Give it Up

by Lori Foster

  “Cary,” she whispered on a thin breath of sound, then her back arched hard and she gave a long, raw moan.

  Like a wire pulled too tight, Cary snapped. Two fingers sank deep into her, pulled out, and thrust again, preparing her, widening her. She was so tight, her inner muscles clasping at his fingers, that he knew he’d die when he got inside her.

  Before he even knew what he was doing, he was over her, catching her knees, pulling her legs apart. He couldn’t breathe, couldn’t think—hell, he couldn’t even see straight. But he felt her small frantic hands, dragging him down so she could kiss and lick his mouth, her silken thighs wrapping tight around him.

  Blindly, he positioned himself and thrust hard.

  She bowed beneath him, crying out but clinging to him, adding to the urgency. Cary pressed, retreated, pressed until he was buried deep, as deep as he could go. He rode her hard, no rubber, no soft sex words, just savage, pounding need. Less than a shameful minute later he was coming, so hard and long that he shouted at his release, his head thrown back like a wild man, his hands knotted tight into the sheets beneath her, every muscle straining.

  When the spasms finally left him long moments later, he fell heavily onto her, incoherent, damn near unconscious. He thought he might have been breathing, but he wasn’t sure. Little sparks of pleasure continued to snap inside him, making him twitchy.

  An indeterminable amount of time passed before he became aware of Nora’s nose touching his shoulder, her deep inhalations, the restless way she moved beneath him.

  Oh shit!

  He’d just mauled her.

  Ravaged her.

  She hadn’t come at all, at least not that he’d noticed amid all his shouting and groaning and straining. He had, though. Hell, he’d blown like Mt. Vesuvius after an extended dry spell.

  And he hadn’t worn a rubber. Oh shit, oh shit.

  Cary swallowed. Sit up, he told himself, but he didn’t move. He wasn’t sure he could move yet.

  And then Nora whispered, “You smell so good,” and she nuzzled her nose against his sweaty shoulder again.

  With Herculean effort, Cary rolled to the side of her. Or maybe it was more that he flopped like a half-dead fish. Nora didn’t follow. She didn’t move at all. She just stared at the ceiling—and the damn silence suffocated him.

  Cary waited for his heart to slow just a bit more, then he choked down his embarrassment and said, “Yeah, uh, that didn’t go quite like I planned.”

  Silence.

  “That’s, uh, never happened to me before.” So lame.

  Her big eyes closed, shutting him out. “Sorry.”

  He did a double take. His brow cocked. “What’s that?”

  “I’m sorry. I told you I wasn’t good at …” Her hand moved, fluttered above the bed, then resettled on the mattress. “This stuff.”

  Oh, hell no. New energy flowed into Cary, enough that he could prop himself up on one elbow. Progress, he thought, as the tingling in his limbs faded. At least his mind was functioning again. He surveyed Nora, and liked what he saw. No, he loved what he saw.

  Her short hair was still slightly damp, in cute little curls around her face. Her cheeks were rosy. Little tremors coursed through her—the effects of going unfulfilled, no doubt. Her nipples were darkly flushed, still taut. Hmmm. “You’re kidding, right?”

  Her jaw worked before the words came out. “I can’t … can’t seem to …”

  Idly, as if he didn’t have a care in the world, Cary reached for her breast and toyed with her nipple. Her hands clenched and she moaned. “Nora, listen to me.”

  “I can’t.” Her whole body was rigid, stiff. “Not while you’re doing that.”

  Smiling, Cary put his hand on her belly instead. “Better?”

  She gave an adamant shake of her head. “No.”

  He didn’t move. “It was my fault, you know. You’re wonderful. Sexy as hell. I was going along just fine, prepared to see to you first as any gentleman would do, then you gave that provoking little moan and I lost it. Kaboom. Control blown all to hell. You should be slapping my face. You should be cursing me. I’m a pig and a lousy lover and I made promises I didn’t keep.”

  Her head turned on the pillow and she stared toward him. Though Cary knew that without her glasses she couldn’t see him, her expression of incredulous disbelief was plain to see. “That’s nonsense.”

