Useless Magic: Lyrics and Poetry
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I can’t keep calm, I can’t keep still
Pulled apart against my will
It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to prove
You turned to salt as I turned round to look at you
Old friends have said the books I’ve read
Say it’s the thing to do
But it’s hard to see it when you’re in it
’Cause I went blind for you
Then you leave my head and crawl out the bed
You subconscious solipsist
And for those hours deep in the dark
Perhaps you don’t exist
But I’m caught
I forget all that I’ve been taught
I can’t keep calm, I can’t keep still
Pulled apart against my will
And I’m thrashing on the line
Somewhere between desperate and divine
I can’t keep calm, I can’t keep still
Persephone will have her fill
And I’m caught
I forget all that I’ve been taught
I can’t keep calm, I can’t keep still
Pulled apart against my will
And I’m caught
I forget all that I’ve been taught
I can’t keep calm, I can’t keep still
Pulled apart against my will
THIRD EYE
That original lifeline
Original lifeline
That original lifeline
Hey look up, don’t make a shadow of yourself
Always shutting out the light
Caught in your own creation
Look up, look up, it tore you open
And oh how much
’Cause there’s a hole where your heart lies
And I can see it with my third eye
And oh my touch, it magnifies
You pull away, you don’t know why
That original lifeline
Original lifeline
That original lifeline
Hey look up, you don’t have to be a ghost
Here amongst the living
You are flesh and blood
And you deserved to be loved
And you deserve what you are given
And oh how much
’Cause there’s a hole where your heart lies
And I can see it with my third eye
And oh my touch, it magnifies
You pull away, you don’t know why
That original lifeline
Original lifeline
That original lifeline
Original lifeline
’Cause there’s a hole where your heart lies
And I can see it with my third eye
And oh my touch, it magnifies
You pull away, you don’t know why
That original lifeline
Original lifeline
That original lifeline
Original lifeline
Because your pain is a tribute
The only thing you let hold you
Wear it now like a mantle
Always there to remind you
That your pain is a tribute
The only thing you let hold you
Wear it now like a mantle
Always there to remind you
I am the same, I’m the same
I’m trying to change
I am the same, I’m the same
I’m trying to change
I am the same, I’m the same
I’m trying to change
I am the same, I’m the same
I’m trying to change
’Cause there’s a hole where your heart lies
And I can see it with my third eye
And oh my touch, it magnifies
You pull away, you don’t know why
I am the same, I’m the same
I’m trying to change
ST JUDE
Another conversation with no destination
Another battle never won
Each side is a loser
So who cares who fired the gun?
And I’m learning so I’m leaving
And even though I’m grieving
I’m trying to find the meaning
Letting loss reveal it
Letting loss reveal it
St Jude
The patron saint of the lost causes
St Jude
We were lost before she started
St Jude
We lay in bed as she whipped around us
St Jude
Maybe I’ve always been more comfortable in chaos
And I was on the island
And you were there too
But somehow through the storm
I couldn’t get to you
St Jude
Somehow she knew
And she came to give her blessing
While causing devastation
And I couldn’t keep my mouth shut
I just had to mention
Grabbing your attention
St Jude
The patron saint of the lost causes
St Jude
We were lost before she started
St Jude
We lay in bed as she whipped around us
St Jude
Maybe I’ve always been more comfortable in chaos
St Jude
St Jude
St Jude
And I’m learning so I’m leaving
And even though I’m grieving
I’m trying to find the meaning
Letting loss reveal it
And I’m learning so I’m leaving
And even though I’m grieving
I’m trying to find the meaning
Letting loss reveal it
MOTHER
Oh lord, won’t you leave me
Leave me on my knees
’Cause I belong to the ground now
And it belongs to me
Oh lord, won’t you leave me
Leave me just like this
’Cause I belong to the ground now
I want no more than this
And how long for the autumn
The sun keeps burning me
Every stone in this city
Keeps reminding me, oh
Can you protect me
From what I want
A lover I let in
Who left me so lost
Mother, make me
Make me a big tall tree
So I can shed my leaves
And let it blow through me
Mother, make me
Make me a big great cloud
So I can rain on you
Things I can’t say out loud
All these couples are kissing
And I can’t stand the heat
I lost my shoes and left the party
I wandered in the street
I put my feet into the fountain
The statues all asleep
No use wishing on the water
Won’t bring you no release
Mother, make me
Make me a bird of prey
So I can rise above this
Let it fall away
Mother, make me
Make me a song so sweet
