“When you done with that hit, I need you to get back in the shower. I need some pussy and I’m not fucking behind no other nigga.” She was so into the pipe, her ass didn’t even look up. Not knowing if she heard me, I screamed her name.
“Auri.”
“I heard you baby. Let me get this hit and I got you.” Grabbing my dick, I started stroking it as I waited for her to come get me right.
CHAPTER 18- JESS
Heading over to see Delow, I wondered if he knew where Auri was. Me and her parents had been calling her for three months straight and then the phone got disconnected. We hadn’t talked to or seen her for 6 months and I was starting to worry about her. Every time I would ask Delow about her all he would say is “She straight her nigga got her, worry about us.” She was changing, but I didn’t think she would walk away and say fuck everybody. All I could do is wonder if Sosa told her about us. Why would she cut me and everybody else out her life like that? Those thoughts are what brought me to the trap house. No matter how much Delow asked me to, I wouldn’t. My ass tried to avoid Sosa like the plague. He was addictive as fuck, as soon as I saw him I knew he could end up back in my draws. The look on Auri’s mom face, pushed me to come here. Her dad was not taking this well and he looked bad. No matter what I felt, I needed Sosa to let me see her. Pulling up, I took a deep breath as I walked in the door. Delow and Sosa was sitting on the couch in the front, that was good I didn’t have to wait.
“Sosa, where my girl at?” They continued to watch the game as if I hadn’t even asked a question. Walking in front of the tv, I asked again. “Where is Auri?”
“She in the back room, now get the fuck out the way.” Ignoring his dumb ass, I walked to the back room and opened the door. Without meaning to, I let out a scream looking at the shit before me. Auri looked like she was only fifty pounds and she was getting a train ran on her. One nigga was hitting her from the back while she sucked the next nigga off. When the scream escaped my mouth, she looked up and went back to what she was doing. It was almost as if she didn’t even see me. Her eyes looked empty and this was no longer my best friend. Easing back out the room I ran back to the front.
“What the fuck did you do to her? What did you do?”
“At least I didn’t leave her alone at Juniors bachelor party?” They laughed at Sosa’s weak attempt at making a joke. Crying tears as I tried to get the image of my friend out my head, I walked out the door and got back in the car. Hearing my phone go off brought me out my trans.
Sosa: Meet me at my house in thirty. 2052 Oak Park Ave.
Me: Okay. I told myself I was only meeting up with him to find out what happened to my friend, but deep down I knew the truth. I wanted this man in the worst way and it was nothing I could do to stop the craving. I would use this chance to find out what the fuck happened. Even though I was fucked up in what I was doing, I could still be a good friend to her. I would find a way for him to release her and let her go home.
Thirty minutes later, I was sitting in front of the address he gave me. The house was nice, but I expected more for a nigga that ran the entire city of Chicago. My house was bigger than his. Walking up to the door, I walked in and he was smoking a blunt. Since he was occupied, I took that time to question his ass.
“What the fuck is up with Auri? What happened?”
“She doing what she wanted to do, but I got her.” He said in between puffs.
“How you got her, they were just running a train on her and she small as fuck.”
“Because, I make sure nobody fucks with her and that they stay strapped up. I walked in on her doing this shit for a hit, I just made sure that she is straight while she out here. She still live here and that’s my girl, but a hoe gone do what they wanna do.”
“She only doing what you got her doing. I can’t believe this shit. What am I supposed to tell her parents?”
“You not gone tell them shit. Matter fact, come put this dick in your mouth. You talk to fucking much. Damn.” Walking back towards the door, I was ready to leave. His attitude was fucked up and I didn’t need this shit. “You walk out that door, I promise you won’t walk out another one.” Turning around I groaned as I walked back to him. This nigga already had his dick out playing with it. As soon as I saw it, all my anger went out the window. He knew I was gone off the D and that’s why he acted this way. Leaning down to take him in my mouth, I moaned as soon as the tip touched my lips. Man, I missed this dick and I showed him just how much. Not giving him time to gather his composure, I deep throated all of him. Each time I went down, I took all of it in. Making sure it was wet and sloppy every time. Grabbing his balls while I sucked, I took them in my mouth as well.
