The Complete Works of Henry James

by Henry James

  Gordon turned his pleading eyes on his old friend without a ray of concession; but for a moment he hesitated. “Don’t speak to me of my wife. I have no wife.”

  “Ah, poor girl!” said Angela, springing up from the sofa.

  “I am perfectly serious,” Gordon went on, addressing himself again to her. “No, after all, I am not crazy; I see only too clearly—I see what should be; when people see that, you call them crazy. Bernard has no right— he must give you up. If you really care for him, you should help him. He is in a very false position; you should n’t wish to see him in such a position. I can’t explain to you—if it were even for my own sake. But Bernard must have told you; it is not possible that he has not told you?”

  “I have told Angela everything, Gordon,” said Bernard.

  “I don’t know what you mean by your having done me a wrong!” the girl exclaimed.

  “If he has told you, then—I may say it! In listening to him, in believing him.”

  “But you did n’t believe me,” Bernard exclaimed, “since you immediately went and offered yourself to Miss Vivian!”

  “I believed you all the same! When did I ever not believe you?”

  “The last words I ever heard from Mr. Wright were words of the deepest kindness,” said Angela.

  She spoke with such a serious, tender grace, that Gordon seemed stirred to his depths again.

  “Ah, give me another chance!” he moaned.

  The poor girl could not help her tone, and it was in the same tone that she continued—

  “If you think so well of me, try and be reasonable.”

  Gordon looked at her, slowly shaking his head.

  “Reasonable—reasonable? Yes, you have a right to say that, for you are full of reason. But so am I. What I ask is within reasonable limits. “

  “Granting your happiness were lost,” said Bernard—”I say that only for the argument—is that a ground for your wishing to deprive me of mine?”

  “It is not yours—it is mine, that you have taken! You put me off my guard, and then you took it! Yours is elsewhere, and you are welcome to it!”

  “Ah,” murmured Bernard, giving him a long look and turning away, “it is well for you that I am willing still to regard you as my best friend!”

  Gordon went on, more passionately, to Angela.

  “He put me off my guard—I can’t call it anything else. I know I gave him a great chance—I encouraged him, urged him, tempted him. But when once he had spoken, he should have stood to it. He should n’t have had two opinions—one for me, and one for himself! He put me off my guard. It was because I still resisted him that I went to you again, that last time. But I was still afraid of you, and in my heart I believed him. As I say, I always believed him; it was his great influence upon me. He is the cleverest, the most intelligent, the most brilliant of men. I don’t think that a grain less than I ever thought it,” he continued, turning again to Bernard. “I think it only the more, and I don’t wonder that you find a woman to believe it. But what have you done but deceive me? It was just my belief in your intelligence that reassured me. When Miss Vivian refused me a second time, and I left Baden, it was at first with a sort of relief. But there came back a better feeling—a feeling faint compared to this feeling of to-day, but strong enough to make me uneasy and to fill me with regret. To quench my regret, I kept thinking of what you had said, and it kept me quiet. Your word had such weight with me!”

  “How many times more would you have wished to be refused, and how many refusals would have been required to give me my liberty?” asked Bernard.

  “That question means nothing, because you never knew that I had again offered myself to Miss Vivian.”

  “No; you told me very little, considering all that you made me tell you.”

  “I told you beforehand that I should do exactly as I chose.”

  “You should have allowed me the same liberty!”

  “Liberty!” cried Gordon. “Had n’t you liberty to range the whole world over? Could n’t he have found a thousand other women?”

  “It is not for me to think so,” said Angela, smiling a little.

  Gordon looked at her a moment.

  “Ah, you cared for him from the first!” he cried.

  “I had seen him before I ever saw you,” said the girl.

  Bernard suppressed an exclamation. There seemed to flash through these words a sort of retrospective confession which told him something that she had never directly told him. She blushed as soon as she had spoken, and Bernard found a beauty in this of which the brightness blinded him to the awkward aspect of the fact she had just presented to Gordon. At this fact Gordon stood staring; then at last he apprehended it—largely.

  “Ah, then, it had been a plot between you!” he cried out.

  Bernard and Angela exchanged a glance of pity.

  “We had met for five minutes, and had exchanged a few words before I came to Baden. It was in Italy—at Siena. It was a simple accident that I never told you,” Bernard explained.

  “I wished that nothing should be said about it,” said Angela.

  “Ah, you loved him!” Gordon exclaimed.

  Angela turned away—she went to the window. Bernard followed her for three seconds with his eyes; then he went on—

  “If it were so, I had no reason to suppose it. You have accused me of deceiving you, but I deceived only myself. You say I put you off your guard, but you should rather say you put me on mine. It was, thanks to that, that I fell into the most senseless, the most brutal of delusions. The delusion passed away— it had contained the germ of better things. I saw my error, and I bitterly repented of it; and on the day you were married I felt free.”

