Winter

by Michelle Love

  His laugh dies down. “That sounds nice, but I think it would drive me mad. I really love you.”

  He really loves me!

  “Me too,” I say. “I suppose it would be too hard. But I’m going to get a new cell phone and I’ll send you a text so you’ll have my new number. After what happened to you, I always want you to be able to contact me if you want to. If you do find yourself wanting to talk to someone about anything; the accident, your mother, life when you were young, I want you to feel free to call me.”

  “Good, do that,” he says. “Also, don’t hesitate to ask me for anything, I mean anything. I don’t ever want you to go without a thing. Promise me.”

  I’ll never ask him for a thing but I say, “Okay, I promise, Mr. Generous pants.”

  He laughs again, “Ah, you remembered. So I guess I’ll look forward to your text and wish you a good life, Lexi.”

  “Okay, you have one too. Bye now,” I say and end the call.

  I search out Logan and find him outside sitting by the pool tugging on a beer. “How’d that go, Alex?”

  “Good,” I say and hand him back his phone. “I’m going to get my own phone tomorrow. After what happened to him, I want him to have my number. He may need someone to talk to now and again about his ordeal, you know?”

  “And you would do that for him?” he asks with a frown.

  “Yeah, it’s my fault it happened, so yeah I would talk to him if he needed to,” I say and sit on Logan’s lap and wrap my arms around his neck. “He doesn’t have anyone else he talks to, not really.”

  “Did he ask you to get back together with him?” he asks and I sense jealousy in him.

  I nod. “Yeah, but I told him no. We’re just too dangerous for each other, it is better this way. Just friends.”

  “Did you tell him about me?” He takes a long drink of his beer.

  “I did, and he wished us the best of luck.” I kiss his cheek.

  “I see,” he says. “So is dinner ready, cause I’m starving?”

  I smile and jump off his lap. “Come on, I’ll get you fed then we can watch a movie in bed.”

  Suddenly I feel very frisky for some odd reason. “What else can we do while we’re in bed?” he asks as he grabs me by my waist.

  “Well, I bought you some really cool condoms today, so there’s no telling really,” I tell him as I giggle.

  He rolls his eyes. “Condoms, ugh!”

  “Don’t ugh me,” I chastise him. “You want a piece of this action, you’ll wear one from the beginning until the end, mister.”

  Logan picks me up and carries me inside. “Hey, tomorrow don’t make dinner. My boss gave me tickets to the Maverick’s game tomorrow night. So I’m taking you out, Miss Alex.”

  “Wow!” I say. “A real date, finally.”

  We laugh and I find I feel light-hearted for the first time in a long time. I wonder why just hearing Max’s voice has done that for me.

  Am I stupid for not going back to Max?

  Max

  The room is dark and I am totally relaxed for the first time in what seems like an eternity. I talked to Lexi and we have closure.

  Man it feels good!

  I asked her to come back to me and she turned me down, but I kinda thought she would, so I’m not devastated by her answer. The point she made was that we’re dangerous for one another, and maybe she’s right. I did go on a month long drunk that landed me in the Gulf of Mexico for days on end after all, and nearly died.

  Perhaps I overreacted, but it found me the little angel who sleeps down the hall. Though no spark happens when we touch I find her adorable and she is the sweetest thing. Maybe the spark thing is too much, just like Lexi said. The ability to hurt each other like that is a lot to handle after all.

  We’re jetting off to Dallas tomorrow, the four of us. I’ll move much slower with this one. There’s no rush. No reason to think she’s going to run off if I take my time and get to know her. She is young, maybe too young, and I’m not sure how innocent she is, but she seems like she is. I’d hate to hurt her after all she’s done for me.

  That French accent is adorable. But the truth is I don’t find her sexy, just cute, and adorable. Is sexy something you need to think about for a girlfriend?

  I think I’ll Google that and see what the masses have to say on the subject.

