His cheeks are red and his eyes have more pain in them than I meant for there to be. “I deserve you. I can be the other half of you and you can be the other half of me. You and I are meant to be, Rachelle. And how dare you take the chance we’ve been given away. All on your own! But you have and I guess there is really no more to say.”
I follow him to the door and fight myself not to tell him I’m an idiot and I’m sorry and that he should stay, like forever or something. “Blake, I really am sorry it has to be this way. This hurts me….”
He interrupts me as he puts his hand in my face. “Don’t, Rachelle. Don’t you dare say this hurts you worse than it hurts me because it clearly doesn’t. If it hurt you as bad as it’s killing me, you’d never do it. I’d never do what you’re doing to me, to anyone. Not my worst enemy, Rachelle. Goodbye, forever!”
The door slams behind him and I fall against it as I lock it and find I’m sobbing.
What have I done?
Part 4 Luck in Love
Rachelle
Kicking my bare feet in the warm water of Peyton and Kip’s heated swimming pool I lean back on my palms and look up at the sun through my dark sunglasses.
Peyton pulls Pax around in a little inflatable dragon float and he splashes away at the water and kicks his little feet. She looks at me and sighs. “So that’s it then? No more Blake. I really liked the guy, Shelly.”
“Me too, that’s what the problem was. And the fact he liked me so much. I mean what the hell’s wrong with the guy?” I kick at the water and frown.
A laugh comes from Peyton and she splashes me. “So you think there’s something wrong with him because he likes you? Now tell me why there would need to be something wrong with someone if they like you. I mean, I like you. Is there something wrong with me?”
“No, it’s different with you. I mean, it’s not a romantic relationship. It’s hard to explain, Peyton. It’s like he’s going to need more than I have to give, you know?”
She laughs. “Damn! What’s the guy gotta have you don’t have? Three boobs on a woman?”
Pax says, “Damn, damn, damn.” As he floats around and Peyton slaps a hand over her mouth. “Boobs, ha. Boobs,”
A laugh escapes me and I quickly apologize. “Sorry, it’s just that it sounds so cute coming out of a baby’s mouth. I know I’m wrong though.”
“Kip is going to be so mad at me. I’m always on his bobo to watch his mouth and here I’ve taught the baby three bad words in as many days.” She frowns.
“Hey, let me let you in on a little secret. Kip taught him the word, damn, a little while ago. I overheard him when he had Pax and was making him a bottle. He must’ve spilled something, and he said the word. Pax quickly copied him, so it’s not your fault, entirely anyway.”
“Good,” she says as she cheers up. “So this little thing that just happened can remain between us then?”
I give her a nod and lie back on the concrete. “Why does everything have to be so complicated, Peyton? Why did I feel so much jealousy when I saw him with that woman?”
“I suppose life would be no fun if it all went right constantly.”
The sound of someone walking fills my head as the concrete makes the noise travel through my head. Kip’s face looms over me and he smiles. “Hey, sunshine. I’m about to bar-b-que. You planning on hanging out with us? Peyton wants to have a fun evening.”
“What is it you want me to make, Kip?” I ask, knowing he wants me to make something, he always does.
The man wants me to come to work for them as their chef, but I know he’d overpay me and I’m not having any of that.
“How about the spinach, artichoke dip I love so much and for dessert that thing you made for your finals? You told Peyton you won a contest or something.” He looks intently at me and I have a feeling he knows damn well that dessert recipe was named after Blake’s mother.
“Fine, I’ll make a list of the ingredients I’ll need.” I sit up and he takes a step back.
Out of his pocket he pulls a little pad of paper and a pencil. “Thought you might say yes. And jot down what alcoholic beverage you might like to drink. I’m making pork ribs, if that has anything to do with what you wish to drink.”
“You’re staying here tonight then, Shelly. Do you hear me?” Peyton bosses like a big sister.
“Yes, Mom,” I say with a laugh. “Staying at your house is like staying in a five-star hotel. You’ll never hear me complaining about your invitations.”
