The Unwritten Rule

by Elizabeth Scott

  The Unwritten Rule

  by Elizabeth Scott

  Everyone knows the unspoken rule: Do not you like your boyfriend’s best friend.

  Sarah and Brianna have always been friends, and it’s always gone like this: guys talk to Sarah in order to get closer to Brianna. So even though Sarah met Ryan first, she’s not surprised that he ends up with Brianna (even though Sarah has a massive crush on him). The three of them hang out, and Sarah and Ryan’s friendship grows until one night an innocent exchange between them leads to a moment that makes Sarah realize that Ryan might be interested in her after all. But if there’s one unwritten rule, it’s this: you don’t mess around with a friend’s boyfriend. So Sarah tries to resist temptation. But with the three of them thrown together more and more, tension builds between Sarah and Ryan, and when they find themselves alone together at one point, they realize they just can’t fight how they feel anymore….

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  One

  l liked him first, but it doesn t matter.

  I still like him.

  That doesn’t matter either.

  Or at least, its supposed to.

  Two

  Brianna and Ryan are kissing. I try not to notice, but when you’re the only person in the room who isn’t wrapped around someone else, it’s kind of hard not to. Also, the movie Brianna has picked is one I’ve seen before.

  More than once.

  Thirty-seven times, to be exact.

  I know it’s a lot, but Brianna really likes it, and it’s better than what’s on at my house, which is either the news or old sitcoms Dad’s favorites or DVDs Mom’s made from footage of her in different cooking contests. Since she entered the Fabulous Family Cook-Off, she’s been “studying” herself at other cook-offs to see how she can “improve her prep work.”

  Yes, I have watched my mother watch herself chopping onions. And then watched her critique herself on it.

  So you can see why I’d rather watch a movie and why, as of right now, I’m on viewing thirty-seven of “girl meets boy, girl falls for boy, boy falls for girl, then boy gets cancer and dies while girl is brave and only cries once, at the end, as the boy says, ‘I’ll wait for you,’ and then dies.”

  I admit, I cried the first time I saw it. And the second. But by the third time, I started to wonder about the girl’s best friend, who shows up at periodic intervals throughout the movie to support the girl, usually by providing ice cream and/or doing something stupid-silly like catching her skirt in the door and tugging until she tears herself out of it. She also sings to an umbrella at one point.

  Anyway, by the third time through, I started wondering about the best friend. How come she has to be klutzy and wacky? Doesn’t she get tired of being supportive and eating ice cream? (Well, maybe not so much on the last thing.)

  What’s the best friend’s life really like? She must do something when she isn’t losing her skirt or saying, “Oh, you’re so brave!”

  So far, the best friend has been the following at least in my mind:

  a secret heroin user (that was the week Ryan took Brianna to the awesome indie film about the model who stayed skinny by shooting heroin and how everyone told her how fabulous she looked right up until she died. I ended up going with them because Brianna said she wanted someone to talk to when she got bored. So I listened to her guess who was going to win the new date-a-rockstar reality show episode where all the girls have to try to fry an egg naked without burning themselves. But what I saw of the movie was great, and I went back and saw it with my mother later. She said it was “depressing,” but at least I got to see the whole thing.)

  a spy (because hi, obvious awesome plot!)

  a superhero who is trying to save the world while keeping her disguise as a mild-mannered klutz (another obvious but awesome plot)

  in love with the boy, who loves her back, and they have secret meetings when the girl is in one of her musical montages and the boy tells the best friend he really wants her, but doesn’t want to hurt the girl, and the best friend agrees because she’s really a good person in spite of the fact that she’s totally into her best friend’s boyfriend.

  That last one is well, I try not to think about it, but I do.

  I do because I can see it happening in the movie, I mean and the best friend is a nice person. Really, she is. She can’t help the way she feels about the guy.

  She really can’t. Trust me on this one. I might be &

  Oh, forget it. I am. I’m that girl. The one who likes her best friend’s boyfriend. In the world of friendship, I’m awful. Everyone knows the unwritten rule: You don’t like your best friend’s boyfriend.

