The Promise

by S. L. Jayne

  I grabbed my jacket and another drink and headed out the back door. I needed fresh air to clear my head before I re-joined Hanna and Dean. It was a cool night so I draped my jacket over my shoulders and headed to the gazebo at the bottom of Drew’s back yard. I opened the door and stepped inside, it was dark but peaceful away from the party. I sat on the small couch and let my mind wander. I don’t know why I let what Ryan said get to me, maybe it’s because I always wondered what he would say if he knew I had a crush on him. I knew he wasn’t the same as he was back in high school. He had changed, he was a player now. Most of the girls he hooks up with are the ones that give it up for a bag of chips. Feeling frustrated with myself for thinking about the crush, I decided to shake it off and go back inside. I stood up and downed my drink, I reached out to grab the door handle just as the door swung open. I jumped back and let out a small scream.

  “Shit! Sorry, Ava. I didn’t mean to scare you, babe.”

  My heart hammered in my chest. “Ryan, what the hell? What are you doing sneaking up on me?!”

  He stepped inside closing the door behind him. “I didn’t sneak up on you, I saw you come in here and wondered if you were okay.”

  I cocked my head at him. “You’ve been wondering how I am a lot tonight. Shouldn’t you be inside with a girl on your arm?”

  If I didn’t know any better I’d have thought that was hurt I saw in his eyes, but I do know better and my words wouldn’t have affected him that way.

  “I don’t want just any girl on my arm tonight, Ava. I want you.”

  He wants me? Is he drunk?

  My stomach dropped. Is this his usual hook up line? “Are you drunk, Ryan?”

  He drew his eyebrows in and took a step closer to me. “No I’m not drunk, and I’m not using any lines on you either before you think that.”

  Too late!

  “Then why are saying it if it isn’t a line? I’m not going to just let you into my pants because you’re wondering if I’m okay!” I couldn’t help the tone I took with him.

  He lifted his hand and brushed his thumb down my cheek, I felt my skin come alive under his touch. I took a step back to break the connection I felt building between us.

  “I wouldn’t do that, Ava. I’m not doing that. I want you because I want you.” He came towards me again, placing his hands on my hips he looked down at me. “I’ve wanted this for ages, I just haven’t acted on it because I know you think I’m a player.”

  I took in a deep breath, “I do think that, Ryan; I don’t see how I’m any different.”

  Without answering me he pulled me into him crashing his lips onto mine. My skin felt like it was on fire. This is really happening, right here. I felt his fingers skimming across my skin underneath my top and I held my breath. What if I don’t do it right? Will he tell his friends? Stop freaking out! He started walking forward and guiding me backwards to the small couch in the corner, I let my breath even out and let him lead. My legs hit the couch and Ryan lowered me down, he came down with me. He was leaning over me resting on one elbow, he brought his mouth back down to mine and teased my tongue with his. I slid my hands up his back, He broke the kiss to pull his shirt over his head. Holy shit he’s got a hot body! I felt every muscle and ridge as my hands roamed. He pulled on my shirt hinting at me to remove it, I lifted a bit and he pulled it off me.

  “You’re beautiful, Ava.” He kissed me again as his hands slid down my body to my jeans.

  I felt my body shudder at his touch. He sat up, not taking his eyes off me.

  “Lift your ass, babe,” I lifted up and he pulled my jeans and panties down together then started undoing his own jeans, he removed them and leaned back over me. I held my breath again.

  “It’s okay, if it hurts I’ll stop. I promise.”

  I nodded and relaxed. I felt him enter me, I winced slightly and froze.

  Ryan looked at me. “Want me to stop?”

  I shook my head. “No, please don’t. I’ll be okay.”

  He carried on and I felt my pulse start racing and my body get hotter. I’ve never felt like this before, ever.

  At this point I was past caring and let out a moan. “Ryan, that feels good, don’t stop.”

  He groaned in my ear. “I don’t intend on stopping, you feel so good, Ava. Better than I could ever imagine,” I rocked my hips to meet his thrusts, our breathing got heavier and I could feel something building up.

  I arched my back. “Ryan... Oh my god,” a loud moan escaped me.

