Dancing In The Light

by Shirley Maclaine

“Of course,” said H.S. “All life vibrates with feeling. And the natural state of feeling is love. The state of love is achieved by simply being. Nature is a manifestation of the state of simple beingness. There is no judgment or morality attached to beingness. It just is. And that which is, in its purest sense, is perfect balance. Do you understand?”

  I opened my eyes and looked up at the tape recorder realizing that it was impossible to record all of the two-way conversation. What was happening, though, left me with the certainty that I’d never forget one word of this literally ethereal conversation.

  “Chris?” I said, “are you hearing any of this?” I asked.

  “Not in detail,” she said. “I just feel an intense communication with your higher unlimited self. You should see your aura. It’s incredibly beautiful. Bright, bright copper color now. Keep going.”

  I returned to H.S., who seemed to be waiting benevolently for me to ask permission from the tree to stop its movement.

  I felt myself tune in to the branches and leaves of the tree outside. I had never had a problem talking to nature. Flowers, bushes, even rocks were entities I felt akin to, and almost capable of conducting a relationship with. However, until now I had felt this was a fairy-tale attitude that simply gave me childish pleasure. But this was different. This was enjoining the question of my own power in relation to nature. Abuse of my power was not something I had thought much about.

  “The tree,” directed H.S.

  “Okay,” I answered. I looked out the window and from my solar plexus, where my heart feelings lay, I asked if it was all right for me to stop its swaying branches. An interesting thing happened. I felt the tree not only give me a “yes,” but also communicate that it would stop itself in harmony with my desire. In other words, the act of requesting permission would enable the tree to manifest what I wanted because both energies would be utilized.

  I watched through the window. I could see H.S. even though I had shifted the direction of my eyes. H.S. lifted its arms outstretched toward the tree. The tree continued to sway in the breeze. Then as if on cue the tree stopped swaying—completely ceased its movement. It was incredible. The tree literally stood stock-still. Several birds landed lightly on its branches and looked in at me through the window from the outside.

  Of course it could all have been an accident. But as I had already learned, there was no such thing. All energy moves in relation to the laws of cause and effect.

  I looked up at H.S. in my mind. The arms came down gently. “You see?” it said. “You did that. You can use your energy for anything. But you need to recognize me in order to do it.”

  I felt confused and exalted at the same time. I had so many questions, yet they all came down to one.

  “Then what is the difference between you and God?” I asked.

  “None,” it said. “I am God, because all energy is plugged in to the same source. We are each aspects of that source. We are all part of God. We are all individualized reflections of the God source. God is us and we are God.”

  “And you are me.”

  “Precisely.”

  “Then how did we get separated? Why are we not all one great unified energy?”

  “Basically, we are. But individual souls became separated from the higher vibration in the process of creating various life forms. Seduced by the beauty of their own creations they became entrapped in the physical, losing their connection with Divine Light. The panic was so severe that it created a battlefield known to you now as good and evil. Karma, that is, cause and effect, came into being as a path, a means, a method, to eventually eliminate the artificial concepts of good and evil. Eventually, too, souls lodged in evolved primates that later became Homo sapiens. Reincarnation is as necessary to karma as karma is to reincarnation. This is the process which allows each soul to experience every human condition as the path back to full spirituality and eventual reuniting with the God force.”

  “Then does everyone have a higher unlimited self of their own?”

  “Exactly,” said H.S. “And each higher self is in touch with every other higher self. All unlimited souls resonate in harmony with each other. The reason you do not recognize that truth on the earth plane is because you are not in touch with the individual soul energy of your higher selves. But you will get there because there is no other place to go to achieve peace. Peace on the outside comes from peace on the inside. Peace on the inside comes from understanding that we are all God.”

  “So then the conflict in the world is basically a spiritual conflict?”

  “Exactly. Most of your wars are being fought over the interpretation of God. And the wars that are not, are being fought over values that have replaced God as the highest principle. There is nothing but the God Principle. Everything flows from that. To believe that technology, or oil, or money, or even a free, open society is more important than God is a mistake. It is not the truth. One cannot fight and kill over the freedom to worship God without violating the God Principle itself in the process.”

  “So what will happen to us then?” I asked.

  Higher self shrugged its shoulders. I felt it was me shrugging my shoulders.

  “You will each have to deal with your own inner selves,” it said. “Your inner selves in relation to knowing that you are God. However, the discrepancy comes in your not understanding that every other person is God also.”

  “But down here we believe that people are people, and God is God, as though we are separate from God. I mean, almost everybody believes that.”

  “Precisely what is causing the problem,” said H.S. “You will continue to be separate from each other until you understand that each of you is the God source. Which is another way of saying that you are One. You are having problems with this principle because your spiritual development is not advanced enough. You each need to become masters of your own souls, which is to say, the realization of yourselves as God.”

  “But how do we deal with murderers and fascists and criminals in the meantime?”