Heaven trembles
Falling at my feet
Oh lord, won’t you leave me
Leave me on my knees
’Cause I belong to the ground now
And it belongs to me
Oh lord, won’t you leave me
Leave me just like this
’Cause I belong to the ground now
I want no more than this
Oh lord, won’t you leave me
Leave me on my knees
’Cause I belong to the ground now
And it belongs to me
Oh lord, won’t you leave me
Leave me just l
ike this
’Cause I belong to the ground now
I want no more than this
WHICH WITCH
And it’s my whole heart
Weighed and measured inside
And it’s an old scar
Trying to bleach it out
And it’s my whole heart
Deemed and delivered a crime
I’m on trial, waiting till the beat comes out
I’m on trial, waiting till the beat comes out
Who’s a heretic now
Am I making sense
How can you make it stick
Waiting till the beat comes out
Who’s a heretic, child?
Can you make it stick, now
And I’m on trial
Waiting till the beat comes out
I’m miles away, he’s on my mind
I’m getting tired of crawling all the way
And I’ve had enough, it’s obvious
And I’m getting tired of crawling all the way
Crawling all the way
Crawling all the way
I’m miles away, he’s on my mind
I’m getting tired of crawling all the way
And I’ve had enough, it’s obvious
And I’m getting tired of crawling all the way
Crawling all the way
Crawling all the way
I’m not beaten by this yet
You can’t tell me to regret
Been in the dock since the day we met
Fire, help me to forget
I’m not beaten by this yet
You can’t tell me to regret
Been in the dock since the day we met
Fire, help me to forget
And it’s my whole heart
While tried and tested, it’s mine
And it’s my whole heart
Trying to reach it out
And it’s my whole heart
Burned but not buried this time
I’m on trial, waiting till the beat comes out
I’m on trial, waiting till the beat comes out
I’m miles away, he’s on my mind
I’m getting tired of crawling all the way
And I’ve had enough, it’s obvious
And I’m getting tired of crawling all the way
Crawling all the way
Crawling all the way
I’m not beaten by this yet
You can’t tell me to regret
Been in the dock since the day we met
Fire, help me to forget
I’m not beaten by this yet
You can’t tell me to regret
Been in the dock since the day we met
Fire, help me to forget
Chained and shackled, oh
I’ll unravel, oh
It’s a pity, oh
Never to return
But I never learn
It’s a pity, oh
Chained and shackled, oh
I’ll unravel, oh
It’s a pity, oh
Say I won’t return
But I never learn
It’s a pity, oh
100 YEARS
I believe in you and in our hearts we know the truth
and I believe in love and the darker it gets the more I do
Try and fill us with your hate and we will shine a light
and the days will become endless, and never and never turn to night
and never, and never turn to night
Then it’s just too much
I cannot get you close enough
100 arms
100 years
You can always find me here
Lord, don’t let it break this
lemme hold it lightly
give me arms to pray with instead of ones that hold too tightly
We have no need to fight
We raise our voices and let our hearts take flight
Get higher than those planes can fly
where the stars do not take sides
Then it’s just too much
I cannot get you close enough
100 arms
100 years
You can always find me here
And lord, don’t let me break this
lemme hold it lightly
give me arms to pray with instead of ones that hold too tightly
And then it’s just too much
The streets they still run with blood
100 arms
100 years
You can always find me here
And lord, don’t let me break this
lemme hold it lightly
give me arms to pray with instead of ones that hold too tightly
I let him sleep and as he does
My held breath fills the room with love
It hurts in ways I can’t describe
My heart bends and breaks
So many many times
And is born again with each sunrise
Funerals were held all over the city
The youth bleeding in the square
and women raged as old men fumbled and cried
we’re sorry we thought you didn’t care
And how does it feel now you’ve scratched that itch
and pulled out all your stitches
Hubris is a bitch
100 arms
100 years
100 arms
100 years
And then it’s just too much, the streets they still run with blood
100 arms
100 years
You can always find me here
And lord, don’t let me break this
lemme hold it lightly
give me arms to pray with instead of ones that hold too tightly
BIG GOD
You need a big God
big enough to hold your love
You need a big God
big enough to fill you up
You keep me up at night, to my messages you do not reply
You know I still like you the most
the best of the best and the worst of the worst
You can never know the places that I go
I still like you the most
You’ll always be my favourite ghost
You need a big God
big enough to hold your love
You need a big God
big enough to fill you up
Sometimes I think it’s getting better and then it gets much worse
Is it just part of the process?
