A Lesson in Desire: Season of Desire Part 3 (Seasons Quartet)

by Sadie Matthews

  This is the place. Step one complete.

  I pick up my bag and walk up to the front door. I’m jumpy with nerves and the tingling of a pleasant excitement as I ring the bell, but there’s no answer. After a few moments I try the door handle. It turns under my hand and the door opens. I step into a hallway.

  I gaze around the room with its tiled floor, white walls and simple wooden benches. It’s completely empty. A staircase leads away in front of me to the next floor. I wonder if this is Miles’s home. ‘Hello?’

  There’s no reply. Mystified, I head for the staircase and soon I emerge on the first floor to find myself in a large room with spectacular views over the mountains. The wooden floors are covered in rugs, and cosy armchairs and sofas piled with cushions are grouped around a fireplace where flames flicker over logs. Lamps glow on the side tables. Through an archway I can see a dining room and beyond that a kitchen. Another staircase leads upstairs. It’s beautiful but not the kind of place I’d imagined Miles to own.

  ‘Hello?’ I call again, but there is still no reply. I put down my case and walk through the room to the dining area where a carved wooden table is surrounded by chairs upholstered in red-and-white cushions. On the table is a note. I pick it up.

  Winter

  Make yourself at home. Prepare for your tutorial. It will start at four o’clock precisely.

  I feel a lazy somersault of exhilaration turn in my stomach and wonder what Miles has in mind to teach me today. Four o’clock. I have less than an hour. I return to my bag, pick it up and go upstairs where I find the four bedrooms, each one with a beamed ceiling and furnished with comfortable-looking beds, antique chests and soft armchairs. The main one has a huge bed covered in a beautifully embroidered counterpane. Vast lamps sit on tables either side of it and it faces a fireplace with a stone surround. Before the hearth is a huge white fur rug. I shiver, unable to help imagining all the delicious things that Miles might do to me in this room.

  I’ve been riding high on my excitement ever since yesterday morning when I received his text. It had been agonising saying goodbye to him in the silent corridors of the staff quarters.

  ‘Don’t worry about the security cameras,’ he’d murmured to me when we reached the elevator. He dropped a kiss on my cheek. ‘I’ll deal with them.’

  ‘What are you going to do? How will you get away from here?’

  ‘Don’t worry about that. I’ll sort it. Just wait for my message.’

  With a final swift kiss, he’d ushered me into the elevator and I’d watched, racked with longing, as the doors closed on him. I hadn’t expected to sleep that night but I’d reckoned without the accumulated exhaustion of recent events and as soon as I climbed into bed, I fell into a deep sleep that lasted well into the next day. I spent that day and the next resting up, returning calls and messages and waiting fretfully for Miles to get in touch. I had no idea where he was. He might still be on the second floor for all I knew. He had my number, but I didn’t have his.

  At breakfast on the third day, I gazed at my phone which was still stubbornly without messages from Miles. Flora had already eaten and there was no sign of Summer. I was wondering if I should take my handset to Jane-Elizabeth and ask her to check that my phone was working okay when Estella wafted in wearing a white silk robe, her hair tousled from bed.

  I cast a quick look at her. Oh, nice. Just to remind us all she’s been sleeping with our father.

  ‘Morning, Freya,’ she said, going to the sideboard to pour herself some coffee from the pot on the hot plate. ‘How are you?’

  ‘Fine, thanks,’ I said as briefly as I could without being too rude.

  ‘Recovered from your… ordeal?’ She gave a special emphasis to the last word that made me look up sharply.

  ‘Yes, thanks,’ I said, trying to sound casual. ‘It wasn’t so bad, you know. I was lucky.’

  ‘You certainly were,’ drawled Estella, coming to the table with her coffee cup in one hand. She sat down at an empty place and looked around impatiently. ‘Where’s the maid? I want my grapefruit salad.’

  I tried to hide my irritation. It wasn’t so long ago that Estella was meek and eager to please, always rushing off to do our bidding. Now she was very much the lady of the house. Let it go. You can’t do anything about it. I ignored her last comment and drank my own coffee. Now that Estella was here, I wanted to be off as soon as possible.