Kip squats down and touches the tip of my nose, drawing my attention to him. “You know, if you’d take our offer to be our personal chef you’d have a permanent place here. The apartment for the chef is three times the size of the one you live in now and its part of the salary. No bills, Rachelle. Only money, money, money for all your hard work.”
“You really should think about it, Shelly,” Peyton says as she splashes a little water at me. “Plus, you’d get paid for all the things we ask you to make for us, instead of doing it for free.”
Kip gives my arm a little punch. “Maybe if I throw in a car? Would that tip the scales in our favor?”
I wag my finger at him. “See, that’s why right there! That’s why I don’t take your offer. You’ll pay me far more than is right and give me thing after thing. You’re both too good of friends and I’d never take advantage of that fact. So I’ll continue to make you foods free of charge. You buy all the ingredients anyway, and I always eat some too.”
“One day we’ll get you,” Kip says with a laugh.
I hand him my list. “I really do appreciate the offer. Please don’t think I don’t.”
“I know, sweetheart,” he says then turns to Peyton. “And what is Mummy having to drink this evening?”
She gives him a naughty look then smiles. “Surprise me.”
When he turns back to me his cheeks are red. “She’s such an evil temptress, that one. Damn glad I married her.”
I laugh and he gives me a million-dollar smile then walks away. Kicking a little water at Peyton to make her look at me instead of watching her hunky husband walking away, I say, “I can’t believe you thought at one time that you didn’t need him. You need him like the crops need rain.”
“I do,” she says with a sigh. “If I ever lost him it would kill me.” She shakes her head to clear it. “I try never to think about that. But it creeps up in my mind now and again. I love that man with everything in me.”
I smile. “And he loves you the same way.”
Pulling my knees up, I wrap my arms around them and wonder why I can’t be as free as they are. Peyton’s soft hand runs over my foot. “It wasn’t always this easy for us, either.”
“Yes, I know. It was I who found you crying at the airport that fateful day. I’m well aware of what all it took to find what you guys have.” I close my eyes and internally berate myself for my stupidity.
“Have you tried to call him or anything?” she asks.
I shake my head. “It’s best to let him go. He’s not what I deserve. I may call that jackass friend of Kips’ though. Is Bobby busy, do you know?”
“You missed that boat. He’s all hooked up with the nurse he met when Pax was born. And he’s surprisingly turned away from the jackass nature he had before he found her. He only calls me Yoko every now and again instead of all the time.” She laughs and I sigh.
“So tell Kip to find me another asshole then.”
Peyton shakes her head. “No, Mam! No more of those for you!”
Then I’ll just stay alone. Alone is good, no one can get hurt when they stay alone!
Kip
“Hey, mate! What ya up to on this lovely, Saturday evening?” I ask Blake over the phone as I make my way to the store to get things for our bar-b-que.
His voice is threaded with a tired sound I’ve never heard in it before. “Not a damn thing. Thinking about going back to Lubbock.”
“Then you must come this evening. Stay the night with us. I’m making a bar-b-que a
nd won’t take no for an answer. Tell me what your poison is on this night and I shall pick it up for you.”
“Beer, lots of beer. Not that crap that keeps you trim either. Some full flavored shit that will fuck me up. I need to get my head all the way messed up.”
“Bloke, you sound depressed and that’s not like you. I’ll get you some beer and a couple of shrimp to toss on the barbie as well. How ‘bout that?” I ask.
“Sure, thanks. I’ll go over there in a little while. I do have to warn you I’m awful company though. But I’d hate to leave town without giving you and your family a visit. You guys are great. Goodbye.”
He hangs up before I can tell him Rachelle will be there.
Oh well, let’s just see what happens then!
Rachelle
“Crap, Peyton! Another shot! No!” I shout at her.
“Come on, girl. It’s not every night I get a night away from Paxxie Poo. Kips’ parents have him for the night and you and I are going to have some fun!” Peyton tosses down her second shot of Patron and hands me mine.
