Addicted to His Pain: A Standalone Novel

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by Latoya Nicole


  When I reached the corner, I shook that shit off and decided to play some dice with my niggas. Thinking about that bitch Courtney always put me in a bad head space. Fuck her and every other bitch in the world.

  CHAPTER 6- DELEON

  Riding through my hood, I was glad I was leaving this shit behind. Nothing good ever comes from this shit. Being blessed enough to retire instead of it retiring me had a nigga feeling good. At thirty two years of age, I had put myself in the position where I could walk away from this shit. It took a lot of grinding and long nights, but I had finally done it. Never really being the type to trust people, I didn’t actually have friends. There were niggas I was cool with and we hung out, but I ain’t trusting a mother fucker with my life or my money. So, when I decided to walk away from this shit, I had no choice but to give it to my cousin from New York. He was always trying to get me to put him on, but he was sketchy. I still don’t know how the nigga even found me. We started talking, but I knew right away he wasn’t the type of nigga I would hang with. The nigga was a hot head and he was a disrespectful mother fucker. I didn’t need that shit on my team, but now that I was walking away I didn’t mind him having it. He was family, I would rather pass it down to him instead of a nigga I didn’t really know like that. My crews didn’t take kindly to him at first, but the shit been running smooth. This would be my last month and I was out for good. Pulling up to Olive Garden, I ran in to get me a Tour of Italy on the go. Standing in the front while I waited on my food, I saw my cousin Sosa sitting there with a chick. I decided to go speak and see what this nigga taste was like.

  “What up cuz, what you doing on this side of town?” Looking up at me, he took his hand from his waist. The nigga was ready to pull a gun in public.

  “What up D.” We shook up, but the rude ass nigga didn’t even introduce the chick.

  “Excuse my ignorant ass cousin, but I’m Deleon. How you doing?” She looked up to grab my hand and I swear my insides moved. This girl was so freaking gorgeous, but the innocent look in her eyes made my heart melt. She was short just how I liked them and thick in the right places, you could tell from the way her ass sat in the chair. I don’t really care what a girl complexion is but she was light with smooth skin. This is the kind of chick I was looking for to settle down with. Every time I looked at her, I wanted to grab her and stick my tongue in her mouth. My dick was getting hard and I was starting to shift around hoping she didn’t notice. Looking at her innocent demeanor, I couldn’t help but wonder how she ended up with him. How this ignorant ass nigga pulled her is beyond me.

  “I’m Auri. Nice to meet you.” She gave a smile and my dick jumped. The purple in her hair was making her eyes sparkle and her smile was flawless. I wanted to ask her to leave with me and let me show her what a real nigga was. My dumb ass was standing there looking at her all creepy and shit and Sosa phone rung. He didn’t even excuse himself or tell her he would be back. The nigga just walked off. Sitting down, I decided to see where her head was at. Plus, my dick was having a moment and it wouldn’t go soft or stop jumping. I know I was breaking code, but no chick has ever made me feel this way just from looking at her and if she gave me the green light, I was about to leave with my cousin’s girl.

  “Where are you from? Seems like you not from around here.”

  “I was born and raised on Van Buren and Kildare, but I been away at school. I go to Harvard.” She said it with so much authority and passion I knew she was proud. As she should be. That is huge.

  “Beauty and brains now that is rare. How did you meet my cousin?”

  “He hangs out in front of my parent’s house?”

  “Now yall a thing?” She started blushing because I guess she finally realized where I was going with my questioning.

  “I guess so. I’ve only known him a week.” She spoke with her head down. My guess is she is shy and not used to people being so direct with her. That would change if she was my girl. She would never talk or sit with her head down as if she was inferior. Everything about her seemed right and I wanted her in the worse way. Right as I was about to ask for her number Sosa walked back up, I wanted to talk to her more, but I knew I wouldn’t get the chance to do so with him here. Praying his phone would ring again, it didn’t and he was ready to leave.

  “You done eating? I gotta make a run.” He didn’t even give her a chance to respond. He threw some money on the table and walked off out the door. She got up in a hurry to try and catch up with him.