Jesus Christ it hurts
though I know I should know better
Well, I can make this work
Is it just part of the process?
Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ it hurts
Jesus Christ, Jesus Christ it hurts
You need a big God
big enough to hold your love
You need a big God
big enough to fill you up
Shower your affection, let it rain on me
Pull down the mountain, drag your cities to the sea
Shower your affection, let it rain on me
Don’t leave me on this white cliff
Let it slide down to the, slide down to the sea
slide down to the, slide down to the sea
GRACE
I’m sorry I ruined your birthday
I guess I could go back to university
try and make my mother proud
stop this phase I’m in she deems dangerous and loud
The spelling is a problem
as is the discipline
I don’t think it would be too long
before I was drunk in Camberwell again
This is the only thing I’ve ever had any faith in
Grace, I know you carry us
Grace, and it was such a mess
Grace, I don’t say it enough
Grace, you are so loved
I’m sorry I ruined your birthday, you had turned eighteen
and the sun
shine hit me and I was behaving strangely
All the walls were melting and there were mermaids everywhere
Hearts flew from my hands, and I could see people’s feelings
This is the only thing I’ve ever had any faith in
Grace, I know you carry us
Grace, and it was such a mess
Grace, I don’t say it enough
Grace, you are so loved
And you, you were the one I treated the worst
only because you loved me the most
We haven’t spoken in a long time
I think about it sometimes
I don’t know who I was back then
and I hope and hope
I would never treat anyone like that again
This is the only thing I’ve ever had any faith in
Grace, I know you carry us
Grace, and it was such a mess
Grace, I don’t say it enough
Grace, you are so loved
Grace, I know you carry us
Grace, and it was such a fucking mess
Grace, I don’t say it enough
Grace, you are so loved
This is the only thing I’ve ever had any faith in
this is the only thing I’ve ever had any faith in
this is the only thing I’ve ever had any faith in
this is the only thing I’ve ever had any faith in
HUNGER
At seventeen I started to starve myself
I thought that love was a kind of emptiness
At least I understood then the hunger I felt
and I didn’t have to call it loneliness
We all have a hunger
we all have a hunger
we all have a hunger
we all have a hunger
Tell me what you need
Oh, you look so free
the way you use your body, baby
Come on and work it for me
Don’t let them get you down
You’re the best thing I’ve seen
We never found the answer
but we knew one thing
We all have a hunger
we all have a hunger
we all have a hunger
we all have a hunger
And it’s Friday night and it’s kicking in
In that pink dress they’re gonna crucify me
Oh and you in all your vibrant youth
How could anything bad ever happen to you?
You make a fool of death with your beauty
And for a moment, I thought that love was in the drugs
but the more I took the more it took away and I could never get enough
I thought that love was on a stage, give yourself to strangers
You don’t have to be afraid