  “Ah, yes, I have no doubt you waited for that!” cried Gordon. “It may interest you to know that my marriage is a miserable failure.”

  “I am sorry to hear it—but I can’t help it.”

  “You have seen it with your own eyes. You know all about it, and I need n’t tell you.”

  “My dear Mr. Wright,” said Angela, pleadingly, turning round, “in Heaven’s name, don’t say that!”

  “Why should n’t I say it? I came here on purpose to say it. I came here with an intention—with a plan. You know what Blanche is— you need n’t pretend, for kindness to me, that you don’t. You know what a precious, what an inestimable wife she must make me— how devoted, how sympathetic she must be, and what a household blessing at every hour of the day. Bernard can tell you all about us—he has seen us in the sanctity of our home.” Gordon gave a bitter laugh and went on, with the same strange, serious air of explaining his plan. “She despises me, she hates me, she cares no more for me than for the button on her glove— by which I mean that she does n’t care a hundredth part as much. You may say that it serves me right, and that I have got what I deserve. I married her because she was silly. I wanted a silly wife; I had an idea you were too wise. Oh, yes, that ‘s what I thought of you! Blanche knew why I picked her out, and undertook to supply the article required. Heaven forgive her! She has certainly kept her engagement. But you can imagine how it must have made her like me— knowing why I picked her out! She has disappointed me all the same. I thought she had a heart; but that was a mistake. It does n’t matter, though, because everything is over between us.”

  “What do you mean, everything is over?” Bernard demanded.

  “Everything will be over in a few weeks. Then I can speak to Miss Vivian seriously.”

  “Ah! I am glad to hear this is not serious,” said Bernard.

  “Miss Vivian, wait a few weeks,” Gordon went on. “Give me another chance then. Then it will be perfectly right; I shall be free.”

  “You speak as if you were going to put an end to your wife!”

  “She is rapidly putting an end to herself. She means to leave me.”

  “Poor, unhappy man, do you know what you are saying?” Angela murmured.

  “Perfectly. I came here to say it. She means to leave me, and I mean to
offer her every facility. She is dying to take a lover, and she has got an excellent one waiting for her. Bernard knows whom I mean; I don’t know whether you do. She was ready to take one three months after our marriage. It is really very good of her to have waited all this time; but I don’t think she can go more than a week or two longer. She is recommended a southern climate, and I am pretty sure that in the course of another ten days I may count upon their starting together for the shores of the Mediterranean. The shores of the Mediterranean, you know, are lovely, and I hope they will do her a world of good. As soon as they have left Paris I will let you know; and then you will of course admit that, virtually, I am free.”

  “I don’t understand you.”

  “I suppose you are aware,” said Gordon, “that we have the advantage of being natives of a country in which marriages may be legally dissolved.”

  Angela stared; then, softly—

  “Are you speaking of a divorce?”

  “I believe that is what they call it,” Gordon answered, gazing back at her with his densely clouded blue eyes. “The lawyers do it for you; and if she goes away with Lovelock, nothing will be more simple than for me to have it arranged.”

  Angela stared, I say; and Bernard was staring, too. Then the latter, turning away, broke out into a tremendous, irrepressible laugh.

  Gordon looked at him a moment; then he said to Angela, with a deeper tremor in his voice—

  “He was my dearest friend.”

  “I never felt more devoted to you than at this moment!” Bernard declared, smiling still.

  Gordon had fixed his sombre eyes upon the girl again.

  “Do you understand me now?”

  Angela looked back at him for some instants.

  “Yes,” she murmured at last.

  “And will you wait, and give me another chance?”

  “Yes,” she said, in the same tone.

  Bernard uttered a quick exclamation, but Angela checked him with a glance, and Gordon looked from one of them to the other.

  “Can I trust you?” Gordon asked.

  “I will make you happy,” said Angela.

  Bernard wondered what under the sun she meant; but he thought he might safely add—

  “I will abide by her choice.”

  Gordon actually began to smile.

  “It won’t be long, I think; two or three weeks.”

  Angela made no answer to this; she fixed her eyes on the floor.

  “I shall see Blanche as often as possible,” she presently said.

  “By all means! The more you see her the better you will understand me. “

  “I understand you very well now. But you have shaken me very much, and you must leave me. I shall see you also—often.”

  Gordon took up his hat and stick; he saw that Bernard did not do the same.

  “And Bernard?” he exclaimed.

  “I shall ask him to leave Paris,” said Angela.

  “Will you go?”

  “I will do what Angela requests,” said Bernard.