  “It was nice meeting you.” And just like that she was gone. For some reason, it felt like the love of my life just walked out on me. Brushing off the feeling, I walked back over to the register to see if my food was done. Paying for my shit, I jumped in my whip and headed home.

  It took me like forty five minutes to get to my house. Wanting to be away from the hood and my past life, I had a house built from the ground in Gurnee, IL. It was quiet and peaceful just like I wanted it, but right now I wouldn’t mind being in the hood. If I was there I would be able to hit up chick and get my dick wet. That shit wasn’t happening and I damn sure wasn’t bringing a girl I didn’t know to my spot. Realizing wasn’t shit shaking tonight, I turned on ESPN and watched high lights of the king. Lebron James was on every play, but I couldn’t really focus with thoughts of Auri invading my mind.

  CHAPTER 7- AURI

  Good genes must run in their family because Deleon was so fine I could barely look at him. He was that milk chocolate that you knew would melt in your mouth. He had his hair cut low and his muscles were busting out his shirt. The tats on his arm didn’t help me at all. The Gods must have sculpted this man by hand. I didn’t want Sosa to catch me staring at his cousin, so I just focused on my food. But I didn’t expect him to hit on me, it made me blush and feel some type of way. What kind of girl did he take me for? I definitely wasn’t that chick. When I got home, I told Jess all about the encounter.

  “Girl if it was me, I would have gotten his number.” My friend made fun of me like I was scared.

  “Sosa is just as fine as well and I don’t need two men. He is enough.”

  “You think you are the only bitch he fucking with? Guys like them have multiple chicks. Trust me, I know these niggas.”

  “Probably so, but two wrongs don’t make a right and that’s not my thing.”

  “You better make it your thing. Or you gone end up looking stupid.” I knew she was right, but all I could do was be who I was. I couldn’t control what the next person did.

  “It doesn’t matter. We’re going back home in a week. All I’m really focused on is graduating. If it’s meant to be for me and Sosa we will be.” She was starting to irritate me. People were always trying to change me, just let me be who I am.

  “Whatever bitch, all I’m saying is don’t let no nigga play you I don’t care who it is. Always have a back up plan.”

  “Okay girl I hear you. Now can we go to sleep damn.” Laying down, I finally was able to get some sleep. Tired and irritated don’t mix, I was tired of people telling me what I should and shouldn’t do. It seems like as soon as I closed my eyes, my phone was ringing.

  “Hello.” My irritation showed in my voice.

  “Damn ma I woke you up? You go to bed early as hell.” Looking over at the clock, it read 3:48 AM. How Sosa felt that was early is beyond me. “Come outside with me for a little while.” Not really wanting to, I let him down easy.

  “Baby, we can do breakfast in the morning. I’m sleepy and I don’t want to wake my parents getting up.” His silence let me know he didn’t care for my answer.

  “Alright, I will see you in the morning.” Without giving me a chance to respond, he hung up. My wet spot was leaking at the thought of him, but I didn’t give in. Closing my eyes until sleep found me, I thought of him.

  ****

  As soon as I woke up, I got in the shower and took care of my hygiene. Putting on my clothes, I grabbed my phone to see if Sosa was ready for breakfast. Telling me he was already outside at the corne
r, I headed out the door.

  “Morning baby.” Hugging him, I could tell he hadn’t been home.

  “What’s up ma. Let’s get out of here.” Jumping in his truck, I wondered if he was going to stop at his house to shower and change his clothes. He didn’t. Pulling into IHOP, I got out ready to eat my breakfast. After we ordered, he started asking me questions he never seemed interested in before.

  “Once you go back to school, how are we gone see each other?”

  “You can come there or I can see you when I get another break.”

  “If I come out there what we gone do? I damn sure ain’t coming all that way to do shit.” My vagina started throbbing and I have no idea why.

  “We can do other stuff.” Blushing, I dropped my head.

  “What’s other stuff?

  “Whatever you want to do.” He liked that answer from the smile on his face.

  “Why don’t you have a girl friend?” Curious wasn’t the word. I needed to know why this fine specimen was single.

  “Because I don’t trust bitches and they don’t know how to let a nigga lead.” Looking me in my eyes for a reaction, I spoke.

