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by Betzold, Brei


  She finished with what she was doing and turned her cell off, “Dinner’s ordered.”

  “Did you speed the entire way here?”

  Jaks squirmed to be free, so I put him down and he took off toward his toys. I went and sat down beside Devi, taking her hand in mine, looking at how small her hands were, and how mine engulfed them. She was such a small thing standing at 5’5 and maybe 110 pounds sopping wet, she always looked so small sitting beside me like this. I had missed too much while I was gone, I never got to see her pregnant, I never got to watch her slowly swell with my child inside her. I missed Jaks being born, his first step, his first word, and none of it I could ever get back. I rush of rage came through me; I missed all this because of Chloe, I would never be able to forgive her for this.

  “What’s got you looking so serious?”

  “I was just thinking about everything I missed. I never got to see you pregnant, I wasn’t there for his first steps, his first words, I missed too much.”

  She snorted, “You didn’t miss much by not seeing me pregnant, I looked like I swallowed a basketball. I was fat, my ankles swollen, and according to my brother a completely hormonal pain in the ass.”

  I chuckled at that, “I’m sure you were, but I still missed it.”

  “You aren’t going to do this Seth. You’re not going to beat yourself up over this, yes you missed things, but you’re here now, and that’s what you’re going to focus on.”

  I knew she was right I had to let it go, I had been reading some of the journal she gave me, and it was the best either of us could do about it now.

  Chapter Twelve

  We spent a quiet evening at home just the three of us, eating good food, playing, and curling up on the couch, it was ideal. At bedtime Jaks wanted his daddy to read him his story, so I relinquished the duty to Seth and watched the two of them from the bedroom door. I knew I loved him more than ever before, watching him with our curious always eager son, showing so much patience and love with him. I always knew he would be a great father, no matter what he had thought on the subject. I was so lost in my musings that I hadn’t realized Seth had finished the book and was now standing behind me in the living room, I didn’t even remember walking to. He pulled me back against his chest, and I could feel how hard he was as it rubbed against the small of my back. I let myself lean back against him and slightly arched my neck. He didn’t need more than that, he started slowly kissing the line of my neck, making me weak kneed.

  “Tell me to go,” he whispered against my ear then slowly tracing the shell with his tongue.

  “No,” I whispered back.

  “Tell me to go, Devi,” he said again. “If you don’t, I don’t think I will be able to stop myself this time.”

  “Then don’t stop, Seth,” I gasped as he bit and teased the soft skin behind my ear.

  He growled and scooped me up in his arms. He looked into my eyes, “Don’t say I didn’t warn you,” and then he kissed me with a kiss that was both possessive and erotic as hell. He continued to kiss me while walking to my bedroom, his mouth taking possession of mine. All I could do was hold tight to his shoulders and go for the ride.

  When we got into my bedroom he broke the kiss. He let me slide down his body until my feet hit the floor, still a bit the unsteady, he held on to my arm while I got my bearings back. He bent over and started kissing my neck again, slowly running his lips down, then across my collar bone. He reached his hand up and took my breast teasing the nipple with his thumb, when it came across the nipple ring, I moaned. He stopped and looked at me.

  “How long?” he asked.

  “About a year,” I shrugged. “I finally worked up the nerve.”

  “I have to see,” he growled then he was pulling my shirt over my head.

  He looked down and brushed the pad of his finger over one of my tightened nipples, it tightened even more almost painful.

  “Gorgeous,” he whispered then pushed me down on the bed.

  He reached down and unsnapped the button to my shorts and quickly had them down my legs and tossed into a pile with my tank top. I looked into his eyes and my breath caught, his eyes had darkened to emerald with lust. I reached up and slid my hands under his shirt, the feel of hot flesh over tight muscles made me even wetter than before. I had to see him, I grabbed his shirt and started pulling it up, he caught on fast and had the shirt over his head giving me full access to his beautiful chest and broad shoulders. He was perfect, a hard muscular chest, with wide shoulders, a barbell in both nipples, and a strip of hair that started from his navel leading to a very impressive cock that was straining against the buttons of his 501’s.

  “I can’t take you looking at me like that for much longer Devi,” he said sounding as out of breath as I was.

  “How I am looking at you Seth?”

  “Like you’re ready to devour me.”

  “I am.”

  With that he was on the bed beside me with one of my nipple rings in his mouth, slightly pulling on it then laving the nipple with his tongue it had me crying out with the pain and pleasure of it. He took my nipple in his mouth slowly driving me insane. His other hand slid down my stomach stopping to slightly pull on my belly button ring before going down further to slide his finger back and forth under the lace of my boy shorts. He switched nipples giving the second the same attention he had the first licking, sucking, nipping and pulling on the ring, while he was still slowly driving me insane by being so close to where I wanted him, but never moving down further than the tops of the boy shorts.

