Mountain Man's Secret Baby

by Lauren Wood

  “I commend you for keeping a stiff upper lip. It’s an English term to signify that you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. There are aspects of my life I shy away from. The one man out there for me eludes me. I know he would be flattered by the attention. It scares me to think of him patting me on the head. Those three words are hard for any man to say with a straight face.” I walked out with this feeling of an anvil on my chest.

  Seeing Coleman parade a bevy of beauties in and out of his life was causing this green streak of jealousy to run down the length of my spine. Saving my virginity for marriage seemed like an antiquated notion. I knew the man I wanted to be with for my first time.

  I wondered what I would do if I was given the chance to explore his body from the top of his head down to his toes.

  Chapter 2

  I never wanted to see him like that. There was no way that I could make a sound. It was like animals attacking each other on the Discovery Channel. I couldn’t move from where I was standing at the threshold to his office. It was barely 6:00 AM.

  My clothes felt like they were too tight against my body. This wasn’t lovemaking. This was pure and unfettered lust burning between two consenting adults. I watched hypnotized by how they moved and moaned in unison. I had no idea who the woman was and it really didn’t matter.

  The twinkling of daylight was streaming through the blinds. He was still wearing the same clothes from yesterday. His pants were around his ankles. His shirt was ripped with some of the buttons missing most likely scattered around the room in their haste to be with one another.

  I felt like I was frozen in time. It was like a car accident on the side of the road. A high pitched squeal revealed that they were almost done. I couldn’t have him seeing me, but it was already too late.

  Coleman glanced back almost as if he had eyes in the back of his head. His smug smile made me want to slap the taste out of his mouth. He turned his attention back to the woman with no face covered by the pillow softness of blond hair.

  I closed the door and made my way back to my desk. It was a little awkward to know what was going on. The staff hadn’t arrived. They would show up in about an hour. Coleman was probably not expecting an audience, but it didn’t look like it bothered him. In fact, I think it fueled him into giving her a reason to scream his name.

  I tried to drown out the exclamations of pleasure easily penetrating the thin walls. It became agonizing. I hungered to be in the same position. I tried to keep myself occupied, but my imagination was running over time.

  The woman finally emerged and sheepishly walked by my desk carrying her high heeled shoes. Her face was a crimson mask of embarrassment. She had a run in her stockings. I heard this sigh of contentment coming from her lips. Her chest was flushed and her hair was in disarray.

  “Haley, I would like to see you in my office.” His voice echoed and I knew that he wasn’t going to let this go.

  I gathered up my pad and pushed my glasses up to the bridge of my nose. I took a deep breath and steadied my nerves. It would’ve been fine by me to forget it even happened. Coleman was going to shine a light on what I had seen.

  I stepped in to find him standing without his shirt on. The one he was wearing was discarded hanging loosely over his black leather chair. He opened a cabinet and found another one exactly the same.

  “You have a meeting at 9:00 AM with the new distributors.” I was trying to remain all business, but it was hard when he was half naked and didn’t seem to have a bit of shame.

  “I want to talk about the elephant in the room. I don’t normally take my lover’s back to the office. It was a spontaneous act in the moment. I can’t promise that it’s never going to happen again. Adventures are unpredictable. I hope it didn’t make you feel uncomfortable.” He turned and I could see his chest was void of hair.

  His muscles were easily distinguishable all the way down to his flat abdominal region.

  “You have nothing to explain or to apologize for. Doing what comes naturally is easy for you. I wish I could say the same. The world turns and I sit still watching it go by. This job is the only thing that makes me anxious to get up in the morning. I’ve learned a tremendous amount about business under your tutelage. It’s been an experience worth its weight in gold.” Even after a long drawn out session of physical pursuit, he was still sporting something that would have made old ladies blush.

  “I’ve been meaning to talk to you about that. I would like to propose a different kind of arrangement. It’s hard for me to talk about without sounding crass. I have more than enough money to last me a lifetime. I will never be able to spend all of it. It is tempting to think about taking it with me when I leave this mortal coil.” Money had given him the world on a silver platter.

  “I’m sure you have those that you are going to leave some of it behind for. I know you don’t have much family, but friends surround you on a daily basis. I consider you one of my dearest friends. We’ve only known each other a short time, but in that time I have come to respect you.” The gray skirt I was wearing inched up past my knees and he was watching from his desk.

  “My life is an exercise in boredom. I’ve been there and done it all. There are certain things on my bucket list. That is where you come in. I know about your deep dark secret. We were celebrating about six months ago and you let it slip after drinking too many tequila shots.” I barely remembered that evening with gaps in my memory I couldn’t fill in.

  I shifted nervously crossing my legs and trying to figure out what he was getting at. It wasn’t like me to overindulge. It was my first taste of tequila. It had become a guilty pleasure leaving me with a headache and a strong hangover in the morning.

  “You told me that I didn’t do anything stupid.” I was a little angry at him for not being completely honest.