  Did I just have my first orgasm?

  His thrusts got faster and he groaned in my ear. “Mmm, you feel amazing. That was so good,” Ryan moved to stand up and the reality of what we just did hit me.

  I just gave Ryan Sanders my V-card! Feeling slightly embarrassed, I sat up to get my clothes back on. He turned to me. “Are you okay?” I looked up at him and nodded, “I’m good.”

  “Um, Ryan? Could we keep what happened between us to ourselves?” He looked at me confused, “Please, promise me you won’t tell anyone.”

  He still looked confused and I saw what looked like hurt flash across his face but he nodded. “Sure. Whatever you want, babe. I promise.”

  Chapter Eighteen

  I was in a complete state of bliss for the duration of the journey home, Ryan had made tonight so special and I don’t think anything could top it. Ever. When he was away in Boston there were so many times I just wanted to jump on a plane and fly to him, just to see his face light up like it does when he is around me.

  “What are you thinking, Beautiful?” Ryan said as he and took my hand in his and walked me to my apartment door.

  I hope he’s going to come in and not just leave, I’m not ready for tonight to be over.

  “Just how amazing you are and how special tonight has been,” I said with a wide smile.

  Before I could open the door he wrapped his arms around my waist leaned back slightly and lifted me, not too high, just enough that my feet were no longer touching the ground.

  “I. Love. Every. Inch. Of. You,” he said, stopping between each word to kiss me.

  “You’ve made me the happiest man alive tonight, hearing you tell me you love me is like sixteen damn Christmases all coming at once,” he put me back on the ground and winked at me before opening the door and pulling me into the apartment.

  Walking through the hall I could hear Rylee’s laughter, its comforting knowing that I can go out and not worry about her being alone, because if Matt isn’t working he will drop any other plans he has to hang out with her.

  “Hey you two,” I said as I walked into the living room.

  They both looked up at me from their comfortable position on the couch, Rylee slouched with her back against the arm and her legs stretched out over Matts lap. Yeah, the ‘friends’ position. I bite my lip to stop my chuckle.

  “AVA?!” Rylee shouted, jumping off the couch and running over to me. “Is that an engagement ring? Are you getting married? I’ll kill him for not giving me the heads up!” She said, looking behind me for Ryan.

  I shake my head at her and laugh. Before I could answer her I heard Ryan’s laughter behind me, he draped his arms over my shoulders and answered for me.

  “No, I didn’t propose- I would have, but you know my girl is all into her fairy tale endings and happy ever afters so I gotta do this one properly.”

  I felt my cheeks warm up, he either has been paying close attention to me over the years or Rylee has told him about me. I don’t think it’s the latter of the two because Rylee rarely has deep conversations, especially not with Ryan.

  Rylee looked at us both confused. “So if it’s not an engagement ring, what is it?”

  “It’s a promise ring,” Ryan and I said at the same time.

  Rylee put one hand on her hip raised her eyebrows and cocked her head to the side, she actually looks about ten years old right now.

  “You didn’t promise to move away did you?” She said with a smirk.

  We all burst out laughin
g, even Matt had a laugh at that. He had been sitting quietly watching us all until now.

  “No, she isn’t moving away. I promised to love her forever and be committed to her and only her, and one day to make her my wife,” Ryan said planting a kiss on my cheek.

  “Pretty boy, do you want a tampon with that statement?” Matt said chuckling.

  Ryan laughed and shot Matt a cocky look.

  “Fuck you, Bear, you needed a tampon weeks ago,” he said smirking.

  Matt held his hands up and clamped his mouth shut.

  Rylee looked at me clueless and shrugged her shoulders. “So, he’s going to love you forever huh?” She said with a smile.

  “I am. Starting very soon, I’m gonna show her how much I love her in bed,” he said with a smirk.

  I laughed at Rylee screwing her face up in disgust at Ryan’s words, I’m sure she didn’t need to hear that.

  “You wanna get out of here, shorty?” Matt said shaking his head and laughing.

  Rylee walked over to Matt grabbed his hand and tried to pull him up from the couch, she failed, which made Matt laugh harder.

