by Mj Fields
He took a deep breath ���Yes.���
���And did you return the favor?���
He laughed, ���No, I don���t do that, it���s normally all about me, until this morning.���
���Seriously?���
���And I was right, I knew you would be delicious.��� he grinned.
���Well, why haven���t you before?��� she asked curiously.
���I told you, all about me, plus I certainly don���t want to catch anything,��� he smiled.
���Well, what about me?��� she asked, he laughed. ���Oh, so does that mean that won���t happen again?���
���Oh no, I���ve found a new hobby, S���mores baby.��� He squeezed her hand.
That���s good, she thought and grinned.
���So how many other people since Sadi?���
���None Tessa��� he looked at her, ���None. Okay, spill it.���
She told him about it and about the cop. He laughed, ���Ha see, and that wasn���t supposed to happen��� he was into you.���
���But, I love you.���
���You better,��� he said and grinned. ���Anything else?���
���Well, he touched my breasts.���
���I know.���
���You heard us?���
���Yep, another not so nice moment,��� he said. ���I also heard you stick up for me that night.���
���Well, why did you ask me?���
���Just wanted to be sure you���re still the same girl.���
���I love you,��� she said and took a deep breath.
���Tessa, do you care about him?���
���Yes, I do. But not like you, it���s different; he���ll be my friend probably forever. Are you okay with that?���
���Do I need to worry?���
���Not at all. With both Ben and Toby, I just wanted to feel the way I felt with you. And I felt deeply for Toby. Safe, loved, and with Ben he was fun, and I felt like he adored me. But with you, from the first time I saw you look at me I felt��� naked���. I know that���s the wrong way to explain it, but I knew you saw something I didn���t know was there. I had a dream about you. I knew���know I love you and that I always will. It scares me, but I feel drawn to you.���
���I can tell when you walk in a room Tessa without even seeing you,��� Lucas whispered.
���I don���t just feel like I love you, I feel like I need you,��� Tessa said softly.
���Mmm, Tessa you���re amazing,��� he smiled at her.
���Seriously, dead puppies?��� she asked. ���Even now that we��� you know.���
���Oh, even more so now.���
She grinned, ���Good.���
They pulled into Tessa���s driveway, ���When will they be home from Church?���
���In about half an hour.���
���Perfect��� he pulled up to the barn and jumped out.
Lucas grabbed a blanket out from the back; he motioned for her to follow him. She walked in, and he had a blanket on the hay bales exactly like before.
���Lucas I���m a little, okay a lot sore,��� she blushed and looked down.
���None of that, just want to finish what I started the other day, please baby,��� he asked and gave her pouty lips.
���Oh, you don���t have to beg for that.���
He playfully pushed her down and took his sweats off her and smiled as he dove in. Unbelievable she thought.
He was coming back later, she went upstairs and slept. She was happy, exhausted, and felt completely head over heels in love.
* * *
Tessa woke up to Jade talking downstairs. She ran down and hugged her.
���Wow, you look better.���
���I���m feeling much better, go for a walk with me?���
���Sure, your Dad got Chinese are you hungry?���
���No, not yet, come on,��� Tessa pulled her out the door.
���What���s going on?���
���Tell me about your night.��� Tessa tried to act interested, and she was but really wanted to tell Jade about hers…
���It was nice; they���re hurting as much as I am. His mom is very excited about the baby and seems like she wants to be very involved, she asks a lot of questions. Like what my plans are for after the baby is born. Are you still in this with me?���
���Yes,��� her grin broadened. ���I actually thought that maybe we could do courses over the summer, it would make next year easier. I think we should look into it. I mean if you could go for part time you���d have more time with your little boy,��� Tessa smiled.
���You keep saying a little boy,��� Jade said, ���Why?���
���I had a nightmare about an accident with four people, and most of the time there was a baby boy. For the longest time, I thought it was Lucas���s baby, but I still had the dream after. I���m sorry Jade, does that upset you?���
���No, actually Tommy told me about the dreams, Lucas told him. Do you know he used to turn off, oh no sorry I don���t want to upset you.���
���No way Jade ��� spill it,��� Tessa smiled.
���Okay, but you better not,��� she started ���Fine, when he was living here he turned off your alarm on your phone on purpose just so he could hold you and kiss you.���
They turned around and walked back to the house. Tessa was quiet and Jade felt bad.
���Are you okay? I���m sorry���.���
���Jade I am fine,��� she smiled and held her hand.
They got to the house, and Lucas pulled in. He had flowers. Tessa winked and shook her head no. He gave Jade the flowers and hugged her.