  Alexis

  The noise the fans make at this basketball game is nuts. I lean close to Logan and scream in his ear, “I gotta pee!”

  He gives me a nod and grabs a twenty dollar bill from his pocket and yells back at me, “Get us a couple more beers, will ya?”

  I nod and take the money and make my way out of bleachers and to the restroom. Shoving the money in my pocket as I weave through the way too loud crowd. Three beers we’ve drunk and I’m about to burst.

  I get into the restroom and glory to the highest there is one stall unoccupied. The relief I feel as I let all that beer back out is phenomenal. I wash my hands, run my fingers through my hair and apply a little pink lipstick. I can’t do my make-up like Cake did, but I’m figuring it out. And curling my hair wasn’t that hard to figure out so I am managing to look a lot better than my nerdy days.

  With a slight skip, I leave the women’s restroom to go to the long line at the beer stand to refill my bladder with the golden liquid. I look down as I leave the area to fiddle with the cellphone in my back pocket, making sure I didn’t drop it in the toilet.

  Boom! I ran into someone!

  “Sorry, I wasn’t looking,” I hear and look up to find I’m smack up against Max’s broad chest. “Lexi?”

  “Max!” I shout.

  His arms run around me and he pulls me to the side and my back hits the wall. His lips are on mine before I know what’s happening, but I love it and feel as if I’m flying.

  I throw my arms around him and groan as his tongue finds mine. It’s not enough, I’m not close enough, so I wrap my legs around his waist and he melts into me. He’s rock hard against me and I’m aching for him. His hand goes to my breast and my hands tangle in his hair.

  A man’s voice comes out of nowhere, “Take that shit outside!”

  Max’s mouth leaves mine and I almost cry. “Come with me,” he says as he takes my hand and leads me away from the crowd.

  I don’t care where he takes me as long as he takes me. I move with him, our bodies touch constantly and I am hot as Hades on a Sunday. A door he opens and we’re alone in a small room. He turns back to me, his eyes dark and I bite at my lip then his lips are back on mine. Our arms are wrapped around each other and I fear I may burst if I don’t get my body closer to his.

  His lips leave mine and move down my cheek to my neck where he bites at me and sucks at my flesh. My knees give out and he holds me tight. His words are like embers on my ear, “I want you.”

  I pull back and look at him. My hands press against his cheeks. “I never thought I’d see you again.” My heart beats like never before. My body cries for his and I can’t stop it. “I’m yours.”

  A smile covers his caramel lips and his dark lashes fall over his deep green eyes. My shirt he unbuttons as I unbutton his. I pull his open, reveling his crazy abs and pecs. I try to kiss them, but he has my shirt and bra off and his mouth on my breast, which brings me to my knees. He comes with me and pushes my back to the floor.

  Fire courses through my veins and I could literally die right now and I’d be so happy. I kick my sneakers off and move my hands to unbutton his jeans. As I unleash his beast and run my hand over the rock hardness of it, I let out another loud groan. “Oh, for Pete’s sake it’s harder than before,” I whisper to myself.

  His body shudders over mine as he chuckles. I find it sexy as all get out and stroke his long, hard dick.

  Oh my goodness, did I just say that? Well, he’s making me that ding dang hot!

  He sits up over me and smiles down at me. To the side of me he moves and unbuttons my jeans, pulling them off as he gazes at my body. I watch him looking at
me and find I’m nearly about to fall apart with just that.

  What this man does to me is insane!

  His thumbs hook on either side of my panties and he looks up at me. “I must have a taste, Lex.”

  Oh, man! Oh, dear!

  “K,” I say as I get ready to go completely crazy.

  His lips touch my throbbing bud and I arch up to him as I almost scream with the want I have for him. My hands tangle up in his dark, wavy hair and my body gives itself to him. “I love you,” I groan.

  He stops and looks up at me. “I love you too, princess.” His mouth goes right back to making me crazy and I moan loud and wonder why I ever stopped this in the first place.