  “You must expose them to spiritual principles. None of these souls is happy being what they are. Destructiveness is not a natural state. Rehabilitate them to spiritual values. For example, you are already aware that your prison systems only exacerbate the problem. Put spiritual understanding in the prisons, not punishment. By the way, do you understand what the Bible meant by an eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth?”

  “Well,” I said, “I thought it meant that if someone smites you, you smite them back.”

  “No,” said H.S. “It means that a person who takes the eye of another will inevitably experience the same trauma. It is a karmic statement, not a statement of punishment. You reap what you sow. It is a manifestation of the cosmic law of cause and effect which is administered by the souls themselves, not by the authority of the penal code or a government or even by God. The God energy is no judge of persons. In fact, there is no judgment involved with life. There is only experience from incarnation to incarnation until the soul realizes its perfection and that it is total love….”

  There was a pause as H.S. waited for me to respond. “Do you understand?” it asked.

  I sighed to myself. “Oh, yes,” I said, “I understand. But I think it will be difficult to communicate. I mean, everybody, including me, is all wrapped up in their own perceptions of right and wrong. I mean, the basis for morality in the world is knowing the difference between right and wrong and you’re saying there is no such thing.”

  “That is correct,” said H.S. “Go to your Bible studies. It is very clear. The downfall of man, symbolized in the story of the Garden of Eden, was caused by eating the fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil, not simply from the tree of good and evil, but from recognition, which is to say, the creation of good and evil. Until mankind realizes there is, in truth, no good and there is, in truth, no evil—there will be no peace. There is only karmic experience with which to eventually realize that you are each total love. The recognition of incarnational ex
perience is essential to the understanding of this truth. When mankind realizes there is no death, it will have taken a giant step in understanding the God Principle existing in each individual.”

  “Oh my,” I said, sighing, “why is it so difficult to love ourselves, to forgive ourselves, to even believe we’re worth loving? I mean, how did we get off on such a wrong track? Was it meant to be like this? Do beings on other planets have the same karmic problems we have?”

  “No,” said H.S., “not all. You must understand that there are trillions of souls with histories pertaining to other spheres in the cosmos. The earth is not the sole sphere which supports life. Life exists throughout the cosmos. Some of it is similar to earth life. Much of it is not.”

  “Well, what happened to the others then?”

  “Some souls have never incarnated, choosing only to oversee the creation of life, evolving it from the spiritual dimensions. Other souls waited until the physical forms had evolved to a crystal base before incarnating. These soul beings never lost touch with their divine light because crystal makes it possible to resonate to a higher level of divine consciousness.”

  “Are they more advanced than us then?” I asked.

  “In a sense only,” said H.S. “They are only more advanced because they are spiritually more sophisticated. They understand the scientific principles of the energy which is the spiritual God-force, hey use their spiritual science to their advantage and they played intricate roles in the evolution of mankind. But it would be incorrect to say that what you know, or sense, as ‘extraterrestrial’ life is more advanced than your own in terms of soul experience. It would be unfortunate if human souls regarded extraterrestrial life as higher and more advanced than themselves simply because they traverse the universe. For you see, each soul is its own God. You must never worship anyone or anything other than self. For you are God. To love self is to love God. Actually some of the extraterrestrial beings, as advanced as they are, feel less love for self and the God-force than certain humans. So you see, it would be incorrect to compare the progress of the evolution of souls. Every soul is part of God and progressing according to its own pace, its own requirements, and its own karma, extraterrestrial or earth plane.”

  I hesitated. “Do you mean that our karmic earth-plane lesson has to dio with being patient?”

  “One of our lessons is patience, yes. Impatience caused us to become seduced by the pleasure and sensuality of the material earth plane originally. But human souls are on the path back to God. It has obviously been a long and arduous process, but there is progress.”

  My mind tumbled.

  “So we, as souls, have devoted ourselves to evolving life on this earth so that ultimately we will realize once again that we are all part of God?”

  “That is correct,” said H.S., smiling.

  Again, I had to remind myself that in this circumstance I was actually teaching myself. “So,” I went on, “then both the creationists and the evolutionists are correct in their theories of how life developed?” I was beginning to understand this connection for the first time.

  “That is correct,” said H.S. “Although both have missed the point of the role the soul played. The creationists believe that ‘God’ was responsible for creating all life instantly. The evolutionists don’t recognize the role of the soul at all. Neither has understood that the soul of mankind is responsible for its own destiny. We are our own creators. We, as souls, evolved life, working within the cosmic laws of the God-spirit. When we fell out of the flow of those natural laws, we experienced panic for the first time. The fear created negativity, which we have been contending with ever since.”

  There was so much for me to deal with that I began to feel a real sense of overload, yet I felt I needed to know more immediately.

  “Have patience,” said H.S. “Patience is one of your particular learning tasks in this incarnation. You know that. For now, what is really important to your growth is that you have finally ‘seen’ me. You know, now, that I exist. I created you as you created me. No relationship you will ever have or ever had is as ecstatic as this knowledge. Nothing can compare to knowing the unlimitedness of yourself. Whatever you need, you have only to ask. That is what was meant by ‘ask and you will receive.’ ”

  Tears came into my eyes. I couldn’t answer, not even in my mind. I moved my legs to focus on their stiffness so that I wouldn’t continue to cry.