���Hello Jade,��� he smiled and handed her the flowers.
���So Lucas, Jade tells me������ Tessa started.
���Tessa don���t,��� Jade whispered.
Tessa looked angry and continued, ���That when you stayed here you used to turn off my alarm when I had those dreams just so you could come in my room and shove your tongue down my throat.���
���Oh yeah, what else did she tell you?��� he asked amused. ���Jade who told you that?���
���Tommy.���
���What else did he tell you?��� Tessa asked.
���Oh, I couldn���t,��� Jade said, ���Sorry Lucas.���
���Do you know how that makes me feel Lucas,��� she poked him in the chest.
���Oh boy,��� Jade said. ���I���m so sorry.���
���No, Tessa I don���t, I do know you enjoyed it and constantly begged for more than just a kiss,��� he winked
���Oh yeah? And just how far did you let things go?��� she asked pushing him.
���Oh, I will never tell,��� he smiled.
Jade stood there, and her eyes were wide.
���Just for that, I���m going to������ Tessa started.
���Do what Tessa?��� he laughed.
���Lucas you shouldn���t push her when she���s mad,��� Jade cautioned him.
Tessa jumped in his arms and kissed him, Jade gasped. When they stopped kissing, Lucas looked at Jade.
���Could you please tell her more,��� Lucas laughed as Tessa kissed his neck.
���He told me you didn���t touch the two girls,��� Jade said, and Tessa kissed him harder.
���Come on Jade give her more,��� he laughed.
���And that he loved you,��� Jade smiled. ���But wanted you to find someone that would treat you right, and that sometimes you cried.���
���Alright Jade, we���re good there,��� Lucas smiled at her.
���You cried Lucas?���
���There���s that look Tessa.���
���It���s because I love you.���
���Alright then, I love you baby,��� he kissed her face, and they both laughed.
���What is going on with you two?��� Jade asked confused. They smiled and Jade laughed, ���Oh wow, you���re back together.���
���Let���s just say it was a very long night,��� Lucas kissed Tessa.
Alex and Phoebe walked out.
���What���s going on?��� Phoebe asked.
���They both finally admitted that they love each other,��� Jade cried.
���Oh no, Jade��� please don���t cry,��� Lucas hugged her.
���No, it���s good, now I can ask you both to be Godparents without feeling bad. That���s what Tommy would have wanted,��� Jade closed her eyes.
���Really?��� Lucas asked.
���Why wouldn���t he?��� Tessa hated that he felt unworthy.
���So these flowers weren���t for me?��� Jade laughed.
���Yes they are Jade,��� Lucas hugged her again.
Becca and Ryan pulled in.
���Hot tub?��� Alex asked.
They all walked in to get changed.
���Please don���t wear the one from the other night,��� Lucas whispered in her ear. ���Please.���
She grinned, ���Sure.���
The boys were in when they walked out; Tessa was wearing the bathing suit from the other night. She smiled at Lucas, and he shook his head. She walked in and started to sit, and she winced.
���Are you okay Tessa?��� Jade asked.
���Yep,��� she slowly sat down next to Lucas.
���You okay?��� he whispered.
���No, that burned,��� Tessa whispered.
���Sorry baby, sit down and I will rub it and make it all better,��� he smiled.
Tessa���s eyes widened, and she whispered, ���Too many people Lucas.���
He laughed and put his arm around her and whispered, ���You���re probably right, you are very boisterous.���
���Does that bother you?��� Tessa asked.
His nostrils flared, he closed his eyes, and he shook his head slowly, ���Not at all.���
Tessa leaned back and her hand found its way to him, and she started to play.
���No baby,��� Lucas whispered. Tessa gave him a dirty look, and he laughed, ���I love you.���
Everyone got out of the hot tub except Tessa, Lucas, and Jade.
���So are you in pain Tessa?��� Jade asked.
���What?��� Tessa asked shocked.
���When you got in, as soon as your who- who went in, you looked like you would cry.���
Tessa laughed.
���Hey baby, I���m going home. But when you tell her make sure you let her know how it went down��� he smiled and looked at Jade ���She attacked me.���
Tessa hugged him and kissed him.
���I don���t want you to go.���
���You���re in no shape for me to stay,��� he laughed.
���Please text me when you get home and���.���
���I know baby drive safe��� he kissed her. ���I love you.���
���You better,��� she smiled and he got out.
���Goodnight Jade, goodnight little one,��� Lucas said and left.
���So?��� Jade asked.