“Fuck girl, suck this dick then.” Smiling on the inside, I knew I had him. Using my hands to do a circular motion, I took his balls back in my mouth as I massaged his dick. Feeling his veins popping, I stood up and lifted my skirt. I wanted to feel his dick today and I couldn’t allow him to cum from head. If I did, he would be done. Sitting down on him, I took all of that shit in and started riding his ass like I was in the derby. Using my pussy muscles to grip his dick each time I went down, I had him losing all sense of reality. That nigga grabbed me and started tearing my walls up. Loving every minute of it, I leaned down and kissed him as his dick filled me up. To my surprise, he didn’t turn away. This was the first time we kissed and I was loving it. The thought alone made me have an orgasm.
“Fuck, I’m about to cum.” Instead of him going easy on me, he started slamming his dick inside me extra hard. Screaming to the top of my lungs, I was in pure ecstasy. I know I was supposed to be finding out about Auri, but fuck her. This man was mine and I was going to get him. There was no way he was choosing a crack head over me and this pussy. Feeling him tense up, I knew he was about to cum, so I tried to get up to catch it in my mouth. To my surprise, he grabbed me by my waist and pulled me back down. Gripping his fingers in my ass, he pumped even harder.
“Kiss me.” Doing as I was told, I leaned down and started kissing him again. Right as he came, he bit my lip, causing me to cum with him. Laying there looking at him in love, I was ready to stay over all day and fuck all night, but he brought me back down to reality.
“Go get washed up, I have to go back and check on Auri.” Wanting to curse his bitch ass out, I changed my mind and did what I was told. It was going to take a little longer, but he would be mine. Fuck Auri. I love her, but she needs to get her shit together and worrying about a nigga ain’t what she needs.
CHAPTER 19- DELEON
Realizing Auri wasn’t who I thought she was, I decided to let that situation go. Holding out on the connect was only a way for me to get closer to Auri until I got her to see that she needed to be with me. The way she acted at her graduation rubbed me the wrong way. She didn’t even open the gift I gave her and I went out my way to get her something special. It was a necklace with a diamond gavel as the charm. A nigga was believing in her more than she was herself. All the shit she was talking seemed like a bunch of bullshit. Washing my hands of the situation, I focused on my mom. She was still in the hospital because she had gotten pneumonia. My heart shattered into a million pieces when they told me she had breast cancer. Looking at her now, she seemed so peaceful and you couldn’t even tell she was sick or that she was just screaming in pain on yesterday. The treatments seemed to be making her worse instead of better and I couldn’t stand to see my mom in that kind of pain. For as long as I could remember it has always just been me and her. My dad died when I was younger and I couldn’t stand to see my mom struggle. That’s how are started hustling. At first it was just a thing, but I got addicted to the fast money. When my mom realized what I was doing and how I got my money, she made me promise that I wouldn’t stay in it forever. Once I had enough money to be set, I would walk away and I have kept my promise. Hearing the door open, I was too consumed in my thoughts to see who it was that entered. It was a nurse in there taking my mom’s vitals.
“Son, don’t be rude introduce yourse
lf.” My mom knew I wasn’t really a social mother fucker so I was shocked she was pushing me to be friendly. Until I finally looked up. The nurse was pretty as fuck and you could see her shape clear as day through her scrubs. Looking at her didn’t give me the same affect that Auri did, but she was gorgeous as well.
“Hey, I’m Deleon.” She smiled at me and it made her even more gorgeous.
“I’m Hannah. Your mom is doing much better today.” She said in a soft tone.
“Well since I’m doing so good, you can leave and go handle some of your business son. You don’t need to stay here with me. Maybe you could take Hannah here out on a date.” Embarrassed that my mom was actually trying to hook me up, I didn’t know what to say.
“I get off in an hour and I could eat.” Seeing that she was willing to go out with me, I perked up.
“I’ll wait here until you get off.” She nodded and walked out of the room. Tired of being lonely I was happy as fuck that I was going on this date, but I couldn’t help wishing it was Auri. Something about that girl just did something to me, but Hannah was sweet and beautiful as well.
