CHAPTER 9- SOSA
“I’m not trying to be rude, but I’m about to drop yall asses off. This is my last day with my girl and I’m not trying to spend it hanging with you mother fuckers.” Looking in my review, I can tell Jess and Delow wanted to keep hanging out, but that shit was done.
“Nigga you been acting real brand new.” Delow was in his feelings as usual.
“How Sway? Because I want to spend these last hours with just my girl? You should be trying to do the same with yours. Get off that Little Richard bullshit my nigga. I’ll see you tomorrow.” Understanding why Jess was pissed, I couldn’t figure out for the life of me why Delow had an attitude. When a text came thru to my phone.
D: Nigga you know you got the stash at your spot.
Me: That’s why you back there having a bitch fit. I got some on me, you can have it. Damn.
D: Aight bet. Thanks Bro. Nigga was turning into a fucking coke head. My phone chirped again.
Hot and Ready: So, you really not gone see me before I leave?
Me: I see you now. Fuck you mean. We just had dinner together.
Hot and Ready: You know what the fuck I mean.
Me: You have a nigga. Act like it. Get the fuck off my line. Putting my phone up, I turned my radio up because these mother fuckers was getting on my nerves. I’m trying to be a gentleman and shit because I needed Auri to be gone off a nigga and these clowns trying to stop my flow. One thing I ain’t never been was a fool, and the bitch Courtney taught me a valuable lesson. No bitch was ever going to turn me out and treat me like a weak nigga again. I was going to be the one to turn these bitches out and get this paper doing it. Looking over at Auri, she was a bad bitch and if I wasn’t a fucked up nigga, I would probably see what I had, but I wasn’t and I didn’t give a fuck.
Once I dropped them off, I headed over to my crib. As soon as we walked in the door, my phone started going off. Fuck it was Deleon.
“Yea cuz what’s up?” Trying not to sound aggravated, but I was. It seemed like nobody wanted me to get no pussy tonight.
“I need to drop something off to you real quick. Where you at?”
“I’m at the crib, roll through.” I hung up and Jumped in the shower while I waited on this mother fucker to show up. Once I got out, I threw a towel around me, because I heard talking. Standing in the hall way I decided to see what was being said.
“What’s your major baby girl?” Deleon was asking Auri about school. Some shit I would never do because I didn’t care. The fuck this nigga care for.
“Law. I want to be a judge one day, but my minor is in Psychology.” I was really gone have to hurry up with my plan. Ain’t no way I was dating no judge.
“That’s good. What’s your GPA?” This nigga was really interested in this school bullshit.
“4.9.” She said that shit proudly. “They are honoring me in a couple months for making the Dean’s list every year. Yall should come down to the ceremony.”
“Let me know the date and I’ll be there.” Nigga ain’t say we will be there. Is he trying to push up on my bitch?
“January 31st.”
“Okay bet. So listen- “I decided that was enough. The conversation was getting too deep for me.
“Nigga what you had to drop off?” Standing up, he looked at me with my towel on and kind of stared. Made me feel like he was on some gay shit.
“Here, this is for this week. I’ll call you tomorrow.”
“Aight, bet.” Walking the nigga to the door, I hurried up and let him out.
“Ma, go jump in the shower, everything you need is in there.” Not even trying to beat around the bush, I wanted her to know I was getting that pussy tonight. Wanting her so sprung she would do anything I asked, I was going to make sure I laid it down on her ass every chance I got. While she was in the shower, I texted Jess ass and told her to send me a pic. Even though she was mad, I knew she would still do it. A few seconds later, she was sending me a video of her playing with her clit and the caption read, you know you would rather be here. Listening to the gushy noise, I started playing with my dick. It stood straight up.
“Bae what are you watching?” Auri stood there looking at my dick on brick as I smiled at my phone.