  “I wasn’t exactly being truthful with you. What you said stayed with me. I can’t seem to forget about it. I have become the hunter looking for my elusive prey to no avail. I’m tired of chasing tail looking for what is right in front of me. I want you to consider this offer to give you financial independence.” I wasn’t opposed to getting a raise, but the money he did pay me for my services was quite generous.

  I pulled the collar of my red blouse buttoned all the way up to the top.

  His blond hair topped the package of a specimen worthy of admiration. Over 6 feet tall at 200 plus pounds of solid muscle was hard to ignore.

  “I like the sound of that.” He came around and sat on the edge of his desk with his crotch on display.

  “I’m not sure you are going to feel that way for much longer. My love life is a never-ending cycle of women trying to get their hands in my pocket. There are other avenues I can explore, but I’m reluctant to take that walk down a dark alley. I’m a wanted man for my bachelor status. They have to lock up their daughters and their wives when I go prowling. I get no thrill out of the conquest.” His pants had filled out and whatever he was alluding to was exciting a special part of him.

  “I don’t see how that concerns me. I know you’re trying to say something, but you are failing miserably. We are friends first and foremost. You can tell me anything.” I wanted him to say that his feelings for me had grown.

  “I was a different man when I met you in Monte Carlo. I was selfish and self-absorbed. A woman’s needs meant nothing to me. It was all about my pleasure. I’ve learned a lot, but there are times I fall back into old habits like last night. I don’t know if I’m destined to find true love. I’m not even sure if I would recognize it.” I could see that he was nervous and nothing I said gave him the courage to say what was on his mind.

  “I knew who you were and I accepted it. You never had to change. It was not my intention to make you think you had to.” I was imagining my fingers at work on his zipper to expose a healthy portion of his manhood to my eyes.

  “I saw through your eyes that my actions have consequences. I feel guilty when I leave my lovers with the possibility of a future together
. There are very few that get a second chance to be with me. The thought of this conversation has left me with some sleepless nights.” I was waiting for the other shoe to drop.

  “You talk about your love life, but I have nothing to do with that. We came to an understanding. I don’t ask and you don’t tell. We both have been responsible for opening up each other’s eyes. You have shown me what refinement and sophistication are all about. I’ve given you a small taste of Chicago through my eyes.” It was a thrill to watch him eat his first Chicago hot dog at Wrigley Field.

  “I trust you more than I do anybody. You’re probably going to hate me, but I have to say this. I want to be with a virgin touched for the very first time. It’s not an easy feat to track one down. Your confession leads me to believe I don’t have to look far. Has that changed in the last six months? You probably think it’s inappropriate for me to ask.” I was stunned with my mouth open looking at him to see if he was on the level.

  “I… I told you that. Nobody knows. I would like to keep it that way. It’s not common to have never done anything in my 25 years. Kissing is different.” He was telling me he wanted me, but for very different reasons.

  “I have never revealed this to anybody. I have thought about it at length. I can make it worth your while. $1,000,000 for one night in the company of my bedroom is what I’m offering.” I was appalled by his suggestion for monetary gain.

  “I can’t believe you are saying this with a straight face. This has to be a joke at my expense. I’m not laughing. A woman’s virginity is very serious. It’s different for a man. I was under the mistaken belief sex before marriage was wrong. I don’t even know what you want me to say.” His words hung in the air.

  “I wouldn’t dismiss this out of hand. Think about it. I have the experience to make your body into a wonderland. I know techniques that will leave you breathless. Be honest with yourself. Do you really want somebody fumbling in the dark? It would be like the blind leading the blind. I know your secret and how to adapt to it.” He was saying all the right things.

  I couldn’t bring myself to tell him how I had dreamed of this day. It was almost comical to think that I could have my cake and eat it too. The money would give me the opportunity to spread my wings. There were many destinations I wanted to explore

  “Let’s say for argument’s sake I’m thinking about it. You make it sound so easy to throw myself at your mercy. Making love isn’t what you’re looking for. I don’t know if I can do this without the feelings to go along with it.” I did want to see him naked.

  “I think you misunderstand. The term making love sends a cold shiver of apprehension down my spine. What I’m suggesting is a night of sweet bliss in my arms. I will fuck you in every position I can think of. This will be raw sex. There will be nothing gentle about it. Take that into consideration before you make your decision. I am patient, but don’t leave me waiting for too long.” The vivid image of twisting and turning in the sheets gave me a moment of pause.

  Chapter 3

  I walked the city streets after work. Darkness brought out the crazies. A different world emerged in the shadows.

  It wasn’t the money. It was the man. He had become an obsession in my fantasies. This wasn’t how I wanted to capture his interest. The plain truth of the matter was that I could give him what he wanted for a price.

  I saw her standing at the window of her shop waiting for me. I came in and she took my coat. Heidi offered me something to drink a little stronger than coffee.

  “I’m still wrapping my mind around this. It had to be tempting to slap him in the face. The fact you didn’t leads me to believe you have feelings for him. Is this really the way you want to go about satisfying your curiosity.” Heidi was sipping her coffee, but she had made her coffee Irish with a little something extra.