  “Tears are necessary,” H.S. said. “For every tear you shed adds time to this life. You, as a human soul, have been through a great deal. You have seen only some of it. Do not repress the feelings. Release them. That is the purpose here. To cry is to have a liberating tonic. The energy required to repress feelings causes strain in the body and in the spirit. Let go. There will be no conflict if you release your feelings. Life is for expression, so don’t be judgmental of how you feel. Use your intuitive understanding to express externally and don’t agonize over what you do not understand. With the quickening of your soul, understanding will become more and more clear. Remain in flow with me, for in doing so you help your self and God. All happens for the purposeful good. Remember, where there is no resistance, there is no harm. Resistance creates conflict. It causes the energy flow to turn back on itself. What you have just recognized and connected with is the tapestry of interwoven energy which was blocked from its original source. Do you know the meaning of evil?”

  I couldn’t even think, much less answer.

  H.S. went on. “Evil is nothing but energy flowing backward rather than forward. Spell your live backward and you have evil. The etymology of words is not accidental. All life is a question of energy.”

  I stopped crying. I’d never heard evil defined in this way before.

  “You are the energy flow,” H.S. was saying. “If you allow any resistance to the flow of energy, you create polarity. Polarity creates conflict. Conflict creates disaster, which is the nearly complete disassociation from the spiritual, God source. You have just understood that. Open your resistance. Allow your energy to flow back to the God source. You will be protected because you will be aligned with me and I am part of God.”

  I lay on the table trying to comprehend what had happened, realizing at the same time that I understood perfectly. But to live in this understanding would mean taking complete responsibility for the knowledge.

  Chris handed me a tissue. She had remained silent during all of it.

  “I think I need to get up,” I said.

  “Yes,” she answered, “I think so. But ask your higher self if there is anything else you need to take home with you.”

  I closed my eyes once again and looked up, knowing that I had reached overload.

  “Only one more point,” it said. “We will be doing more specific work in the days to come. Specifics that relate to your life today. There is much you need to understand and confront. You need to keep your channel to me clear. Therefore I would recommend eating moderately; vegetables, fruit, and water. No dairy products. Engage in only harmonious movement, such as your yoga. Do not concern yourself with schedules, time, or telephones. Be with nature. Pay little attention to linear information. Breathe deeply to keep the channel open. Stay away from vexing people and remember that I am with you always. I am you.”

  I nodded.

  “One more point,” it said. “My compliments that you have never used drugs. This is an important reason for your progress.”

  I found myself laughing. “With the spectacle I’ve just witnessed, no drug could compete.”

  “That is certainly true,” H.S. said, and together we knew I had had enough for the day.

  Chris helped me off the table. “Spectacular,” she said. “We got most of it on the recorder. The rest you’ll never forget.”

  I could hardly walk. My back ached and I had no mobility in my legs. I headed immediately to the bathroom. I needed something earth plane and familiar under me! I blew my nose and splashed water on my face. I walked back into the room, half expecting to see
Chris’s healing entities in body form.

  Chris was lying on the floor on her back, her stomach protruding high above the rug under her.

  “Does this happen often?” I asked. “I mean, you heard what happened. Do many people have this experience?”

  She smiled. “Many, many, many,” she answered. “And when each person experiences the higher self the conversations are almost identical. The lessons are always the same. ‘There is no such thing as evil or good. There is only enlightened awareness or ignorance.’ That is the great truth. Judgment of ourselves and others is our problem. That is what causes fear, conflict, resistance, and despair.”

  “Are people shocked by what they hear their own higher selves tell them?” I asked.

  “Many are,” answered Chris. “Because it goes against what they’ve been conditioned to believe. However the shock is what causes them to understand that what they are experiencing is real rather than ‘made up.’ ”

  “And what about some of the pictures I saw; like Atlantis, for example?”

  “They are the same with everyone. They describe subdued colors of pink and violet and orange hues with fountains and crystal structures and many people wearing crystal headdresses. Atlantis is always described the same way, even by people who never were aware they believed it existed. So you see, conscious awareness is everything. The higher self is aware of everything. Our task is to become consciously aware in this dimension so we can integrate our awareness into our lives.”

  “So you’re not surprised by anything I experienced today?”

  Chris smiled. “Not at all. It is truth. And I’ve heard it all before.”

  I sighed deeply and slowly bent down to pick up my shoes. They weighed a ton. I sat down on the chair and dressed as though it were a new experience. The material of my blouse had a new textured meaning against my skin. I felt weightless and longed for the sun and fresh air outside. I wanted to touch earth, flowers, anything organic and alive. And hungry! I was famished. I felt hot tingling in my hands and feet like an electronic pulsation. My head was clear and open. I was drowsy, yet alert as I’d never been. I felt self-contained and autonomous. When I spoke, my voice sounded richer, lower in tone, with less anxiety. There was heat in my lower spine where I knew the kundalini energy was rising.