  I know that, I do, and I don’t want to like Ryan. He’s Brianna’s boyfriend. She’s crazy about him. If I turned my head a little, I could see them kissing. I know they’re together. I know it’s BriannaandRyan now.

  I don’t look at them. I don’t need the reminder that they’re together.

  And besides, I know that if I look it’ll hurt too much.

  So I watch the movie. Maybe the best friend is secretly an assassin from the future, and has come back through time to make sure an evil scientist is stopped before he destroys mankind.

  A sofa throw pillow hits me in the head, and since I know who did it, I say, “Hey, Brianna, what if I miss what’s going to happen next?”

  Brianna laughs and I make myself look back at her.

  She grins at me, lips not attached to Ryan any longer. “So, are you coming with us tonight or what?”

  I pretend to stretch so I can look at the clock. It’s only ten. Too early to say I have to go home. I’ll have to make up a reason why I can’t go with her. Them.

  “I can’t. Mom wants me to get up at five tomorrow and go shopping with her. She’s doing another test run of her recipes in case she gets the call.”

  “Why do you have to go?” Brianna says.

  “My dad can’t because of his hip, and she wants someone there to help.”

  This is a lie. My mother doesn’t need help when she’s grocery shopping. She knows every grocery store in a fifty-mile radius like she knows our house. She knows who gets produce in when, which stores get the newest products first, and which ones are open late in case inspiration strikes and she wants to make something at 10 p.m.

  Mom is intensely, fiercely focused on creating recipes. She enters cooking contests all the time, and has “placed” in four, which is cook-off lingo for coming in second or third which everyone, even Mom, says they’re happy about, but isn’t.

  Mom wants to win a cook-off. I know she does. She likes cooking, she likes making up recipes, but she also enters seemingly every single cook-off there is. She keeps it pretty low-key especially compared to some of the other “contesters” I’ve met but it’s there and it drives her to keep going.

  She’s always had that drive, I think. I mean, there’s a reason I quickly learned to play Go Fish with Dad and not her when I was little with Dad, I at least won sometimes.

  This year she’s sent in and is now practicing twenty recipes for the Fabulous Family Cook-Off. This is a low number in the contesting world, at least among the diehards, but Mom decided the key was to really focus on “just a few dishes.” Dad and I have been eating them for a while now because she wants to be ready when (my mother doesn’t believe in “if” when it comes to cook-offs) she gets the call.

  Unfortunately, Brianna knows all of this, and that’s the problem with having a best friend who’s known you since you were five. Twelve years of friendship mean Brianna knows almost everything about me and my family.

  “She doesn’t need you to go,” Brianna says. “She knows where everything is in every grocery store around here, and besides, she’s never need
ed your help shopping before. She has a system and everything.” (Brianna’s right, Mom does. She can find anything in any store in a minute, tops, and probably blindfolded to boot.)

  But, of course, this doesn’t help with the excuse thing at all.

  “Maybe Sarah doesn’t want to go to the party,” Ryan says, looking at the framed photo of Brianna that Brianna’s hung on the far wall. I took it last year, when I signed up for Photography thinking it would be an easy A.

  It was a very hard B-, with a lot of bad photos on my part, but the picture of Brianna is a good one. She’s sitting on her front steps, looking off into the distance, and I’d messed with the timer and the speed so much that I accidentally managed to get myself in the shot as I was running back to the camera to see if it was still working. I turned out as a smudge, a sort of blur of motion, but Brianna is perfectly still, perfectly captured. I messed around with the photo a little and got Brianna to almost glow in it, pushed the blur that was me into a ghostly shimmer.

  “She wants to go,” Brianna says to Ryan, and then nudges me with a foot. “I hear Tommy might be there.”

  I shrug. Tommy is in my English and Chemistry classes, and he’s sweet. He’s also hopelessly in love with Brianna.

