” Elijah said shaking the boy's hand. “And this is my fiancé, Agatha Thorne.”

  Luke blinked when Agatha’s name was given. He recovered easily, however, and gave her a wider and altogether more sinister smile.

  “Miss Thorne, then,” he said taking her hand in his. “I believe we’ve met before.”

  “I…I suppose it’s possible,” Agatha said. “I knew a lot of people back home.”

  Agatha pulled her hand away from Luke’s and stepped back towards the hall.

  “If you’ll both excuse me, I…I need to dress for dinner.”

  Without so much as a backward glance at the two men, Agatha fled down the hallway towards her room.

  Elijah stared at the spot where she had disappeared, wondering whether he should follow her. Find out once and for all what had her so terrified. Before he could decide, a voice spoke from behind him.

  “She always was a jittery girl,” Luke Crenshaw said. “A scared little rabbit. Ready to run at the first sign of a predator.”

  Elijah turned back to the boy who now stood with his hands in his pockets, that damnable smirk plastered on his face.

  “You have met before then,” Elijah said hesitantly.

  “Oh, yes,” Luke said. “Though she wasn’t Miss Thorne then. No, back in New York she was Agatha McPherson. I have to say, in a thousand years, I never thought I’d find her here, engaged to a pastor of all things.”

  “And why is that?” Elijah asked.

  The boy’s smile widened.

  “You don’t know?” Mr. Crenshaw asked.

  “I suppose not.”

  Crenshaw let out a laugh nearly as sinister as his smile.
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  “Well then, take a seat, Pastor,” he said. “Let me tell you everything you need to know about your new bride. And, after you’ve heard my story, you just might want to thank me…”

  Chapter 6

  Agatha sat on the bed in her room, her dress for supper laid out at the end, untouched.

  Since she’d entered the room, her hands had been shaking with nervous energy. She was too anxious to get dressed. She was not sure if she would be able to go to dinner. As a matter of fact, she didn’t know if she could get up from the bed at all.

  Agatha thought that she would never see Luke Crenshaw again. And now, here he was. And, if she knew Crenshaw, he wouldn’t hesitate to destroy the life she had worked to build for herself here. Especially not if there was something in it for him.

  But, that was the thing she couldn’t work out. Why had Luke Crenshaw come all the way out west? He had a perfect job at the factory. He was the owner’s most trusted foreman, his right-hand man. He wouldn’t have left unless something had happened.

  If he’d been forced to leave New York, whatever the reason, that meant he was desperate. Luke Crenshaw was the sleaziest of rats under the best of circumstances. But, when he was cornered, he was like a vicious animal. Ready to destroy anything that crossed him.

  And, with everything he knew about Agatha, he could destroy her whole future. What’s more, he could destroy Elijah as well.

  Agatha had long since stopped worrying about what might happen to her. But, Elijah was a good man. Kinder and gentler than any man she’d known her entire life. He didn’t deserve the shame Crenshaw could bring.

  All these thoughts chased themselves around in her mind so quickly that she couldn’t catch hold of one. She was still trying to string them together in some coherent fashion when a knock sounded on her door.

  “Agatha?” Elijah’s voice called. Her cheeks grew warm, and her heart began to race. “Agatha, please open the door. I need to speak with you.”

  At those words, Agatha pushed herself straight up on the bed. He knew. She could tell by the sound of his voice.

  If that was true, there was nothing left for her to do.

  Hands shaking, she pushed herself up from the bed and, slowly, made her way towards the door.

  Opening it slightly, she looked up at his tall frame. Light brown hair tinged only slightly with gray falling into his brown eyes.

  She tried to read the expression on his face but, for the first time since she had met Elijah, his eyes looked completely closed, neutral. With a deep breath, she opened the door wider, and he stepped inside.

  He didn’t say a word until she closed the door behind him.

  “I’ve been speaking to Luke Crenshaw,” he said.

  “What did he say?” she asked. She was very aware that her voice was shaking. If Elijah hadn’t known that she had something to hide before, he certainly did now.

  “He said a lot of things,” Elijah told her. “But, before we discuss it, I’d like to hear the truth from you.”

  Biting down hard on her lip, Agatha nodded, moved to the bed and sat down, with her back towards Elijah. If she was to tell him the truth, she knew she would not be able to look at him as she did.

  “You have to understand,” she said slowly. “My mother was sick. The doctors said there was nothing they could do. She was in a lot of pain, and the pain medication cost more money than we could afford. I was working at the factory then. Crenshaw was the foreman in charge of us. He’d taken a…fancy to me.”

  As she said the words, a shiver ran through her, she wrapped her arms around herself, hoping to stem the chill.

  “He said that he could get medicine to ease my mother’s pain if I did things for him. Things…things no proper lady should do. I know I shouldn’t have. But, I couldn’t stand to see my mother like that. I couldn’t stand to hear her crying out in her sleep at night or sobbing when she thought I wasn’t listening. So…I agreed.”

  “That would have been two years ago,” Elijah said softly. “Before your mother died?”

  Agatha nodded.