  “Lead them where?”

  “Wherever I need or want them to be. I’m the man and my bitch have to know that I won’t steer her wrong. If she can’t trust me to do that then she ain’t the one for me.” His roughness had me completely turned on.

  “I don’t have a problem with you leading me. Just don’t hurt me okay.” The biggest smile spread across his face.

  “I won’t ma. You in good hands.” Smiling, the waitress finally came with our food and as I ate, I sat here and stared at this fine man that was mine. He was a little rough, but that made me wet. We ended up talking about everything, from his child hood to mine. Our likes and dislikes. I don’t think I have ever laughed this much. I couldn’t wait to finish these last 6 months of school, so I could get back home to my man. He was everything even though I had no one to compare him to. For the first time in my life I was falling, who would have ever thought it would be for a hood nigga.

  CHAPTER 8- JESS

  I couldn’t wait to get on that train and take our ass home. If I had to hear about Sosa’s ass one more night, I was going to die. I’m not hating or nothing, but it’s hard to listen to someone go on and on about a nigga and how perfect he is when you know he ain’t shit. Me and the nigga been creeping since the first night. Don’t get me wrong, I love my best friend. Sosa is not the type of nigga for her though. They are on two different levels. She needs a square as nigga and they can have study dates. Delow loves my dirty draws, but it’s something about Sosa’s ass that makes my kitty leak. I straight be walking around with an attitude until he calls me and gives me my dick fix. Even though I got some last night, I’m walking around with an attitude. Not because I need some, but because he is spending our last day here with her. Of course, Delow decided we should all hang out together and now it’s a double date. Who the fuck wants to sit and watch they ass together. He doesn’t take me anywhere. All he does is call my phone and say meet him here, we fuck, and we go on our merry little way. Luckily, I didn’t want to hurt my best friend’s feelings or I would tell her all about our hook ups. I don’t know who the fuck he thinks I am, but he has another thing coming. Jess doesn’t play second to no bitch, not even one I call my sister. Sosa was gone have to make up his mind or this thing we got going on was over. Walking around with an attitude, I continued getting dressed for this bull shit date. Even though I had an attitude, I was looking hot to death. Nobody would be looking at Auri tonight. All eyes would be on Jess. Rocking an off the shoulder pink body con dress and some gold heels, I felt like new money. Until I saw Auri’s ass. She was wearing a one piece cat suit. It was all black and she wore purple heels and clutch that matched her hair. Never seeing her in make up, I was shocked to see her face beat to the Gods. This bitch was smoking and I was hating. About to go change my clothes, she killed that thought.

  “Come on bestie, they outside. You look so pretty. I’m going to take a million pictures of us.”

  “I’m straight. I have a cold and my face kind of swollen. You look nice as well.” Fuck yea I was hating. Jess has never let a bitch be flyer than her. I’m trying to figure out when the bitch even bought this outfit. She has never dressed like this before. Walking out the door with an attitude, I got even more upset when I saw they were matching.

  “Yall niggas acting like yall in high school.” Cracking a joke, as I looked them over. They looked good as hell together, but I would never admit that out loud. He was rocking some black true religion jeans, a purple Ralph Lauren polo shirt, and some purple Giuseppe’s. His purple matched her hair as well. The nigga even got his dreads designed, they weren’t just thrown in a ponytail.

  “Don’t be mad because you and your nigga look ah mess. I knew how I wanted my bitch to look, so I took her shopping. Take that up with lil homie over there that you in that rainbow dress.” No the fuck he didn’t try to throw shade.

  “Nigga, you better do your resume on me. My family is caked up and nothing I wear comes out of a department store. I buy my shit from catalogues and the same block you standing on, I can buy that mother fucker.” Sosa done pissed me off with the fronting.