  She fixed me with a knowing look and said in her languid drawl, much less breathy than the voice she uses with my father: ‘So… tell me, just what was it like, being rescued from death by a hunky bodyguard like Miles Murray?’

  A warm flush started to creep up my neck and I did all I could to halt it, breathing regularly and trying to keep calm. ‘He was extremely professional. As you’d expect.’

  ‘I don’t doubt it.’ She smirked. ‘And it can’t have been all bad, being trapped with him for two days. I mean… I'm sure he was very good company. And you must have found some way to occupy your time.’

  I stared back at her and said nothing, but inside I felt sick. Of course Estella would think that way. It’s how her mind works. As long as she contented herself with making comments to me, and not confiding her suspicions to my father.

  ‘We managed,’ I said. ‘I was very scared a lot of the time.’

  Her expression became sympathetic but it didn’t look all that sincere to me. ‘Yes. So traumatic. Lucky you had someone like Miles to help you through it.’

  At that moment, the door opened and the maid came in.

  ‘My grapefruit salad! At last,’ said Estella but the maid came over to me, a parcel in her hands rather than a bowl of grapefruit.

  ‘This arrived for you, miss, by special courier.’ The maid put the parcel down beside me, a well-wrapped box hand-addressed in capital letters.

  I looked at it with interest, wondering what it could be.

  ‘Aren’t you going to open it?’ asked Estella, her interest evidently piqued. ‘And bring my grapefruit!’ she called to the maid, who was on her way out.

  ‘Maybe,’ I said. I put one finger under the flap of gummed-down brown paper and began to lift it. At that moment my phone made the swishing sound that meant a text had arrived. I picked it up. The number was unknown. I pressed to open the message.

  A parcel will arrive for you this morning. Don’t open it in public.

  I almost gasped but managed to restrain myself. Slowly, hoping that I looked normal, I picked up my coffee cup again and drained it before saying, ‘Actually, I think I’ll open it upstairs.’

  Estella shrugged but she looked disappointed.

  Good. You can wonder.

  I stood up, thankful that the text had arrived just in time, and headed up to my room with the parcel under one arm. It had to be from Miles. Sure enough, when I unwrapped it in the privacy of my bedroom, there was a box inside, wrapped in black crepe paper and tied with a black silk ribbon. Tucked under the ribbon was a note: To be worn for your lesson.

  Now, in the luxurious chalet bedroom, I take the box from my bag and place it on the bed. I texted Miles back when I’d opened it but there was no response for several hours and after that, just a short message giving me the address of this place and a time to be here.

  So here I am. What now? Shall I just get ready for him?

  I notice that a small table is placed by the hearth where a fire is laid ready to be lit, and on the table a paper scroll wrapped with a red ribbon has been tucked into a glass vase. I go over and take it out, pull the ribbon open and unroll the paper. On it is written in clear black handwriting:

  Your lessons will consist of learning the four classical elements of our world:

  Fire, water, earth and air.

  Be ready for your tuition.

  I read it twice, trying to understand. I know what each of these things is, so what can Miles teach me about them? And I was expecting something a little more…physical.

  Trust him. I’m sure I’m going to enjoy the lesson.r />
  I look at my watch. Still a little while to go before Miles arrives. I decide to have a shower and prepare for him. After I emerge wrapped in a towel and damp-haired from the shower, I go to the box on the bed and open it.

  There is the costume that Miles wants me to wear for the lesson today.

  My uniform.

  I laugh. It’s nothing like a uniform or anything that plays to ideas of schoolgirl skirts and long socks. It’s more like something a goddess would wear. I lie it out carefully on the bed and look at it. A thrill of excitement turns in my belly and sends out tingling messages all over my skin. Only half an hour until my lesson begins. I’d better get ready.

  Twenty minutes later, I’ve dried my hair into a wavy bob and made up my face, curling out my lashes with mascara, adding sparkle to my lids with a golden shimmer that makes my brown eyes look positively velvety, and painting my lips in a dark vampish red that somehow seems suitable for the goddess gown Miles has sent me. Now I’m ready to put on my costume.