  “He was at least good to his word. He gave her the medicine,” she said. “But…then…just after mama died, I found things out about him. About how he had been stealing money from the factory owner. He had receipts, doctored books. I didn’t have much schooling, but I knew enough to know what it all meant. When Luke found out that I knew, he had me fired. And, he said if I ever told anyone, he would have me arrested.”

  “Is that why you wrote to me?” Elijah asked.

  “Yes,” Agatha said. Her voice was hollow and broken even to her own ears. “I didn’t have anywhere to go. I had no money, and the town I lived in was small. Most people worked at the factory. Gossip had already started about Luke and me there.”

  “But, that’s not all, is it, Agatha?” he asked. “There’s something else. Something Luke wants from you now.”

  She felt her cheeks grow warm. She had prayed to God that Luke wouldn’t know about the books she had taken. Ever since she saw him the night before, she’d tried to make up all sorts of reasons that he could be in Laramie Wyoming. Told herself it was a coincidence.

  Now she knew coincidences of that kind were nearly impossible. She knew what she should have known from the start. Luke Crenshaw would never let her go. Not given what she knew.

  “I…I took some of the pages from the books he’d doctored,” Agatha said. “I was going to show them to the owner of the factory. I was going to try and prove to him that Luke was stealing from him. But…”

  “Luke, had you fired before you could?” Elijah asked.

  Agatha, unable to speak anymore, simply nodded.

  A long stretch of silence passed between them.

  Finally, she heard the creaking of boards on the wood floor of her room. Her back still turned towards Elijah, she felt him come close behind her.

  “Why didn’t you tell me?” he asked softly.

  “Isn’t it obvious why I didn’t?” Agatha asked, her voice wavering slightly as tears threatened to cloud her eyes. “No decent man would marry a woman who has been soiled. Back home, I saw how men looked at me after they knew what I’d done. And I knew, a pastor, someone with a congregation and a town of his own that looked up to him…I could never hope to become the wife of a man like you. Not with my past. So, it was easier to pretend it hadn’t happened. It was easier to pretend I was still pure.”

  That word, ‘pure,' barely made its way out of her mouth before the tears began to roll down her cheeks. She bit her lip to keep from sobbing out loud.

  Another silence stretched between them. Then, she heard Elijah’s footsteps once again.

  This time, his shadow crossed over her as he made his way towards the bed. She held her breath as he reached out a hand and touched her cheek.

  His gray eyes looked into hers, and she was more than a bit surprised to see the flicker of understanding on his face.

  “Agatha,” he said softly. “You are pure. One of the purest souls I’ve ever met.”

  “How can you say that?” Agatha asked. “How can you say that now that you know what I- “

  “You did what you had to do to help your mother,” he said gently. “Anyone in that position would have done the same. God does not blame you for that. And neither do I.”

  Agatha looked into his face searching for some hint that he was lying to her. Some hint of disgust that betrayed the gentle words he’d spoken. It wasn’t there.

  Instead, the ghost of that warm smile she had come to love flickered across his face.

  In that moment, she wanted to throw her arms around him. To hold him and thank him and never let go. But, something held her back. Something that would not let her joy, their joy, be fully realized.

  “I doubt your congregation will see it that way,” she said. “A pastor doesn’t need a wife that half the town will gossip about.”

  “That’s what Mr. Crenshaw believes as well,” Elijah said. “He told me to hand both you and the
books you’ve taken over to him. If I do, he won’t say a word about the woman I almost married.”

  “And if you don’t?”

  “There’s a newspaper in town now,” Elijah said. “If I refuse to hand you over along with the books he doctored, he’ll print an article about your affair in detail. Everyone in town will read it.”

  Agatha bit her lip again and looked down at her feet.

  “It seems as though you don’t have much choice then,” she said.

  “Not necessarily.”

  Elijah’s voice sounded much hardier than she had expected it to. And, when she looked up at him, he was giving her a mischievous smile to marvel even that of Luke Crenshaw.

  “What do you mean?” Agatha asked.

  “I mean, I happen to have a friend at the town newspaper,” Elijah said. “And, if you help me write an article about Luke Crenshaw’s misdeeds, we may be able to beat him at his own game.”

  Chapter 7

  It was nearly sunset when Elijah Rhodes made his way out of the hotel. The streets of Laramie were dark and nearly deserted. The only light shone from the new saloon building which also produced the distant sound of laughter and poorly played piano music.

  Elijah passed it and made instead for the small building on the saloon’s right-hand side. The building that held the hastily built office of the newly formed Laramie Gazette.

  Sam Jenkins, a former farm hand at the Miles Ranch just outside of town started the paper just one month before. It consisted of only one page and hand full of articles.

  He knew that Sam could not afford to turn down any hint of news. And this was the closest Laramie had ever come to having a major scandal.

  Elijah approached the door and knocked, praying Sam had not set the type for the morning paper yet.

  Luckily the door opened quickly. That told Elijah that Sam had been at his desk when he’d knocked. That meant the young man was still writing.

  “Pastor!” Sam said, eyes widening in surprise. “What can I do for you?”

  Sam was young and wiry with ruddy skin, bright hazel eyes and dark hair. He looked like the sort of boy who would be at home on a ranch but, certainly not in a newspaper office.