  “I know he’s not capable of commitment. He’s never with the same woman twice. There’s nothing wrong with playing the field. I need your unbiased advice. I’ve been desperate for quite some time to see him in a more intimate setting.” I sat there dangling my heel on the edge of my foot drinking something that had the ability to clean my sinuses.

  “I can’t even imagine what it’s like to stand in your shoes. Your unspoken love for him must drive you crazy. It’s one thing to be in love, but to watch him with other women is cruel and unusual punishment. I can’t make this decision for you. You have to decide if this is right for you.” I had the power in my hands, but I wasn’t getting the permission I was looking for from her.

  “I need you to tell me it’s all right to degrade myself for what I want most of all in this world. Women of the night do it for far less. I don’t want to put myself in the same category as a high priced escort. I could dispense with the money, but that would only prove to him how I feel about him. Right now sex is on the table.” I had already made up my mind to feel his touch.

  “You’ll know what to do when you are faced with the moral dilemma. I wouldn’t wish what you are going through on my worst enemy. A heart is fragile and can break easily. Don’t forget about that. What happens after the deed is done? Can you still work for him without pining for something you can only have once? Those are the questions you need to answer before doing anything.

  I was worried about the way that things were going to be in the cold light of reality. Was it worth it? Did I have any right to play with his feelings? Sex didn’t have to be anything more than a wild time. He had promised a night to remember and I was going to hold him to it.

  The world was filled with unscrupulous people trying to get ahead. He was already at the top of the food chain looking down on the little guy. I had changed his perspective by opening up his eyes to the suffering of others. The change was subtle, but others had commented on his humanitarian efforts.

  This topic of conversation was wearing thin. His body was going to be open to interpretation. I was ready to pull back the curtain and see what was hiding underneath.

  “The money he is offering will make it unnecessary to work for him again. I could get him out of my system. I can’t live like this always walking around on eggshells around him. He’s oblivious, but this is the one time I’m glad a man can’t read between the lines.” The shop was quiet and outside people were walking by gazing with wonderment at the clothing on display in the window.

  “You will get what you want, but what is the cost? He won’t see you as anything more than a piece of meat dangling in front of a starving dog. He will use you for his own pleasures. Don’t walk into this without knowing all the facts.” It was painful to think of him only wanting my body and not the whole package.

  “I see what you’re saying. I wish that it mattered. I will take what I can get from him. It’s far more than I thought I was going to get. I’ve been going through each day in a fog thinking about ways I could get him alone. One chance is what I convinced myself is enough to make him fall in love.” I was trying hard to understand how this was going to affect my friendship with him.

  “I don’t want you waking up in the morning feeling dirty and in desperate need of a shower. You’re not the first one to have feelings for someone out of her reach. I already know what you are going to do and I probably would do the same thing in your shoes. Don’t just give in willingly. Make him work for it. He’s the one that came to you and not the other way around.” Heidi did make sense, but I didn’t think I had it in me to dictate the terms of my surrender.

  “I will have to think about what you said.” I was feeling a little tipsy with the liquid courage running through my veins.

  I flagged down a taxi at the curb and directed him to Coleman’s penthouse suite. I had been there on business, but never for pleasure. That was about to change.

  I was running the conversation in my head over and over again. I didn’t know how he was going to react when he saw me feeling no pain. He was this beefcake ready to be consumed. Coleman was a hunk of burning love looking for a suitable partner with no experience necessary.

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sp; The elevator was encased in glass and made me feel like I was floating in the air. I could see the lobby getting smaller by the second. I had convinced the doorman not to announce my arrival. A $20.00 bill made him look the other way.

  The door opened with him standing there in a white fluffy robe with his arms crossed. He had a glass of cognac moving in a circle clasped between his fingers.

  “I wasn’t expecting visitors at this hour.” I made a conscious decision to take a few steps in his direction.

  I looked up at him and felt compelled to grab the glass from his hands. I polished it off and threw it in the air to land on the floor. It crashed and broke into a million pieces.

  “I don’t know what has gotten into you.” I took a firm hold on what was holding his robe together and freed him from the burden of it.

  I was drunk enough not to care what I was doing, but I was consciously aware of everything going on around me. It just felt like it was happening to somebody else. I deemed it necessary to grab him by the balls. He tried to pull away from me, but my fingernails gave him no choice. He had to stand there and let me manipulate his body.

  “I will tell you what is going to get into me. I found clarity by dousing the flames of indecision with alcohol. I came over here to tell you that I want to play a little kiss and tell. I can’t do that without sampling the merchandise.” I dropped unceremoniously to my knees with his shaft touching my cheek.

  “I can’t take advantage of you like this.” I wanted him to give me a pearl necklace and it had nothing to do with jewelry.

  “Who said anything about you taking advantage of me? You have always been full of yourself. I’m not asking anything of you. I’m taking it by force if necessary.” I squeezed the piece of his anatomy that had become a fascination for me.