  “Yes I do and I’m not short!” She pouted.

  Matt stood up towering over her and looked down. “You’re a hell of a lot shorter than me, which means you’re short in my book.”

  Rylee gave him a sarcastic look. “Doesn’t take much to be shorter than you, Lurch. Now get me out of here and you can show off some more punching at that bag of sand,” she said laughing.

  Ryan and I laughed the whole time watching their exchange.

  ***

  I took a step forward to make my way to the kitchen when I felt Ryan behind me, before I could turn around he scooped me up into his arms making me squeal.

  “Ryan! Put me down,” I shouted through my squealing.

  “Sorry, my girl, but you’re coming with me,” he said giving me his megawatt smile as he winks.

  I giggled at his attempt at charming me. In actual fact he didn’t need to charm me, I have been charmed for years. He walked down the hall carrying me effortlessly all the way until we reached my bedroom and he closed the door behind us before putting me down and turning me around so my back is against the door. I looked up at him, watching his eyes roam over my body taking me in, his chest was rising and falling as his breathing changed. His hands moved to the bottom of his t-shirt and my breath caught as he started to lift it and his tanned skin came into view. I dragged my eyes over his body slowly, watching his every movement. He doesn’t have deep V lines that all the girls go crazy over, they are there but not too much- he doesn’t need them, the rest of his body makes up for it.

  He moved forward placing his hands on the door, caging me in. “You’re so god damn sexy, baby. Tell me you’re mine forever,” he whispered in low gravelly tone that shot through me like an electric volt. This man really is my weakness.

  “I’m yours forever, babe,” I smiled shyly at him. I’ve never seen myself as sexy so I decided against saying anything about that because it would only sound awkward.

  I stared up at him, seeing the look in his eyes made my pulse race; the look of desire, want, need and most of all that he loves me more than he can put into words. Knowing he wants me and came here to make me his after all this time makes me smile like an idiot, but I don’t care. Ryan Sanders wants me and I want him, that’s all that matters.

  “Why are you smiling? What’s going on in that pretty head of yours?” He asked as he peppered light kisses along my jaw and down my neck.

  Wrapping my arms around his neck as he brings his face down to kiss me, I close my eyes as our mouths joined together and tried to concentrate on the feel of his tongue searching my mouth as his hand slid down my body and made me come alive under his touch. I slide my hands over his back and run my fingers over his muscles.

  “I’m smiling because I love you, and I think I’m still finding it hard to believe you’re mine,” I said breaking the kiss and moving my lips to his neck.

  Without taking his eyes off me he lifts me and moves towards the bed, I instinctively lay down and watch Ryan as he shifts to the bottom of the bed and rests up on his knees, I take the hand that he has stretched out in front of him and he pulls me up into the sitting position.

  “You better start believing it, you’re mine and I’m never letting you go,” he looked serious, sexy, but serious.

  I nodded at him and smiled, I don’t want him to let me go. Ever.

  “Let me watch you, baby, I want you to take your top off for me. Slowly,” he said as his eyes continued to take me in.

  I swallowed hard as my nerves kicked in over not knowing how to do this, or if I’ll even do it properly. Ryan sees me in a way I have never seen myself, but right now the look in his eyes is making me feel like I am the only woman he has ever seen in his life.

  Keeping my eyes on his I slowly lift my top, I can see a small smile of approval grow on his lips which tells me I’m going at the right pace.

  “That’s it, my girl, all the way up and over your head. Leave your bra on, baby, that’s my job,” his breaths are jagged, and his tone seems strained as if he’s losing all self-control as he spoke. Knowing just by removing my top I am having an effect on him makes me feel good.

  I throw my top over the edge of the bed, feeling more confident now I lean back on my hands and give Ryan a come-get-me smirk.

  Crawling back over me I can feel exactly what I have done to him as he grinds his hips into me and plants kisses across my chest and up my neck. His voice is muffled so I can’t make out his words but I am sure I just heard him say “so different”.