  “You have heard what she requests; it ‘s for you to come now.”

  “Ah, you must at least allow me to take leave!” cried Bernard.

  Gordon went to the door, and when he had opened it he stood for a while, holding it and looking at his companions. Then—

  “I assure you she won’t be long!” he said to Angela, and rapidly passed out.

  The others stood silent till they heard the outer door of the apartment close behind him.

  “And now please to elucidate!” said Bernard, folding his arms.

  Angela gave no answer for some moments; then she turned upon him a smile which appeared incongruous, but which her words presently helped to explain.

  “He is intensely in love with his wife!”

  CHAPTER XXIX

  This statement was very effective, but it might well have seemed at first to do more credit to her satiric powers than to her faculty of observation. This was the light in which it presented itself to Bernard; but, little by little, as she amplified the text, he grew to think well of it, and at last he was quite ready to place it, as a triumph of sagacity, on a level with that other discovery which she had made the evening before and with regard to which his especial errand to-day had been to congratulate her afresh. It brought him, however, less satisfaction than it appeared to bring to his clever companion; for, as he observed plausibly enough, Gordon was quite out of his head, and, this being the case, of what importance was the secret of his heart?

  “The secret of his heart and the condition of his head are one and the same thing,” said Angela. “He is turned upside down by the wretchedly false position that he has got into with his wife. She has treated him badly, but he has treated her wrongly. They are in love with each other, and yet they both do nothing but hide it. He is not in the least in love with poor me— not to-day any more than he was three years ago. He thinks he is, because he is full of sorrow and bitterness, and because the news of our engagement has given him a shock. But that ‘s only a pretext—a chance to pour out the grief and pain which have been accumulating in his heart under a sense of his estrangement from Blanche. He is too proud to attribute his feelings to that cause, even to himself; but he wanted to cry out and say he was hurt, to demand justice for a wrong; and the revelation of the state of things between you and me— which of course strikes him as incongruous; we must allow largely for that—came to him as a sudden opportunity. No, no,” the girl went on, with a generous ardor in her face, following further the train of her argument, which she appeared to find extremely attractive, “I know what you are going to say and I deny it. I am not fanciful, or sophistical, or irrational, and I know perfectly what I am about. Men are so stupid; it ‘s only women that have real discernment. Leave me alone, and I shall do something. Blanche is silly, yes, very silly; but she is not so bad as her husband accused her of being, in those dreadful words which he will live to repent of. She is wise enough to care for him, greatly, at bottom, and to feel her little heart filled with rage and shame that he does n’t appear to care for her. If he would take her a little more seriously—it ‘s an immense pity he married her because she was silly!—she would be flattered by it, and she would try and deserve it. No, no, no! she does n’t, in reality, care a straw for Captain Lovelock, I assure you, I promise you she does n’t. A woman can tell. She is in danger, possibly, and if her present situation, as regards her husband, lasts, she might do something as horrid as he said. But she would do it out of spite—not out of affection for the Captain, who must be got immediately out of the way. She only keeps him to torment her husband and make Gordon come back to her. She would drop him forever to-morrow.” Angela paused a moment, reflecting, with a kindled eye. “And she shall!”

  Bernard looked incredulous.

  “How will that be, Miss Solomon?”

  “You shall see when you come back.”

  “When I come back? Pray, where am I going?”

  “You will leave Paris for a fortnight—as I promised our poor friend.”

  Bernard gave an irate laugh.

  “My dear girl, you are ridiculous! Your promising it was almost as childish as his asking it.”

  “To play with a child you must be childish. Just see the effect of this abominable passion of love, which you have been crying up to me so! By its operation Gordon Wright, the most sensible man of our acquaintance, is reduced to the level of infancy! If you will only go away, I will manage him.”

  “You certainly manage me! Pray, where shall I go?”

  “Wherever you choose. I will write to you every day.”

  “That will be an inducement,” said Bernard. “You know I have never received a letter from you.”

  “I write the most delightful ones!” Angela exclaimed; and she succeeded in making him promise to start that night for London.

  She had just done so when Mrs. Vivian presented herself, and the good lady was not a little astonished at being informed of his intention.


  “You surely are not going to give up my daughter to oblige Mr. Wright?” she observed.

  “Upon my word, I feel as if I were!” said Bernard.

  “I will explain it, dear mamma,” said Angela. “It is very interesting. Mr. Wright has made a most fearful scene; the state of things between him and Blanche is dreadful.”

  Mrs. Vivian opened her clear eyes.

  “You really speak as if you liked it!”

  “She does like it—she told Gordon so,” said Bernard. “I don’t know what she is up to! Gordon has taken leave of his wits; he wishes to put away his wife.”