Lucky Bunny

by Eva Luxe

  But, my mother always on the alert, had a knowing smile on her face when she asked, “We?”

  “Yeah, uh, there was my boss, two pilots, and the limo driver. Not exactly the most entertaining bunch, but we got through it…”

  My voice trailed off. I could feel myself squirming in my seat as my mother’s eyes lasered in on me as I rambled.

  “Did you now?” she asked slowly, nodding and stroking her chin.

  I wondered if she was on to me.

  I quickly changed the subject and asked Scott about his new friend. He was so excited to tell me all about his new videogame partner, Tim. They connected in class over one of those videogame magazines that Scott always had his face buried in and a friendship grew from there. He said that they had been talking about playing together for months and then Scott just invited him over. He talked about it like it was the best thing that could have ever happened to him.

  It made my heart happy to see him so happy, finally. And it made me even happier to see that he was opening up to me and not acting like he was mad anymore.

  Ice cream for the win.

  We finished our ice cream and went home. I told them that I needed to rest because the last few days had taken a lot out of me emotionally and physically. My parents understood, of course, and kept Scott company while I stayed in bed.

  I napped on and off for a while and each time I dozed off, I would see Kurt’s face in my dreams. I would always be so happy to see him. It was like nothing bad had even happened between us. But, when I woke up, reality would set in and I would remember how he had lied to me. And I would get angry all over again. I cried a few times out of sheer frustration.

  Then, I started to have another thought. I know that I had been secretly dreading the moment that we would get the news that the plane had been fixed and we would have to head back home. What if he had been feeling the same way and didn’t tell me because he wanted to have more time with me? With his busy schedule, there was no telling when we would have time to spend together again, especially so intimately. He had told me as much, but I had been too upset to listen.

  I felt so stupid. Here was a wealthy man who possibly may have really liked me, and I was horrible to him. I yelled at him. I gave him the silent treatment. I probably made him feel like the scum of the earth.

  And as if that weren’t bad enough, I was probably about to be unemployed because of how I’d acted. I pretty much made it clear that I didn’t want to be around Kurt. So why would he continue to want me around him and pay me for being around, a reminder of a trip gone wrong?

  When the realization of all that had happened set in, I started to feel sick. I had to call him. I had to get some answers and try to set everything straight if possible.

  I picked up the phone and began to dial his number It was then that I realized that he had never even given me his personal number. Maybe that was another sign. The only number that I had for him was to his assistant. And I certainly didn’t want to relay any messages through her.

  I hung up the phone and tossed it to the other side of the bed.

  I guess all I could do was wait to see how everything would play out.

  Around ten o’clock that night, the house was still.

  I heard a small knock on my door.

  “Who is it?” I called out.

  “It’s your mother, dear. Can I come in for a minute?”

  “Yeah, of course.”

  She pushed the door open and came and sat at the foot of my bed.

  “I know that you’re tired, but I just wanted to catch up with you.”

  She paused and looked at floor. She sighed deeply before continuing.

  “You know, a mother always knows when something is up with her child…”

  “Yeah, I know. I saw the way that Scott acted when we first saw each other, and I knew that something was off. Did something happen while I was away?”

  Waving me off, she answered, “Oh, no, you know Scott, he’s a great kid. He just needs sometime to readjust to everything. Give him a couple of days and he will be fine. I think he was just afraid that you weren’t going to come home. He mentioned it a couple of times to your father and I and, even though we tried to reassure him that you would be back soon, he was starting to lose hope with each passing day.” She paused and moved even closer to me, resting her hand on mine. “I’m just glad you’re back here safe and sound. We all are.”

  “Yeah, I’m glad to be back. As nice of a place as we were in, there really is no place like home. I can’t tell you how much I missed my bed.”

  I hoped that that would be the end of the conversation, but her hesitation told me that there was more that she wanted to say.

  “What really happened out there, Dana? You can try to tell me that nothing happened, but I am your mother. I love you. And I know you. You look like something is weighing heavy on your mind. Tell me so that you don’t have to carry the weight alone, honey. That’s what I’m here for.”

  Her love and concern truly touched my heart. I had to fight back a river of tears. I wanted so badly to tell her about everything that had happened. But there were just too many unanswered questions. Plus, I didn’t want my mother to worry. So, I lied again and told her that nothing had happened. I told her that I was really tired and needed to get some sleep and that she should try to rest, too.

  “Okay, honey. I’m going to take your word for it. But, I will say this: if there is anything going on and there is a chance of you making your own heart happy, go for it. Life is too short to waste it away just because you want to do the right thing. We love you and we are always here for both you and Scott. Always remember that.”

  She kissed me on the forehead and tucked my blankets up around my neck and body like she had always done when I was a kid, the same way that she did with Scott every night. I truly loved that woman.

  And her words gave me hope that maybe things would turn out okay after all.

  Chapter 17 – Kurt

  The plane ride home was one of the most grueling experiences of my life, ranking right up there with my wife running off to Las Vegas to live out her fantasy with a boy toy. Feeling and seeing the anger that Dana was giving off, made me feel like my heart was being ripped right out of my chest, despite me trying to convince myself that I wouldn’t let her get to me.