  However, unlike most of the guys who are hopelessly in love with Brianna, he knows he has no chance with her. So he has decided he likes me. Today, in school, he asked me if I was going to be at the party tonight, and I watched him start to ask if Brianna was coming too and then stop, remember she has a boyfriend.

  I watched him remember he was supposed to like me.

  “You don’t think he’s cute?” Brianna says.

  “He’s okay.” He is. He’s okay. He has eyes and a nose and a mouth and hair that doesn’t look like it was cut by a lawn mower and his clothes aren’t hideous and he doesn’t smell or spit when he talks.

  “So, come with us. There’s always room in Ryan’s car, you know. The whole school could fit in his car. Which is fine! Great!” She rolls her eyes at me.

  I smile, because there is always room in Ryan’s car. He drives a station wagon, and Brianna hates it. She wants Ryan to ask his parents for a new car, and has since they started going out a little over six weeks ago.

  “I like my car,” Ryan says, and glances at me.

  I let myself look at him for just a second, get a glimpse of dark hair, bright, intense eyes (so blue you’d swear they came straight from the sky on a hot summer day, the kind of day where even the clouds have burned away), and the tiny scar that cuts across the corner of his right eyebrow that he got during a soccer match back in seventh grade.

  “I can’t go,” I say. “I mean, I can, but I’m tired and I had to eat Cheesy Corn and Rice Casserole for dinner again and my stomach hurts I mean, it’s the fourth night in a row I’ve had to eat it so I’d rather just go home and “

  “Pleeeeeeease,” Brianna says.

  “I’m too full of corn and rice to be any fun.”

  “You’re full of something all right,” she says, shaking her head, and then sighs. “Fine. Go home, leave me and Ryan all by ourselves at the party.”

  “You’ll have fun,” I say.

  “I know,” she says. “I just like it if you’re there. I always like it if you’re there.”

  I look at Ryan again, one last quick glance before I go.

  He’s looking at me, and for a second, one crazy second before I stand up and smile and say goodbye and good night and walk out to my car, I think about what it would be like to be the one sitting next to him.

  Three

  I liked Ryan for a long time. An embarrassing long time, and nobody, not even Brianna, you know. She thinks that in eighth grade, when he invited me to a dance and I said yes, I was just being nice, and when I said “I … I like something, right? -Waiting for her to say that she was, she said, “We can not really like it. It’s Ryan. I could still remember her telling me how lucky was because it turned out he could not go because his grandmother had died and had to fly to Seattle for the funeral. At the time Ryan was not worth the time or the interest of Brianna, so that was not supposed worth to me. But I thought so. I wanted to go to that dance with him, wanted to be his girlfriend, but we can not go to the ball, and when he returned from the funeral Brianna had told everyone that I had not wanted to go with him and was too polite to say no. He listened, of course, and we did not speak until the end of our freshman year, when finished standing next to each other in waiting to leave school during a fire drill. (I can not be the only person who sees the problem with that, right?) Speak that day … just “Hi, what happens? , And so burned guessing that if a fire would be real … and after that, I admit, I thought … wait, maybe someday … And then, some six weeks ago, I saw him at a party. I saw it, but Brianna did.

  Brianna see me get healthy while on the road. Ryan raises a hand as well, and try not to think at this event. About what I thought at that time. On his hand touching mine.

  Four

  The party where Brianna and Ryan got together

  was an end-of-summer-oh-crap-school-is-going-to-suck thing,

  and all the usual suspects were there. Brianna ran into a bunch of

  people from drama club, and they were all talking about what play

  they wanted to do. I was looking around the house, saying hi to

  everyone I passed and talking about summer, which we all agreed

  was too short.

  I got sidetracked in the study. which was your usual study-a dad refuge complete with comfy , dumpy chair that clearly wasn’t

  allowed in any other room in the house, a collection of newspapers

  and magazines all opened to articles about sports, and two huge

  bookshelves. They ran from floor to ceiling and were filled with paperbacks and what looked like old textbooks, but there were also some coffee table books, the kind that are all pictures. One of them was about shoes.