  He stopped sucking on my nipples and looked at me. “You’re beautiful, Devi,” he said, then gave me a hard kiss, tasting me as I tasted him. I drew his tongue into my mouth suckling on it, and he groaned then broke off the kiss. “I want you, I want you more than I have ever wanted anyone else.” he whispered. He then started trailing kisses down my neck, to both breasts stopping to play with the rings then lower to my belly button ring giving it the same attention he gave my nipple rings, then lower still. He slid his hands between my thighs and parted them laying butterfly kisses along the sensitive skin of my upper thighs, then pulled my panties down my legs trailing down them with more soft kisses and nips, that had me moaning and squirming on the bed.

  “Pants,” I gasped out.

  He chuckled at me, “Your impatient, I want to taste you first, it’s been too long Devi, I have to taste you on my tongue.”

  He nestled between my legs and I could feel his warm breath on my most intimate parts, I wriggled again trying to get closer, but he just chuckled and gave me more of those infuriating butterfly kisses along my inner thighs and hips. When I thought I was about to explode, I finally felt his tongue slowly and ever so lightly trace my seam. I jumped and gasped at the first contact of his tongue; he laughed quietly again, and then laid an arm firmly over my abdomen to keep me still. He slowly traced my seam with the tip of his tongue again and again, knowing it was driving me even more insane. I felt his other hand come up and slowly, carefully part my most feminine flesh for him to see, “Beautiful,” he sighed. Then the flat of his tongue dragged across my sensitive flesh, and I could feel his tongue ring hitting my most sensitive places, I gasped and moaned and would have come off the bed if it wasn’t for his arm.

  He looked up my body and caught my eye; I had never seen anything more sensual than Seth between my legs, looking up at me with the same look of rapture he gets when playing his bass. I felt my body’s answer to that look leach out.

  “God, I’ve missed you,” he breathed, the pad of his finger found and oh so lightly played with my clit. He brought his lips back down to my wanting flesh but kept his eyes locked on mine while he took that sensitive bud in his mouth and sucked lightly, I cried out from the intensity of it. I felt one then two fingers slip inside and I knew my orgasm wasn’t far off. He bent his fingers and started lightly rubbing that spot that always drove me higher while he gently sucked, nipped and licked my clit. It was on me before I fully realized what
was happening my hands fisted the comforter, my upper body thrashed around and Seth held on to my hips while he continued to draw out the orgasm. I howled out his name and finally after what felt like years I started to come down from the rush that only a great orgasm can bring.

  Seth started sliding up my body and only then did I realize that at some point, he had lost the rest of his clothes.

  “God, baby you are beautiful when you come,” he whispered.

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  She smiled at me, her breathing still labored from the orgasm she just had.

  Her hand reached over and she slowly ran her nails down my chest, over my nipples, making me shiver. Her hand slid down from my chest and my cock jumped at that first brush. Her hand slid over the head of my cock, then down the shaft where it stopped. I looked over at her and grinned, “You’re not the only one with a surprise,” I said then laughed at the emotions flying across her face, confusion, anticipation, glee.

  “When?” she said copying my earlier question when I found her nipple piercings, it took a minute to catch my breath as she slowly slid her fingers around the sensitive skin that surrounded the barbells through the shaft of my cock.

  “About 2 years ago, I decided to add to the Prince Albert,” I wheezed out. “What do you think of my Jacob’s Ladder?”

  “I can’t wait to feel it,” she said while still playing with the barbells.

  “If you keep doing that, it won’t happen tonight,” I gasped out.

  She laughed, rolled on to her side and kissed me, while playing with the ring through the head of my dick. She broke off the kiss then rolled onto her back flung an arm over her face and groaned.

  “What’s the matter baby?” I asked worried she’d had second thoughts.

  “I don’t have a fucking condom,” she muttered.

  I bit back a grin then reached over to where I had dropped the condoms when I took off my pants.

  “Don’t worry, I have it covered,” I said, ripping open one of the packages, and slowly rolled it down my cock, she watched her eyes going glassy with lust. I reached over and grabbed her hips pulling her so she straddled my hips. She wiggled against my erection and I groaned, “Stop teasing you little vamp, I need to be inside you.”

  She flicked at the barbell in my nipple causing me to moan then took ahold of my cock and rubbed the head across her opening. I had to squeeze my eyes shut and take a deep breath to keep from coming then. She, ever so slowly slid down with just the head inside her, and I knew she was paying me back for my earlier torture. I looked up at her and she smirked, she knew what she was doing to me. She slowly took an inch at a time and we both gasped when the first of the four piercings entered her, her wet heat slowly enveloping me, I couldn’t take it anymore so I jerked my hips up fully piercing her on my cock, and we both let out sighs. We both sat still while her body got used to me being there again, nothing felt better than being inside Devi, and I knew I would never let her go willingly again.