“Penny for your thoughts?” My mom could always sense when something was wrong with me.
“It’s this girl that I wanted to be with, but I had to let her be. She doesn’t seem to be who I thought she was, but I can’t seem to get her off my dome.”
“One thing I learned in this life is the heart wants what the heart wants. Sometimes though, you have to give it a shove in another direction. Just because you want it doesn’t always mean you need it or that it’s good for you.” Thinking about what she said, I knew she was right. It was time for me to stop thinking about her. She wasn’t even my girl.
Hannah shift was finally over and we walked out together. We rode in separate cars so that she didn’t have to come all the way back to the hospital to get hers once we were done. We rode to the Cheese Cake Factory in Oak Brook and got a booth. Looking at her, I was glad my mom pushed us into this date. After a couple of drinks, we finally ordered our food. Talking and laughing like we were old friends, I was glad that I had given her a chance. We were on the same page and I could see us going the distance. After being there two hours and enjoying each other’s company, I decided to let her go home. I knew she had to be tired after working twelve hours and I didn’t want to be selfish. When I walked her to her car, I pulled her into me and just held her. Finally allowing my lips to touch hers, I was ready to open myself up to somebody. She broke the kiss and looked up at me.
“Please don’t hurt me. I’ve been through enough.” I could see the sadness in her eyes and it made a nigga like me melt.
“I won’t. I got you.” Even though I meant it when I spoke the words, something in the back of my mind was telling me that I won’t be able to keep that promise. Shaking the feeling off, I kissed her again. For the first time in a long time, I felt good and I decided to ignore the nagging feeling inside me once I got in the car. Speaking out loud to no one in particular, I tried to convince me and the air.
“I am over Auri. It is time to move on.” Driving off to my house, I couldn’t help but wonder why I didn’t believe that shit one bit.
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I had been dating Hannah for about a month now and she was everything a guy could ask for. I hadn’t really been thinking about Auri much, but today she had been on my mind heavy. Thinking it was because me and Hannah were finally about to make it official, I pushed it to the back of my head. For the first time since I had moved in my place, I was allowing a girl to come over. My mom was out of the hospital and she was more excited than I was. Finishing up with my dusting, I jumped in the shower and got my hygiene in order. Hearing the doorbell for some reason had me nervous. Walking to the front I opened the door and she smiled at me and my heart melted she was so beautiful.
“Hey baby, I hope you haven’t been waiting long.” She said softly.
“No, I just jumped out of the shower. You look amazing.” Blushing she waved me off like it was nothing, but she really did look good. I was used to the hood chicks walking around in leggings and tank tops all day long, but she was wearing a black see thru chiffon shirt, some jeans, and some black casual shoes. It may have seemed simple to some, but it was refreshing to see something else for a change. Walking over to her, I hugged her and just rested there taking in her perfume. The scent was making my dick hard. Sitting at the table to eat, I didn’t have much of an appetite. All I wanted was to bend her over the table. Realizing I wasn’t eating, she spoke up.
“Is everything okay? You’re not trying to poison me or nothing are you?” Laughing I eased her mind.
“No, but I was just sitting here thinking I wish you would hurry up so that I could have my dessert.” Blushing, she stood up and started walking towards the back.