  He smothered a laugh. “Please tell me you don’t think I’m always such a selfish ass.”

  Her brows came down in a frown. “You were wonderful.”

  Cary slid his hand a little lower on her belly, until she caught her breath. His fingertips just touched her triangle of hair. “Wonderfully selfish.” And in a huskier tone, “I got inside you and you were so tight, so hot and wet, I became an animal.”

  She bit her lip. “I … I liked it.”

  “Yeah?” He grinned. “Me, too, obviously. But there’s a lot more to this whole lovemaking business.” When she remained curiously silent, he grew blunt. “You didn’t come.”

  She caught her bottom lip in her teeth. “It, um, felt so good that I wasn’t sure.”

  Damn, she was adorable. “You’ll know when it happens, Nora. I promise.” She frowned in doubt, which challenged him. “Let me prove it to you.”

  Sensual interest darkened her eyes as the seconds ticked by. “How?”

  God, he loved her. Now and forever, the kind of love that wouldn’t ever go away. And he’d just blown it in the sack. The irony was that women he’d merely liked had claimed him an excellent lover, while the woman he wanted most in his life had demolished his finesse, reducing him to a sex-crazed lunatic. He almost groaned again, but instead he sucked it up like a man and set out to make things right.

  “Like this.” He covered her with his palm and began to gently finger her. She was so hot, and wet. Very wet. Which meant he was quickly growing hard again. He would not be a pig this time. Never again. But she moaned, and that small sound tested him. He supposed it was his love for her that made everything with her sharper-edged, so acute that he could barely contain himself.

  Because she looked embarrassed he leaned over her and covered her mouth with his own, muffling her sounds of pleasure. At first, he kept the pressure light, the rhythm uneven, letting her orgasm build up again. When her kisses grew bolder, almost desperate, he moved down to her breasts. The dual assault would be sweet, and would help guarantee his odds.

  At the same time that he closed his mouth hotly over her nipple, he pressed two fingers deep inside her, stretching her, exacerbating already sensitive nerve endings. Her cries grew more harsh, raw. Using his thumb with devastating effect, Cary stroked her clitoris in small, circular movements that had her groaning and writhing. He kept himself in check with ruthless determination. He could feel the heat pulsing off her, the spiciness of her aroused scent—and she broke.

  With a long, ragged moan, her legs stiffened, her hips jerked. He raised up to watch her, seeing the vague understanding in her dark eyes, the rush of heightened color in her face and throat. “Perfect,” he whispered, keeping the pleasure steady, ensuring she got everything this time.

  By small degrees, she quieted and her legs went lax, naturally sprawling. He wanted to fuck her again; he wanted to hold her to his heart and tell her everything he was feeling. He wanted so much, he honestly didn’t know where to start. He should take it easy, play it by ear, wait and see what Nora thought. Yeah, that’s what he’d do. He’d be patient for once. He’d keep control.

  And he wouldn’t make any more boneheaded moves.

  Chapter Four

  Awareness slowly seeped in on Nora. She felt euphoric. Weak and elated and … satisfied. Every sense was magnified. She was intensely aware of the cool air on her skin, the rumpled sheets beneath her, the incredible man making a dent in her mattress.

  She smiled, so secretly pleased that she had to fight not to laugh out loud. Wow. No wonder everyone did this with such great regularity.

  She
felt that, at this particular moment in time, new doors had just opened for her. The whole world looked different. She’d never been the type to sleep around, to take a lover. But Cary had just changed all that, and she was so glad.

  She turned her head to see him, but without her glasses, he was no more than a blur. As if he’d read her mind, he rolled to his back, did some reaching, and then her glasses were slipped onto her nose. She straightened them and took in his expression, anxious to see if he’d been as affected as she was by the sex.

  His warm, mellow gaze filled with tenderness.

  Relieved, Nora whispered, “Thank you.”

  He looked at her mouth.

  “For the glasses, and the … the …”

  “Orgasm?” The right side of his mouth kicked up. “Now that was my pleasure.”

  She matched his grin. “And mine.” She pondered how to tell him that she wanted more, that she wanted to do it again, maybe not right this moment, but soon. She put a hand on his chest. “Cary,” she said hesitantly.