“Some bullshit off fb. My dick been hard waiting on you to get out the shower. Come here and stop playing with me.” Walking over to the bed, she had this shy look on her face. We hadn’t taken any coke tonight because I gave Delow’s ass the only stash I had on me. Laying her down on the bed, I decided to pull out all the tricks to get her ass where I needed her to be. Sucking her breasts, I took my time with her because technically she was still a virgin. She was high out of her mind the first time. Rubbing my hands all over her, soft moans kept escaping her lips. Using my fingers to penetrate her, I attempted to loosen her up before I stuck my dick in her. For the second time in my life, I slid down and ate some pussy. I hadn’t done it since Courtney, but this was for the greater good. Taking one for the team, I flicked my tongue up and down on her clit. Her body started shaking immediately. Knowing my skills, I went in for the kill. Just because I didn’t eat it, didn’t mean I didn’t know how to. She was moaning and screaming so loud, she hadn’t even realized I stopped. Knowing she would be scared of my size, I slid it in while she was distracted. Giving her time to get used to my size, I worked it in and out of her slowly. The shit felt amazing. Thinking back, I don’t think I ever had a bitch with a pussy this tight and I know I never took a chick’s virginity. That alone had me brick hard, knowing I was her first everything. Jess was a freak, but she couldn’t compete with this feeling right here. She would always come in second. How do you compete with a pussy that’s tight as them African braids, but leaking like a faucet? Not being able to control myself, I pulled out and shot my nut on her stomach. Even though I came quick, I wasn’t done. This was going to be a long night for Auri. When she left here tomorrow the only thing she was going to be able to think of was me.
CHAPTER 10- DELEON
When Sosa walked in with just his towel on I got stuck. It pissed me off to know he was about to have sex with her. Yeah she was his girl, but I wanted her to be mine. I needed her to be mine. Talking to her, I knew she didn’t need to be with a nigga like Sosa. He wasn’t on her level. That’s a train wreck you could see coming a mile away, but what was I supposed to do? She was his and I needed to let that shit go, but I was going to go to her ceremony even if that nigga didn’t go. Riding to the block I decided to see what those niggas was up to. With only a couple of weeks left before I turned it completely over, I needed to make sure that everything was on point. As soon as I pulled up, I got pissed. It was a group of bitches over here and they were kicking it like they weren’t supposed to be running the streets. Liquor bottles were everywhere and they had the girls sitting on their laps and shit. Wondering if I made the right decision, I walked over to them to let them know this was not how they were going to run my shit.
“The fuck is you niggas doing?” Everybody in the crew pushed their girl off their lap except Sosa.
“We chilling. What’s up cuz?” His nonchalant attitude was pissing me off.
“Is this how you been doing business? Looks like to me you not handling your shit.”
“Has your money been short? Is the product moving? Then what the fuck is the problem?” He was right. Even if they were fucking off, you couldn’t tell because everything checked out. This was just not how I ran my shit.
“You right, but this is sloppy and sloppy gets you caught.”
“Nigga if I do get caught, it ain’t taking shit from you. Whoever is out here running my shit will make sure you get your cut. No disrespect cuz, this ain’t your shit no more. You turned it over to me for a reason. Let me do me.” Even though this was true I didn’t allow any nigga to talk to me like that. Family or not. Walking over to him I pushed the bitch he had sitting on his lap out the way and grabbed him by his throat.
“Let’s be clear, I haven’t given you anything yet. As of
now these streets are mine and I don’t like how you moving. When you talk to me you are going to respect me. I know you not from here, but you better do your homework fam. I will give your ass a fade so quick and have flowers sent to your mom by the morning. Don’t ever talk to me like that. Now clean this shit up before I get pissed and I thought you had a girl, the fuck is you niggas doing?” Releasing his neck, I walked back towards my car.
“That’s why you really pissed, cus I’m cheating on your precious Auri.” Turning around I almost knocked his ass out. He was really trying me.
“Fuck you say nigga?”
“I ain’t say nothing. It’s all good cuz, relax damn.” As I walked off, I could hear him and his homies laughing. Was that why I was so pissed? I didn’t think so, but whatever the case may be, he better get his shit together or he was gone have to see me.