  Working his way down my body with soft kisses until he reaches the top of my jeans, he looks up at me and smiles as he slowly undoes them and slides them down my thighs leaving my panties on. The anticipation of what he’s going to do next makes my heart beat faster. Without breaking eye contact he drops my jeans on the floor and moves his head to my inner thighs, I let out a small moan feeling his warm breath and his lips so close to my sweet spot. I shift my hips slightly to let him know I want him there, the wait is almost killing me.

  Looking back up at me with hooded eyes, Ryan gave me a knowing smirk; he knew he was driving me crazy.

  “Keep still, beautiful,” he said as he gripped my hips firmly before hooking his fingers into my panties and sliding them down.

  “Please, Ryan,” I pleaded.

  The rush of warmth hit between my legs and Ryan’s expert tongue pushes in and out of me, I reach down threading my fingers through his hair as I feel my orgasm build up and my need for pressure became too much.

  I feel my breaths getting shorter and my pulse getting faster, I arch my back as I beg for Ryan to give me the release I need.

  “Please, Ryan, right there. I need…” I jerk my hips when Ryan’s mouth covers my clit and he sucks firmly and pushes two fingers inside me making my legs tremble.

  I throw my head back and call out. “Oh my god, Ryan, don’t stop… it feels so good,” my voice is shaky and breathy as Ryan continues his assault on my clit riding out my orgasm.

  Ryan shifted removing his jeans before leaning over me, I could feel his erection straining through his boxers. He slid his hand behind my back and unclipped my bra with one hand and slowly took it off of me.

  “Fuck, baby I want you, so bad. I can’t wait any longer,” he said as he moved from one nipple to the other, taking it in his mouth and gently biting down making me moan out with pleasure.

  I sat up slightly and pulled on his boxers letting him know I wanted them off, he moved so I could get what I wanted. He picked up the condom from beside him ripping it open with his teeth, he must have taken it out of his pocket and put it there earlier. I watched as he slid it down his hard length, it was hot to watch.

  I lay back down as Ryan moved to lean over me, taking my mouth and kissing me with a hunger I had never felt from him before making me moan into his mouth. Feeling the head of his cock at my entrance I couldn’t stop
myself from lifting my hips.

  “Take me, Ryan, I need to feel you inside me,” I whispered breaking the kiss.

  He shifted onto his knees holding my hips as he slowly slid inside me.

  My breath caught and a moan slipped from my mouth as he filled me, he is an impressive size and feeling him get deeper made me clench around him.

  “Fuck, baby, you’re tight. So tight,” he breathed out.

  Moaning his name I gently rocked my hips to meet his thrusts and the feelings took over me, I lifted my arms above my head as he lowered his head taking my nipple into his mouth I arched my back pushing myself into his sucking and nibbling. Ryan lifted one hand above my head and wrapped his hand around both of my wrists holding me in place, his pace got faster and his groans got louder.

  “Ahh, Ryan… don’t stop, deeper,” I begged. I needed him, all of him. My mind was hazing over as my orgasm built up, I know I’m close.

  “Whose girl are you, baby? Tell me,” his tone was more serious, more demanding.

  I threw my head back and called out as he slammed deeper into me.

  “I’m yours, Ryan, I’m your girl. Always,” I cried out.

  My breathing and my heart beating at different speeds and the pressure building up was too much, I moved my arm to let Ryan know I wanted him to let go and he did with no protesting. Running my hands down his back to his ass I pushed down urging him to go faster, I needed him to give me the release I’m craving.

  “Baby, I’m so close. You feel too good. Come for me, my girl,” Ryan panted.

  My head fell back and I fell apart at his words. “Ahhhh, Ryan… Babe, it’s…” I couldn’t think. I rocked my hips meeting every one of his thrusts as my orgasm rolled out.

  “I know, beautiful. Fuck! Feels too fucking good, baby, I can’t hold back,” Ryan breathed out, it sounded more like a growl.

  Breathing heavily we both lay there tangled together, you wouldn’t be able to tell where one started and the other ended. Wrapped in Ryan’s arms I felt my eyes getting heavy, the feeling of contentment and pure bliss took over and just like that, gone was the edgy somewhat demanding Ryan who liked to take a small amount of control and sweet loving Ryan was back, both being wrapped into the one man that has always had my heart.