  And he blurted, “Marry me.”

  Her gaze snapped up and locked onto his. He looked more surprised than she felt. In fact, he appeared floored that those words had come from his mouth. Or had they? “What did you say?”

  He actually flushed. Then he scowled. “You heard me.”

  “I’m not sure I did.”

  His shoulders bunched. He seemed annoyed with himself, and she could imagine why. Oh God, she’d burdened him with all her leftover dreams for marriage and children, and now he felt obligated.

  “I asked if you’d marry me.”

  Actually, he’d just sort of demanded it, and in fact he still seemed rather combative about the offering. “Cary, you don’t need to do that.”

  His frown sharpened, as did his annoyance. “That?”

  “Propose. I mean, I was just thinking that I like it like this.”

  “This?”

  Worse and worse. He’d barely squeezed that word out between his teeth. “Yes, with us as … lovers. No commitment, no responsibility.” She stroked his chest. “Just pleasure.”

  “You said you wanted marriage,” he accused, and his cheekbones were red, his green eyes incandescent with anger.

  “Yes, I know, but … not with you.”

  He bolted upright in the bed. “Not. With. Me?”

  Nora wanted to pull out her own tongue. How insulting that had sounded! “What I mean is—”

  A distant ringing sounded and they both paused, alert. Working in the medical field, a phone was never ignored.

  Cary cursed luridly. “Goddammit, that’s my cell phone. I left it on your patio.” Buck naked, he clambered out of her bed, out of her bedroom, and quite possibly right out of her life.

  Dolt. Idiot. How could she have said such a ridiculous, mean, nasty thing to him? She knew what she meant—that she was happy having him any way she could. That making love with him was a worthwhile trade-off for marriage. That she loved him enough, she’d take what he was comfortable offering—which plainly wasn’t marriage.

  Stewing in bed wouldn’t do her one bit of good. What if he left without even telling her good-bye? That galvanized her into action and Nora was out of the bed in a flash. She was stepping into panties when Cary stomped back in.

  He drew up short at the sight of her, with her underwear around her knees, her upper body still bare. His gaze darted here and there, lingering on her breasts and belly.

  He was fully dressed, darn it. Well, except for his boxers, which were wadded up and wet on her floor. Drawn back to her senses, Nora tugged her panties up the rest of the way and crossed her arms over her breasts.

  As if that broke the spell, Cary gave up his scrutiny of her body. He didn’t look at her face. He stayed busy tucking in his shirt, buckling his belt. “I have to go,” he said in one of the flattest tones she’d ever heard from him. “One of my patients is having trouble breathing. Probably bronchitis from the sounds of it. But she’s older and afraid of most doctors, so I’m going to meet her and her son at the emergency room.”

  He was such a remarkable, caring man and all she could do was stand there in nothing more than panties, wracking her brain for something to say. “Cary …”

  He shot her a quick, insincere smile. “We can talk later. Duty calls.” He hesitated, then took one long step toward her, put a perfunctory peck on her forehead, and rushed from the room.

  Nora sank to the edge of the bed. It was badly mussed, the pillows off on the floor, the sheets trailing over the side. The scent of their lovemaking still lingered in the air, and stupidly, tears prickled her eyes. She was a complete and inexcusable social hazard.

  He hadn’t promised to call, but he had said they’d talk. Later. Whatever that might mean. She pinned all her hopes on it because if he called, then she could explain.

  With nothing left to do, Nora dragged herself into the shower. She still felt weak in the knees, and places she’d barely paid attention to before were now achy.

  By eleven o’clock that night, she gave up staring at a silent phone and tried to sleep, but she couldn’t put Cary from her mind. She missed him already. She wanted him again. It was almost dawn before she got any rest.

  The weekend continued in a heat wave, frazzling her nerves, making her listless. Liza called and wanted to go shopping, but Nora turned her down. She was afraid to leave for fear she’d miss his call. Like a lovesick teenager, she carried the phone with her everywhere, out to the pool, while doing yard work. By Sunday morning, when Cary still hadn’t called, she got angry.