I take it and then we climb to the top of the waterfall and jump off as we hold hands and laugh like crazy people. When we come up all we hear is Kip blasting music as he shakes his ass and grills some meat.
“Whew!” Peyton shouts as we go up the stairs out of the swimming pool. “Shake it baby!”
We giggle and she pulls me to the pool house. A large pool table is inside and she hiccups then says, “Wanna play some pool? I have to warn you I’m very good at it.”
I pull at my blue bikini top to straighten out my breasts as the jump knocked them out of place. “Sure, but I have great beginner’s luck so chances are I’ll beat you even though I really have no idea of what I’m doing.”
“Is that a challenge, little girl?” she asks with arched eyebrows.
I arch mine right back. “It is, Big Momma!”
She leaves the double doors to the large room just off the side of the pool open. The breeze flows through them and she takes me to a rack of the long sticks you use to play pool with.
“This one is mine,” she says as she pulls one down. She hands me one. “This is a pretty good one.”
Kip jogs in and places a couple of drinks down on a small table at the side. “I get to play the winner.”
“Are those for us, babe?” Peyton asks as she points to the beers.
“Nope.” He tosses his head and gestures behind him. “He has you and Rachelle’s drinks.”
I look past him and around the corner Blake comes. His eyes meet mine and he looks down. I look at Peyton and she shrugs.
With a pout I turn away and walk back to the pool table. He doesn’t seem to be trying to talk to me so I’ll ignore him.
Damn, match-maker, Kip!
Blake
Damn, Kip!
I try not to watch Rachelle as she plays pool with Peyton and both are in skimpy-ass bikinis. A long drink I take of the beer Kip brought me and look into his eyes.
He grins. “Ignore her, mate.”
“How!” I hiss. She can’t hear us as the music is playing at a near deafening level. “She’s practically naked!”
With a chuckle, he says, “I know. That shit will go all over her when you act like she doesn’t exist.”
“I’m not into playing games. She wants nothing to do with me.” I take another drink of the beer and will it to hurry up and affect me.
“I overheard a bit of the girl’s earlier conversation. It’s not that she wants nothing to do with you, it’s her hang-ups. Just act as if she’s not even here and see what happens. If nothing else, you get a little closure to help you get on with your life.” He taps his long neck bottle to mine and smiles at me with that Kip Dixon, million-dollar smile.
Rachelle
“How could he, Peyton?” I hiss across the pool table at her.
“I know. I’ll get all over his ass later on. And then I’ll get all over his ass,” she says with a grin. “Just play along like you don’t care.”
I do care though. Seeing his handsome face is killing me. I’m second guessing everything. I want him. I want his hands on me. I want his lips on me. I can’t see him and not want him.
She takes a shot and I brush up against her as I walk around the table and whisper in her ear. “What if I want him back? What should I do?”
A quizzical look covers her face. “Do you want him back? It’s only been a day.”
“I was wrong. I can see that now. I was stupid to think I could go on without him. I want him back.” I look his way and he’s looking at Kip as they talk and touch their beer bottles together.
“Then that’s easy. Tell him that,” Peyton says and puts her arm around me. “I’m sure he’s looking at you when he thinks you’re not looking. Lean way over and take this next shot. Elongate that little body of yours and I’ll keep an eye on him and tell you how he reacts.”
I do as she says and make a sideways glance to see if he’s looking. He isn’t, and I hit the ball all crazy and it makes three other balls go in the pockets.
“Damn!” Peyton shouts. The men both look at her.
I ask, “What?”
She points at the table and says. “You won, Shelly! You’re right. You do have beginner’s luck. But, we’ll see if you can keep it up. Kip’s next, and he’s really great too.”
Kip hops up and jogs over to the table. He turns back just before he gets here and points at Blake. “You’re playing the winner, mate.”