Tessa smiled, ���What do you want to know?���
���EVERYTHING!���
Her phone chimed it was him
- I���m home. Do you think your parents would let me take you to New Jersey for a few days, Jade can come too��� LYA Lucas
- Oh, I don���t know, I can ask them tomorrow��� Love Tessa
- Alex and Phoebe too? I think Ryan wants to go; he and I had already talkedabout it��� LOVE Lucas
- Wouldn���t that be too much?... Love Tessa
- Nope. Just let me know in the morning. Can I take you out for breakfast?... LOVE Lucas.
- You could come here and eat��� Love Tessa
- nice!��� LOVE Lucas.
- Hahaha��� promises promises��� actually we may have to take tomorrow off��� Love Tessa
- We will see. Talk to you then… LOVE Lucas
Tessa told Jade the whole story leaving nothing out, they went to bed, and Jade only woke up once.
���Tessa is it supposed to get easier?���
���I don���t know, but you have to be able to make peace with it for your baby,��� Tessa snuggled with Jade.
* * *
Tessa woke and smiled. She looked at the clock, and it was ten. She saw Lucas sitting across the room and jumped, he looked up.
���Good morning Baby,��� he smiled.
���Good morning,��� she said very aware that she probably looked like the walking dead.
He walked over and started to kiss her.
���Oh no, I need to brush my teeth,��� she smiled.
���Really?��� he asked as he was looking her over. ���Alright you can in a minute.���
He pushed her down and smiled as he went under the covers.
���Lucas,��� she squealed, ���Where is Jade and my family?��� she grabbed the sheets and dug into them.
���Downstairs,��� he said stopping briefly.
She tried to get up. He held her still.
She was breathing heavy, shit she thought. What if they walked in, she looked at the door, and it was shut.
She began to squirm, ���Lucas oh please stop I am going to scream,���
���Pillow baby, bite it.���
She did as he said, and he bit her lightly. She moaned into the pillow she had put over her face. And then she whimpered loudly.
He sat up and smiled at her as he watched her try to catch her breath.
���You okay?��� he said.
���Lucas,��� she whispered still breathless, ���You���re naughty.���
���You invited me for breakfast,��� he stood up.
She looked at him and could see the bulge, ���Not fair.���
���What���s not fair?���
She took his hand and pulled him to her, she looked up at him.
���I didn���t get mine yet,��� she grabbed him and took him in her mouth.
He held her head, and when he was ready, he stopped and emptied into a towel.
���God I love you.���
He sat and held her.
The door opened and it was Jade. ���Tessa, your Mom is on her way over.���
���Why?���
���Ask Lucas, he asked her to come.���
Tessa looked at Lucas.
���I figured you���d want to ask them together.��� She gave him a questioning look and he chuckled, ���You know if you can move in with me.���
���Lucas I don��
���t think������ he kissed her.
���I���m just joking, about all of us going to New Jersey. Alex is in, that should help right?��� he smiled.
���I need a shower,��� she smiled.
Her parents agreed as long as Alex went. John was hesitant, but Maggie insisted that they be allowed to go. They were seniors and would be going to college in the fall. Tessa just looked at the ground the entire time.
John and Alex went to get equipment ready for the work that needed to be done the following week. Alex was happy but knew a lot of work needed to be done before they left. Jade went with Phoebe to her house to get a few things.
Lucas sat and looked at Tessa, ���Everything okay, Tessa?���
She looked up at him and raised her eyebrow and smiled and shook her head slowly yes.
���Perfect, I���m going to help your dad and Alex. I kind of feel bad leaving him hanging.���
She stood up and walked towards him and sat on his lap and hugged him.
���I love you,��� she kissed him.
���Tessa you need to get up, so I can go help please,��� his eyes starting to heat up.
She grinned, ���Sorry Lucas.���
���Are you?���
���No,��� she said smiling and doing a little happy dance with her feet.
He stood up and kissed her head and rolled his eyes, ���Goodbye Tessa.���
Tessa cleaned and then jumped on the computer. Ben had messaged her on Facebook. She decided to call him, she clicked on the message. He had instructed her to click on the link; there was a ton of pictures of them on stage at the club in Syracuse. Damn he was a doll. She looked at herself, she looked so happy. She took a deep breath and dialed the phone.
���Hey girl, how are you doing?��� Ben asked with a smile in his voice.
���I���m good Ben, look I have to tell you something.���
���You and Lucas back together?���
���Ben, I������ she started.
���Don���t Tessa, we���re fine,��� he said. ���As long as he doesn���t hurt you, he and I���ll be fine, this was bound to happen.���
���You���re not mad at me?���
���No Tessa, not ever,��� Ben said and her heart sank.