“Are you coming?” Jumping up out of my seat, I damn near fell over my chair. Once we got in the room, she started slowly removing her clothes. I was so caught up in her beauty, I forgot to remove my own shit. She walked over to me and pulled my shirt over my head. Allowing her to undress me, my dick damn near fell out of my pants as soon as she went to pull them down. Placing her gentle hands around my dick, my knees got weak as she stroked it. Placing kisses all over it, she finally took it all in her mouth. Showing special attention to the tip, she had my knees shaking. No longer able to take it, I grabbed her and laid her across my bed. Leaning down to kiss her, my intentions were to work my way down to her pussy, but she had other plans. Grabbing my dick, she rubbed it up and down her slit. She tried to slide it in, but I stopped her. As much as I liked her and could see myself with her I wasn’t ready to go there without a condom. She seemed like she would be a great mother, but I needed more time to make sure this is what we both wanted. Reaching into my dresser drawer, I grabbed a condom and put it on. She didn’t get pissed off like the hood girls did, she waited on me to put it on and then she continued. Sliding my dick in her pussy, I started off slow, but increased my pace. Matching me stroke for stroke, I didn’t like that she was trying to handle me rough. Pushing her legs back, I started tearing into her. It had been a while since I slid into some wet shit and the shit was feeling good as fuck. Spreading her legs as far as I could, I never let up on her ass. Pushing myself all the way until I was balls deep, she was screaming and moaning like crazy. Hoping she came soon, my prayers were answered. I didn’t think I could hold my nut in much longer. Filling up the condom, I rolled over ready to take a nap. Knowing I wouldn’t sleep long because I was going for a round 2, I closed my eyes for a moment. The ringing of my phone woke me up as soon as I dozed off. Thinking it could be something wrong with my mom I answered.
“Hey D, we have a problem. I need you to swing by the trap.” Hearing Sosa’s voice irritated me. Getting out of the game and handing everything over to him should have meant no more communication, but this wasn’t the case.
“Whatever is going on is not my concern. You should be able to handle it.”
“If it didn’t concern you, I wouldn’t be calling.” Noticing the annoyed tone he was using, it took everything in me not to curse his ass out because Hannah was here.
“I’ll be there in a minute.” Looking over at Hannah, I could tell she was a little disappointed. “You can stay here until I get back, this shouldn’t take long.”
“It’s okay, we have plenty of time to enjoy each other. I’ll call you tomorrow and see if we can finish what we started. I’m off and I don’t have to go in.” Smiling at her, I was glad that she understood. We both got up and threw our clothes back on and headed out the door. I walked her to her car and leaned us against it as I kissed her.
“Make sure you let me know when you make it home. I’ll talk to you later.” Jumping in my whip, I headed to the city to see what the fuck was so important and what did the shit have to do with me. When I got to the door, I took a deep breath before I entered. As soon as I stepped in, I wanted to curse his ass out. The nigga was sitting in the middle of the trap getting head fro
m what appeared to be a crack head.
“Are you serious nigga? Come holla at me so I can get the fuck out of here.” Telling the chick to stop, he stood up and she turned around. My knees got weak and old feelings resurfaced. I was standing face to face with Auri. Although she didn’t look like the girl I knew and wanted with my whole being. She was so strung out you could tell she no longer cared about her appearance. Her clothes were too big and they looked as if she picked them up out of somebody’s yard. Her hair was matted to her head and the purple was now faded. Funny thing is, even with her face sucked in and her eyes bucked, you could tell she was still beautiful under it all. Fighting back the tears I felt surfacing, I turned to face Sosa.
“Nigga I thought you was in rush. Come holla at me in the back.” I could tell I was moving, but I didn’t feel my legs at all. There was so many questions I wanted to ask, but I knew I couldn’t. “The connect got locked up. They busted him at the border getting a shipment. We need a new connect or we are fucked. I won’t be getting any money and you not gone be able to get your cut.” He was going on and on, but I didn’t give a fuck what he was saying.
“Aight, I’ll call you tomorrow.” Turning around I damn near ran out of there. Looking around the house, I didn’t see Auri. Defeated, I walked out the door and jumped back in my whip. Trying to process what I just saw, I put my car in gear and drove off. When I made it to the end of the block, there she was. Looking like a zombie and scratching, I pulled up beside her.
“Get in.” Was all I said to her.
CHAPTER 20- AURI
When I turned around and saw Deleon staring at me in disbelief, I was mortified. Nothing affected me much now days because all I cared about is where I was going to get my next fix. Even when jess would come over to see Delow, the shit didn’t faze me. I had accepted what has become of me and I didn’t give a fuck what anyone thought. Until, I saw him. When they went in the back room I had to get out of there. It felt like I was suffocating and I needed air. Feeling like I was on the verge of a break down, I heard his voice.
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