  His tongue taps at that little bud until it sends something shooting through me I’ve never felt. As I fall apart I feel his tongue inside me and moan again as it moves in and out. I need him in me like right now! “Max, fuck me now!”

  What? What does this man have me saying?

  He stands up and drops his jeans as he steps out of his shoes and smiles the whole time. “I have you saying shit you never said before.”

  “You have me feeling shit I never felt before, so get your fine ass down here and make me scream.”

  Who am I?

  “Damn it, I’ve missed you, baby,” he says and I can’t quit looking at his gorgeous face.

  My eyes close as he moves his body over mine. Hot lips touch my ear as he whispers, “I’m about to make you mine again.”

  My breath leaves my body as he thrusts into me. It’s hard and animalistic as he moves back and forth, growling and hitting places I didn’t know existed. Tears of sheer joy roll down my cheeks as he rams into me and somehow I want him even more inside me. I wrap my legs around him and he takes one leg and puts his arm around it and moves it near my head.

  Wow! Didn’t know I could do this!

  He’s so much deeper in me now and I can see his eyes dark with desire as he watches my reaction. “How’s that, Lex?”

  There are no real words for how it is so I lift my head up and take his mouth, making him kiss me. No disappointment do I have as he plows into me while his tongue does the same thing to my mouth. My body is on fire like never before.

  His body stiffens and I think he’s about to lose it and I never want this to end. I pull my mouth from his. “Turn me over.”

  He smiles and in an instant his strong arms flip me like I weigh nothing. He’s back inside me and I am whole again. I press my butt against his throbbing cock and whine at how good it feels. I never want this to stop. A hard slap on my butt he gives me and instead of making me mad it makes me even crazier for him. “Bite me,” I shout.

  As he continues to push himself inside me he leans over my back and bites my shoulder. My body seizes and tightens around him. I scream as my insides turn into a mass of sensations I never knew existed. “Oh, fuck!” I yell as I fall apart and feel him stiffen and he makes a loud groan as I’m filled with hot semen.

  I pulse around his still hard dick as I milk every drop of the fluid from him. “I love you,” Max says in my ear as he falls on my back. We land on the cold floor in a heap.

  Max

  The room is dark and the noise from the people and the basketball game can be heard. I hold the one I know I’m supposed to be with in my arms as she cries like a baby. “What if I get pregnant?” Lexi says as she sniffles.

  I kiss her cheek. “I’ll marry you tomorrow if you agree to.”

  “That was insane, Max. That’s how I know it’s too dangerous,” she says.

  Please don’t tell me she’s about to run from me again!

  Pulling her even closer to me, if that is even possible, I say, “Stop this nonsense. We belong together, Lex. I almost died, I’ll not spend my life with anyone but you, love.”

  “The pretty red-head, Max,” she says as she bawls like a baby. “It’s her you should be with. She saved you. She’s your angel. It’s in all the papers and on the news stations.”

  A kiss I leave on her cheek as I say against her ear, “She saved me for you, princess.”

  A heavy sigh she makes, and she finally is quiet and her crying stops. “We are naked in a small room in a public place. You’ve made words come from my mouth I never thought would. I have a lot to think about.”

  She pulls her body from mine and I almost want to cry myself. I watch as she grabs her clothes and pulls them on. I rise and put my clothes on. It’s as if she’s closed down on me, she won’t look at me.

  I try to touch her, but she steps away from me. “Stop it!” I shout.

  Her eyes finally meet mine and I can see it in them. She’s made up her damn mind and I’m going to be without her. “Max, you know as well as I do this is explosive, and that can’t be good.”

  “Don’t, Lexi, please. I’m begging you to stop.”

  As she buttons her shirt she says, “What do you suppose we do about this? I mean the sex is great more than great, but do you know how bad it will hurt if we try to keep this up and something happens?”

  “Like what?” I ask as I grab her and pull her into my arms.

  “This isn’t helping,” she says.