  I walk over naked to the bed, noticing a large cheval glass mirror facing it. I glimpse my own form as I approach the bed: my long body with its flowing curves, the full breasts and round bottom. My bruise is almost gone but I look at the traces with fondness: it's the proof of what happened to me, and what took place between Miles and me. I hope he'll run his fingers down it, perhaps trail his lips along its fading path and make the skin there burn and tingle under his touch. I’ve prepared for today, getting myself soft and smooth with lotions and scrubs and oils, and I hope that I look my best. Now it’s time to get dressed.

  The first thing to put on are the knickers, a flimsy piece of pale gold shimmering mesh on silk ribbons that tie at each side of my hips. A rush of arousal goes through me as I slide them on and tie up the little ribbon at each side; it’s hard to not imagine Miles’s fingers undoing them. Now for the gown. There’s no bra to wear underneath. Instead, the pale gold silk tulle fastens in a halterneck and then falls in soft pleats over each breast, giving more than a hint of the rounded flesh and dark nipples below. It meets again in the middle of my stomach and joins the most interesting part of this dress, the pale gold leather belt with gold buckles at each side. The contrast of leather and metal with the delicate softness of the fragile material is striking. The tulle fastens to the belt at my waist and then drops in a long narrow waterfall of fabric to my feet, a sparkling drapery that just covers my knickers. At the back, a matching flow of material falls over my bottom to the floor. I put on the dress, working out as I go along how everything goes together. As I fasten the belt’s little gold buckles on each hip, I notice each has a golden ring hanging from it. My eyes fly to the box where my accessories await: a pair of high-heeled shoes and two gold leather buckled cuffs to wear on my wrist. They had looked purely decorative but now I see that they have tiny metal fasteners that can link them to each other. Or something else.

  I gasp. I can’t help it. Is Miles… kinky?

  I’ve heard of people who like dressing up, spanking games, and all that bondage stuff, but it’s never appealed to me. I’ve only been able to imagine them as faintly embarrassing and a little humiliating, not a turn-on at all. But now, as I look at the pretty wrist cuffs with their shine of hard metal against the muted glow of the tinted leather, my heart starts to race.

  What will he do with me?

  The idea of Miles restraining me as he teaches me new lessons in pleasure is darkly exciting.

  I promised to do as he says and take everything he wants to give me.

  I’ve never surrendered myself like that before, and never wanted to. I’ve always fought hard for my own independence, resenting my father's control and running shy of any man who looks as though he want to do the same. But that’s how I ended up with Jacob, weak-willed and pathetic. Maybe my need to feel strong and in control of my destiny has been leading me in the wrong direction. The idea is an intriguing one.

  My fingers are trembling very slightly as I put on the golden cuffs, buckling them snugly around each wrist. Then I slide on the dark nude peep-toe stilettos that came in the box. They are exactly my size.

  I gaze at myself in the long mirror. The gown is beautiful, the fall of the fabric emphasising my curves, revealing my hips and the gleam of my legs. The leather and metal give a hint of a princess from a science-fiction fantasy, while the silk and heels add a dollop of Hollywood glamour. I feel intensely feminine and very sexy. I hope that Miles will like the result of his choice.

  Miles. My eyes fly to a clock on the chimney piece over the fireplace. It’s one minute to four o’clock.

  I go back to the staircase and walk carefully downstairs, holding the delicate tulle of the dress out of the way of my heels as I go. In the sitting room, the fire is still burning, flames lapping at the logs. It is darker outside and the lamps glow even more golden, sending out pools of yellow light. I stand by the fireplace, looking around the beautiful room and wondering what will happen now.

  Another clock chimes four times.

  I hear the front door open.

  He’s here.

  Chapter Twelve

  The door downstairs closes and a heavy tread approaches on the stairs. My breathing is coming faster but I try to control it. I stand by the fire, trying to adopt the stance of a model to show myself off to best advantage.