  “I don’t have to check your hoefax, bitches like you are all the same. Now let’s go before you piss me off. Trust me, you don’t want me pissed off.” Stomping off, I got in his truck and I slapped Delow in his head. Not only did the nigga stand there and let his friend talk to me like that, but the mother fucker was laughing. Pouting all the way to the restaurant, we finally pulled up to Ruth Chris Steak House. Sosa walked around to let Auri out and Delow walked his ass to the door. Usually he is sweeter than this, but today it seemed like he was fronting for Sosa. Walking in, I decided to get my attitude in check and enjoy our last day together. Sitting down, Sosa and Auri was whispering all in each other’s ear just giggling and shit. If I didn’t know any better, I would think he was really feeling her. Feeling defeated, I decided to step back and allow them to be happy. Obviously, I was just a fuck and it wasn’t no sense in hurting my friend over a fuck. Something about that nigga made you want to just do what he said though. The waitress came and took our orders and brought back our drinks.

  “To our last day in the Chi. May the turn up be real.” I toasted. Looking around at everyone else waiting for them to hold their glasses up, they all started laughing.

  “Bestie, you stay trying to turn up. How are we going to turn up in here?” Realizing we were in this stuck up ass steak house, I couldn’t do shit but laugh myself.

  “You right, but we can turn up after.” Clinking our glasses, we all started having a good ass time and talking. When our food came, the shit looked so good we all started digging in.

  “Girl send that steak back your shit ain’t done.” Sosa looked like he was about to throw up looking at Auri’s plate. I was used to how she ate it by now.

  “It’s medium well. If you get it like this, it’s juicy and tender.”

  “Naw bestie if you get it like that, it’s not done.” We all laughed as she cut a piece and put it up to Sosa’s mouth.

  “Girl you better gone, that steak is on its period.”

  “Come on baby, do you trust me?” Looking at her for a second, he opened his mouth and let her put it in.

  “Damn ma, that shit is good. Let me get another bite.” Now we had to sit here and watch them feed each other all night. Right when I couldn’t take anymore the finest nigga my eyes ever laid eyes on walked up.

  “Damn cuz, me and you must like the same spots.” They all dapped up, but his eyes were on Auri the whole time.

  “Are yall rude asses gone introduce us?” They were acting like we weren’t there.

  “My bad, this is my cousin Deleon. You already met my girl Auri and this is her friend Jess.” I reached my hand up to him and I swear it was an earth quake in my panties. I have no idea how Auri turned this man down because he was a diff
erent kind of fine. It’s like his skin was glowing. He was a smooth carmel complexion, with the deepest waves I had ever seen. His teeth were so white, I knew he would pass the tissue test. The nigga was muscular and tall, he had to be at least 6’3. Usually when they have that many muscles their dick was little, but you could see his print clear as day through his pants. Feeling myself leaking, I tried to get my shit together.

  “Nice to meet you Jess and it’s good to see you again Auri.” His voice was sending vibrations threw my body and this nigga hadn’t looked at me once, his eyes stayed on Auri. “I’m gone let yall enjoy your food, I was on my way to the bathroom and I saw yall. Cuz hit me up later.” With that, he was gone. Trying not to be obvious, I waited about three minutes and then I excused myself to go to the lady’s room. My shoes were slipping and sliding all up and threw there I was walking so fast. Peeking in the men’s room to make sure he was the only one in there, I walked in.

  “You need some help holding that?” I asked as I locked the door.

  “Naw I’m straight. I been holding my own shit for thirty two years now.” As he laughed, I walked over to him attempting to grab it anyway. Pulling back, he put that big mother fucker back in his pants and went to wash his hands. “I’m straight baby girl, but stop by my table on your way out I got something for you.” Nothing could stop the smile that spread across my face.

  “What do you have for me daddy?”

  “A glass of water. Your ass thirsty than a mother fucker.” With my mouth stuck to the floor, he walked out leaving me speechless. I hate this nigga and his cousin. Both of they ass could eat a dick. Fixing my face and making sure I got all of it off the floor, I walked back out to our table. Hoping nobody caught the dumb look on my face, I sat my ass down and didn’t say shit for the rest of the night. Everybody else was having a good time, but I couldn’t seem to shake my attitude. Sosa was trying to treat my life, and Deleon acted as if I was gum stuck to the bottom of his shoe. While Delow sat at the table like I wasn’t even here. Everybody’s main focus was Auri, and I didn’t like that shit. I was going to let her have him, but after tonight, Sosa was going to be mine.

 

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