  “I’m not trying to let you go, Lex. Stop being afraid of what might happen. Let’s have all the great days we can. Hopefully they’ll last for many years.”

  Her head shakes and I may have to hogtie her to get her to stay with me. Then I remember who I have with me and wonder how I can go about taking her home with me. Her boyfriend probably won’t be too eager to let me take her either. “I know you have this boyfriend thing to deal with, so I’ll let you do that, but as soon as you do it, come to me,” I say.

  “Max, no, I can’t,” she says then looks up at me. “Logan is too sweet to do that too.”

  “Does Logan make you feel like I do?”

  She pauses and I know he doesn’t. She shakes her head. “No, but it’s a much calmer way to live. No dramatic ups and downs. My heart doesn’t race when I’m with him. I mean, come on, how long do you think I’ll live with my heart always pounding so hard just with the touch of your hand?”

  “We have something special, you and I.” I stroke her long, blonde hair and make her lay her head on my chest. “Don’t let this go because of fear.”

  “What if you let me think about it for a while?” she asks, and it’s better than what she was saying.

  “That’s all I ask, just think about it. And I have one more thing to ask you to do for me,” I say and take her chin in my hand to make her look at me. “Promise me if you have sex with that guy, or anyone, you make him wear a condom. If this little session here did get you pregnant I don’t wish to end up on Maury to see if I’m the father, okay?”

  She nods. “What if I do get pregnant from what we just did? You had a lot of baby-making juice you just unloaded in me.”

  “Then you’ll have to put this nonsense of us being dangerous for each other out of your head for good, because you will marry me and we will be a family for our child, okay?”

  She nods again and finally I feel a bit safer about her, and secretly hope I did knock her up. I take her hand and lead her out of the little room and back into the lobby where I see Kate and her parents looking for me, seems the game’s over.

  “Hey, I want you to meet the people who saved me,” I say as I pull her with me to meet them.

  “How do I look?” she asks as she runs her hand over her hair.

  “Like you just got your brains fucked out, you’re glowing,” I say with a laugh.

  Her cheeks turn red and she slaps my arm. “See, you’re a bad influence.”

  I wave a hand and Kate spots me. “Max, where were you.”

  We meet Kate and her parents and I gesture to Lexi. “This is the love of my life, Lexi. I ran into her and we were just catching up with each other. Lexi this is Kate, my angel.”

  Lexi extends her hand and Kate shakes it. “Thanks for saving him,” Lexi says. “Life would be boring if he weren’t around to ruffle my feathe
rs every now and then.”

  “You are his love. Is he yours?” Kate asks her with a frown.

  Lexi looks back at me and says, “Yes he is.”

  “Then why you two not together?” Kate asks. “If you love each other, you should be together.”

  “It’s complicated,” Lexi says and I feel her trying to tug her hand out of mine. “Speaking of complicated, here comes Logan.”

  I hold tight to her hand. She turns her eyes to mine and they are pleading for me to let her go, and I know I should, but I can’t seem to make myself do that so I hold on.

  “Hey, Alex, where did you disappear to? And you are Max Lane,” he says as he extends his hand. I let Lexi’s go to shake it and feel a tiny bit bad about what I just did to his girlfriend.

  “You must be Logan, Lexi’s told me so much about you,” I say and can’t help being a whole hell of a lot jealous she’ll live with him and not me.

  Logan looks Lexi up and down, it’s not completely obvious what we did, but her eyes are bright and her skin glows and she’s lost all that nervousness she normally has. “You ready to go, babe?” he asks her and reaches out for her to take his hand.

  She does and my heart stops. Two steps she takes away from me and I feel like grabbing her. “Bye, Max,” she says over her shoulder.

  “Lexi, wait!” I say and they stop. I step forward and grab her free hand and pull her into my arms for one last hug. “I love you.”

  Her body tenses in my arms and she pulls her head back. Tears glisten in her eyes. She mouths the words back to me and I have to let that be enough, for now anyway. “You keep in touch,” I say.