  Miles walks into the room and stops as he sees me, his gaze intense beneath black brows. He looks gorgeous, more handsome than I remembered. There’s nothing of the bodyguard about him today; he is wearing a sharply cut charcoal grey coat, dark trousers and polished shoes, and looks as though he’s come from a smart gentleman’s club or a business meeting. His blue eyes shine in the lamplight, a bright blue against the sombre colours of his clothes. His expression is impassive as he looks me up and down. Then he nods slowly and smiles.

  ‘Hello, Winter. I’m glad to see you obeyed my instructions. It’s good to see you. Very good indeed.’

  ‘It’s good to see you too,’ I reply softly. ‘Tutor.’

  He advances, unbuttoning his coat. His steely gaze softens as he takes in the sight of my body, hidden and yet revealed by the golden gown. ‘I hope you’ve come ready to learn.’

  I nod. ‘Oh yes.’

  ‘Excellent.’ Miles takes off his coat, revealing a soft blue shirt beneath a grey cashmere jumper, and throws it over the back of a chair. He turns to look at me. He’s close to me and my skin is prickling with anticipation of his touch, my sex already tingling and alive to his presence. He stares deep into my eyes. ‘You’ve shown your commitment to my instruction. I’m impressed. You know, Winter, I wasn’t sure you’d take to this as wholeheartedly as you have. I thought you might be a dilettante, not prepared to see it through. You’ve surprised me.’

  ‘I hope I’ll go on doing that,’ I reply, dropping my gaze. I want him to see that I’m prepared to hand him control in return for the exquisite pleasure he can bring me and the erotic lessons he can teach me. When I look at him again, he’s observing me with a strange expression: tenderness mixed with a kind of surprise. As soon as he sees me watching him, his expression changes again, this time to that cool detachment I’ve seen previously.

  Miles walks through the sitting room and dining room and into the kitchen. I turn to watch as he opens a huge fridge and removes a bottle of champagne. A moment later he’s returning with it, two glasses in his other hand. He puts them down on a side table, picks up a small remote and directs it towards some hidden equipment. At once, piano music fills the room, delicate and delightful.

  ‘Chopin,’ he says, and smiles at me, the eyebrow lifting slightly. ‘In case you didn’t know.’

  ‘I didn’t.’

  ‘All part of your lesson.’ He opens the bottle of champagne in two deft movements and pours us each a glass. He hands one to me, then lifts his glass to mine and says, ‘To you, Winter. You are an able and beautiful student.’

  I lift my glass in return and smile. ‘Thank you.’ My God, I want him so badly.
But I know that this slow lead-in, with me in this incredible outfit, is all part of the fun.

  We sip our champagne. The icy bubbling liquid fills my mouth with small serried explosions. It’s delicious. I look around the room and say, ‘Is this place yours?’

  ‘No.’ He smiles at me. ‘It belongs to a friend. I like it, but it’s not really my style.’

  ‘What is your style?’ I ask, and take another sip of the champagne.

  Miles raises his eyebrow again. ‘I think we’ll leave that lesson for another time. Did you see my pointer on what we’d learn today?’

  I nod. ‘Fire, water, earth and air. The four elements.’

  ‘That’s right – the elements that the ancient Greeks believed were the basis of everything in the world. Aristotle added a fifth – the quintessence, or fifth element – which he called aether, the heavenly substance that forms space and everything else they could'nt explain. The stars, for example.’ Miles lifts his glass to me. ‘I like to think of anything that adds to the joy of life as part of that heavenly substance.’

  I take another drink. The crisp, biscuity liquid fires its volleys of bubbles over my tongue. ‘Then we should add champagne to it. I suppose you could say that it’s a little like drinking stars.’

  He smiles. ‘Yes. I like that. We think the same way, Winter.’ His gaze travels appreciatively over me again. ‘You look like a heavenly body yourself, Winter, in that dress. Like the goddess you were named after.’

  ‘You chose well,’ I reply softly.

  His gaze becomes intense suddenly and fires off an answering tumble of excited butterflies in my stomach. ‘I think we should begin.’ He puts his glass on the side table and says lazily, ‘So… where shall we start? Earth, air, water or… fire…?’ His eyelids drop a little, making his gaze more hooded. A rush of desire flows through me. I can feel my nipples hardening, my nerves awakening to a greater pitch of alertness.