  How did a man make love to a woman and then just walk away? But she knew it happened all the time, which was one of the reasons she’d avoided affairs. Sex was just sex and these days didn’t necessarily imply more.

  But this time … She covered her face with her hands. He’d asked her to marry him and she’d shot him down. What if that was the only reason he didn’t call?

  When the phone rang, her heart almost stopped. She stood there through four rings, immobilized by hope before ungluing her feet and racing to snatch it up.

  “Hello?”

  “Hey, it’s Liza. I’m bored. If you don’t want to shop, let’s do lunch.”

  Disappointment staggered Nora. “Oh, it’s you.”

  Feigning insult, Liza said, “Gee thanks.”

  Nora thumped her hand against her forehead. Now she was insulting her friend, too! “I’m sorry. I really am. And yeah, sure, lunch sounds great.” She desperately needed a distraction.

  “So much enthusiasm.” Liza laughed. “I have a better idea. Why don’t you tell me who you were hoping to hear from?”

  Why not? Maybe Liza could give her some advice. “A hound dog.”

  “Do tell! A sexy, doctor-type hound dog? Catch me up on what I’ve missed.”

  Nora strode to the couch, collapsed onto it, and in practically one breath rattled off her tale of woe.

  To her surprise, Liza cackled like a crazed hen.

  Bemused by that reaction, Nora explained, “It’s really not a humorous story.”

  “Oh, honey, of course it is. Women don’t wait around for men to call anymore. They pick up a phone and do the deed themselves.”

  The mere thought had Nora wincing. “Oh no. I couldn’t.”

  “Not even to apologize—which you owe him, by the way? If he doesn’t want to hear it, or it seems he doesn’t care, then you have your answer. It’s better than stewing, isn’t it?”

  Stewing and moping and wallowing in her misery… “I suppose.” And then, reluctantly, “Maybe after you and I finish lunch—”

  “No way. Forget that. I say call him now. Or better yet, just drop in on him. And don’t say you can’t, because he dropped in on you, right? Turnabout is fair play.”

  Nora sank lower on the couch. “You really think it’d be all right to do that?”

  “I’m betting he’ll be thrilled to see you. But hey, nothing ventured, nothing gained.”

  Nora wished she ha
d Liza’s confidence. She drew a long breath for courage, and said, “All right, I’ll do it.”

  “That’a girl. And one more thing.”

  “Yes?”

  “You damn sure better call me later tonight and tell me all the nitty-gritty details!”

  “I promise.” For the first time since she’d misspoken to Cary, Nora was smiling. She glanced at the clock. It was nearing noon and she hadn’t bothered to do more than dress, but now she felt like a woman with a mission. She headed to the bathroom for a cool shower, a touch of makeup, and a dab of perfume.

  Within half an hour, she’d donned one of her prettiest sundresses, had her hair and makeup just right, and was on her way to Cary’s. He wasn’t far from her home, something she considered fortunate given her nervousness. Given any time to reconsider, she was likely to turn back around.

  Unlike her, Cary had chosen a condo over a house. She parked in his private drive, and before she could chicken out, she trotted up the walkway and rang his doorbell.

  No one answered.

  With a feeling of déjà vu, she cautiously, hopefully made her way around back. His was a corner condo, secluded by thick hedges on one side and a privacy fence on the other. There was no pool in his small patch of backyard, but maybe he was grilling. Or just sunning himself.

  Nora was several feet away when she recognized Cary’s voice barking, “I don’t want her, Axel, so shut the hell up.”

  Nora staggered to a halt while her heart sank into her feet. He didn’t want her?

  Another voice, not Axel’s or Cary’s, said calmly, “Keep your voice down. And Axel, leave him alone. Can’t you see he’s suffering?”

  “I am not suffering,” Cary growled.

  “You’re lovesick,” that other voice insisted, “but too stubborn to admit it.”

  “Exactly,” Axel said. “But Patti could cure you of that if you’d just give her a chance. If she’s anything like her friend, and I think she is, she’ll have you moaning with pleasure instead of sorrow. Guaranteed.”