  She started on a slow sensual ride, which did very little for my sanity. She, oh so slowly worked herself up then back down my shaft until I thought I would lose my mind. After a few more slides down my dick I couldn’t stand it any longer. In one quick move, I rolled us over taking control of both our pleasure. I gave a hard quick thrust that had her moaning and panting; I picked up one leg and draped it over my shoulder, fucking her hard and fast just like I know we both needed. Our breath becoming ragged, and I could tell she was close her muscles kept tightening driving me even more crazy with the need to come. If I didn’t hurry her along, I would finish before her and I couldn’t let that happen, so I slipped my finger to where our bodies joined and teased her clit. I felt her muscles begin to tighten even more, and her breathing was even choppier, I picked up the pace then felt her tighten around me like a fist, she screamed out my name just as I felt the telltale sign of my own orgasm. My balls tightened against my body and I felt the shiver at the base of my spine, with 2 hard thrusts my own orgasm erupted. It felt like I had electricity running throughout my body, I yelled my release, while Devi was still whimpering and shuddering with aftershocks, prolonging my orgasm. Finally when it was through, I dropped down on top of her and gave her a slow languid kiss, which had us panting even harder than before. I was about to roll off her so as not to squish her but sensing my plans wrapped her arms and legs around me and nuzzled into my neck. She ran her fingers through my sweaty hair, I leaned down and brushed a kiss along her collarbone, “That was it…was… damn, I don’t know what that was,” I whispered against her hair. A slow smile formed on her lips, she disentangled herself and I rolled off thinking nothing in the world is better than making love to my Devi.

  Chapter Thirteen

  Seth slipped out of the bed to take care of the condom while I laid there trying to get my breathing back to normal. I refused to give in to the thoughts running through my head. I wouldn’t let real life seep in and ruin the afterglow. Seth walked in looking delicious as always, his long lean muscles still glistening with sweat, his hair disheveled more than usual, the light glinted off the balls of his piercings on his cock, damn, there was a lot to be said about the Jacob’s Ladder. With that thought I giggled, Seth sent me a look I couldn’t read.

  “You know it’s never a good sign when the girl starts giggling after sex.”

  That made me giggle even harder, he then leapt on the bed and started tickling me, causing me to laugh, squirm, leaving me gasping for breath. “Give,” I squeaked out between peals of laughter. Seth stopped tickling me and lay down beside me dragging me against his chest.

  “Oh crap, I need to go check on Jaks,” I said trying to wiggle out of his arms

  He just pulled me tighter into his embrace, “I already did. I thought you might have woken him with all your screaming,” he said with a bit of male smugness in his voice.

  I shrugged as best I could, “What can I say you’re great at what you do.”

  He chuckled, “I’m glad you enjoyed yourself.”

  He went silent after that, and I could tell he was thinking and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to know what about.

  “How many other than me, Dev? I keep telling myself that I don’t need to know, but its driving me insane that I don’t know,” he finally whispered.

  I went still, not sure what to tell him. I knew I hadn’t been his first and I hadn’t been his last, I mean the guy was a famous rock star. I didn’t want to sound pathetic with my answer.

  “Come on Dev, tell me, I won’t be mad,” he said misreading the tension in my body.

  “There’s only been you,” I muttered.

  “Really?”

  “Yes, really, I’ve had offers but I could never bring myself to sleep with anyone else.”

  He kissed the side of my neck and I was afraid of what he would say.

  “I’m glad,” he finally responded.

  “Really, you don’t find me pathetic,” I blurted out then cringed.

  He rolled me onto my back where he could look at me, his eyes had a possessive, smug look to them and I knew the answer before he spoke it.

  “No, I’m relieved,” he said running his hands through his hair and letting out a breath. “I wouldn’t be mad at you if you had had another lover, but I was jealous as hell thinking that someone else had touched you like that.”

  I reached a hand behind his neck and pulled him down for a slow languid kiss. “No one ever, but you,” I whispered against his lips. Then wished I hadn’t, that one sentence told him just how much I still and had always cared for him. When we finally broke the kiss, I burrowed tighter into his chest and let my eyes drift shut, thinking about what an idiot I am.

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  I woke up in the morning with Devi lying across my chest, she looked so peaceful and more like the 16 year old girl who had caught my attention now than ever. I watched her sleeping form tracing the tattoos on her back and arm; she added a lot of new pieces to her body, the back piece I recognized from a design she had been wo
rking on when we were still together. A Japanese Cherry blossom tree that started at the top of her buttocks and worked its way up her spine, the branches that splayed across her upper back and shoulder blades were beautiful soft pink cherry blossoms. Some of the branches carried on to her ribs, chest, and the sides of her breasts. I remembered from the sketch that there would be delicate designs in the trunk made by the bark of the wood; she could never decide what scenes she wanted though, always changing her mind and re-sketching the piece. Each of the blossoms had a small flaw each unique and when I asked her why, she had told me nothing in life is perfect, even at the age of 17 she was slightly jaded.

  I traced my fingers up and down her spine making her move against me, and I felt myself start to stir, I had woken her up twice during the night. The first time with my hand between her legs, the second I had filled her from behind, moving slowly, taking our time to reach our orgasms. I didn’t think I would ever get enough of her, which brought me back to how would I be able to leave her when the album was done. A squeak from outside the door took me out of my silent revelry, I looked over and Jaks was standing in the doorway rubbing his eyes.

 

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