Blake nods and goes back to drinking his beer and looking at his phone. Peyton goes to sit across from him and starts talking away to him. Kip smacks me on the ass and I turn to look at him as I rub it.
“Ow!” I say. “So, what am I, stripes or solids? Cause I didn’t even know last time.”
Kip howls with laughter. “Oh, baby!” He shouts at Peyton. “She beat you without even knowing what the hell balls she was supposed to be hitting in. You must be way off your game.”
She shoots the finger at him and yells at me. “Kick his ass Rachelle!”
“Okay, I’ll try,” I yell back over the loud music. Then I say to myself. “I don’t know how I did it while ago, but I’ll try.”
Kip racks up the balls then goes and pours two shots of Patron and comes back to me. “We need to even up the playing field and seeing as you’re so damn good, we each have to take a shot.”
He intertwines our arms then places a shot in each of our hands. Our faces are really close and I glance sideways, noticing neither Blake nor Peyton is paying a bit of attention to us. I take the drink in one gulp and hand the glass back to Kip.
“Get ready to get your ass handed to you, rock star,” I say then wipe my mouth with the back of my hand.
“Whew!” Peyton shouts. “She’s about to burst your bubble, Pop Rock!”
He bows and says, “Please, make the starting shot, princess.”
I break the balls up and look back at him for what’s next. “So what am I this time?”
“Whatever you want,” he says as he looks astonished. “You got four of each sunk.”
“I pick the stripped ones them. I think they’re prettier,” I say and step back and lean on the long pool stick. My eyes dart to Blake and he’s playing with his phone.
I want to win this round so bad so he has to play with me. I take every shot I can with my back to him and lean way over so my ass shoots out. But I never catch him looking at me.
Kip laughs as he sees what I’m doing and he goads me. “Don’t even try, love. He’s moved on. He’s doing as you wished after all. Leaving you alone, moving on and such.” He passes me on his way to the other side of the table and lands another hard slap on my ass.
“Hey! Cut that out!” I shout and look again to see if Blake is looking. Surely he has to be wondering what I’m yelling about. But nope he’s talking to Peyton.
Three more shots and Kip shouts, “Un-fucking believable! She won!”
I jump up and down and scream, “Yes!!! Ha, i
n your face, Kip.” I dance over to him and smack him on the ass.
“Beginner’s luck is all it is, Shelly. You really are a clueless player,” he says then walks to the table and pours two more shots.
He walks back up and places one in my hand and gestures for Blake to come to us. I bite my lip as I’m pretty sure he’s going to have me and Blake intertwine our hands like he and I did.
“Here, mate. Wrap your arm around hers and take your shots,” Kip directs and Blake follows the command.
Only Blake doesn’t look at me as we take the shots so close to one another. He unwinds his arm from mine and hands Kip the glass. “Let me show you two how to stomp beginner’s luck’s ass.”
Kip and Peyton make little ewwwing sounds and I frown. “Good luck.”
“Don’t need it,” he says without looking at me.
Blake.
He racks up the balls and breaks them himself. I see he’s not into being gentlemanly with me right now. He makes in two solid balls so I can safely assume those are his to get in. He takes shot after shot and gets his in every time. Then he misses and I jump up and down.
“My turn!” I walk quickly to set up the shot and he steps back and rubs some blue stuff on the tip of his pool stick. I look over and hold my hand out for him to give me some. “I need some of that. I haven’t even put any of that stuff on mine yet.”
He drops it in my hand and says, “It’s not gonna help, but go ahead.”
I’m determined to make him look at me, so I lean way over and Kip lets out a wolf whistle and I see Peyton smack him. But Blake looks at them, not me.
I take the shot and three of mine go in somehow. I really have no idea how it’s happening.
“Wow!” Peyton says. “Would you look at that, Blake?”
He yawns and goes over to the table and picks up his beer and takes a drink. I make another shot and miss everything.
I step back and he comes back and sizes up the next shot and just before he gets into place I lean into him. “Good luck.”
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