I stopped at the Jerk Chicken Man to get me some jerk tacos. The line be down Pulaski Blvd, but I never have to wait because I’m that nigga. I call it in ahead of time and I walk up, get my shit and bounce. Since I’m ready to get out of the game I am more aware of my surroundings. Shit always happen when you are ready to walk away and I wasn’t going to allow that to happen to me. I’m on my P’s and Q’s way more than I was when I was out here terrorizing these streets. Getting the fuck out of dodge, I took the long ass drive to my house and settled down to eat. For some reason, the thought of Auri crossed my mind. Not knowing her last name, I wondered if I could still find her on Facebook. Grabbing my MacBook Air, I pulled up my page and typed in Auriana and Harvard. There she was looking good as fuck. Letting my thirsty show, I sent her a friend request. Funny thing is, I barely got on here, but one thing I learned was bitch ass niggas tell everything to that free app and I needed to see how niggas was moving. The notification popped up letting me know she accepted it and I couldn’t stop smiling. Like the true creep that I am, I slid dead in her inbox.
Me: Hey baby girl, did you make it back to school safe?
Auri: Yes, I am here now studying.
Me: I’m here if you ever need my help.
Auri: I think I got this. I’m pretty smart.
Me: When you want to be.
Auri: What does that mean?
Me: Nothing it was a joke.
Auri: Ha Ha. Well, let me get back to studying.
Me: Okay.
Auri: Thanks for checking on me.
Me: Anytime. I fucked that whole thing up and I was supposed to be the smooth one. While I ate my food, I looked through her pics and got lost in every last one. Not wanting to look like the creep that I am, I made sure not to like any of them. Before I knew it, I had stalked her page for two damn hours. Knowing I needed to get a grip, I closed my laptop and headed to my room. Tomorrow I would go out and enjoy myself, I had to get this girl off my brain. She wasn’t thinking about my ass and one thing I didn’t do was chase a bitch. I never been good at that game.
CHAPTER 11- AURI
January got here before we knew it and I was getting prepared for my ceremony. I couldn’t wait to see my family and my man. Wanting everyone to see exactly how hard I had been working, time was not moving quickly enough for me. Tearing my room to shreds to find the perfect outfit was killing me. I hadn’t seen Sosa in a month and I couldn’t wait to feel him between my legs. Snatching me out of my thoughts my phone rung.
“Hey mama.”
“Hey baby. Your daddy’s blood sugar is up to high, they admitted him in the hospital. I’m sorry sweetheart, but we’re not going to make it to your ceremony.”
“Dang ma. I thought you guys were almost here. Why didn’t you call me earlier and tell me this?”
“I wasn’t getting a signal in the hospital. I’m just now leaving, going to get me a change of clothes. You know we wouldn’t have missed this for anything in the world. Take lots of pics baby.”
“I will. Kiss daddy for me.” Hanging up, I would be lying if I said I wasn’t disappointed. I have been waiting for this day since they told me I was being honored. Not allowing myself to get in a funk, I continued to get dressed. Sosa and Jess would be there and they were my family as well. Deciding on a white fitted button down shirt that had a bow that tied at my neck and a black pencil skirt, I looked very sexy, but professional. Deciding on my purple heels and clutch, I wanted to make sure it didn’t clash with my hair. Looking at myself in the mirror, I teared up. Walking out, I was ready to go receive my award. Watching the auditorium fill up, Jess was on the front row smiling as if it was her that was getting honored. My best friend always had my back and I was glad to have her. As I watched the entrance, I kept looking out for Sosa, but I didn’t see him. When I looked up and Deleon walked in, I was sure he would be right behind him. Thirty minutes into the ceremony, I was in tears and not because I was happy. My baby didn’t show up for my big day, but his cousin remembered. Disappointed, I gave a half assed speech and got up out of there. When I got in the hall way, I allowed my tears to fall.
“Baby girl why are you crying?”
“My dad got sick so my parents couldn’t make it and my boyfriend didn’t even bother to show up. His cousin remembered from a month ago and I just told his ass two days ago.” I knew my feelings was hurt because I never cursed this much.
“You have to count your blessings how they come, you still had people here to support you. Don’t allow anyone to steal your joy. This is your day.” Reaching down, he hugged me and I swear I never wanted to let him go. Jess came running out the door and I jumped back as if I was caught doing something.