  The truth was, even in just a few short days, she had managed to not only get under my skin, but had somehow managed to find her way into my heart. She barely even glanced in my direction for the entire plane ride. And I stared out the window to avoid the possibility of her icy stare and stayed lost in my own thoughts.

  I kept thinking back on how wonderful the past few days had been. And even though the way that things had ended up were the exact opposite of what I had hoped for, I didn’t regret a second of the time that Dana and I had spent together.

  The entire plane ride home, I tried to find the words to say to her. I needed to say something to make her understand that I genuinely cared for her, that I had only lied because I liked her so much, that all I wanted to do was spend more time with her.

  But, the words never came. I blew it.

  So, when our plane landed, and she rushed off the plane, I took one last, long look at her, preparing myself for the likelihood that that would be my last time seeing her ever again. I couldn’t imagine why she would ever want to talk to me or see me again, anyway. To her, I was just an extension of every man who had ever hurt her, including her late great husband who, it turns out, didn’t have such a squeaky past after all.

  “You okay, sir?” came a voice next to me, breaking into my thoughts. It was James, standing next to me, with a genuine look of concern on his face. I must have been standing there for longer than I had thought, staring after Dana, because he had had time to power down the plane, shut everything down, and had an armful of his personal belongings.

  “Oh, yeah. I’m just great. Just… a lot has happened over the past few days. I’m just glad to be back home,
to be able to get back to normal life.”

  The truth was, I wasn’t. That was the last thing that I had been looking forward to: getting back to the same, chaotic life that I had left behind when I boarded the plane in the first place. That was one main reason why I had been so bent on staying in that imaginary bubble with Dana.

  Somehow, I thought that if I never left that cabin, I would never have to face the fact that I was a lonely man with a daughter who was making my life feel out of control. I was tired of being the guy who made everyone else’s lives work seamlessly while my personal life was pitiful, at best. I greedily snatched up my corner of happiness, if only for a moment. And then, watched it slip through my fingers like water.

  “Your mother is here,” continued James.

  I winced. I hadn’t talked to my mother in weeks. I had been avoiding her calls because I was still trying to figure out what I was going to do about Olivia and she had been pressing me to make a decision.

  As soon as I stepped off the plane, I saw her standing next to my limo, arms folded and her foot tapping. I knew that this was not going to be the warm welcome that I might have hoped for.

  “Well, well, well. If it isn’t my long-lost son,” came her icy words.

  “Hello, mother,” I said cheerily, landing a quick peck on her bony cheek.

  “Don’t try to butter me up, Kurt Francis Roberts,” she said. “If your assistant hadn’t have let it slip that you were landing here today and I hadn’t talked to my granddaughter, you would still be trying to avoid me. Like I’m the worst mother in the world or something.”

  “No, mother, it’s not like that at all…”

  Putting up her hand to silence me, she said, “Save it.” I just wanted to make sure that you are OK. Olivia has been calling quite frantically, worried to death about you. Do you know how it feels to have your granddaughter be the person to tell you that your only child has been in a plane crash? Don’t you think that that should have been news that you called to tell me yourself?” She began to weep. It was the first time in many years that I had ever seen my mother get so emotional. She has always been a pillar of reason and strength. Seeing her break down made me realize just how upset she had been.

  “I’m so sorry, mother. I should have told you. But, there was so much going on and I didn’t want you to be worried. And my plane didn’t crash. We had engine failure and landed the plane just fine. I’ve basically been on vacation for the past few days. See? No harm done.” I smiled as brightly as I could, extending my arms to her welcoming a hug.

  SLAP!

  I stepped back, holding my stinging face. My mother had never slapped me. I was shocked and hurt at the same time. I stammered, trying to find some way to respond, but the words didn’t come to me.

  “I came here for Olivia, not you. You have made it clear that you do not want me in your life and I have come to accept that, as hurtful as it is. But, I will not let you ruin the life of my granddaughter because of your selfishness.”

  I was confused for a moment.

  “Wait. But I have been calling the nanny every day to check on Olivia and she said that she’s been doing fine. In fact, she made it seem like things were going better than usual.”

  My mother seemed to find her calm by taking a deep breath before continuing.

  “Yes, she has been on her very best behavior, Kurt,” she said, evenly. The nanny that you hired to care for her does an amazing job with her. I would wager to bet that whatever you are paying her, you should double her salary. I know that my Olivia can be a handful and she is certainly no angel. But that’s not what’s concerning me…” She began wringing her bony hands and I noticed that they were more wrinkled and aged than I’d remembered. She was shifting around, like she was trying to find the words to say.

  “What is it, mother?” I asked, beginning to worry.