  And here’s the thing about me: 1 like shoes. %Vell, sneakers. I have twenty-seven pairs, and twenty-five of them are ones 1 either decorated myself or bought custom-designed. (Two pairs are in my room now, plain white and waiting for inspiration to strike.)

  Which leads me to what happened. There I was, thumbing through the shoe book and wondering if I could get a copy and decorate a pair of sneakers with pictures of shoes (i saw heels running around the edges, boots dancing along the top, and bright yellow laces with tiny silver shoe charms at the ends), when I saw a painting on the wall.

  I don’t know a lot about art, but the painting was clearly valuable. It was. nicely framed and had one of those little “Look! Look at this ART!- spotlights above it. I half expected to see one of those little white cards bolted to the wall next to it with a title like Intt’nidl Stntggtt’ of the Humart Spirit (Season 8) but there wasn’t anything there, just the painting and its light.

  And the painting … well, it looked like crap.

  I don’t mean that figuratively, I mean it literally.

  I moved a little closer, interested and horrified, and practically had my nose up against the glass frame when someone else came into the room. I looked over, saw it was Ryan. and grinned at him.

  And then I felt my heart drop into my stomach because … Well, the summer had been very, very good to him. Ryan had always been three things: low, thin and obsessed with art. But during the summer, it had grown, I had to look up to find her eyes and was thin but still was not skinny. I had muscles. Not big and bulky type that always think of when you hear the word, but a long and toned. He looked … oh, I would like to be a poet … but it looked strangely beautiful, exotic, and when he said “Hi, Sarah ? wanted to run towards it and follow the lines of his cheeks with my fingers and then touching their hair. And okay, the rest of it. Although I did not. Ryan just said “Hey, come and tell me what this ?, like the normal old Ryan, who had vomited just before giving an oral job in the fifth … and suddenly it is not wonderful creature whose face had all angles and it was huge, with amazing blu
e eyes, had come together in a way that worked and made me stagger. “Well, it’s a painting, he said, smiling. I’ve always liked Ryan’s smile was friendly and warm, but now, that face had become, was lethal. “I … uh. Somehow I realized that I said, clearing my throat and trying to talk normal. Brianna I knew that being beautiful was not all that great. Brianna had changed in the second and third high school. One day two girls were in seventh, the next day, she was a supermodel who had a girl in seventh and best friend. Maybe it was not as dramatic, but it was quite sudden.

  Brianna had always been pretty, but it became pretty quickly, and people had noticed. She liked it at first, until it was all that they noticed. And then she got used to that. Although it took a while, and I remembered crying - I’m just breasts!, You know ? a guy we met at the mall just after everything had changed for her, and then how he had cried that night in my room, hating people look at her and saw her body and face and nothing else. “It looks like …” said Ryan, then was silent, squinting at the painting. - Shit? “I said and then he smiled back. My stomach flipped with that smile from him and I swallowed hard. I told myself it was Ryan, and that he had known and liked me ever since. The thing was that he had always liked me. “So look, but do not think it is, he said, and still sound the same, still sounded like Ryan, a voice that had been a bit serious and deep for him before. Now fit. I think it’s dust, “he said, pointing to the painting, careful not to touch the glass. Look, you see that? I looked and only saw his reflection in the glass. I nodded anyway. “It looks like a smudged handprint” he said. As someone leaves a mark, and the time and nature of wear. Maybe it’s about what remains after you create something. The little that is not supposed to see, but you have to be so that a painting exists. Now he really sounded like he knew Ryan, who was greeted in the halls each day last year, that was my friend. “Or some guy just thought,” hey, I have this lump of coffee, why not smeared on a canvas? ? Said. “Disgusting” he said, smiling even more. Where have you been all summer, anyway? - Me? “I’m ashamed to admit that I screamed. As a scream actually. “Yes. Did not see you here.