“You okay best friend?” She was looking worried, but I could also tell she wanted to know why I was in the arms of another man.
“I’m fine now. I was mad because Sosa didn’t come.”
“Fuck him. Let’s go turn up.” Laughing at her, we all left to go have dinner and celebrate.
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The three of us had a great time and I felt bad that Deleon had to fly back home tonight, but there was no place for him to stay. Walking back into our dorm, me and Jess was cutting up talking loud and dancing that I didn’t even notice Sosa standing there.
“Where the fuck you been?” He had the nerve to be pissed.
“We went out and celebrated my day. You know the award ceremony you missed.” Pushing pass him, I continued to walk down the hall as if he wasn’t there.
“Auri don’t make me show my ass in these white people school. Bring your ass here.” Turning around with tears in my eyes I snapped.
“One day. I never ask anybody for anything. I’m always giving. I give my all to people and be there in every way possible and all I asked for was one day. For my family to share a major accomplishment with me and nobody showed up.”
“Somebody showed up, it just wasn’t who we were expecting.” Jess tried to mumble under her breath.
“Shut up Jess.” Not meaning to take my anger out on her I apologized. “I’m sorry best friend.”
“It’s cool. Yall gone and handle your business, I’m going to the room.” Once she walked off, I turned my attention back to him. “Why couldn’t you be there for me? I watched the door the entire ceremony and you didn’t come.” At this time, I’m doing the Ceily cry. I knew I had to be ugly as hell. That’s when I realized I had gotten tipsier than I thought.
“Baby come here, don’t cry. I thought it was at eight. You know I wouldn’t have missed your day. We can celebrate together, let’s go back to your room.” Forgiving him just that easy, I allowed him to lead me to my room. Jess was sitting on her bed in her boy shorts and sports bra looking at us like we were crazy.
“What is he doing in here?”
“Shut the fuck up. I came to celebrate with my girl. You keep talking we gone turn up without your ass.” She sat back down and didn’t say another word. Pulling out cups, he poured us some of the Hennessy he had with him. Since he didn’t bring any chaser, we were drinking it down straight. Reaching in his pocket, Sosa pulled out his stash of coke.
“Yall ready to
get all the way turned up?” Of course, Jess was down right away, but I didn’t really want to do all of that. I was now drunk and I didn’t think I could handle that too.
“You two go head, I’m going to pass this time.”
“Ma, it’s your celebration and I drove all the way here to celebrate with you and this the shit you pull.” His veins were bulging out of his neck. I had never seen him pissed off before.
“I have class tomorrow.”
“Fuck your class. I’m here with you now. You know what it’s cool. I’m out.” Jess stood up as if she was about to try and stop him from leaving.
“I’ll do it.” Dropping my head, I finally gave in. Sitting back down, he poured the contents out and made three big lines.
“Ma, you go first since it’s your day.” Taking the rolled up money he had, I leaned down to the table and snorted the whole line. My eyes started rolling and I passed out.
CHAPTER 12- JESS
Checking to make sure she was all the way out of it, I leaned down to snort my line.
“You a disrespectful ass nigga. So, what, you were gone fuck her while I laid there and watched?” Jumping up off the bed, Sosa ran up on me so quick I didn’t know how to respond. Grabbing me by my neck he slammed me against the desk in the room and damn near choked a booger out my nose.
“You talk too fucking much. I already told you that you don’t run me. Bitch you got me all kinds of fucked up. I do what the fuck I want and you are going to take it or leave me the fuck alone. Stay in your fucking lane before I beat your ass.” As tears fell down my face, I prayed he released me before I passed out. He loosened his grip, but he didn’t let go. Sliding my booty shorts to the side, he started rubbing my clit. Scared to move or say stop, I sat there and allowed him to finger me after he just damn near killed me. After five minutes the drugs started to take over and I forgot he had just choked the shit out of me. By this time, I was soaking wet and horny. Ready for him to replace his fingers with his dick, I started grinding against them hoping he get the hint.
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