  “Olivia begged me to bring her here to see you today. But, after seeing how upset she was, I thought that it would be best for me to come alone so that you and I could have a real heart-to-heart first. Son, she blames herself for your plane crash. Or engine failure. Or being downed by the blizzard. Whatever it was. In her mind, she believes that she is the reason that the plane went down. She believes that because she has been very angry with you, this all happened. And now, she is carrying around so much guilt. I just wanted to prepare you for what you will be walking into going home. Olivia is not the same Olivia that you remember when you left. She is a very different child now with a new set of needs.”

  I started to panic. I already felt overwhelmed by how Olivia had been behaving before. Now, there was a new set of issues to manage?

  Burying my face in my hands, I confessed, “I have no idea what I’m doing. I keep thinking that I’m doing the right thing by her, but it seems like no matter what I do, things just seem to get worse and worse.”

  I gulped hard and braced myself for the last of my confession.

  “I think that it might be a good idea for you to raise Olivia.”

  I didn’t even want to look up to see the satisfied smirk on her face that I knew was there. I’d finally given her what she had been badgering me for all this time, since almost the moment that my wife had walked out of the door.

  “No.”

  I looked up at her, confused.

  “But, this is what you wanted. This is what you have been asking for from me since I can remember. How can you say no?”

  It was her turn to sigh.

  “Kurt, son, I was wrong to ask that of you. I was only really thinking of myself. I just saw how devastated that you were by everything and I wanted to be the one to swoop in and make it all better. But, now, after seeing how Olivia has been affected by your absence, I realize that I would be hurting her in the long run. And you.”

  “How would you be hurting ME? You would be helping me!”

  Shaking her head profusely, she responded, “No, Kurt. I would be stunting your growth as a man and father. As favorable of a life as you have always had, this is a lesson for you to learn that life does not always deal us the hand that we want. Sometimes, it deals us the hand that we need to be the best version of ourselves possible. You may have been able to do incredible things in business. You have saved the company from collapse on many occasions and have made the impossible look like a cake walk. I believe that you are an incredible father and you have everything inside of you to come out of this situation as a winner. I would be foolish and selfish to step in and take this opportunity for growth away from you.”

  I didn’t quite agree with her and I didn’t share her confidence, but it meant a lot that she believed in me so much.

  We sat and caught up for a little bit more and she opened up more to me than she ever had in her life. I began to look at my mother differently. In that moment, she became more than just my mother; she became my friend.

  “Well, son, it’s time to go home,” she said after some time. She held onto my hand as she gave the driver instructions to head toward my house. Even though I didn’t quite know what to expect when I got there, I didn’t feel the same level of anxiety that I had been feeling before. In fact, I felt somewhat calm as we drove, the familiar sights welcoming me back and lifting my spirits.

  As soon as we pulled into the driveway, the front door burst open and my daughter came running to the limo before it could even come to a full stop.

  “Daddy!” wailed Olivia, loudly. I stepped out of the car and she threw her small arms around me, burying her face in my shirt. I could hear her muffled cries and felt her tears soaking through my shirt.

  “Olivia, honey, it’s OK. I’m here. Everything will be fine.”

  “Daddy, I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry.” She apologized over and over.

  Chuckling, I said, “Honey, there’s nothing to be sorry about. This was all an accident, one that we can put behind us and get back to our happy lives.”

  “But, it is my fault! I have done nothing but made your life miserable. I even started hating you.
I hated you so much that I wished that something bad would happen to your plane. And it really did. I am so sorry. I hope that you can forgive me.” She collapsed in tears again.

  Pulling her into my arms, I said, “It’s OK. It’s OK. I understand. I know it hasn’t been easy for you to deal with all the changes that have been going on. But, things will get better. I’ll make sure of it. You’ll see.”

  Her crying slowed to a few sniffles. She looked up at me, searching my face. I looked back and saw my little girl, the little girl that I had remembered bringing home from the hospital. Maybe the unexpected events of the last few days hadn’t been for nothing after all.

  “Let’s go inside,” said my mother. Until she spoke, I’d almost forgotten that she was even standing there.

  Olivia clung to me, making me carry her up the steps and through the doorway. It was as if she thought that letting me go would make me disappear. The nanny stood in the foyer, looking on at us, beaming proudly. If I wasn’t mistaken, I could have sworn that I saw her wipe away a tear. She quickly dismissed herself and left Olivia, my mother, and I alone.

  My mother had tea drawn and brought to us in the sitting room.

  “Daddy, I have so much to tell you! You are going to be so proud of me. I got all A’s on my tests in every subject this week in school and the teachers and principal said that I’m a shoe-in to win the Most Improved Student award.” She stuck out her chest and smiled, eagerly awaiting my response.

  “That is so great, sweet pea! I knew that you had it in you. You keep this up, we’ll have to call Oprah and her team to stop by to get an interview with you. I can see the headline now: Student Motivates the World.”

  “Oh, Dad!” said Olivia, blushing. I laughed and so did my mother, slapping at my hand, playfully.

  “Your father teases, honey, but I just want you to know that we are all really proud of you. This has not been an easy road for you. For either of you. But I know that if you continue to love each other and be there for each other, everything will be just fine.”